butterflies

these tiny pieces of heaven
in my stomach
electrifying

My dreams, my aspirations
spiraling beyond
some fell down
and changed their form

oh wonderful youth
and everlasting energy

now, only for a moment
and remembering this
a little nostalgia
is disturbing my peace

a wake up call
to be grateful

I gathered
knowledge
and the tremendous gift
of being thankful
for life
as it is
still heaving dreams


© Marialenn 2014 06/22/2014

I burned my fingers
when I tried to shut your
firespitting mouth

I should have done it with a kiss

now it hurts
when I want to touch you…

The dancing of cells
in life-giving blood
flowing through ancient veins

a heart, beating with strong energy
blood pounding fire
swaying fiery on tide

a timeless prayer
gives true freedom
on being

what is prayer
more than being grateful and  silent surrender
to  this living force

I'm
I am that
I'm
the one that
acknowledge myself
I'm
the one
that confirms
my being
forever
and ever.

© Marialenn 2014

you are here
but only in my dreams
when I wake up
your shadow  is frightening me
that reminiscences of the past
brings shivers in the morning light

© Marialenn 06/13/2014

growing old
I and Self
in loneliness and Oneness
together
happy and sad
and between all that
just a human
balancing on the cord of life

© Marialenn 2014 06/16/2014

your lips
your lies
double trouble
your hips
your eyes
you are
double trouble
so I beg you
no trips
no ties

a shattered mirror
reflects all my faces
but
It’s just me
another you
with all the faces of the world

© Marialenn 19/07/2013

and so….
deep in my heart
there is always that search
to reach that existing inaccessible place
oh, that sweet pain of knowing and missing

yes, I am satisfied
but I also have my dreams
of heavenly freedom in this earthly existence

who can lend me wings
to fly gracefully through clouds,
to be transparent …………………….
to be only light
to be just the one I am meant to be
in a limitless world

© Marialenn 2013

carrying you
like a devil
on my shoulder
whispering sweet lies

want to stop

my head says yes
my heart says no

L’aube

I woke up
in a purper glow
my lashes full of tears
or was it dew
gently caressing my eyes
to give me vision

with you
the old days left
only memories
occupy my mind

fear
and darkness were companion
too long

now
moon lit the sky
but the sun is still shut out
and I wonder
why

you are wiped out now, heartbroken
and as long as there still is that chattering in your head
you know that you will find only hurt
and never the so longed for peace
yes you know

and though feelings like electricity running
through your vains, they only cause you pain
and you seem frozen
ice cold and almost transparent in your grieve
oh, so hard to see

breath my friend breath this life
and I promise you it will ease the pain
breath my friend breath and breath
and believe things will be better in the end

will you take this please from a very sincere friend……

© Marialenn 06/02/2014

a tear
rolls gently down
to die on my lips

moist,
when I kiss you
goodbye

freezing cold
an empty cemetery
gravel crunches

I’m wearing veils of silk and lace
while dancing on a tapestry of stars
my tender fingertips, full of love,
caress your cheeks while I lean over
to your waiting arms
and then you hold me

I whisper vows
and words of grace
we're balancing on the shoreline of infinity

or is this just my projection on the past……

© Marialenn 06/11/2014

For a moment,
just a moment
there was a belch
of unwanted tenderness
the body responded
thoughts were
still adherent to the dream
desire, floating
as in the morning
beyond brightness.

© 2014 Marialenn

magic flowing from your fingertips
I get lost

the night
just tickling stars

explosion of light
I sigh

© Marialenn 2014

you haunt me
as a enchanted ghost
shivers

© Marialenn 07/02/2014

I hate to say
that I miss you
come on
come home baby
my tears are pearls sinking
into the deep
while washing away your sins.

© Marialenn 2014

darkness
is becoming Light
my heartbeats
a whalesong
sleeping in the void
with you

© Marialenn

the beating of my heart
like a sound of thunder
reflects the emptiness
in this world
without you

Forever,
chiseled with desire
now shattered to pieces
was lying  in our hands

the sun has crashed
and crushed all flowers
and me
I’m praying like a desperate butterfly
I’m fragile, so fragile
and I hate it
oh my God
I hate it

© Marialenn 2014 06/12

When
I think of you
my heart opens
like the wings of the white dove
spreading light
in its flight
blessing me

when I think of you
my heart jumps
on the rhythm of nature’s song
a hymn of true wisdom
inviting me
to life’s dance

when I think of you
I am small in your greatness
great in your simplicity
and complete
in how I am designed
I bow in grace

© Marialenn 06/19/2014

filtered from mud
life is
a liquid diamond
transparent
colorful

a calm twilight
caresses the shores of the gently flowing stream
golden reeds whisper their evening song
so peacefully

a single call of a bird brings no distortion
it’s a lullaby for the sun going under
flowers fold their leaves as in prayer
waiting for the night to cover them up

and I
I sit here
wishing nothing else

© Marialenn 2014

no answer, just a painful smile
and without a warning you left
seeking refuge in a quiet place
I was told

I felt your hesitation
in embracing
and wondered
why heaven took flight

so quietly
but there’s no peace left

© Marialenn 2014 06/10/2014

and don’t believe
there is no black or white
if people say so
they lie

only when the grey is magnified
you see just colours
and most of all
the healing light

© Marialenn 2014

finally
when I held you
I realized
love is tangible

immortal soul
embrace the day
embrace the night
like sun and moon
embracing you
eternally
in every moment
without distinction


© Marialenn 2014 05/04/2014

I feel you
and everything that is yours
when I hold you in my arms
and gently rock you
we are more than one

© 08/26/2014

my light and darkness
my  inspiration and my engine
my silence and sound
my perfect and infinite love

my soul
the essence of I am
knows my destination

© Marialenn 2014

my shadow is chasing light
along banks of the night
I just surrender to the clouds
and kiss yesterday goodbye
climbing the rays
up I go
until
I'm safe
in hands of tomorrow
andfeel how my radiating soul
that has found its source

I'm at home

His texts were like a zipper,
an opening to an old wound
where the worm ate sunrays in his guts

he made fire
underwater,
again and again,

until all extinguished
with one bang

©Marialenn 04/21/2018

I forgot your lies
completely mesmerized
by your eyes

I never before felt this
total bliss
caused by your kiss

but short after the start
I fell apart
with a broken heart

© Marialenn 2014

dawn has almost gone
taking the mystic of the night
sun shines faintly through the trees
my senses are excited

a new tomorrow is colored
in indefinable shades
a breaking out
from an invisible slumber

when I wake up I know

I am an adept
experiencing love
until death arrives

© Marialenn 07/02/2014

with his back slightly curved
seeing from behind twilight eyes
his sizzling passion
is paling into the evening light
the focus is more targeted now
on the beauty of letting go
purity in the states of being
brings heart and head in line
faster
faster and faster…….

with gratitude he accepts
the soft glance

© Marialenn 2014

Along the edges of visible light
I walk the path of oblivion
balancing the edge of existence
wind flows ink together
on sheets of blank water
I draw the images of my long journey.

A desire that I only now understand
appears to be a life regained
and then I see how slowly
the red hues of the sun merge with
an immense cooled sea at the horizon
it’s the place where light merges with darkness
and finally will radiate again
where shadows rise a new.

How we were supposed to...
were inadequate
when we were together
too long

we escaped pain
‘cause all we intended
in meeting
in seeing.....

separated
on the same road
connected through fate
and inextricably dedicated

a broken window
with focus on the hole
reflects only emptiness
shows missing present connection

© Marialenn 2014

too young to remember
she is
that fairytale

dawn has almost gone
taking the mystic of the night
sun shines faintly through the trees
my senses are excited

a new tomorrow is colored
in indefinable shades
a breaking out
from an invisible slumber

when I wake up I know

her eyes closed
tears in every angle
face still smiling

© Marialenn 07/02/2014

take me to the land
where we are free of distinctions
no east, no west
take me to a land
where silence speaks
but we are speechless
take me to a land
were only love is our karma

© Marialenn 2013 06/09/2013

paper carefully ***** my words
sentences are formed
liquid and dark as velvet
like flowers of silence

tones of a gentle song  
are showing the monologue
born out of my being

it has been
a long time
when I tuned the strings
and wrote the arrangements

and still I’m busy
bringing them to perfection
 
© Marialenn

glad to be back!!!!

without masks
we are a creation
from unconditional love

hold me, she said
against all knowledge
a rhetorical question

let me go, she said
against all knowledge
a rhetorical question

inseparable
the force of connected souls
eternity

the sky
she touched
the earth
he moved
it was
completed

© Marialenn Langendoen 11/04/2017

when I think of you
my heart opens
like the wings of the white dove
spreading light
in its flight
blessing me

when I think of you
my heart jumps
on the rhythm of nature’s song
a hymn of true wisdom
inviting me
to life’s dance

when I think of you
I am small in your greatness
great in your simplicity
and feel complete
in how I am designed
I bow in grace

© Marialenn 06/19/2014

layers of dark
cold sadness

a sacred and profound
inner experience

emptiness
shows the strength
to be filled again the

As long as Ego hungers
it will be fed
even the flowers of the field
can’t escape.