alongside
stillness
grows
the storm

the closer you get
the further i reach

your presence
create spaces
where your shadows will
hollow

underneath
your dreams
im untold

[you pull me closer]
[are you leaving]

with the same intensity
felicity
sorrow
tenderness
rage

little by little

what if you stay
what if you leave
im equally afraid
of both

will there be anything left to feel
when we lay to rest
at last.

and they all applied to the consequences of your absence.

i call you.
because i
cannot
stand
this

im not ok.
simply
breathing
takes too much

my emptiness
pour out

you answer.
say hi,
and ask me
how i am

and
i tell you.
fine.

slowly
putting pieces back
shattered all over the floor

it's a no win in some ways
the longing has no end

the warming words comfort  
but always on the way
wrap it up
miss you still

until next time

i've been raining dry

all you left behind
running through the
drains
beneath my feet
in my palms

i feel like
you stole
me

all my seasons

how i used to
burst with spring
summer rain
linger brightly
against the crispy snow
coloured by
the fall

but now
i'm nothing
but

endless
descent

how can anything
come of this

sometimes
i wished we never
would have set fire
like we did

i've been living in our ruins   
ever since

Write to me ****. Talk to me instead of the air above me. (Even though I am shorter) Maybe I should write myself. Or move on. But I wrote before and I can't change the latter.

it's been nothing
but  
november
since mars

and everywhere i look
i see ashes  
from our
outset

it's supposed to
spring life
to new seeds
these forest fires
i've heard  

but it's been
so long

too long

and i still don't sleep
without you
where you've been

did you get the best of me

so I guess this is me
googling exes on a Friday night

rain shattering outside
cozy socks on

peculiarly enough
it’s always been a sign of ease
for me to
roll in the depts
relive anguish
squeeze out the last agony

I do love
to dream
and feel

8:26 pm
maybe I should call it a day
dive into bed
socks still on

such a wild Friday of fun