who would willingly choose me?
who would willingly ever want me and my baggage?
i'm the girl you're warned about.
the sweet and innocent,
yet dark and ******* crazy.

who will love me as i am?
who could ever want to?

If you came to me,
naked and unprotected,
I would look into your eyes,
while I kissed
your parted lips.

Coffee, cigarette,
study, drunken ***, repeat,
coffee, cigarette...

I got to find me a drink.
It’s been fighting my gut for quite some time now.
I got to find me a drink.
I can feel it clawing up my throat.
I got to find me a drink.
It’s too soon, but it’s rattling my voice box.
I got to find me a drink.
It’s begging to be released.
Shouted.
Absorbed.
I got to find me a drink.
I can feel it creeping along my tongue.
I got to find me a drink.
Every day, it crashes against the back of my teeth.
I got to find me a drink.
I’m not thirsty.
I’m choking.
& Lord knows, love never goes down easy.

In the beginning
There was no shame
There was impulse

In the beginning
There was curiosity
There was innocence

Then
There was boredom
There was frustration

Then
There was temptation
Guilt became excitement

In the beginning
There was a rush
Then
There was danger

In the end
There was anger
There was pain

In the end
There was guilt
And there was shame