The fourth of August
Our lives have changed since then
As Lebanese
as human beings
Our perspective
How we see ourselves
Our priorities
Our family
Our friends
It became a hyperreal country
Something that has control
over us
that drag us down
make us suffer
It is a tragedy
that keeps returning
It is a cycle
that our grandparents passed through
Our parents
And now us
But if we leave?
What are we considered?
You are not giving up if you escape
You still care
You still love
But that isn’t enough
Your trust is broken
You’ve been betrayed
How do you maintain a relationship with a country
that uses violence in all of its types and
then convinces you that it loves you, it needs you
that will change someday?
Your soul needs comfort
Your body needs affection
Your mind needs safety
You need to see a future
where you can live, breathe, fulfill dreams
Not just survive!

Are you happy?
Do you have thoughts that constantly live in your mind?
What do you want to change?
What inspires you?
What makes you grateful?
Who supports you when you feel down?
Who gives you hope?
Do you believe in a greater power?

Hold
your
own
hand

Nobody taught us how to love
That’s why we express it differently

Do not doubt yourself
You can do it
Despite all the negative thoughts
that circulate in your mind
Do not give up

To deal with loss
is deal with yourself
You have to accept things
that you can’t control
But feel sad it’s okay
Don’t act strong
that’s not the point
Loss means appreciating what you had with him
Loss is loving people more than before
Loss isn’t scary
But it’s hard
It will **** you at  first
You won’t believe it
But it will make stronger
by giving you a closer look to life
death is the only thing that brings closer to life, to reality
Let yourself miss the person
Cry when you talk about him
Express the little things that you remember the most about him
I love you
I miss you
And I wish I could see your smile once again
For it was my greatest blessing

I needed some time alone
to figure out myself
and how things
should move
in space

We are humans
we need to belong
and feel loved
we cannot live
alone
We always need
support from others

You don’t have
To find a meaning
To everything that
happens to you

I like to take notes on a novel
Simply because
I want to be part
of the writing process,
I want to tell the author
that his words are poignant
in the most beautiful way
that I am one of the characters
but I don't know it just yet

You will always analyze the situations
that you passed through
You will never be able
to explain the present

Wanting something
and not receiving it
is madness

I believe
In a power
That lies
In me

When you left
I became whole again
And that was life weirdest paradox

If we can’t change a situation
That bothers us and sent us into despair
How about looking at it differently?
No matter how hard this task may seem

And sometimes
All these negative thoughts
Are inner voices of your self doubt

Keep
your mind
busy
fill it
with hopes
dreams
what you never
expect would happen

Do not fear
What lays ahead

Show the world
How you feel

I want you to see in yourself
the same potential
you see in others

Writing
               heals

You body
is your refuge
you
need to stop everything
and listen to it

Stop trying to change people
Accept them as they are

What we hide
Is what we want the most

Neutrality is
a form of love

What if everything that you want
isn't meant for you?

Being happy
Genuinely happy
With no specific reason
You feel inspired
Like you belong
It feels good
On the inside
It is sacred feeling
Something that you'll experience rarely

A part of me
wants you
while the other part
rejects you
a part of me
is stuck on you
while the other part
has finally let go
What part should I trust?
What part suits me more?
Maybe I'll keep you
somewhere in my uncouscious mind

I changed
they didn’t
this is what happened

we’re not the same anymore
what is essential for me is meaningless for them
you know how hard this is?

Stop waiting for things to happen
Think about now
What can you do to make your day better ?

Whatever happens
Have fun while doing useless things
It doesn't have to be serious
Real relationships include endless laughter and mocking ourselves for being too attached and sentimental

Sometimes
Not understanding each other’s behaviors
is a normal human condition

We leave
to come back
someday

We love
to feel
something new

We cry
to let out
words
that can't
be spoken

She knows that underneath all the layers that I show
There's one true self that only me and her can see and understand

You cannot give someone something
If they are not in a position to receive it

There are things that you will never
be able to picture
nor even imagine happening to you
But you end up accepting them
As the only possible uncertainty in
your life

I wanted
people
to
accept me
as
I
am

But that
was
too
much
to
ask

Do not expect
anything
to happen
without
your constant
care
and time

I wanted nature
The trees
The leaves
The fresh air
The grass
To integrate my soul
So I could close my eyes
And experience serenity

It was his voice
That I miss the most
I hope this was mutual

People will always ask you :
What is your job?
What did you study?
As if you're supposed to figure out your
whole life in your 20's

The people who let you down
Are afraid of your potential

You are not supposed to feel happy all the time
Tell yourself this again:
I
am
not
supposed
to
feel
happy
all
the
time

is a process
A journey

Hope keeps us alive
Like a breath of fresh air
On a hot summer night
Like a sudden feeling of belonging
Of knowing where you're going

There is a kind
Of love
That walks to you
Slowly
Passes by unseen
Unnoticed
You will discover years
Later
How much it helped you
Believe in yourself

Spaces
are barriers
that we keep
from the people
we love the most

You can be whoever you want
Without hurting anybody

We will always feel attached
To people we don’t know

I deserve
Rest
Sleep
Lying down
Looking at the ceiling
It is okay
If I feel empty
Overwhelmed
Tired

Absence
has a strong
presence