do you want to know the first thing
that comes into my mind
when I see the gray clouds
or the sunny skies
or the waves come down like it’s something
more than gravity?
you
the love of my life
the one I want and need by my side
to support me and be there for me

time with you goes by so fast
believe me
I’ve noticed it
it’s so obvious
that we need more of each others time
and it’s all so cliché
every moment we spend together
I want it to last
sometimes I wish I could glue our hands together
so we wouldn’t have a choice
but to just stay together
yet I know
I don’t have to force it
because I know that you love me
and I don’t have to force anything with you
things will flow like honey with the two of us
slowly but surely
and very sweetly

we’re adventurers on this ship we built
when we found each other
we were already experienced sailors
when we got to know each other better
we were already building our boat
as this love of ours grows
we go farther down the river of life
it might me scary
there could be monsters
but at least we have each other

I sometimes think about what we’ll be in the future
will we be want we aspire to be
or a whole different destination
will I still be with you
will you still be with me
will we be
each others
I hope we will
because you’re the one I need
and I’m pretty sure you need me
but babe
I am pretty **** sure that even if we separate
I will purely love you
every problem we encountered
are encountering
and will encounter
will never interfere with my feelings for you

what if we become something
or someone
we never hoped to be
people filled with greed
or maybe people filled with embarrassment
I just hope we’ll still be together
no matter what
no matter who we become
you’re the one I want to stick with
even when we’re both old and wrinkly
you’re the face I want to see
first thing in the morning
you’re the being I want to be with
walking down Dillon Beach
you’re the one I want to talk to
at a coffee shop
when the weather is cold
and the sunshine is nowhere near us

everyday with you is a blessing
it makes me realize
that I want to spend my remaining days
on this wretched planet
with you
just you

my feelings for you will always be existent
and that you can expect me to show
because I will always find ways to express
this undying love of mine
for you
just you
only you, baby

the feeling I get
when you hold my hand
is something I want to feel
for the rest of my life
and trust me
my life has been drowned in black and white
ever since I met you

you brought color into my life
so much changed ever since you came
but even more happens when we kiss
it’s like everything I’ve been living without
and always needed
suddenly came unexpected
and fixed everything broken
everything wrong with me
yet you also accepted the things I couldn’t fix
my flaws
you accepted them fully
and I fell even deeper in love with you

you’re the only thought I want running through my head
you’re the only echo I want ringing through my mind
when all I can think about
is how much I need you

what if we were as small as ants
or even smaller
just imagine where that could take us
we could be particles
floating through this toxic atmosphere
with nothing but each other
that’s something I’d want
all I want is you
and my hands in yours
your arms wrapped around me
your lips whispering in my ear
ever so gently
“everything’s going to be alright
like how the gray clouds go away
or how the very hard unexpected rain
will suddenly stop”
everything will be alright

every kiss is something I’ve been waiting for
the words you tell me make butterflies run throughout my body
every compliment
it makes me go crazy

you’re the only one I want touching me
you’re the only one I want wrapping his arms around me
you’re the one I want
and baby
I wouldn’t exchange you for anyone else
even Alex Turner
or Devon Bostick
you’re the only one who can make me feel this way

I want you running through my head
because I love you
those songs
every one reminds me of you
no matter what you do to me
what keeps me away from you
you’ll always be running through my head

forests are very similar to mazes
once you go astray from the path
you get absolutely lost
then why not hold my hand
through this labyrinth
and maybe
just maybe
we can get out of here together

escape

you always talked about escaping
getting out of the cruel world we can’t stand anymore
we can make our own rules
and block out others
others who tell us not to do what we want
to do whatever

we both know
that I am quite stubborn
listening to others is something
I never got used to
especially when it comes to their tones
the range of their voices
will forever echo in my thoughts
“get this done”
“get that done”
but we both know

when the rain falls
a star shoots through the black sky
the moon rises
the sun sets
and comes back around
you’re the first I think of
the first thought
is always the important one
this is why I write about you
my love
my sunshine
is it not obvious that I
myself
would walk the ends of the earth
just for you

I would search for new ways
to express my ever so deep feelings for you
just to let you know one thing
you really have me hooked
latched
so very attached into your being
I’ve found you at my darkest days
you saved me from myself
you gave meaning to everything I couldn’t understand
there were things I didn’t bother to disturb
but you give me the courage to do so

I’m a person with a wide taste in music
you know that
but there are songs that get on my nerves
and some that I can listen to
over and over again
and not get sick of them
you’re the reason behind those songs
you are what runs through my head
all the time
and I never get tired of you
I want you in my head

I am delicate
I am the American Sweetheart
and the antagonist
a disaster waiting to happen
only in the eye of the storm can I stay alive and well
only when impaled can I stay calm
only when suffering do I benefit
i'm addicted to pain

yet the pain must be inflicted by me
when the pain can be relieved
I see it as a way out
it’s my only answer
and some say that i’m only seeking attention
just a spoonful of attention
but truth is
I truly am not
because I love

pain
/pān/
noun
physical suffering or discomfort caused by illness or injury
careful effort; great care or trouble
I am in pain
the feeling has lasted for a long time
it has been attached to me ever since the first time I tripped
and scraped my knee
or lost someone
pain is within me
making me rot away faster
it’s not easy to cope with this
considering I do it
occasionally
usually
almost every hour of the day