do you remember telling time by stars? and trading places at dawn?

how are you? do you miss your grandpa? how's life?

will we ever be ok?

i miss you.

your
replies
jokes  
talks
gazing stars
arm to arm
convert ideas

never
and far too
alike

on my own
on the run
night
days

it's been years

will it ever pass/change/end

retrieve you
from the back of my mind

dust you off

when i read us
all over
hidden words
fall out

were you maybe
telling me
all along
between the spaces

there would come a time
you'd have to leave

such a mess
we created
you and i

in that chaos
if i could've folded our story out  
on a table in front of me
painted out
objectively

read it all out
as facts  

as it is
our last written trace
five years ago
didn't count for much to the world

'Relationship?'
'Yes'
'Serious?'
'Yes'
'Fun'

however
stumbling over it tonight
it contained our whole world
phrases down to five

deep in depths
we kept our calm
brought bliss
and held us warm

now someone else
will be around
for the breakings
and when you stand your ground

you made your choice
to me it's clear
there was something more worth  
than me being there

nothing more
i'll miss our past
but i was never yours
to last

i wish
the peach silence would
reach you

so you'd finally
see
why i had to leave

but through the rear
of the moon
and the skies reflection

i think we forget
we're allowed to grieve
either way

american mouth playing

i remember it well
still it makes me paralyzed
thinking of it

drowning me with sorrow
bringing me out
on the run

but if i leave
there are people here
being left behind