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Jan 2015 · 242
The kind of friend I am
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
I am the kind that will listen to you, no matter what
If ur upset and need to lighten up, I will throw veggies at you, or tell you the dirtiest joke I know (some of which should not be said on here)
I will look like an absolute fool(even though that's what I do any way) to make you seem sane and cool in front of someone you like
I stick up for my friends, and I stay by their side, through thick and thin.
Jan 2015 · 240
Here it goes
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
Listening to my 14 yr old bro singing amnesia at the top of his lungs. I can hear him jumping and dancing (to watch him dance is like never being able to breathe, well it is, you'd be laughing to hard) and listening to my 12yr old bro laugh loudly. I need to get out of here, oh boy my 14yr old bro just fell from trying to put his foot in the freezer again. (You'd think he woulda learned by now) and anyway, don't ask why, he doesn't even know why he does it, he just does.
Best part is, when he meets my friends, they always ask me" is he gay?" I have to keep from laughing until I can reply "Yeah, how'd you guess?" He shows who he is fully and truly.........…… my brother who's more femenine than me and broke approximately 3900 girls hearts. (Girls love my bro, and he used to have 25 gfs at a time at the same time, they knew each other and knew about each other. We also moved a lot, last count was 30 schools, almost 190 times, not even certain anymore.) He's now complaining he can't slam his own door right, as he opens the door to slam it for the third time......... Someone, help I'm already crazy, and I need out!!!!!!!!!!! Roflmao!
Jan 2015 · 352
My life (part one)
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
Okay, let's start back when I was ten (any farther, and someone might cry)
I started reading 12.6 and my favorite was/is adult romance. My mom didn't care aslong as I didn't say the B.S. that I learned in them. But, unfortunately guys that were ages, and I quote 15-49, and a 52 yr old had tried f-ing me/ told me how they wanted to f me. Well, for the most part, I looked older than what I was, so the guys ages 15-29 had a valid excuse (I did look 21yrs old) but as soon as I told them my age,(and this had gone on until I was 15) they became regretful for what they did, and soon we became friends, but when I told the guys of the other age groups, they weren't, instead they still tried it (the 52yr old was my sisters fathers cousin Booner, whom I silently nicknamed *****, and he always called me his " little girlfriend" well he kept trying to kiss me which was GROSS, and he had tried to **** me, my cousins were the only ones that saw this and helped me and taught me defense) now anytime someone startles me, I lash out in defense automatically. (Funny thing is Booner stopped messing with me when I was about 7, cause he had started it back when I was 5, luckily my cousins were around) ( You see the day started out normal. Well, me, my mom, and my one brother and my sis were going to leave. Booner had said to me"Bye, little girlfriend" he leaned his head into the car to kiss me, so I wound the window up on his head and yelled at my mom to "Floor it!" She sat in the drivers seat laughing, while my sisters dad was outside on the ground laughing)
Unfortunately, this is true and f-ed up. :/
Jan 2015 · 468
who will
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
Who will love me
who will stay by my side
who will be there when I need them most

Sometimes I want to scream
"leave me, everyone does" I'd say
"stop toying with my life"

Sometimes I wonder
'I love unconditionally
what if I never loved at all'

If I had no heart
there'd be no ache
but there'd be a lost and angry soul

Life is misery
love is pain
but my life is a huge joke

I used to believe in many things
like love and mythical fairytales
but that did not last

I grew up looking for good
I knew since I was little
life is not sugar plums and gum drops

I knew the world was made of evil
I saw it all
before I even started middle school

I try to dry the tears
I try to bottle up the pain
but it just wears on me

I could hide my heart
It always beat so sorrowfully
it was always so steady

May you see life
may it be enlightening
may you learn from what you see

I learned to be true to myself
I learned to deal with some pain
I learned life is cruel

Love is a sensitive thing
love can hurt
but love can also feel good

When you find true love
you'll want to dance and sing
just be careful where you step

Things aren't always what they seem
they might look nice
don't base life on looks

I saw life
I saw death
doesn't mean I know them truly
Jan 2015 · 190
questions
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
Why didn't I stay
Why did I leave you there
Why am I such a fool

Why, why, why
why am I this way
Why, why, why

Who will love me
Who will stay by my side
Who will be there when I need them most

Who, who, who
Who am I
Who, who, who

What is it that I'm looking for
What is it I see in the world
What can I do

What, what, what
What do you want from me
What, what, what

Tell me what you need
Tell me what you want
Tell me what you see

Tell me, tell me, tell me
Tell me who I should be
Tell me, tell me, tell me

Where do I need to go
Where did I lose you
Where can I find your love

Where, where, where
Where can I find you
Where, where, where

I find these questions
I can't answer them
Does anyone hear me
Can anybody help me
Jan 2015 · 234
how do you know
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
I try my best
I do all I can
You don't believe me

How do you know
Know that I don't
Don't try hard enough

Don't you see
I just wanted to keep on
Keep on trying to make it work

How do you know
Know that I don't
Don't try hard enough

Maybe I tried to hard
Baby you didn't see
But why can't you believe

How do you know
Know that I don't
Don't try hard enough

I didn't know you were always right
I didn't know I was always wrong

How do you know
Know that I don't
Don't try hard enough
Jan 2015 · 248
I am here
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
I am the one
I am everywhere
I am here to save you

Why do you cry
Why am I a monster to you
Why don't you want me near

I am the one
I am everywhere
I am here to save you

You are all I need
You are all I want
You are the beauty in my life

I am the one
I am everywhere
I am here to save you

Can't you see
Can't you be with me
Can't you believe in me

I am the one
I am everywhere
I am here to save you

I need you to open up to me
I need to know that you're okay
I need you

I am the one
I am everywhere
I am here to save you

I am here to save you
I want to be your warrior
I want to know you
I want to show you my love
I want to know your love
I am here to save you
Jan 2015 · 302
loving
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
She looks at him
he wants her
she smiles
he puts out his hand
they're formal
they dance
a waltz plays
around and around they go
they smile
they spread their wings
they soar
they stay close
they belong with each other
they are in love
the parents smile
the parents approve
the fathers wink at the mothers
she holds fast
he stays strong
their love carries on
Jan 2015 · 219
random
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
I am thinking randomely
I have no clue what to write
So here's my thoughts

I love reading
I love writing
I get bored at school

My best friend is beside me
She is AWESOME!!!!
I love my friends

I am not a socialite
I like to talk a lot
I feel loved

I hug a lot of people
I love my family
I hate homework

I guess this is different
I should just call it a poem about me
I like poems and stories

I am almost out of ideas
I am getting tired
I would bow but noone would see it

Well, except for my friend
I curtsie to the world
I thank you for reading

This is my random poem
This is me
I am different in a lot of ways
Jan 2015 · 213
listen
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
I don't know who you are
But I listen to what you say
I pay attention

I see the way you write
With a strong and swift hand
But I look for your meanings

I see your pain
I listen to your heart
I let you cry on me

You never have to be alone
You never have to be afraid
You don't have to push me away

Listen with your heart
Close your eyes
I will protect you

I will always be there for you
I will make you smile
I will rescue you

I'll take on your pain
I'll hold you close
I'll help you fly away

I'll be the warrior
I see your in distress
I hold my hand out to you

Just take what I offer
I will do all I can
You'll see the new life

So listen to me
Listen with your heart
I have always listened to you
Jan 2015 · 251
flowers
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
Loving fragrant air
blooming bulbs in night or day
beautiful flowers

I love to smell them
They are always beautiful
they are so pretty

I love to plant them
I like roses and lilies
I do love flowers
Jan 2015 · 1.3k
This is my bio
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
Ok, let me see, where to start? Ah ha!

Fav color-black
Fav flower-tiger lily
Fav season- spring
Fav activity-anything creative
Fav book-all books tht I've read
Hair-brown, medium length
Eyes-hazel (blue when really happy)
Height-5' 7"
Skin-lightly tan

Dislikes-rude/mean people
                extremely cold weather
                 baked beans
                 grits
Fav music-country(but I like all genres)
Fav song-undecided
Likes-sincereness
           animals
Fav animal-snake

*I don't know what else to put about me, oh well
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
Wearing an oversized guys t-shirt
Putting my glasses down because they're hurting my nose
Laying on my bed, relaxed, content for now
Keeping my mind busy until I can go get a shower after my lil brothers get theirs
Bored
Don't know what to do
*oh well
Jan 2015 · 643
Candy cane
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
Sitting and reading
******* on a candy cane
Not paying attention to my surroundings
Twirling the candy cane in my mouth
I look up
A stranger is staring at me
I look back quizzically
I shrug my shoulders as he just stares
I turn back to my book and candy cane
I see him from my peripheral vision
He's still watching me
I notice he's looking at my mouth
I shrug inwardly
I have to turn the page
I let the candy cane hang in my mouth
I'm becoming enraptured
I take the cane out and lick my lips
I look at the end and see it has a sharp point
I smile and wave it in front of me like a sword
I turn back to my book and bite the sharp end off
The guy raised an eyebrow
He had a smile playing upon his lips
He seemed amused with me
I looked at him
I marked my place and went over to him
why are you staring at me?
He smiled playfully
do I need a reason, miss?
I shrugged my shoulders
I went and got my book
I walked out after paying for the coffee I had been drinking earlier
I smiled slightly as I kept ******* on my candy cane, thinking
'The people you meet in a coffee/book shop'
I kept walking, wondering why he was staring at me
This is all made up........though I do love reading and I AM ******* on a candy cane irl right now,lol :)............
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
It's 1:53am
Can't sleep
Gotta go to school in a few hrs
My mind is everywhere
Here are a few things about me

My fav color is black
I hate grits
I am a romantic at heart
My life *****
No one really knows me
I'm tired of the awful people in life
I hate pain
I stand up for those that can't defend
I hate hate hate hate mean/rude/annoying people

Now I want to sleep but my mind won't shut up!!!!!!!!!!!
Jan 2015 · 232
I just want to leave
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
Can I die yet?
You test me
You push me
You brake me
You bend me
I ******* HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
can i die yet???????
You torture me
You hurt me
You hate me
You still have everyone on your side
I ******* HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
can i die yet???????
just let me go
let me alone
let me be

HAVEN'T YOU DONE ENOUGH TO ME?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
*just let me die, it's what i want/need..................
Take this at face value, I'm tired of life's *******....... (but I'm more afraid of causing my self pain)..............
Jan 2015 · 140
Not a poem
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
Just watched the ball drop....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!
Jan 2015 · 144
oh well
Livingdeadgirl Jan 2015
Who's heard the sayings "Don't speak unless spoken to" or "kids are to be seen not heard"?
If we let kids speak, more knowledge would be known.
It's a shame that no one can see that but the young.
It's like the adults that go by those sayings forgot they were even kids.
Kids are a lot more perceptive than anyone would know.
It's just that kids aren't perceptive for the adults benefits, but are for their own benefit.
*just like others in the world
Livingdeadgirl Dec 2014
Here we go again
I told you what you needed to know about me
I told you and no one's LISTENING
Who do I have to get to say this?
The pope? The bishop? The priest?
Or even God himself?
Haven't you gotten it through your thick skull?!?
I don't give a ****,
And you know why?
because I have no one in my life
So there, now are you happy?!?
I finally told you, oh wait
I should say I told you again
*why do you torture me with the thought of a love that won't come true for me.
I don't have a guy, I never have. I guess mostly because I play like the guys.... and I'm rougher than the guys my age in my gym classes.... But I still want to love like any body else in this world, I guess guy's always pass me by....

If you can leave a comment, it would be greatly appreciated, I need/ want to know if I can improve my poetry at all.
Dec 2014 · 153
To hell with it all
Livingdeadgirl Dec 2014
It's all a ****** up game
The life we play off as real
We condemn those who are different for the sole fact that they are different
And some are proud to be that way
We don't always understand what we're doing to others
Sometimes we do and love doing it
Especially to ourselves
Why do we do this?
Is it some twisted mind game that we have to learn?
Or are we making it up as we go?
All I know is
**** IT
*i want out
Livingdeadgirl Nov 2014
the way you goad me
the way you make me ******
the way you do things to me
how you think I'm worthless
you've told me it time and time again
why do you do this
who the hell do you think you are
the way you watch me
the way you're possessive of me
the way you make me feel
you kiss me and caress me
like I'm the only one to you
you make me feel like I'm flying
then you turn on me
you glare and yell at me
for nothing, because all I hear is yelling
you hit me and beat me
until you are satisfied
that I'm down enough
I'm crying now, because of you
I'm turning from you
turning away from your barking laugh
the one that was so comforting not long ago
so now that you're here, I have to ask
who the hell do you think you are
I could have swore you loved me
all the time you held me
all the time we spent
just holding each other
who the hell do you think you are
*I miss the best of us, where did you go
Nov 2014 · 816
Goodbye
Livingdeadgirl Nov 2014
you see me there, standing in the corner
I'm listening to my music
I have it blaring
I'm quiet, but everyone picks on me
What no one knows is what happens when I'm not here
I'm yelled at and punished
For whatever my step mother wants to punish me for
I'm considered a lost cause
Because I'm no good at being alive
I want the pain to end, so I make up my own world
One where no one can get to me
But my step mother yells at me because I'd rather be there
I deal with reality everyday, but I don't want to
She tries to make me
I just don't give a flying **** what she wants
Never have, but I get yelled at more for that
I don't care and I'm gonna leave soon
GOODBYE
*for now
Nov 2014 · 631
Gonna break (part 2)
Livingdeadgirl Nov 2014
Your testing my limits
You really don't want to find out where the end of my patience is
I will come after you
You may think your better than me
All because you were raised in a church
But you aren't godly or holy
You go to church
So what?
You are against what God made and you still are
So why do you think your better
You turned a blind eye to everything
You still do
You say I drink way to much through out a day
When I drink maybe 2 or 3 cups of juice, water, or tea
And that's TOTAL in a day...
Your pushing me
I've lost my balance and became dizzy, all while my eyesight left me
And you say it's because I "moved to fast"
B...., stop self diagnosing
You and my a..hole father do this to me over and over
You do it with my shaking problem
Where I can't keep my hands steady
Everyone see's it's a problem but you two!
I had a seizure when I was 6, but you won't believe it
I've been shaking ever since, but you won't believe
Even though you see me shaking everyday!
And because I wasn't shaking at 1 point in my life
I  apparently only shake when I know someone is watching me.
That's BULL and both of you know it!!!!
When you break me, I'll break you times 3, just as the wiccan creed
So beware of what you do to me
You'll have it be returned on you
Nov 2014 · 280
Gonna break (part one)
Livingdeadgirl Nov 2014
You want to keep pushing
You think I’m gonna stay docile?
I don’t care who you are
Or who you think you are
I really don’t care
But if you keep pushing, I’m gonna break
I’ll blow up and you may end up dead
My pathetic step mom
You think you’re so tough
You kept hitting me
But when you tried again, I had your arms in a lock you couldn’t get out of
It only stopped because my a..hole of a father came in and told me to stop
What would you have done if he wasn’t there?
NOTHING!
I’m stronger than you
But you threatened to put me on my a.. the next time I did that
B.... PLEASE!
You couldn’t get out of my hold on your arms on your own!
How would you expect to put me on my a..?
B...., I know I have my limits
But I haven’t come to my limit yet
So stop pushing!
You may act tough and strong
News flash, I AM!
You’re only tough when my father is on your side
I doubt you could fight a piece of paper!
If you did, you’d lose
You’ve caused so much s... in my life
Hell, I could **** you with how strong I am
And with how you treat me
I wouldn’t blink an eye, I’d laugh!
Now I hate violence
It’s my last resort, but you keep pushing me!
You act like you’re the best person
You and my a..hole father
I WILL RENOUNCE HIM AND YOU B....!!!!
So F... you and him both
Oct 2014 · 377
HALLOWEEN
Livingdeadgirl Oct 2014
Today is Halloween
Many people have changed it's meaning
For Christians, today is all saints day
For some, it's the day were the veil between the dead and living is thinnest
For other's, today is a day to be someone else
This last is what I am doing
Today I'm a Gypsy
Free to be me
And because I'm in school, it makes it better
I'm one of few 16 yr olds that dressed up
I have just begun my day today
So I say to all that read this
HAPPY HALLOWEEN
And have a fun day of tricks, treats, and excitement
*It's the one day we can all be who and what we want to be
Oct 2014 · 388
The watchers
Livingdeadgirl Oct 2014
I watch them
They stare at me
I don't want to listen
I don't know why
I just don't care
I couldn't care LESS
I want to be loved
I want to know me
I want to run
I want to scream
I grew up in a rough life
I just sit back and take the pain
I put my head phones in
I blare them and listen to my music
I relax and go numb
I smile at them as they hurt me
They don't know
I laugh at their uncertainty of me
I stare back at them
I watch as they back away
I keep listening to my music
I finally walk away

No one will ever trully know me, because everyone is too afraid to, so even though you read my words, don't think this is the whole of me.... I've just started writing and letting go what and who I am....... So if you think you know me, try again.... *I don't even know me....
Oct 2014 · 290
Who actually cares?????
Livingdeadgirl Oct 2014
I tried to be strong
To love like I know I can
I don't know where to turn to anymore
I'm alone
I have a metallic taste in my mouth
I smile ruefully
I try to stay angry
It's better than the pain since no one cares
You left again
I guess I'm a prophet
'Cause remember when I said you would
I apparently knew you more than you wanted to admit
I have to laugh
It's dry though
You watch me, while I'm sitting there
I'm watching you
I came to a point crucial to me
I found I can't trust any one
Because everyone lies and then leaves
You may read my words one day
But you'll never understand my pain
Not until you've walked in my shoes
Been in my place
No one will know my pain
Because I'm that kid in the background
I'm nice and don't really act out
I do my work, and love to read
I'm not good with people, so I put my work online
The screen is my sanctuary
No one sees me
So no one knows who I truly am
I have to wonder
"Who am I?"
I don't know
"Where am I?"
Does anyone really care?
I'm a myth
I'm a dream
I'm just a memory
And I leave a greater impact on everyone
Especially when I leave
I don't know why
I don't know how
I just know I'm here
But I don't know where
I help when I can
I'm a 16 year old
Yet I can't act my age
Since I was 3, I was 30
And I still grow, yet I need to slow down
I'm 5'8" and I know I can't go back
I blame my dad for my height since I'm taller than my mom
I had to grow up an adult
All because when my mom was my age
She met my dad, 26 at the time
I grew up hating him, and trying to get out of my life
I tried suicide, and found out I'm very hard to ****
I tried over 300 times, I just gave up
Someone has a hold on my life
And it's all a joke for their amusement
YOU WANT A LOOK IN MY LIFE????? THEN COME ON!!!!!!!
*just leave me alone when you're done.....
Oct 2014 · 630
Destructive
Livingdeadgirl Oct 2014
I feel them coming
They're in my head
I watch the metallic red gushing from me
I throw my head back and laugh
I have to go
I've scared them Again
HAHA
I can't seem to help it anymore
I love the pain, it keeps me away
I need help, love and patience, none of which I have
I love sincerely and I always will, but noone returns my feelings
So I know I'm alone, but atleast I did something
I killed my self, just like they wanted, unfortunately
I don't know what to do anymore, and that's what scares me
The unknown of my strength
I know I could **** if I tried, but I don't know my limit,
Noone does, yet........
Oct 2014 · 148
Whatever
Livingdeadgirl Oct 2014
You looked at me
I felt good because of you
Now you left and dropped me
Why did you leave?
Did you stop and think about me?
Did you think how I'd feel?
Don't you know how much you mean to me?
Do you still see me?
Like the first time?
You left, just like I said that everyone does.
So keep walking
I'll wallow in my pain
Then I'll finnally get up
But I'm turning and leaving
The spot you led me to
I gave up me
All for you
Good Bye
*forever
Sep 2014 · 211
A poem about 'Me'
Livingdeadgirl Sep 2014
I am me
noone knows who I am
everyone looks at me
girls point and laugh
guys are my friends
some girls hate me for that
I am different
those girls try to make me sad
I stare back at them
I see into their souls
they become afraid
they try to point out my flaws
they are to slow and to late
I know my flaws
my flaws are none of their concern
I smile, I see their flaws
unlike them I don't point them out
I keep them to myself and smile
they don't know I know
I see them smirking
I look at them with their ghosts
they fear their ghosts
they call me names and leave
I just keep smiling
I keep my head high
I think of their flaws
when noone is there
I chuckle to myself
I see those girls for who they are
they are monsters
but somehow I'm the feared beast
I smile and stay the way I am
I am me
and I will never be them
Sep 2014 · 488
Heart
Livingdeadgirl Sep 2014
Do you even see how you make me feel
Do you know what the thought of you does to me
I love talking to you
I'd love to really know you
I'm young and I'm still learning
I want to know you, what you like and don't
If you have the patience, you can teach me about true love
I'm not skilled in much
But i'm faithful, loving, and true to my heart
If you hold my heart, you hold my undying love and respect
Don't think I'm some childish fool
If I've made an error in my judgement, let me know
'Cause I'd rather there be a quick sting than an everlasting pain
Jun 2014 · 391
The mysterious dream man
Livingdeadgirl Jun 2014
I'm gonna cry
He did it again
He came in my dreams
He took my love
I tried to hold on
He left
He was as touchable as smoke
I want to be loved
He said he would stay
I guess it was easier for him to lie
I don't know much truth from him
I laid my heart in-front of him
I cried until the streams over flowed
I just want him
I need him
He is everything to me
Yet he's a dream
A beautifully dreadful dream
One I don't want to wake from
He always seems so cool
So collected
But my heart is slowly breaking
I lift my hand
I feel the torrents of pain
Their flowing down my cheeks
I reach my hand out
I want to whisper his name
But this is all I know
On my last breath I whisper
*The mysterious dream man
May 2014 · 456
The final rap song
Livingdeadgirl May 2014
have you ever felt down
like you couldn't get back up
do you know someone like this
I do, I am like this
I've felt down, I never got back up
all I can say is **** this ****
they told me to get a grip, so I did
I got a solid grip on a handle
you see? the handle's end has a glint in the light
ain't it beautiful? I swear my grip's firm
people seein' me are screamin' and runnin'
I don't see why, I'm just smilin'
true, I may seem creepy to 'em
but I'm just bein' me, hatin' the world
this world ******* up, 'cause I'm here
they really ****** up an' now they're scared
they don't realize what they've unleashed
an' now they're gonna pay for their stupidity
I hold this gleamin' beauty in my hand
I raise it to my eye level in a deft motion
I bring it down, swiftly, and I sigh in relief
It's finally over, an' I'm just done
I made it, the final rap song
May 2014 · 552
Please
Livingdeadgirl May 2014
Where do you go
Where do you hide
Is your love to much
Is mine not enough
That you run
What do you fear
Can I help you
I see those tears
Are you just shy
I'm always here for you
Let me wipe your tears away
Let me hold you close
Can you love me
I'm already in love with you
Please don't cry
Let me be with you
I don't want to make you sad
Do you love me
I'm down on my knees
I may be one person
But I can be everything for you
Please just let me be that
Please be mine
I love you
Here's my heart
It beats for you
I may be a girl
But I want you to be my man
I have a very romantic heart and mind, but noone ever really appreciates this, and so, I have no experience in what I write, I really would appreciate feedback on my writings.
May 2014 · 846
Cruelty
Livingdeadgirl May 2014
You say I'm a ****
That I'm a worthless thing
But you don't know me
You took me for granted
You never really cared
You kept me down
But you still hurt me
I stayed quiet
I didn't know the voice I had
I didn't want to see or believe
You shattered my hopes and dreams
You left me there, bleeding and bruised
I stayed in the dark
I never fought back
I lied for you
Now lies are all I know
I didn't know I could speak
You certainly didn't give me the chance to
You came back and put me down again
I knew nothing but cruelty from you
May 2014 · 310
My dream date
Livingdeadgirl May 2014
The night is a raven
Flying overhead
Starless night
I lift my face up
I let the rain fall on me
Like tears on my bare skin
I smile and reach toward the sky
I fall back into the soft grass
I run my fingers over the dew
I start humming
Someone is humming with me
I reach out my hand
A hand clasps mine
I feel the strength in his touch
I pull him beside me
I feel his shoulders and chest moving slightly
I see him smiling
I hear him chuckling
I smile and look at the sky
I sigh, it's wonderful
It's my dream date
May 2014 · 1.1k
Noone cares anymore
Livingdeadgirl May 2014
Everyone tells me I can't
They all put me down
Does anyone know how to make it stop
Can anyone help me get up
Am I to stay down, all alone
Wait, oh, I forgot
You don't know me
You couldn't care less
So why do I keep talking
I tried to get your help
You know I've been there for you
So why aren't you there for me
Why do you keep faking
I've always been right here
You know me when you need me
But now I'm in need
So now you don't know me
I'm just a stranger
Until I get through this and you need me
So, what the hell kinda game are you playing
I'm invisible
Now I'm here
I can't be wonderwoman and superman
Why can't you help me
I help you, don't I
Even though you'd never admit it
All you can do is lie
To my face and behind my back
You don't care
You never really have
So here's my last testament
**Noone cares anymore
May 2014 · 293
Stupid s***
Livingdeadgirl May 2014
Okay, lets see
life ***** (but we all know that)
people laugh harshly (we've all done this once)
young can't think for themselves (heard this before?)
kids know it all (remember?)
good people die young (it always *****)
and we all go through life (are we puppets?)
the meek get ****** around (and everyone else never really cares)
everyone laughs at anothers pain (and it hurts when it's you)
life is full of BS (and we take it gladly)
And we continue with the stupid s* of life
May 2014 · 214
What is Love?
Livingdeadgirl May 2014
What is Love
People use the word
They don't know
It is so strong
They throw it around
They're careless
What's the meaning
Is it something you can touch
Is it good
Is it bad
Can I feel it
I know I sing about it
I listen about it
I want to know it
People seem pleased
I feel left out
Where can I find it
Who can show me
Will I like it
Can I see it
Does it hurt
What is it
What is Love
I want to know
I need help to find it
Who can help me
Will anyone help me find it
Is it in trust
Is it in the mind
Is it in the heart
Is it on this planet
Has anyone found it
What is Love
May 2014 · 240
No power over me
Livingdeadgirl May 2014
I hear the whispers
Like claws scratching
All in my head
They hurt
What they say is painful
They challenge me
I turn towards them
I stand, head held high
I look into their eyes
They see what they're doing
So I say what I feel
I yell, "F* you!"
They need to leave me alone
They push
They want in my head
I try to scare them
I find I already did
I have nothing left
I just yell
"F*
off!"
I don't give them power
They'll never be in control of me
They are insane if they think they can
I try to keep myself like the wind
Hard to catch
May 2014 · 334
Help me
Livingdeadgirl May 2014
I wanna cry
He had my heart
He kept a part of me
I wanna scream

Help me please
I need someone to love me
I need to love somebody
I need a real love

I wanna cry
I thought he loved me
I thought he was the one
I wanna scream

Help me please
I need someone to love me
I need to love somebody
I need a real love

I wanna cry
I wanna yell
I wanna weep
I wanna scream

Help me please
I need someone to love me
I need to love somebody
I need a real love

I wanna cry
My heart aches for love
Will someone help me
I wanna scream

Help me please
I need someone to love me
I need to love somebody
I need a real love

I wanna cry
I'll never be the same
He crushed my heart to dust
I wanna scream

Help me please
I need someone to love me
I need to love somebody
I need a real love
May 2014 · 378
Poems are....
Livingdeadgirl May 2014
Poems are art
                 Science
                       Things

Poems are life
                 History
                     Classes

Poems are English
                            Latin
                             Cultural

Poems are what they are
                                   Alliteration
                                              Spanish

Poems are metaphors
                                  Similes
                                       Literary devices

Poems are rhyme
                           Rhythm
                                Songs

Poems are meaning
                             Boldness
                                    Thought

Poems are classified
                             Outgoing
                                    Stressed

Poems are choice
                            Topic
                                Emotion

Poems are love
                         Hate
                              Sad

Poems are wanted
                            Needed
                                 Treasured

Poems are clear
                      Undiscribed
                               Everywhere

Poems are near
                          Far
                             Home

Poems are poems
                           Stories
                                Writings

Poems are literature
                           Memorable
                                             Safe
I wrote this for an english assignment in 9th grade.....
Apr 2014 · 313
The unwanted one
Livingdeadgirl Apr 2014
I am just a girl
I stay in the shadows
I keep my head down
noone wants me
noone knows I exsist
I go through my classes
usually I'm at the library
noone sees me
noone cares if I'm there
I sit in a corner and read
I read all the time
I don't want to go home
noone wants me there
I keep what I need hidden
noone notices what I do
I'm very keen
I've never been acknowledged
a stranger appears in front of me
he is looking at me
noone has ever looked at me
in a deep tone he said "Hi"
I smile, then he smiles
in a light tone I speak
"Hello, may I help you?"
it came out in a bit of a stammer
he shook his head no
he sat down anyway
we talked, and I tried to shake his hand
but he was a ghost
I smiled anyway
we talked for a long time after
Apr 2014 · 705
The unloved girl
Livingdeadgirl Apr 2014
I am 16
I am not loved
I try to love everyone
noone cares
I see through unblinking eyes
My mortal eyes are blind
deep down, I am no mortal
this is just a layer soon to be shed
one day, I might be loved
when I live forever
when I shed this layer for my beautiful self
maybe then I will be loved
loved as I love others
maybe then I'll find the guy I've longed for
when I'm immortal
I'll be everything I want to be
I'll walk
I'll truly see
I'll speak
maybe I'll finnally be loved
Apr 2014 · 261
Why does this happen?!?
Livingdeadgirl Apr 2014
We all are different
But why is something better
Why is it we get picked on
Why can't anyone just accept

I close my eyes
I plug my ears
I hide my tears
I cry silently, no one can hear

No one sees
No one listens
Everyone talks
Why does it happen to me

I hung out with the guys
The girls didn't like me
I am but a female
I don't understand what I supposedly did wrong

I'd run and hide
I cried violently
I distanced myself from girls
The guys were my refuge

I grew up rough
I mostly acted like a guy
I know what could happen
I know I'm physically strong

I wear some old shoes
I wear old blue jeans
I put on a guy's T-shirt
I do this cause it's comfortable

I try to smile
I'm nice, I can't stay mad for long
If I do, I feel ill
So I just stay sad

I hide in the library
I fold into myself
I don't want to feel anymore
I can taste the salty sadness and pain flowing down my cheeks

I feel the heavy load on my heart
I still don't understand
I try to be myself
Maybe that's the problem to people

I've thrown my glasses in frustration
I've tried to deal with it alone
I've never known how to make it stop
I wonder if someone has a stop button

Maybe if I just ignore them
Maybe I shouldn't stay here
I want to leave
Is there anywhere that's safe

I've tried talking to adults,
but there is always someone new I have to talk to
I just want it to end
Maybe I should just stay with the guys
I won't talk to the girls anymore

I'll talk to my friends
maybe they could help
but maybe they can't
I don't know

I'm just so tired
I'm too sad
I don't care
I don't have enough energy to care

If talking won't help
I'll just keep writing
Maybe one day I'll get rid of the salty sadness and pain
Maybe I'll get the energy back
I first put this up on a site called teenink... hope someone can get their own meaning and feeling from it....
Apr 2014 · 214
The Silent Thief
Livingdeadgirl Apr 2014
He came into my life
I held him near
He had his hands on my heart
But I couldn't see
I was blinded
He is the silent thief
He made me laugh
He made me smile
I trusted him
He came into my heart
He is the silent thief
He planned it all
He mapped it out
I love him dearly
He is the silent thief
He took my heart
He left me
I know not his name
He was and will always be
The Silent Thief

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