I want to talk to you so bad
So so badly
But I can't

I want you to hold me
Tell me everything is going to be okay
But you won't

How come I think of you
When times are dark and blue?
You'd surely know what to do

I would hold your hand until the storm in my head calms down
And we would smile and know that nothing can destroy us
But we won't
And we never will

It takes a song, a quote, a scent or a dream
To bring you back

No matter how long you've spent absent from my mind
Somehow, you always seem to reappear

Before, it broke my heart
Now, I hold my ground

You're never going to dissapear
But I can live with that

And I'll be just fine

It was 10 PM but it felt like 3 AM
I didn't eat the 4th Dorito bag
And all I wanna do right now
Is to take the car,
go to the abandoned house on street 1,
and smoke a box of cigarettes
I don't even smoke
Or have a license
But I guess that's not the point
The point is
That I wish there was a pause button
So I can breathe and cry it all out if I need to

We will be strangers with a memory
A powerful memory
Just... not powerful enough
And I guess that's okay
Because life is unfair
The worst thing is, though,
That we made it that way
And that's a fault we have to live in

Please, I beg you
I implore you
To leave me alone

If you're confused
Or had a moment of weakness
An impulse of momentary courage
that will fade quickly
Please don't
Don't do it
Don't come back
For I know you will leave again
with no explanation
other than leave me wondering again
Why
Why  is it always a desire
Instead of a fact

I'd rather have you leave forever
Than come back
And be a lie I can never have

I don't know why I still care
Why I think about it all over again

I loved him, I know, but that's no excuse
There's no point in this, there's no use

But I guess everyone moves on at their own pace
So be patient with yourself, this is not a race

When we were together
No one else existed
You used to say that when you were with me
You forgot all your problems

But the second we got apart
I turned into one
Everything stopped making sense
Together, it was everything
Apart, it was fear, regret, and guilt

Then I realised
That when we were together
You didn't forget your problems
You forgot I was the problem

My brain says no
My heart begs no
*But my soul screams your name

Either you let it go
Or let it go get you

What is it with you
Coming when my mind blurs

What is it with my brain
Bringing you up when I less need it

What is it with the nights
That make me forget I remembered you

And what is it with the mornings
That wake up the fear inside me when I realize it was just like it happened

That I remember you when my reason fades
Just like my lack of it was what linked us together in the first place
And ruined me in ways I never imagined

What is it with me
And my denial of letting it go?
It is already over
So why do you still show?

After what seemed a thousand centuries
Ages that never came to end
Reason beated sentiment
My will is strong again

Recovering from my damnation
After months of infinite pain
My power to let go
Finally made its effect

In my heart, I knew it all along
I did not know when, or how
But the end of it was coming
It was happening after all

Finally the day has come to say
Goodbye, silly heartbreak fool
We won't meet again
You're no longer in the spotlight
And you won't be again
I speak directly to you and this time I'm not flying
Every bit of my dignity is firmly standing