I suddenly remember your face
From the night you first kissed me

Kissing & smiling alternately

Holding my hand, curling into a ball, wrapping yourself around it
Nailing me to the bed, pouring your kisses on my lips & my neck
Playing my curves like a guitar,
& spinning the world around me

Between resting & waking dreams
So close to me you breath in my exhale.

Its not just the small piece of rhythmic flesh
This heart that beats,
slow & fast, to the symphony of our love making
Its our souls intertwined, drunk & hungry

Just
flesh and bone
blood and hair
nerves and sweat
now all stripped bare
a heaving, gasping, tangled mass
Of love and lust and rage and greed
of want and lack and take and need
the wet and hot and cold and true
the aftermath of me and you

The madhatters tea party to me now seems sane
As my life isn't simple and everything strange
I seems I'm not worthy and just all because
I dont have a crystal ball or a magic wand
Anything I say or do is simply just wrong
I wonder why im even here at night when I'm alone
Is it to provide a person for you to rant at
Someone to blame and call a ****
All of your problems of course that was me
You're perfect and can't possibly be you
Well I'm tiered and worn down and no more can I do
So vent your spleen and all of your woes on someone else
As I am now closed.

This is not poetry.
This is a rant.

This is not a rant.
This is a meaningless hope.

Don't leave me.
Don't end this.

I've fallen.
Hit the ground so hard.

I've flown.
Reached the clouds so exhilarating.

Don't leave me.
Don't end this.

I believe you.
That may be a mistake.

I adore you.
That may ******* me.

Don't leave me.
Don't end this.

My thoughts rest in you.
My dreams are yours.

My hopes you can crush.
My heart you could mangle.

See, this is not poetry.
This is my fear.

Fear you will leave.
Fear you will end this.

Fear that I have meaningless hope.
Fear that you don't love me.

You’ve grown up and out of this small town
I hope you’re loving life with that Texas heart now
You’ve played a role in my life that no one has better played
Met a lot of people, baby girl, but you’re the only one I’m certain will stay

You’ve helped me grow
You’ve seen tears that pride has never let me show
You’ve heard my heart speak
When my neck was too weak
To hold up a head
Filled with words and regrets
A certain glow abruptly left
An innocent, pale face of a girl
With Captain Morgan for breath
Whose mind traveled time
Back to a place she still aches to forget
The place of deception
Where an innocent perception
Had been left
You watched that glow leave
Felt my voice shake as I tried to explain my pain as I grieved
You just listened
And began to grieve with me

You stretched your arm out as the fury left your fist
Slowly opened your fingers,
Instead of your lips
That was the first time someone didn’t tell me not to cry
You felt what I did,
And this is how I know why
I’ve been told there are people
We are destined to meet
Whose fingerprints will stain our soul
Even after they leave
I wasn’t told it was possible
To share your own soul
But I didn’t need to be
Darling, you made me whole
In finding you, I found me
We're two bodies with one soul