can you feel the beat
of this hollow heart
as it wears itself away

a throbbing ache
and bitter blood
both fuel a silent rage

I am hopeless
I am helpless
I am desperate to be saved

as my self
is turned to ashes
in the power of Your flame

but You give to me
a clean heart
and awake my eyes to see

a newness
that engulfs me
in a depth of purity

no longer
shall I wander through this world
from shame to shame

I am bound
to greater purpose
the Creator knows my name

You got that special look That steals my breath.
laying down with you i get no rest.
My heart goes dun dun dun inside my chest.
When it comes to loving, you're the best.  

You're the reason i get out of bed.
Go to work Til i drop dead.
And one thing, I must address.
The sight of you as you undress.
Stops me, puts me in a trance.
Lord please give me once last chance.
To make her smile til her face hurts.
Stay up all night making love to her.
Rushing through the day to clock out.
So i could see what she's sad about.
Coming home to see her cook.
I just can't help myself but look.
She's in nothing but her birthday suit.
As tempting as forbidden fruit.
I'm the Adam to her eve.
Sometimes i still just don't believe.
That she's in love with someone like me.
And she's not afraid if the world sees.
How happy together we can be.
Loving for all eternity.    

But one thing i now understand.
God made her for another man.
And no matter how much it hurts.
I still have to hope it works.
So in the future i will see.
Your amazing smile because you're happy.
Even if it's not with me.
I'll let you go and let it be.  

Saying goodbye was always hard.
My heart is soft from all the scars.
left behind as you walked away.
Where would we be if you had stayed?
Would we be at a beach playing in the sand.
Or white skirt twirling in Ireland.
These specific words have caught your ears.
But I just can't stop myself here.
I miss you more every single day.
I kept your letters by the way.
I read them every single night.
And think of how you did me right.
And i did you wrong.
So I guess I'll just move along.
And say goodbye.
Trying my hardest not to cry.
As our fingers seem to lose their grip.
And our broken hearts continue to rip.
I have to say just one last time.
I love you with all this heart of mine.  

And as I say I'm moving on.
Document my feelings into a song.
Telling the truth of how i feel.
My heart is always yours to steal.
And If you ever feel the same.
If it brings you back I'll take the blame.
And change my ways.
If it makes you stay.
Please Do it soon I'd hate to wait.  

Suddenly it hits , is been too long.
You've moved on and found someone .
Who makes you smile and makes you laugh.
I thought i was the best at that.
So I'll end my thoughts with these last words.
I hope you get what you deserve.
That Big house.
That's Full of kids.
That Amazing spouse.
What You wanted.
And as life pushes through.
I'll try my best to believe the truth.
That We were not supposed to be.
I'm not the one for you, you're not the one for me.
But i can't seem to loose this thought.
The necklace you made, the one i bought.
Getting Tangled up, intertwined.
Guess I'll have to stop this heart of mine.
From loving you more with every breath.
Because of my memories you're the best.

Every Day i wake up.
Expecting To find my one true love.
Laying Next to me.
But all i see.
Is an empty space where my heart used to be.
By the time that lunch has come,
I feel like I've lost someone.
but gained a thought.
Which Is helping me be less distraugt.
Life has lessons you must learn.
No punishment i didn't earn.
And now that it is clear to me.
I'll let you go and let it be

Let my ferocity, and passion eloquently paint the pictures in my own regrets, tattering the canvas of my own flesh.

Let the foul, and the sweet, mesh together into brilliant concepts caught from the thinning air that only you can breathe.

Let me inhale deeply, savoring every contaminant, every exacerbation, and every nothing that means everything to you.

Let me touch you with every inch, with every intention, and every lust of smiling eyes, that pass over you when you walk by.

Let my fears fill you up with the love intended to be, just let me, be, next to you, in a storm of our foolishness, numbing our chores for the day.

Lets lose ourselves afloat in static temptations powerlessness, as it pulls our eyes closer to the ends.

Lets no longer resist natural instinct, and merely exist in the same place this day, so that we may long for our tomorrow.

Running on thunder,
how I loved you.
Even in your blueness
and in the quiet,
I wanted to touch your
soft blonde self, you
were so soft you were
bound to blow away
in the wind so
soft I could melt
at the knees and stay
on the ground with
my heart ahead of
my thoughts,

dreamer.
I'm still sighing
on the lightning,
unfazed even in
your lemon-yellow
love. Sunshine to
see a drifter fall
so perfectly.
You were always
going to be something
rain-like, drizzled
into my memories,
beautiful crystal
clear eyes, silent
somewhere, ghost of
your voice on my
grass-green heart.
Best wishes.

When I hear that electronic chirp of sophisticated miniature machinery
I get excited because I think its you
I shouldn't
I have a momentary notification of
heavy disappointment when its not
You poke around my brain
There is no reason for me to feel this way
I know only artificial rays of light entering your eyes
You shouldn't hold such high status in mine
I am nothing to you in actuality
and you should be nothing to me

Dark hair and dark eyes
pale skin, you look a ghost
Bright red lips drawing attention
To the insane beauty you possess
And no mortal man could resist
The feelings of intrigue you radiate
Biting your lip, periodically looking up through your bangs
Writing away, sitting alone in a coffee shop
A seat open across from you
An invitation, if one dares to take it
So take it I must
For at this moment
Knowing you seems to be the most important of pursuits
Though I can't help but feel that nobody has ever known you
For you are a mystery for any to behold
And none to comprehend

Medicated, and that made it all right to be alive
The monster boy got killed by the pills that they gave him at the end of the line
It took twenty years to assemble this beast and it all fell apart in two quick weeks Underneath all the scars on his face and his mind was a brand new boy with stars in his eyes
And he exploded on the scene like a geek
And he fit right in with all the rest of the freaks
And he had a lot to learn about the world out there
After spending so long in his gloomy lair
And he made up worlds in his mind
But he didn't need them now so he left them behind

And for the first time in a long time
he was glad to be breathing
and his new face could smile "Please don't take this skin away",
he cried "I'll pay any price I have to pay",
he cried "It's great to have this chance to fail",
he said "I never knew there was life for sale, you saved me, you made me again Oh what an awful secret these scientists kept"

Now he's livin' and lovin' and makin' new friends
And he won't take for granted what everybody has
And in his chest he found a heart that had never ever ever been used He dug it up and cleaned it off and found out it was as good as new
The spark had grown into a flame

And it burned anybody that got in its way
And he took out a few bridges too, but everything burns bright when it's new
And once a monster and now he's a prince,
or at least that's how he felt when he got his first kiss
And he learned how to walk and he changed the way he talked,
and he started catching up on everything that he missed
And he tried to be invisible for so long, now it was strange to be seen
And instead of all the villagers form in a mob they threw down their swords and treated him like a king "I never knew it could get this good",
he cried "You'd never believe how bad it was",
he cried "Please don't take this skin away",
he said "I never wanna go back where I came from, you saved me, you made me at last All my dungeons and demons are left in my past"

Once he sat in his sadness as days slowly drag
Now he burns with excitement and time moves so fast
And there's a song that he will sing
When he needs to remember how things have changed
He sings, "It ain't so bad, it ain't so bad, it ain't so bad anymore
So don't you cry, so don't you cry, don't you cry anymore
No don't you cry, don't you cry, don't you cry anymore

We climbed under bed sheets in our day clothes
and I remembered how soaked my moccasins were
thinking of the salt stains that would soon be there
and how pretty you looked when your eyes were closed

My eyes fought exhaustion with drooping lids
and I drank black coffee like I needed it to live
we washed away our secrets from the day in muddled whispers
and soon decided to go for a cigarette

Climbing out of bed like skeletons from coffins
Dressing for the weather in hats and jackets with boots
We ran across the street and almost slipped on the ice
six times

In the back yard of an old abandoned house
We stood facing the the water
I could swear you were changing
beneath the street lights and heavy breathing

It’s time for me to let go of this
but I don’t know if I’m strong enough
I’m worried that this won’t be good for you
I just can’t keep doing this to myself