in this light
I can be anything less
then a colorless silver mirror
reflecting you
as a child
as a mother
as a woman
I’m your sister
I’m your lover
singing ageless melodies
of the Mother
and soaring
as clouds pass by……………….

© Marialenn 13 juni 2014

the beating of my heart
like a sound of thunder
reflects the emptiness
in this world
without you

Forever,
chiseled with desire
now shattered to pieces
was lying  in our hands

the sun has crashed
and crushed all flowers
and me
I’m praying like a desperate butterfly
I’m fragile, so fragile
and I hate it
oh my God
I hate it

© Marialenn 2014 06/12

I’m wearing veils of silk and lace
while dancing on a tapestry of stars
my tender fingertips, full of love,
caress your cheeks while I lean over
to your waiting arms
and then you hold me

I whisper vows
and words of grace
we're balancing on the shoreline of infinity

or is this just my projection on the past……

© Marialenn 06/11/2014

no answer, just a painful smile
and without a warning you left
seeking refuge in a quiet place
I was told

I felt your hesitation
in embracing
and wondered
why heaven took flight

so quietly
but there’s no peace left

© Marialenn 2014 06/10/2014

and so….
deep in my heart
there is always that search
to reach that existing inaccessible place
oh, that sweet pain of knowing and missing

yes, I am satisfied
but I also have my dreams
of heavenly freedom in this earthly existence

who can lend me wings
to fly gracefully through clouds,
to be transparent …………………….
to be only light
to be just the one I am meant to be
in a limitless world

© Marialenn 2013

you are wiped out now, heartbroken
and as long as there still is that chattering in your head
you know that you will find only hurt
and never the so longed for peace
yes you know

and though feelings like electricity running
through your vains, they only cause you pain
and you seem frozen
ice cold and almost transparent in your grieve
oh, so hard to see

breath my friend breath this life
and I promise you it will ease the pain
breath my friend breath and breath
and believe things will be better in the end

will you take this please from a very sincere friend……

© Marialenn 06/02/2014

you enwrapped me
with your big smile

breathless I am
a defeated witch

why oh why
did God make you so beautiful

© Marialenn 2014  31/05/2014

loving you was an impuls
but it became eternity

© Marialenn 2014

I hate to say
that I miss you
come on
come home baby
my tears are pearls sinking
into the deep
while washing away your sins.

© Marialenn 2014

Heaven on fire
Copper-colored blanket
Over a dark land

© Marialenn 2013

Working
night and day
acidified muscles
curved fingers
being
in resistance

a state of
complaining
the tongue
swollen
painful red
blistered

too much
antibiotics
killing the scream
for liberation
the big bang of life
is suffocated

existence
on mother's breast
or
being bathed by amniotic fluid
doing the best
to avoid the pain of birth

maternally
no disclosure.

© 2014 Marialenn

don’t look for me please
I’m dwelling in your inner secret space
just lift the veil
and look into my eyes

© Marialenn 2014

magic flowing from your fingertips
I get lost

the night
just tickling stars

explosion of light
I sigh

© Marialenn 2014

only a soft wind spreads the curtains
thought provoking

just playing fool
with my emptiness

even this soft touch
hurts

© Marialenn 2014

your caresses
by touch

your heat
as the summer wind

your mirroring
un unheard
intense experience

this resonance
received
heartfelt

breathtaking
until
it’s written down
and start gradually
changing again

© Marialenn 2014

I know you would mind if I……

that thought will keep me imprisoned

if I should surrender to…..

the mind

so I mind my own mind

and break free

from the mind games

only if it is

just for a moment

when I think of you I see you  smile
stay in my dreams just for a while
I need you

the day you asked me to be your wife
you’ve  given me a blush of life
I’m getting sentimental

you were there when I had to cry
to brush away my tears goodbye
you made me happy

you were there through dawn & dusk
yes, sometimes it was the smell of musk
I’m getting sentimental

and every time you went you said,
you never have to be afraid
I’m always with you

I think of you in those lonely nights
miss your caresses and your light
my heart is heavy

my love, you were so pure, so true
in my dreams I will always be with you
where ever you are

I’m sowing tears of joy and cheer…
and right now you’re near, so very near

yes I’m getting sentimental

© Marialenn 2013

with you
the old days left
only memories
occupy my mind

fear
and darkness were companion
too long

now
moon lit the sky
but the sun is still shut out
and I wonder
why

was it her softness
that hovered around her
like silk in the wind
was it her glance
that lit the dark sky
perhaps
her laugh
her pains
big and small....

no

this must be the gift
of infinite love
unearthly
in its existence
showering upon me

© Marialenn 2014

a wake up kiss
you go

a I’m home kiss
you eat

a goodnight kiss
you sleep

a perfect day
you said….

a perfect conversation
I cry

just one touch
would make me smile

© Marialenn 2014

what’s happening??????

a sudden downpour

when I face the sun
I see a rainbow
and I start walking

© Marialenn

dawn has almost gone
taking the mystic of the night
sun shines faintly through the trees
my senses are excited

a new tomorrow is colored
in indefinable shades
a breaking out
from an invisible slumber

when I wake up I know

paper carefully ***** my words
sentences are formed
liquid and dark as velvet
like flowers of silence

tones of a gentle song  
are showing the monologue
born out of my being

it has been
a long time
when I tuned the strings
and wrote the arrangements

and still I’m busy
bringing them to perfection

my lips unused
start whispering wishes

I wonder
does it rain in Paradise

seems to me a shower starts
at this moment

immortal soul
embrace the day
embrace the night
like sun and moon
embracing you
eternally
in every moment
without distinction


© Marialenn 2014 05/04/2014

pure water
quiets thinking
enlightened mind

© Marialenn 2014

heartwingedbutterflydance
soundinggurglebells
girlscutylittlecuddlecurls
dancingdropletsteps

kisskisskiss

© Marialenn 2014

I dream flowers
odor
color
and especially
tenderness
all over

I paint them
on today
until the wind takes them

and tomorrow ....
tomorrow is another day….

© Marialenn 2014

seeing you
through my eyes
waves of moods
change your picture
distort the image
of your true self

you
you reflecting me
my respons ability

I see
and what I see
is what I need

I’ll grow by you
when I truly
connect

© Marialenn 2013

and don’t believe
there is no black or white
if people say so
they lie

only when the grey is magnified
you see just colours
and most of all
the healing light

© Marialenn 2014

with his back slightly curved
seeing from behind twilight eyes
his sizzling passion
is paling into the evening light
the focus is more targeted now
on the beauty of letting go
purity in the states of being
brings heart and head in line
faster
faster and faster…….

with gratitude he accepts
the soft glance

© Marialenn 2014

you are not alone
if you hoist your sails
I’ll be the soft wind blowing

with you
into eternity

I pray for heaven
and there you enter

cheerful and showing beauty
until time showed us
you lost your scent and color  
memory remains

darkness
is becoming Light
my heartbeats
a whalesong
sleeping in the void
with you

© Marialenn

sleepless nights
the price I have to pay
for loving you

my open arms
smaller than my heart

anger
then sorrow
anger
sorrow

it is a wave
ebb and high tide

loss of confidence
causes pain

A heavily loaded
image
larger
in vision
than reality
which makes
inner storm
outer battle
in reversal
a willingness to
forgive
mild winds
letting go
on course
again

a new road
freed from
karmic laws

© Marialenn 2014

life is short
so extend it
with dreams

the night
just stars and a floating moon
a map to heaven

Knew you were poison…….

The genie is out of the bottle
not entirely unexpected
oh, what a smell....

The dancing of cells
in life-giving blood
flowing through ancient veins

a heart, beating with strong energy
blood pounding fire
swaying fiery on tide

a timeless prayer
gives true freedom
on being

what is prayer
more than being grateful and  silent surrender
to  this living force

I'm
I am that
I'm
the one that
acknowledge myself
I'm
the one
that confirms
my being
forever
and ever.

© Marialenn 2014

As long as Ego hungers
it will be fed
even the flowers of the field
can’t escape.

the love for yourself
heals everything

wandering thoughts
never stop
loving you………………..
all heart

what
repels or attracts

the abstract world of concepts
impenetrable darkness

light on
a former life on earth
in our earth-life

focus
no burnsmarks

How far is home
from behind
a moonstone wall

the soft glow
makes woe
and let courage fade

a once sighed secret
scattered like seed
found at last

there is
silence in my garden
a wonderful peace

How we were supposed to...
were inadequate
when we were together
too long

we escaped pain
‘cause all we intended
in meeting
in seeing.....

separated
on the same road
connected through fate
and inextricably dedicated

a broken window
with focus on the hole
reflects only emptiness
shows missing present connection

© Marialenn 2014

dawn has almost gone
taking the mystic of the night
sun shines faintly through the trees
my senses are excited

a new tomorrow is colored
in indefinable shades
a breaking out
from an invisible slumber

when I wake up I know