I swore I'd never let her go but I watched her walk away
Instead of chasing her I stood there with a frown upon my face
My head was full of shame and disgrace
The thought of failure,
Did I really make a mistake
My heart began to crumble as she got farther away
Move fool move why are you still standing in this place
I did not yet understand that it was already too late
For when I finally made it to her she already had a new mate

I do whatever I want
I do whatever I please
I don't give a **** about society
I want to be a player for the rest of my life
I want to **** a different ***** every night
I doubt anyone would care how I spend my time
After all it is my dime
Besides, the light don't shine in the hood these days
That's why I decided to live this way

Then she came
**** she just had to come

***** turned to woman and the hood life escaped me
That no way I'd be tied down **** was a thing of the past
Them eyes though...
I swear those things knew hypnosis
That smile was like a hurricane
Blew my *** a thousand miles away
I couldn't resist her
Not that I really wanted to
My body became paralyzed and my mind was finally made up

I need her
I had to have her
I just want to please her
She got me saying,"hallelujah thank ya jesus"
Thank you for placing this thing of beauty before me
When I finally said,"hey",  I couldn't believe it
She was just so nice and my heart just began to pound away
oh hell yes she gonna be mine this day
I don't care what I got to do, it's going to end up this way

It could be in the way
she smiles
while looking at me,
or in the laughter
of her eyes
hiding all that pain
that attracts me
from mine.

She makes me feel right,
sworn
to secrecy,
like out on patrol,
we have a silent code.

I tell her things
no one else knows,
and she tells me
similar things.

We are
buried
together,
her and I
on the same battlefield
of broken love,
ruptured.

I trust
in her kiss,
her parted moist lips,
and the way
she closes her eyes
when
I nip her.
It is explosive.

I remember sitting
around the tracks
with my comrades.
We were in rolling fields of clover
back then.
The doves that flew above us
had no clue
about our firepower.
We had .50 cals
and we picked our teeth
with splintered bone fragments.
To think
we even had the time
to smoke and joke
about our ridiculous nicknames
brings a smile
to my weathered-fface.
Moose was toothless,
lost them
to some drunk civilians
in a bar fight.
Wagner, the skinny one,
always cracked me up.
I miss McMinn's toothy-grin
and the way French
always wanted out,
constantly feighning his gayness.
Radosavich loved his rock and roll
and Flint sparkled from his hole
carved into the hillside.
Moore had chicks galore
and McLemore got his
divorce papers by airmail.
He went eerily silent
while Top barked ******* for us to do.
The Man was clueless,
but we protected his ***
anyways.
We had bills to pay.
I really miss those *******.
They were the best friends that ever were.

I live inside my head
as much as I can.
As it seems to be,
to be
the only safe place
these days.

Summer love
is hot like
bold salsa
and Winter love
warms my bones.
Spring love is fresh
like organic-fingers,
the taste is quite
intoxicating.
I am always
Falling in love,
seeking fresh air,
her sacred wind
to fill my lungs.

I don't care about my reputation.
I am who I am.
And I don't hide to cover my pain,
I can tell you all about.
I've been to places and seen things
most people wouldn't believe.
But I know
that doesn't make me any better
than anyone else.
It just makes me more gracious.
I love the human soul
and I adore real angels
and I can't help it
when someone sweet
comes around,
I want to hold onto them forever,
because I know forever
is a ******* fairy tale.