It's your birthday
And you've not hit the hey
Yippee, horay?
Shall we celebrate?
But no
Not with cake
Not now
Or again ever for you
So should we really be cheering?

Breathing deeply
Or sleeping slightly
Lazy as this room
So who knows?
If he is dreaming
Or his mind is steaming
On exhale

Something to write home about
And tales to share with the grandkids
This festive life full of these
And with too many words to fit on a post card
Has no need
Because these memories will hold without ink

You have bathed me, dressed me, soothed me, cradled me
You have wiped me, fed me, sung to me and played with me
You have lost sleep for me
You have given up for me
You have missed out for me

We have read together, played together, sung together
We have swam together, ran together and cooked together
We have shared a story that is still being written
It has not always been a happy one
We have not always agreed with each other

I have been guided with boundaries by you
But I have thought that I knew better
So at times I have ignored you
And this has upset you
It is when I have worried you

You have tried to understand me
And you have cared for me regardlessly
You have waited for me to realise
That you were right
And then you have forgiven me

I have been brought up by you
And I have learnt so much from you
That all the rules were necessary
A gift from you to ground me
And help me to reach maturity

As we have shared our life story
We have made countless memories
And grown to live in harmony
With distance making no harm
In absence our thoughts still meet

You have given me life
And then shared yours with me
Because you have always loved me
And I you
For that is a family

Those words he spoke
Were his last
Not for now
Forever
It is my unfortunate privilege
To be the first to hear
Given to me before time
The time being
Once he is dead

His hands have failed
So he shares me his tongue
Whilst it hangs on
We should never have met
But now I am his accessory
So he gives me honesty
Breaks me his fears
Confesses his feelings
Not for me
I am just a stranger
A stranger he needs
So to give his family
His last chance of love

Children play in the yard
Whilst I do what?
I sit in the sun
Because it is what?
My last day
Last chance for sunshine
Once gone I will miss them
Because they did what?
Made me feel welcome
They will miss me they said

I have packed my bags
But not moved on
It's been two months
Since you've been gone
I've moved away
Fled some miles
Made some distance
Crossed some states
But not yet
Have I moved on

So soft and squishy
I'm invited
To roll you
Make angels in your comfort
And stretch out softly

But not so nicely
You'd land me
Fall right through
Freeze on route
And have crash landing

So spoilt with space
You cloud me
Drowned with choice
And deluded by opportunity
Stay grounded to survive

Nothing but nothing but nothing but trees
Nothing but nothing but sand
So how much more can there be?
Of nothing but nothing but more

For miles and miles and miles we've been
Miles of nothing and nothing for miles
Driving for days to reach the rock
And nothing's the best that we've seen

Smashing white against the rocks the sound soothes my ears
Whilst my eyes are lost in a mass of blue
The salt has reached my lungs and cleansed my skin
And the rays have blessed me with a golden tint
The grains have rubbed through old to new
Tonight I will sleep well and deeply
Like the elements have sedated me

lazy day
my favourite day
no stressful work left
in my way
of letting loose
and being free
from all the work
that comes with
my degree

so what next?
well let’s just see
for once I can
let things just be
and whatever happens
will come naturally

for I don’t care
just one day now
this day
my favourite day
is just for me

Miles from me
Yet here
In my heart
So you see
I'm yours

Will you wait?
For us
So we will be
True Together
Forever free?

If I hadn't had to go
You may have opened
If you had not had ambition
You may have joined me
But I may not have felt it
If you could be stronger
We could try our best
But if it's just me trying
It won't work
If I came home for you
Your pressure would grow
If we carried on
You'd miss me
I'd miss you
But not forever
If you joined me
We could have our adventure
If you wanted me more
If it's the end
We'll miss each other
Just for longer
With added pain
If I could convince you
To believe
It would be different
But it shouldn't take convincing
You should know
No matter if I'm here
Or if you're there
I'm worth waiting for
If not
You're right
It's over