What a concept a family is,
Who are they and what do they do?
What are their motives?
And how do they involve you?

Is it a game that is meant to attack the soul?
Is it meant to put you to shame until you are dead and old?

is it supposed to feel like there is no light?
Am I supposed to be this deep in the dark?
Is there a certain life threatening mission
On which I must embark?

How much fear am I supposed to have?
Should I stay coiled up on the ground?
Crying and shaking
All around,

The tears won’t stop,
Even with no emotion on my face,
I want to go somewhere else,
A different place,

Death is my desire,
I want it to end in fear, pain, and fire,
This is how I feel,
I can’t make it any more fake or real,

I don’t want any kisses or hugs,
All I keep getting is betrayal,
Sometimes it slides off like rain,
But it always hurts like hail,

This darkness that my mind and heart
Forever share
Is a sentence of death
That ends in darkness and despair

you know there is something I've been meaning to say
and it's been prying on my mind every day

why do you feed me all of this crap
and why do you try it every day
if there is one thing i know it's that
your words don't mean a thing anyway

what do you do
that gives you the right to say these things
what blocks your mind
from all the bad this brings

why do your criticize me and call me a perfect child
when all i am is kind
and why do you say you've done the same
when you just stab people from behind

you were once a sweet little kid
whose smile could bring back the dead
but now your just an ugly person
and your smile is one that i dread
you were just so nice
i couldn't hurt a hair on your head
but now i find it's become harder for me to sleep
every time i go to bed
i wish we could be friends
but i guess you'd rather be enemies instead

and that's perfectly fine
i won't fight against your beliefs
i'll just stay stronger to mine
and know that this battle won't be brief
but it can end whenever you want
and i won't feel any remorse
because it will all be your fault

i've already predicted
every word your gonna say
so before you try it i want you to know
your words don't mean a thing anyway

what i mean is
you have no one to take your side
and every time you speak
it's just the same old boring ride

you haven't effected anyone's life
you haven't changed anyone's mind
all you've proven to me
is that your deaf, dumb and blind

so let me make something very clear

i will stay in control of my life
i will influence my own mind
and if you wanna tag along
you'll have to leave your pride behind

life without your kiss
is almost impossible to explain
to think of life without your lips
causes unbearable pain

your skin
is softer than heavens tear
your skin
can take away anyone's fear

your heart
i would put before my own
your heart
is the most precious thing i have ever known
your heart
is the most beautiful thing heaven has ever shown
your heart
turns my heart into stone

your eyes
stare deep into my soul
creating new warmth and light
and eliminating anything bitter and old

your hair
is something beautiful and rare
you hair
is captivating and fair
your hair
is so elegant i could just sit here and stare
and you wouldn't have to move anywhere

your body
was carved out of diamonds
and made softer than water
and it was so special
that heaven couldn't figure out how to make another

but your kiss
oh how i could go on and on
with an endless list
but if i were to tell it to someone else
then it would go something like this

its as if my body looses all ability
to carry its own weight
and then my heart starts to race
at an incredible rate
and then white lilies sprout up
all around
covering everything
covering the whole ground
and if feels great
like I've been given new life
all of me senses are clear
I've taken flight

when we are apart
there is nothing about you that i dont miss
because I've got a brand new reason to live
and that reason is for your kiss

you told me once
and then you said it twice
please tell me why
why must i sacrifice
i'm just too scared
i don't see this as right
i don't see this as fair
and when your going
and your in the middle of the air
you'll want to stop
you won't want to move at all
you won't want to move forward
creating a past
you won't want to look back at all the faliures you've had
and then you'll be asking yourself how things got so bad

you said everything would be fine
you said it would fade away in time
why hasn't anything changed
its been so long
everything just keeps going wrong
its so hard to trust
when what your told doesn't make any sense
its so hard to trust
when your forgotten by your family and friends

they promised they'd be there
for their friends wedding day
they promised they'd be there
for their friends birthday

but they drank and drove anyway
they crashed and died before the end of the day
and deaths hand took them away
their family standing waving them away

they said they'd be with us forever
they said friendship
is the thing that keeps us all together

when we were kids
laughing and talking away
adults would ask us about drinking
and never knew what to say

now were older
still laughing and talking away
but when adults ask us about drinking
we say were doin it every day

why don't we just say
yea
im drinkin away my life
i might as well be slitting my throat with a knife
and erase my future kids and wife

so now im gonna get in this car
and drive
when i told you i'd never do it
i guess i lied

now im crashed and dead
and why
because to everyone i ever knew
i fed a lie
and after the crash
death stared me in the eye
and refused
when i asked to say bye
and as i floated away
i watched my friends and family cry
then i asked myself
why did i have to be stupid
why did i have to die

why can't family be family again
we used to always be friends
we used to huddle together
whenever we got scared
we felt the warmth in one anothers arms
because we knew the love was there

we used to build forts out of whatever we had in our rooms
and wage sars
throwing pillows, books, and brooms

we used to have mini mosh pits
with just the four of us
we headbanged and pushed
we screamed and pretended to cuss

we used to protect eachother
we used to defend one another
we used to stand together like brothers and sister
when mom punished us we would all resist her

we used to be a family
a family that would always care
we used to be a family with more happiness than despair
we used to be a family that never hogged food or air
we used to be a family that told eachother we were there

we used to be a family
a family that sat down toghether and ate
we used to be a family full of our own ideas that we create
we used to be a family that got along without debate
we used to be a family with more love than hate

so why can't family be family again
and remember why those times were so good
why can't family be family again
and treat eachother the way we should

why can't family be family again
and throw the hate away
why can't family be family again
and invite the love to stay

what would you do
if i socked you in face

would you forgive me
knowing it was only an act of hate
would you walk away
knowing the terrible things it can create
would you be okay if someone knocked you to the floor
would you get back up with forgiveness
opening up friendships door
would you give him/her what advice you have
would you try to prevent him/her from doing it again
would you save a heart
would you prevent it from further pain
would you shield him/her from angers rain
would you tell him/her that anger isnt the only way
would you repeat it every day
not letting a single heart go astray
and if someone told you to stop
would you keep doing it anyway
would you remember right then
that the only thing we must fear more than evil
is the indifference of good people
would you put more passion in your beliefs
more than im putting in this pen
would you become an unbreakable lightning rod
would you rise above all evil
and ascend as a god
would you take your newfound power
and help those with none
would you sieze the hour
and help those who dont get one

and would all the people you.ve helped
all the lives you've changed
would the look at you wierd
would they treat you as someone strange
no
they would treat you as their friend
someone who helped
when life seemed to be at it's end
someone who knew
someone who told you why
someone who was there for you
smoeone who would never let you die