what if today
was only a good day
so tomorrow could be my last

what if today
was my happy ending
God's final wonderful favor

what if today
was a desperate shot
to show someone life is alright

so if today
was my final good day
i'm alright if the end's coming

so if today
was my joyous goodbye
i'll tell God thank you very soon

so if today
someone else learned to love
i'm proud that i taught at least one

is this the end?
if so, thanks everyone
for a good day to end it all

how do you bring Joy
that seems to be an endless question
how do i bring Joy to my life and others’?
how do i live as a source of abundant Joy?
how do i make others Joyful?

the most Joyful people aren’t held back by their past
there is no thing that makes one incapable of Joy
nothing can be held back
Joy is unrestrained.

the most Joyful people are at peace
they move past whatever is seen as wrong in their life
they focus on finding the peace
Joy is at peace.

the most Joyful people don’t know what they’re doing
they don’t know how much they help others
how much their outlook on life changes others
Joy cannot be forced.

so how do you bring Joy?
you don’t hold anything back
you find your peace
you just let it happen
to bring Joy, you must let yourself be free.

why can i never maintain a friendship?
i also bring it to something more
i can't seem to let myself just be happy
it almost like i don't want it
i'd rather be with you than be happy
but would i be happy then?
or can i just be happy now?

why can i never maintain a friendship?
with you, it just got awkward.
but i barely even did anything
i wasn't even the one who told you
leave it to someone else,
why did i think that was a good idea?
we drifted because it was just too weird.
******, why did i let that happen?

why can i never maintain a friendship?
with you, i stayed silent.
i think you might have known
but we were smart enough for once to stay calm
and not say anything
but was that worth it?
we could have been amazing before you left.
******, why didn't i say anything?

why can i never maintain a friendship?
with you, i was cautious.
a complete stranger to me brought it up
caught me completely off guard
and at that time i knew i wanted you
but you weren't so sure
why are we so afraid of each other?
i'm ready to be reckless again.
******, why can't i do this?

why can't i just manage one friendship?

Don't fall behind,
they say.
I won't (try to) fall behind,
I say.
You should be able to go above and beyond,
they say.
I should(n't) be able to go above and beyond,
I say.

I feel like I'm walking a wire
A wire so small a fly couldn't stand on it
But I'm here anyways,
I put myself here.
I thought I could
and now
I'm
stuck.

Keep up with your work,
they say.
I'll (try to) keep up with all my work,
I say.
It will make sense soon,
they say.
It will (not) make sense soon,
I say.

I feel like I'm drowning
And I have to pretend I'm not
Just so I can focus on getting more air
Like I have to encourage myself
But I hear the lies inside my head,
And I know
I'm telling the truth
When I say
I
can't
do it.

You can do it,
they say.
I can('t) do it,
I say.
All you have to do is put the effort in,
they say.
I just have to (try to) put the effort in,
I say.

I feel like my brain
Is just one big motivational poster
and it lies, oh it lies so much.
Because sometimes I won't get through this
It doesn't all just fall into place.
It's
not
all okay.

Try your best, that's important,
they say.
I'll try my best, and that's (not) important,
I say.
Stay organized so it'll be easier,
they say.
I'll (try to) stay organized,
I say.

time
what a mystery
i can stare at a clock for hours
but this week
it went so fast
i can't remember
what color shirt i wore
last monday
i can't remember
the person i talked to
on tuesday
it's only been a couple days

but at the very same time
i feel like last year
was yesterday
and yesterday
was last year

they say time flies
and oh it flew
but isn't time
just a way to keep track
of how long we've been alive
and how long we have left
i mean
we never know for sure
and sometimes things happen
that aren't quite fair
but we'll always have time
and it'll always be a mystery

I am a poet.
Not all my lines rhyme,
But they do sound cool time to time.

I am a poet.
I write my feelings on paper,
While i stare at some of the ugliest wallpaper.

I am a poet.
I dance around a rhyming dictionary,
Because i'm not some rhyming fairy.

I am a poet.
I can turn love into hate,
With a few words of great weight.

I am a poet.
I can take the words of a book,
And make them into a poem like a cook.

I am a poet and i write words of mystery for pleasure.