so you're leaving.
what should i be believing?
well if you were to ask i'd tell you
whatever, you're just the kid i sit next to
but really:

once you're gone,
i hope i'll say goodbye to the picture i've drawn
of you and me,
singing along with only pure glee.

once you're gone,
i hope that i will always carry on
that i'll get along,
and nothing will feel wrong

once you're gone,
i hope i won't awake at dawn
busy thinking of
what could've been real love

once you're gone,
i hope you can always count on
those around you
and your personality doesn't go askew

but for now
i'll deal somehow.
because you're gone,
gone with the wind.

you
you've been all i wanted for a while
for so long it's unimaginable
you were my everything
and even though we were never together
i couldn't imagine myself giving you up
because that would be too weird

and
and i do feel weird now
now that i think i've given up
wow - imagine that
i never thought i'd say that
i always chased after you
but why try to love anymore?

i
i don't feel like a lover anymore
no one left to chase after
that's just fine though
at least that's what i'm told
i'm pretty sure i'm done
that's it- i'm done.

you and i- a dream
goodbye dream of mine

i haven't written in a while

and no,
it's not because i haven't had anything to write about

i just haven't been able to get the words out

there are verses and rhymes galore
running through my brain

they never leave

but i guess that's okay

because poetry is my therapy
and i hope it continues to be all i need

i wish i didn't hate you

and i bet

you wish i didn't hate you

but

unless something changes

we'll be stuck at this standstill

with no movement

in the right or wrong direction

hello.
i've missed your class
and the people in it
but that's not why i'm here
i'm here to thank you

i'm here to thank you for your support
thank you for everything
you did to help me understand
i might still not get it
but i'm much closer now

thank you for letting me be myself
thank you for all the laps i took
because i wouldn't have survived
thank you for putting up with me
i know it was hard

and most of all
thank you for introducing me to poetry
it's now my safe place
i write everything
and i never thought i'd say that

so thank you
thank you for all you did
i really did learn something
other than how to laugh
thank you

hello?
are you still there?
i heard you're leaving soon
and i wanted to apologize
while i can still reach you

let me begin by saying
i wasn't faking it
i really truly hated you
but i'm sorry for everything
i did in retaliation

i shouldn't have let myself
push the boundaries
scream so much
but let's be honest
i was too shy to actually scream to your face

i remember the times
you started yelling at me
because i did something stupid
i got defensive
but who wouldn't be?

i should've learned my lesson
but i let pride blind me
i'm sorry for that
now i hope
i've learned my lesson

i just assumed everything
was out of spite
that you hated me too
but know i know you cared
and i hope others will understand that too

so i'm sorry
for the things that i did
for the angry poems i wrote
i'm sorry for everything
and i hope you forgive me

the number on a screen says i'm fine
       i wish it was true
the number on a screen says i'm smart
       i wish that was true too

nope the truth is
       i'm real good at bullshitting a paper
the truth is
       i have no idea what's going on

but apparently i'm fine
       i guess i'll just keep pretending
you want to know the secret?
       i don't have one honey

maybe it's because practice makes perfect
       i've been doing this for quite a while
maybe it's because you can't spot the difference
       i promise it's a solid possibility

but anyways

the number on the screen says i'm fine, great even
       i wish it was true
the number says i'm smart, maybe even a genius
       i really wish that one was true

so if you could
look a little closer next time