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Louisa Coller Sep 2023
I've tempted my rebellious mind,
But I lost my sense of wrong and right.
That can be abused in a world,
of white/black thinking.
Learning to be an adult,
Not a kid innit.

I don't want to be the right and wrong,
I'm a deep grey mush trying to grow up.
Your poison filled me, like a sadistic goodbye,
I'm sick and tired of wasting my own time.

Hold them closer, people ask me,
But I ain't here to suffocate nobody.
Try to analyse my life with checklists,
But I'm managing fine, just let me.

Not everything can be written down,
I just wanted to learn to let it all out.
I feel like a fool living in this game,
I wonder how much my palms will take.
Louisa Coller Sep 2023
I thought I was strange for smelling the flowers, but now I understand your bitter taste.

Hope, love and grief swam by with the sound of memories in my brain, yet the scent of your words felt sour and cold.

I hope you found your sunflower amongst the sky, but I hope you know I won't let you water mine.
Louisa Coller Sep 2023
I give my heart the best I can,
Fluttering my feathers inside with glee,
Yet when I speak it is met with me - Silence.

A long everlasting love affair,
Working hard each day with a new pain,
Yet when I speak it is met with me - Silence.

A family tree extended consistently,
A new face along with a name,
Yet when I speak it is met with me - Silence.

You want me to express myself?
I'm sorry, your light and heart is important,
Yet when I speak, I've just learned not to,
I'm giving up not on myself, but you.
Louisa Coller Sep 2023
No matter what,
The thousands of words,
The millions of poems,
I will always fall in love,
With love itself.
Louisa Coller Sep 2023
I got red lipstick, dedicated to my old ways of a diva,
your there, with a cheek full of blush, darkened eyes.
It's like magic, feeling this intoxicated love, wow.

Your kisses are all over my mind, I just want them,
I want to feel your chest like, let me linger, let me touch your heart,
kiss me until I'm dead, poison me violently tonight.

I feel like I just turn this all on like streetlights,
or a blaze among this wind, rip my life into an inferno,
drinking isn't fun without a friend, I just want you here again,
I can't remember the clock tower's chimes when my mind is in awe.

Church bells ring, they must sound like needles within your heart,
for me it's something new, a fun experience and an adventure,
I want to kiss you as well, my mind is in a daze but I don't care,
it's okay if it's a mistake, I'll enjoy it, it's a part of the fun.

I just want to know the boy laying within this man,
I feel if life was different we could, find a new little secret talk,
something that could take over this world, but you won't let me turn it up.

I understand I can be wrong, my decisions are terrible,
but my taste, it's a fine watery Merlot, coated in sicking fun,
I know I can be wrong, but the fun it remains and I want you there.

Drinking isn't fun without a friend.
Louisa Coller Sep 2023
Toy
She tells me,
"You're not a toy to be played with".
But for him,
I really am.

To be stretched thin,
Thrown and screamed for and most of all
Broken and left for the wolves.
Louisa Coller Sep 2023
I breathe, resting my head,
The peace and tranquility.

My heart is beating,
My mind is chasing away.

For someone like me rarely runs,
Towards someone shiny and new.

You were an exception my heart made,
Even when others questioned me why.

So many people asked,
Why I wanted to stay?

It's because they don't see you,
The same way that I do.

Bright, bubbly and full of bliss,
I wish and hope for more of this...
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