Her looks make me wonder
if maybe she knows
the rhythm of our bodies
the ebbs and the flows

I'm sure you said nothing
and  I really don't care
with rage in her eyes
she has begun to stare

We did nothing wrong
trust me I'd know
I've done wrong before
and one feels quite low

You are the perfect fit of awkwardness
between your laugh and her smile
inform her it happened just once
where you are bound to last more than a while

I wasn't trying to start something
you were simply there at the time
just an effortless echo to distant rhyme
that though I wanted it, was never quite mine

I breathe deep but I still want more
my lungs never seem to fill around you
that hazy air that clouds my stare
never seems to fade these days
I can barely see where you end and I begin
I like it this way I think
the air burns my eyes
I know that this habit will be your demise
the air kills me slowly
and you even faster
breathe it in slow and deep
imagine your grave and me while I weep

Dear sort of brother,
I can feel all the places you've been
I can remember your writing in pen
documenting words like love they flow
You take me in like breathing and together grow
just relax I'll get her off your mind
just a couple drinks to unwind

I can see your pain of a thousand nights untouched
Always knowing I know too much
a light in the window thats our trick
telling me my sister has left and is sick
the hospitals change the sick into people brand new
but leave behind a life they once knew

She will get better, she will survive
She'll come home and you'll be glad she's alive
You will love her like I was never there
She will be the same with a lot less hair
the love will be different like a brand new lease
but you'll stay all the same just to keep the peace

My sister by blood I would never intend to hurt
but I lie here only wearing his shirt
We are with her by day keeping her strong and secure
but what what we do at night she will never be sure
I can't say its right but it doesn't feel wrong
She has taken too long

Dear Sweet Sister,
Recovery is slow and it's not your fault
but why should his life come to a halt
I should have told you to run away
when I ****** him on your wedding day
but I knew if I kept him in sight
I'd at least see him on nights like tonight

What I've done is wrong trust me I know
and this time I'll get my things and go
I'll visit just one more time and say goodbye
just please dear sister don't ask me why
I already can't look you in the eye
and after all this I don't have it in my heart to lie.

Dripping desparation
down to my toes
feeling faint I know it shows

Tears tearing down cheeks
still flushed from the cold
into your arms I fold

The cold made it better
I felt almost numb
but what you said cannot be undone

Snow still stuck to stray hairs
and I warm to the thought
between hurt and free I'm feeling quite caught

Still shivering five days later
though the cold is gone
warmth won't come until much after dawn

Walking into a room
I look around
but lately not a face sinks in
any face but yours.

I look not to find you
but to avoid your stare.
I don't want to be with you
I just want to know where
you are so I'm not too near.

Close enough to see you
so when I take a peek
I can see if your looking
and if you want me.

Not that I want you
you're just something to do.
You're someone to talk to
until I get bored
someone to kiss
when the feeling rushes forward.

I just want you to want me
and then I'd like to decide.  
I rearrange my schedule to make sure your not there.
I cling to my friends so when its time to compare.
I seem like I'm better
and more than you deserve,
but the truth is I'm useless
and you're all I think of.

I don't like much about you
except everything I see
all thats missing is your need for me.
So I plan on working on it
to make me real cool
so the next time your looking
I'll be where you are.

Not perfect because that doesn't exist,
but from perfect I'm not far.
I have a long way to go until I'm ready you see,
but just remember that if you need someone
you can always find me.

Skin on skin
eyes on eyes
closed now open
devouring the lies

Lust can live
feelings don't last
need proof
look at the past

Lips on lips
where to begin
always regret
penetrating sin

Sweating palms
piercing looks
awkwardly natural
not in the books

Uncertain movements
Rhythm and flow
scared to death
They'll never know

Scars of passion
hidden with scarves
everyone knows
of lust she starves

Enveloped in lust
standing on pins
playing the game
that no one wins