At what point do you realise you're a number
How do I know that all these promises, you didn't whisper to them too
I say I've never felt this way, you say you love me
I can't stop holding myself up against them
And all I feel is scrutiny, inferiority and broken
I hate myself now for only seeing an act
On the journey from your mouth to my ears
All these words lose everything and end up empty
But I've never thought me good enough
And perhaps I never will
So the ones who come before me stand tall over me and promise to never let me go
Yet somehow in the dark, in the deep deep dark
I see you
You're alone and holding in your hands all the meaning from the words that were lost
You hold it up to me and look further into me than anyone has ever done before
And I break and the tears that leave me carry the doubt away into my pocket and form a weight
I kiss you and embrace everything you hold and make it my own
I fall into you and become aware of how much I love you
Until I reach into my pocket and they're there
Waiting to grasp my hand
For the first time, I love someone too much and self doubt has taken the responsibility of guiding me through it