I am delicate
I am the American Sweetheart
and the antagonist
a disaster waiting to happen
only in the eye of the storm can I stay alive and well
only when impaled can I stay calm
only when suffering do I benefit
i'm addicted to pain

yet the pain must be inflicted by me
when the pain can be relieved
I see it as a way out
it’s my only answer
and some say that i’m only seeking attention
just a spoonful of attention
but truth is
I truly am not
because I love

pain
/pān/
noun
physical suffering or discomfort caused by illness or injury
careful effort; great care or trouble
I am in pain
the feeling has lasted for a long time
it has been attached to me ever since the first time I tripped
and scraped my knee
or lost someone
pain is within me
making me rot away faster
it’s not easy to cope with this
considering I do it
occasionally
usually
almost every hour of the day