before i met her
i wasn't a morning person
i despised mornings
and everything about them
but after she crashed landed into my life
and built a house in my heart
i wake up every morning
and smile for a while
because she is my first thought
when i open my eyes in the morning
and now i love mornings
because i have her to think about
and that alone, is enough for me

i didn't know
if i would ever see you again
and that put genuine fear in my soul
you were everything i wanted
and everything i needed
but the universe
had a different plan for us
and it took you away from me
but you weren't gone for good
the universe just created some distance
but we have made it work
through thick and thin
through hellfire and high-water
we haven't given up on each other
which isn't shocking
because we have both been given up on
so we know what it feels like
to be left in the dirt
with tears streaming down our faces
and love in our hearts
for someone who doesn't care that it's there
we met each other
after we had both been through
relationships that ended catastrophically
and we worked hard to reverse our thoughts
about love and life
and we have fought every day
to reverse the way our broken hearts beat

her mind
is chaotic to say the least
her voice
is as soothing as the sea
her hair
is as soft as clouds
her laugh
roars like thunder
her smile
shines like a million suns
her eyes
see through my soul
her ears
can hear the slightest bit of uncertainty in my voice
her hands
hold my heart
her arms
hold me when i need them to
her hips
are wide and beautiful
her legs
are short to say the least
her toes
are her biggest insecurity
which bothers me
so i tell her i love them
a million times per day
because i want her to love everything about herself
as i do, and always will

spread your wings and fly, beautiful girl
i will shout directions from the balcony
no, no, no, i will be the wind
that guides you to your dreams
and pushes you when your wings falter
because i know you may get weak
and you may get weary
even though you are a fighter
just know this, beautiful girl
that you might not see me
but i will always be here
always pushing you forward
like wild winds

i keep on running

from people and priorities

and what really scares me

isn't what i am running from

but what i could end up crashing into

because the faster i run

and the farther i go

the more i lose connection with

who i am and what i want to do

and being swallowed by fear

is a fate worse than death

pick up the pieces of your heart

retrieve some glue and duct tape

because it's time to get to work

and it's time to stop sulking

you are the only person who can

pull yourself and keep yourself up

repair your heart, repair yourself

until your heartbeat isn't irregular

and breathing becomes easy again

you can make it, you will make it

believe that things will be better

and eventually they will be

if you never stop believing

hearts don't break even

they have jagged edges

blood lost, love lost

so much is lost

when trust leaves the room

and resentment takes its place

right by the fireplace while

you are pulling your hair out

because it happened again

you lost yourself

while simultaneously losing your lover

and you would rather sit in the fireplace

than wake up tomorrow

and realize it didn't have to end this way

but it did end this way

because you didn't throw

your ego in the fireplace

Petrified of losing you
Never seeing you again
Living a day on Earth without you by my side
You showed me what love is
Which made me a better lover
Nothing like my last relationship which still haunts me
We fight for each other
Not with eachother
And that is what I live for
Knowing you want me as bad as I want you
So please be my rock, be my spine
Hold me down but lift me up
While we chase our dreams
And hopefully catch them someday

I knew this day would find us

The day when it feels like we are at the end of our rope

And we would rather use the rope to strangle each other

Than work out our problems

When you stay quiet, I lose my mind

If I could read your mind, I wouldn't lose mine

But I can't, and you aren't speaking

So I begin to resemble the Incredible Hulk

And rage sets in while you have made the decision to ignore me

We have our ups and downs, good days and bad days

Our ups are cloud level, star level, sun level

Our downs are abyss level, hell level

Our good days are unforgettable, wish they would last forever

But our bad days are Hiroshima and Nagasaki

time after time

we stood hand in hand

saying forever, saying nice things

maybe we meant them at the time

but time unravels all

and as time went on

those nice things we used to say

seemed like mirages in the distance

while i became monstrous  

and you became distant

we met fire with fire

but only i got burned in the end