I'm fine
I'm not a beauty queen
I'm just a normal woman
I'm a good person
I'm honest.

Yes I've got a boyfriend again
That's why I haven't talked to my friends
I talk to him when I can
I know what type of woman I am
I know what I can do and it's for my boyfriend
I am not with him at this moment
I have not done anything yet; He is overseas.

That's like right now I live with my ex-love
and he doesn't get what he wants.
He also wants to remarry me that ain't going to happen.
I know he loves me again but I just can't!
I don't love him.

We were married before it, ain't like he never seen me before
I don't do that with every guy just him
We started dating when I was 13
I had made love in 15 with my ex-love.

He was my first love first everything
And my first heartbreak and the first person to smash my heart
He smashed my heart that night!
He's broken my heart into pieces
He is the reason why I won't love again

But we share the only bed in the place
That's not a good thing especially when I live with him
There is no couch or another bed in his place
We sleep in the same bed. We don't do anything
Yea I do, that's when I want
If he had it his way he would never go without it
Like I said that's not much, I don't love him.

That's a long story and a very hurtful story
I don't tell people my life stories from him using them against me
I don't trust men as far as I can throw
The only friends I tell are close to me or they are important to me
My boyfriend knows that that's all who needs to know
I don't let people in my world that's how I stay safe from men.

Every guy that I left always wants me back
That's what they want, and what they get is different
That’s my life story.

I'm sorry, I'm not perfect
I'm sorry, I'm not like the others
I'm sorry, I don't care about anything.

You want to change me
You want me to be just like you
And just like everyone else.
You want to throw my close away.

You want me to listen to your song,
You want me to act like you
But where not the same
Where not the same
I think you know it.

I'm sorry, I'm not perfect
I'm sorry, I'm not like the others
I'm sorry, I don't care about anything.

Stop changing who I am
Stop telling me that I will be cool
And fit with the others.

I just want to be free
And run to my own
But you can't tell me anything
Cause I can do what I want

I don't want to be like others
So break away from the chains
But here comes the worst part.

I'm sorry, I'm not perfect
I'm sorry, I'm not like the others
I'm sorry, I don't care about anything…

Just cause I'm different
I don't want to do judge at
I don't want to be beaten up
I don't want to be looked down at
For the worst part is what.

I have to go through and I will it, it's the price
I'm not an alien where both humans
We all have a heart and belong to the same place
It's not cool to be a bully
And I think we both know it.

I'm sorry, I'm not perfect
I'm sorry, I'm not like the others
I'm sorry I don't care about anything.

Please let me be happy
Please let me be your friend
Even when we're not the same.
Please don’t treat me like I’m different.

I'm sorry, I'm not perfect
I'm sorry, I'm not like the others
I'm sorry I don't care about anything.

I like you so much
but I haven't the right
to love you
Because you look for someone you love.

I feel your touch
but I have no light
to brighten you
Because you think of someone you love.

I'm into your happy smile
but I can't get
to see it anymore
Because you smile at someone you love.

Now you are very nubile
but you would not
get my shore
Because you wait for someone you love.

You love to smile
At kids and parents
You love to smile
At family and friends

You love to smile
Awakening yourself up
You love to smile
At the morning coffee cup

You love to smile
At the store and on the way
You love to smile
At work and on a busy day

You love to smile
At me for heartiness
You love to smile
At all for kindness

Your smile is glad
And my happiness
It's pretty, niceness
And never ever sad.

You’re looking sweet
and gorgeous
Your smile is gentle
and contagious.

The birdsong wakes me up
every single morning
my mind goes to the forest
to enjoy the melody of hornets.

Truly, if I get a gentle breeze
happily with happiness
only for the pleasure of heart
then I'd melt at the dawn.

I get and see in the flower garden
the flowers spread on the ground
the girl stood hiding behind
I had to hold my ears with shame
if she looks at me what will happen?
She'd have slapped on my cheek!

All the songs are the opposite of my song
I'm a dusty boy?

They deserve better than I can be.
How many times I have just wanted to shoot myself!
It would save them the trouble of having to deal with me.
I can’t give them what they want
I can barely give them what they need
I don’t know how to do this;
My monthly income barely covers what everyone needs.
I am so tired,
I give my all but it is not enough!

Maybe God does not like me!
It’s the truth.
I am a divorced mother of four.
I have no family no help.
I already work two jobs at least seventy-five hours a week.
I have no time to sleep.
When I do I have night terrors.
My husband did not want me.
Why would anyone else?

My kids!
They love me but they go without things they need.
I am about to pick up the third job tomorrow.
I can’t do anything right and I am ugly.
Tell me he loves me?
No one loves me!

I have begged God for years
Where was he when I lived on the streets when I was twelve?
Where was he when I was ***** when I was seventeen?
Where was he when I needed him to take me from my husband?
And was stabbed two times in the chest and one time in the kidney?
Where was he when my husband punctured my lung and broke my ribs?
Where is he now?
When I am out of medication and have no help no family?

Who will save my ten years daughter from the devil eyes of my best friend?
Who I already had to sleep with!
Nothing to tell anymore!

I  am alone!
I will always be alone…
I am but a speck of dirt to God.
All who are heavy burdened, come to me and I will give you rest.
I use to be a Sunday school teacher.

I am sorry!
I am so sorry!!
Rah maybe God will help me one day!
I wish God will take my life ***** away.
He is the Almighty.
Yes, I do believe in one God.
He will help me!