marina

marina Jun 2013

i was tired of feeling so much
bigger on the inside,
so instead of letting myself free
i just poured myself out

(and what a shame, i ended up
a puddle instead of an ocean)

"like what?"
"so much bigger on the inside."
not gonna lie, i got my inspiration from doctor who. i also really like this. i've been lying to myself for a while, it's nice to be honest.

marina Jun 2013

the truth is

i'm sorry,
some things just don't
change-

(you could tell me
you still love me
one thousand times
and it wouldn't
make a difference;
i started tracing
his name into
the margins of my
school papers long
before you were
gone)

maybe it's time we just
forget

your ex-lover is dead by stars. great song, eh? it's on repeat.

marina Jun 2013

hello, old friend

i know that we all break in different
ways (and who am i to talk?) but
i thought you were stronger than that.

wowit'sbeenalongtime.
i just don't even know what to say. so much is happening. my head is a mess.
at least it's summer.

marina May 2013

the way you smile after midnight (10w)

i haven't believed
in anything
like i believe
in you

i have spent all day avoiding studying for my algebra and re-falling in love with arthur darvill.

marina May 2013

a quick thought

sometimes i wonder if
kacie would be happier if
she didn't smoke, or
if that is the very thing that
holds her together

(judging by the way she is
now, i suppose i'll never
really know)

poor kacie- all anybody ever wants to do is save her, but it seems there's no way to.
on a completely different note: oh gosh, this has gotten bad. i've started writing fanfiction, somebody please stop me now. i just can't even. i'm so ashamed.

marina May 2013

there's a war inside my head (10w)

i'm lost,
(no) i'm found--
s l o w l y
but
surely
becoming
u n b o u n d

and i'm a mess right now but that's okay because not knowing what the hell to do is teaching me a lot about myself, and for that, i'm thankful.

marina May 2013

he said/she said

he said
it's just easier this way,
to let you go before you're
gone

she said
you're only hurting yourself
more, letting go instead of
holding on to hope

he said*
i just don't want to hold on
anymore

she said*
but you have to, for me
please

(but for her own sake,
she'd already prepared herself
to get ready to let go)

i'm a hypocrite
because i fail to see why he's pushing away the two best friends he's ever had, and so i tell him to stop being ridiculous and to hold on. but i'm already putting up walls just in case he decides it's not worth it.
you guys convinced me not to delete this. thank you