The more time I spend,
The more I talk,
The fear that the spark will fade,
That we will grow apart,
And you won't like me,
As I like you.

To someone dear,
Who warms my heart every time I see that smile,
I don't know what I would have done without you,
And where I would be if we didn't meet,
For saving me after my lowest point,
And for that I thank you so,
So please don't go,
As I don't think I could cope.

Trying to rectify other people mistakes,
When I have my own,
Trying to help people's love life,
When my own is non existent,
Trying to save people's lives,
When your own is on the edge,
I don't know when this will end.

We have seen kingdoms rise,
Empires fall,
Ideologies grow,
Fear spread,
But with all this knowledge,
Comes so much failure,
As we keep on repeating the same mistakes.

Am I always going to be like this,
Constantly longing,
For your touch,
Your Love,
When i'm around you,
I feel real,
Alive,
Soam I a fool to be in love with you?

I don't know what's going on,
Every step seems harder,
As if there is more weight,
Do you expect me to be okay,
When you can see the pain,
As if it was written across my face.

What if I told you,
It was a drug,
Would you look at me differently,
Would you be disappointed,
Would you still care,
About someone who just falls back on his vices,
Getting high to numb the pain,
Would you?

We live in a world,
That's run by suits,
That's run by Corporations,
And we never see the real picture,
we are all puppets on a piece string.

Taxation what is it good for,
When it goes to a government,
That doesn't represent us,
The people.  

Land, Resources,
Consumerism,
We are becoming more power hungry,
Whilst we are losing our values,
Our respect.

The world around.
How long can we live,
When this world of ours,
Is dying.

The power has always been in our hands,
We just have to realise that we have to use it.

Your lie has transformed you,
You made a catfish of yourself,
Giving someone support and comfort,
when you were crumbling,
Now they've come to see the real you,
And has come to think that they are the problem,
When you now,
Was just the same you before,
The lie you span has come back around,
And now you're caught up in you're own web.

The scars on my body,
Dont represent my pain,
Or my suffering,
Beneath each one is a story,
Of how it took me to get here.

On the outside,
I look like every over wall,
Strong and stable,
But really I'm broken,
I let people in,
So that they can confide in me,
Building their walls with my one bricks,
Piece by piece seeing myself fade,
I can't even recognise myself anymore.

When have I ever said I'm great,
And actually ever meant it,
Someday I'll wonder if I'll ever actually be alright,
It feels live I've capsized,
And can't get out,
I'm breaking myself down to build other people up,
It's feeling that there will be nothing left,
Emotions aren't felt,
Feeling weaker,
Is there even a point.

Drifting through,
Taken away by the stream,
Not knowing how far I've gone,
Or how to go back,
Vulnerable,
Lost,
Alone,
No path to go down,
Nowhere to go,
Slowly sinking,
Only when I've hit will I know,
how far I've drowned.

Whe spend our lives limited,
Living over the same routine,
Day in day out,
And for what gain?

So today I'm stepping out of that box.

I think I'm falling for you,
And now I think you know,
But I don't think we know,
What that truly means for us,
I feel that now I can love again,
But I can't see myself with anyone but you,
This isn't  going to end well,
That I know for sure,
But thats what happens,
When friendships on the line.

I can't define you,
As you are more than just a word to me,
You picked me up when I was down,
And turned my life around,
I don't what you are to me,
I don't think I ever will,
So I guess I'm just indecisive about you.

The same look in your eyes,
As if you see him in me,
I don't if it's you just missing him,
Or that there's something their,
Hidden beneath them brown eyes,
And the cracks in my heart.

Nothing is the same,
The game has changed,
I don't know what i want to do,
Check or fold,
As it may just be a bluff,
And i don't feel like I like these odds,
If y heart is going to be on the line.

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There is a breaking point,
Not normally seen,
Never heard,
When people can't control themselves anymore,
When all emotion pours out,
Uncontrollable and inevitable,
This is a time of vulnerability,
And sometimes they just need a helping hand.

You are slowly losing  yourself,
But you don't see it,
I don't want to watch you fall apart,
But you just won't listen,
Every day it gets worse,
You won't let me help you,
Blocking me out,
When you realise,
I'll be gone.

I've got my own life to live,
I'm gonna be the one to die,
When its time to die,
So let me live my own life.

Where is my mind,
I'm not dreaming,
But I'm not living,
Always taking one step forward,
Then two steps back,
I'm becoming lost in my own thoughts,
As my emotions are taking over,
I've never felt before,
As my Heart was always cold,
Know I feel the warmth,
I have lost myself.

I was there when you were at your weakest,
Always their to pick up the pieces,
To you it was everything,
To me it was nothing,
I only did it to see you happy,
That was all the help that I needed,
We have now grown older,
Something has changed between us,
Like there is a spark,
That we've never felt before,
Question is will this spark turn into a fire?

I'm not afraid of death,
Not anymore,
Because what do I have to lose,
If I didn't have anything to start with.

Life is full of possibilities,
But most of them all end in pain,
Look at the light at the end of the tunnel,
But you can never find the light,
When the tunnel is never ending.

We live in a world where people want to **** each other,
For religon for land or an ideology,
Then why aren't we called the animals,
Because we haven't evolved from them.

So when people say life has a purpose,
But purpose is only a two syllable word,
That makes people believe they have a reason to live,
But I don't want there to be a reason I just want to make a statement.

Every year,
Every month,
Every day,
Every hour,
Every minute,
Every second,
Time fades fast
The older I get,
The closer to death,
I fear I Haven't lived enough,
All I want with my time thats left,
Is to look at that smile on your face,
Because that is the moment I feel complete.

You made me feel something,
For the first time in years,
Separated me from the void,
With words of kindness and love,

But that love was full of empty promises,
And now my hearts in two,
Its okay that your fine,
But for me its like I'm being cheated on take two.

The lines are starting to blur know,
I feel like there always could be something more,
All I want to do is find out,
But I doubt I ever will.

I wish I could control them,
But for me its like a switch,
Either they are there,
Or there are none at all,
When I have them I wish I didn't,
As my love is always placed in the wrong hearts,
Who don't feel the same for me,
All I can do is wish the best for them,
And love them from afar,
As I will just get hurt.

From across the room,
I saw you and only you,
As if I could feel your heart beating,
But I realise it was mine,
Breathless there was no words to describe you,
As if only you and me were there,
Nothing else mattered,
The glint in your eye when you looked at me I knew,
This may be the one.

Forgive me lord,
For I have sinned,
Her touch I couldn't resist,
Her voice screaming out my name,
Echoing through my skull,
The warm embrace of her body on mine,
Touching,
Feeling,
As if nothing could stop the bond,
The tension,
And the passion that was between us,
So do I follow want my heart longs for,
Or what my soul needs.

You said you needed someone,
So I was there again,
To try and pick up the pieces,
To try and rekindle our flame,
Of a love that was once broken,
Can be reborn again,
Because I loved you I let you go,
But know its time to hold you in my arms again,
As my love for you never went,
And now I hope you feel the same.

You abuse me because I joke,
Then you think I find pleasure,
In your pain,
And that no one is on your side,
As if anyone was ever on mine,
I was gonna tell you something,
Important to you and not to me,
She truly loves you dude,
And these words are now turning to ash,
In my mouth,
You think I'm like him,
Someone who never gave a **** to apologise,
But the second I try,
You tell me to go away,
Then little by little you tear everything away from me,
And then you think that is fair,
About one joke and two sentences,
I think you're the one who needs to open their eyes.

There is a fire burning,
And I can't move my eyes,
Even when there are no embers,
It burns in me,
So I embrace it,
As the flame cleanses my sin,
And burbs away my love,
So be ready for the ash,
As its your turn now to pick up the pieces.

Trust,
I thought I could share that with you,
But know,
I don't know if I can trust anyone,
Not even myself,

I feel like I'm the monster here,
Even though I didn't go back on my word,
If only you could see in my head,
You'll know why I feel as I do,
I can't trust myself around you,
And now I can't trust you.

Time goes fast,
We all see life,
In how much we have left,
However I'm looking forward,
Making a step at a time,
Living my life going forwards,
As if time was no object,
Live life in the moment,
Otherwise you won't spend your life living.

Blank,
The thoughts in my head,
Slowly begin to fade,
With no sleep,
I don't know,
If this is a dream,
Or if it's reality,
I'm more lost then found,
Reaching for the light,
That begins to fade,
As the void covers my eyes,
And takes me deeper.

I want to care for you,
But now the line is starting to blur,
Lust is overpowering me,
I can't hold back,
I don't think I can help myself,
I care and love you more than anyone will,
And all I want is the taste of your lips again.

I try to define you,
But there is no way I can anymore,
You bring joy,
You bring pain,
The word is edged into us all,
But no one knows what it means,
They only can feel.

People scare me,
They feel so much,
When they know so little,
They try to control,
When they can't do it themselves,
Love or destruction,
Both are the same they just are different words,
One mans Hero is another ones villain,
With this mentality no wars can be won,
And now everything that's is done,
Can't be undone.

I slipped,
I fell,
But you weren't there to hold me,
Alone again,
Feeling nothing but pain,
Your voice couldn't even smooth me,
I lashed out because you gave me no choice,
It was me or him,
I don't want you to leave,
But you don't want to stay,
I don't want to hold you,
If you love someone let them go,
If you love someone let them go,
If you love someone let them go,
But when they go,
They may never come back.

You can feel me,
when we are no touching,
hear me,
when there are no words to be said,

You keep coming back to me,
you write my mind,
think what i think,
scribble at me when in pain,

Tear slowly at my heart,
tear slowly at my soul,
my life is just a book of pages,
waiting to be ripped apart.

I wanted to feel you,
Let you know all I'm feeling is true,
I wanted to see your perspective,
So I could finally see the light from your eyes

So I'll wait for you,
Stand behind all your decisions,
I will respect how you feel,
And love you from afar

It feels like I'm drowning,
slowly going deeper,
I can't swim,
but i can slowly disappear,
as i hit the surface,
I think of your warm embrace,
but what is warm
when your being drowned in your own tears?