Please know that my poems on here are almost never about anyone on here
And I hate for people to read too far into them

I can't believe it
You want me to stay single,
Lonely, and unhappy
So you can have the
Feeling of someone crushing on you
Because your boyfriend doesn't do it enough.
Unbelievable.
News flash I actually care about myself.

Your fingers traced stars against the galaxies of my mouth and I forget to listen to the dark and the celestial.

I feel like I'm supposed to know how to handle myself but I don't

Some changes hurts others.
Even if it's to benefit you.
Some will drag you down.
Spread rumors all around town.

If you changed your life around for the glory of you.
And others hates your views and perspectives.
Just say , "I'm following Jesus".

Maybe, you were a drug dealer.
Maybe, you was a woman selling her body.
Maybe, you was various things in society that led you wrongly.

But once, you wise up and accepted your past to change.
Let none you know formerly in your past stop you from saying...
I'm following Jesus.

His life, his path serves a purpose.
His death served a reason.

It leaves a everlasting effect upon you.

Long ago, everything you touched turned to gold.
But now the shine is gone, tarnished with sins, lies, and hypocrisy.
Nothing can change that now.
Nothing can change you now.

Sometimes I think about the night I attempted to end my life.
Sometimes I think about what things would be like without me.
Who would sit in my desk in civics class?
Would anyone look to God and ask why?
Where would my father, my sweet and caring father, be?
What about my grandma who sees herself in me?
And my mother? My brother? My sister?
What would they have done with my things?
Would they have left my room untouched, a shrine to a life cut short?
What of my friends? Of the boy with bright eyes that hadn't set on mine?
Would my so called best friend miss me?
Would I be worth his tears?
I wish I had the answers, I wish I knew.
But for now, I'll continue living.
And I'll continue being new.