He asked me to marry him
But he hated himself

Whats wanted isn't always needed
What's needed isn't always wanted

If you've had a father
Who didn't really care
Then just look up above
As your heavenly fathers there
He really cares for you
So much
His life he freely gave
Hoping you would turn to him
To allow you to be saved
He made it very simple
All he asks of us to do
Is repent of all our worldly ways
follow him our whole lives through
His love it is
so gentle
Everlasting always there
He does not want us suffering
Hurt pain nor despair
He's even left directions
In his holy book
That we should get to know him
All he asks is take a look
Not forcefull nor demanding
is this father take your time
Like myself you may resist him
But now he's placed his hand in mine
Each day now I walk with him
I've found a love I never knew
Could be so overwhelming
Unconditional
and true
So if your feeling sad and worn
Humanity your plight
No need to suffer anymore
Walk from that dark
Into the light.

If a raindrop was a kiss
I would give them all away
If the sunlight was a smile
I would share them every day
If the stars were positive thoughts
I would sprinkle them with glee
If the wind could spread my love
I'd give it all abundantly

A poets channels must remain free
No room to accommodate adversary

A poets mind must remain clear
No room to accommodate slander~ fear

A poets heart must remain sincere
No room to accommodate those who leer

A poets spirit is like a fire that burns with passion
As the flame grows higher

No room to accommodate jealousy or doubt
Nor those who wish to put that flame out

A poets thoughts like artistic vapour
Reflect the soul as they land on paper
Poets are chosen to illustrate
Words others need to delegate

Poets are sensitive an extraordinary breed
Adversary provokes the heart to bleed
When angers felt or a mocking tone

So think before you cast that stone ...........

Our love~ reflects the beauty of the moon
On darkened seas

Our love~ echos the sights of fallen leaves
From barren trees

Our love~ healed my heart eliminating all my fears
So many precious memories
Days and hours turned to years

Our love~ grew and shone like the sun
On summer days

Our love~ captured my soul ~ our world~for a while
A blissful daze

Our love~ so strong~ so beautiful~ connecting deeper than the sea

Religion our divide

My love


Now it's Time

To set   you.    ~ ~   free

A happy heart
Is an honest heart
It dances with the sun

No hatred found
No battles fought
No wars to be won

A happy heart is giving
Loving to the core
Forgiving all  Discrepancies
That happened long before

It radiates the joy of life
Turns darkness into light

{A happy hearts contented}

Like a star *

It shines so bright ~

Too bold
Too loud
Too pushy
Too proud
Too disruptive
Too rude
Too obnoxious
Far too crude
It changes behaviour
Stop n think
Before you take
Too much too drink!!

When tomorrow starts without me
And no longer do I see
If the sun should rise
Then find your eyes are
Filled with tears for me
Do not let your heart be troubled
Nor be filled with dismay
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say

For I know how much you love me
As much as I love you
I only hope you realise
How much I'll miss you too

When tomorrow starts without me
Don't think we're far apart
As that's not true
I'm still right there
Next to your beating heart

I promise I haven't left you
It's just a journey that's begun
Life holds so many facets
The earth is only one

Just think of me as resting
From all suffering pain and fears
In a place of warmth and comfort
Where there are no days or years

When tomorrow starts without me
Smile for me ~just look above
Have faith ~for I'm in heaven
Surrounded by gods love

I gave you a key
Don't lose it
It's to my heart
Don't abuse it
I'm giving you my time
Appreciate it
I'm giving you my mind
Please read it
I'm giving you my soul
Please touch it
I'm giving you  my body
Please cherish it
I'm giving you my love
Please treasure it
Now here are my words
I love you ...........

Allow me to write you poetry
That will touch your spirit within
That will wake your heart
Your mind
Your soul
Cause those lips to grin

Allow me to express my feelings
For you in such a way
That captivates and motivates
You
To say what you want to say

Allow me to sing you a love song
While i unlock those chains
That bind
Please let me in I'll quietly share
In the silence of your mind

Allow me to paint a picture
That will haunt your Morose gaze

Allow me to know and love you

Let me find one hundred ways.

All that glitters is not gold
All you hear is not the truth
All you want is not required
All the waste it shows the proof
All the time that you've been given
All the things you should have said
All the times you could  have loved
All the times you fought instead
All the opportunities you missed
All the days you chose to waste
All the decisions not thought through
All the times you'd act in haste
All the things that really mattered
Allthe times you never cared
All the times you didn't listen
All those times you never shared
All because you chased the rainbow
The material gains you'd rather hold
All the time to loves been lost
All that glitters is not gold .................

You are the air that I breath
My calm in a storm
My light in the dark
My right when I'm wrong
My guide when I'm lost
My night and my day
My rock when I'm troubled
My guide who shows the way
My one trusted friend On whom I depend
My alpha
My omega
My Begining
My End

Our relationship Now a memory
Our love a distant stranger
We held hands
Touched hearts
Entwined souls
For a while
But now
It's time
To move on
It was not in vain
We have enriched each others lives
Sewn beautiful memories
Into the tapestry of our lives
Like a caged dove I must allow you to fly
Be happy my love
You were never really mine
I wish only the best for you
Always..........

(You look so lost )

Like a ship sailing aimlessly
Lost in oblivion
Solitude becoming its closest friend

(Your mind)

Like a clouded day intermittently
Showing a glimmer
Of the sun

Where have you gone dad

Somewhere in a far off land
From which there is no return

I touch your hand calling your name
You respond with confusion
Anger and fear
Who are you ? You ask
When I explain
You deny me once again
All those years of love and memories wiped
Just as the tears from my face

I see you
But no longer do you see me
My heart aches longing to reconnect
I stand     hug you goodbye

Then you say my name
We both cry
Today for us the sun has shone again........

No words that I shall ever speak
Will ever let you know

How much it's meant
To have you in this life
I've come to know

No action I could ever take
Could show you
Or repay

The things you've done
So selflessly
Each and every day

No other person that I've met
touched my heart
The way you do

I could travel this whole world over
Never to find someone like you

Your mind is filled with the kindest thoughts
Your words speak though very few

Impact on all who hear them
Reflecting the heart of you

You give so much abundantly
Ask for nothing in return

If only we could have more time
Together
I would learn

Material gain is worthless
It aims to make us blind

To all the things that matter
After all it's left behind

You've taught me
Oh so many things
Especially how to love

No limits nor restrictions
Freely given from above

As you took your first breath
I held mine !
Closing my eyes
I said is everything fine?
------------------------------
There was a pause
You let out a yell
I knew by your sound
All was well
I asked could I hold you
My bundle of joy
Then I said
What is it?
A girl or a boy
--------------------
I didn't mind
At least you were here
Stroking your hand
Feeling you near
I held you close
To my beating heart
Never wanting us ever
To be apart
Lovingly I stared at those rosebud lips
I traced your face
With my finger tips
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I counted your fingers
Then your toes
Smiled as I touched
Your cute little nose

This love unique
Beyond any other
The day that I became

Your Mother .......

One glance
~~~~~~~
One touch
~~~~~~~
My heart sings
Protecting
With love
Like Angels

;( WINGS );

Today I met a stranger
Who asked me for some help
And when I pondered should I
His smile made my heart melt
His request though rather simple
Made me think have I got time?
But after I had helped
He simply put his hand on mine
He told me he'd been asking
Lots of others who walked by
I looked at him and noticed
A tear drop in his eye
He thanked me for my kindness
Then slowly he walked on
I turned around to smile and wave
But suddenly he'd gone
A feeling of warmth washed over me
All at once I realised
I'd just met an angel !
An angel in disguise ........

Angels come in many forms
There when times are tough
There when we feel sorrow
When we feel we've had enough
They may not present with feathered wings
Nor have the power to fly
But don't despair
They are still there
They'll never pass you by
They may reach you
Through a stranger
Who suddenly appears
Or through a friend
Who unexpectedly calls
You've not seen for years
They may appear in your garden
As a robin day to day
When you need them
They are with you
They are never far away

Your hands they care -with such gentleness
Your willing heart gives -with such tenderness

Your eyes they speak to my soul direct
With that familiar glance
Your aim to protect

Such warmth such calm
Your love brings

(Surrounding me like angels wings)

There's so many paths I've walked along
So many mountains  that I've climbed
So many times that I've stumbled
I've fallen so many times
But now I am ready to listen
As I seek a quiet place
To bow down in your presence
Humbled by your grace
My heart and mind is open
To the acceptance of your love
I ask that you will guide me
In your ways from above
The desires of my loving heart
To this world release
Please use me as your vessel
As an instrument of  thy peace

My eyes have captured so many visions of you
The way you smile
How beautifully you dance
I see your heart
It's so gentle and white in the purest form

Your strength is relentless
Your determination always prevalent

My eyes have captured so many visions of you
I've had the honour
The time
To watch you grow
My aim was to guide you
To teach you
Yet you have taught me so much more
Your energy
Humour
Fun
Intelligence
Shines like the brightest star

My eyes have captured so many visions of you
From the first day I held you
And each night since
I have watched you sleep
Stroked your beautiful face
Wishing all the best for you
Hoping all your dreams will come true
Being your mother
Has been the greatest blessing
As I remember each moment
Treasured Memories
My eyes capturing so many visions of you
Painting daily........
A portrait of my love ~

A darkened sky displays twinkling lights
In the form of stars
On this memorable night
As I look above
I stop n stare
Wonder if  ?your somewhere up there

Way up high looking down below
I miss you a lot
Do you know?

I think of you often
As I look above
Call out loud
Where are you my love?!!

I bought a star
It has your name
Now your memories not in vain
You've now gone from me
It's not the same
This life
It's hard
Just feel pain

Each day slowly passes by
I wipe away
The tears I cry

I remember our life- together
Our love
Then wonder
Can you see me ?
Hear me ?

My love..............

I speak the word failure
with a heavy frown
To fail is not~ in the falling
But in the~ staying down

The poet is the artist
Who illustrates what others feel
He paints  his words
On canvas
For the audience
To reveal

A shadows cast upon me
Escape  cannot be found
Haunting memories of love
Echoes loud in silent sound

I close my eyes to sleep
But your smile
haunts my mind
No peace within
No rest awaits
Escape I cannot find

A shadows cast upon me
How do I separate you
From me
My heart is bound
Not free but locked
It's you
Who holds the key

Your presence saturates my life
Seeps through each and every sense
Overpowering my identity
Still feel you
It's intense
Burdened by activity
Of recordings of the mind
A shadows cast upon me
Escape I cannot find

My aim is to love
As gently as a snowflake  that falls
* * * * * * * *
To be as graceful
To be as pure in mind
And in thought
As inspiring
As elegant
* * * * * * * *
My aim is
To remember
That I have been created
As all of us have
Unique * *
As the snow flake that falls
* * * * * * * * * * * * *

Each new vision of a sunset inspires a glimmer of hope
Illuminating the depths of darkness
Reminding us of the availability
Freely given by mother nature
Encouraging us to nurture the soul
By finding peace and tranquility
Resting in the palm of such beauty

He sat alone looked blank and stared
Unaware that someone cared

I watched him look at people go by
Then a teardrop fell from his eye

I wondered then
What I should do
I was also a stranger he never knew

Didn't want to infringe upon his space
But he looked up and stared me in the face

I smiled at him
Kindness in my eyes
He then smiled back
To my surprise


I asked if he'd like to join me then
No longer a stranger
He's now my freind

An opportunity by chance
Arose just by a tender glance

Silence the mind
Switch off the phone
Disconnect the computer
Steal time alone
Listen intently
What's your find
Is it peace, tranquility
Have you silenced the mind?
Take a deep breath
Now be aware
Of your own essence
The life source of air
Dwell on your presence
Relish in it til
You've silenced the mind
And the art
To be still

What is it about a waterfall
That makes us stand and stare ?
The sight it brings an inner peace
Such tranquility standing there
The sound of the trickling waters
Flowing gently
Down the stream
The intricate rock formations
Arranged so perfectly in between
Such overwhelming beauty
Displayed for all of us to see
Mother nature whispers silently
Best things in life
Are free .................

Be true to oneself
Not a follower of man
------------------
Be not a slave
To ones mind
---------------------
Believe that you can
----------------------
Be brave ~take risks
Only then will you see
-------------------------
Being true to oneself
Will then set you ~~free
-------------------

A friendship formed from the start
I looked beneath
I saw her heart
No malice found
Just love and grace
Though sadness
Reflected upon her face

She had no friends
She lived alone
Her weight ballooned
To 30 stone
Her house unkempt
In disary
Her life a struggle
Every day

Lots of children
Who lived by
Through rocks and sticks
They made her cry
They laughed at her
Called her names
Bullying
One of there favourite games

She did look different
I agree
From the average
Person that we see
But she held a lesson
For us all
Don't judge by appearance
This lessons tall

I wondered why
We ever met
Each second spent
With no regret

As I now reflect
It's plain to see
The lesson learned
Was meant for me


To look beyond

What the minds eye told

As deep within

Was a heart of gold

I saw a man the other day
His face was sad and worn
His breath it wreaked of alcohol
His clothes disheveled torn

He stumbled around in a drunken daze
His eyes looked through my bewildered gaze
My heart was heavy he did not see
His long lost child
"Didn't recognise me"!

People laughed
People stared
No one helped him
No one cared
It left me wounded
Feeling sad
They did not know
He was my dad ..........

Careless whispers cause despair
Idle gossip everywhere
Tongue of venom
Do you not know !?
Hurtfull words cause pain and woe
Like a stone cast into a silent lake
Disturbing peace doth silence  make
Cleanse thy heart
Purify thy mind
Words then to follow
Speak of healing  kind
Mans last hour to him unknown
So think before you cast that stone

I waited for your call tonight
You said that you would ring
I have come to the conclusion
Your words don't mean a thing

I read through all your letters
With disappointment and contempt
It was then that I decided
To go to where they'd been sent

I knocked the door n waited
In the hope that you'd be there
Instead there stood a woman
With long blonde curly hair

I asked her who she was
She said she was your wife!
I felt  my whole world shatter
It pierced through me like a knife

100 miles of hell
As I made the journey home
I now know  that your a cheater
So leave me the hell
Alone !

Is that the time ? Oh no I'm late
There's the postman at the gate
Wash the dishes/ mop the floor
Feed the cat
Lock the door
Too much to do
I must run
No time for rest!
No time for fun!
Where's my keys?
My mobile phone?
Just can't wait til I get home!
Put my feet up
At the end of the day
Have a glass of wine
Chase the blues away
Need to relax
Just can't beat
Coming home
After work
And put up your feet

I smile and hope it doesn't slip
Laugh wondering if you detect
My act
I'm a master
You ask how I am
I lie n say I'm doing great
I feel uncomfortable
Squirming inside
Desperate to be in solitude
Once again
Trusting only me
With my reall thoughts safely tucked away
In the corners of my mind
Only then can I be at one with myself
I don't owe you anything
Let me be....

A bridge made of love

From the beginning

Separates those passed on

From the land of the living ........

So many things in life we see
Are an illusion of reality
Our young no longer taking place
At the dinner table
Now there's just a space

While  many parents sleep
The children are awake

Heads buried deep

theres a spell they can't  break

Even in the morning
As I drive my child to school
I see no conversation
That would break their spell
And rule
There's earphones in their sockets
iPhones in their hand
They are not here
Their under the spell of the illusion
Of our land

Their way of chat is to tap a screen
Holding many secrets in between
So much time stolen never
to be seen

Their in another world- almost like a dream


What can be done what can we say
Reality seems so far away

I saw you today
Dressed in the dreaded colour black!
You were hiding behind those sun shades
Your 2 kids clinging to you
My heart was heavy
I wanted to scoop you all up on a cloud
Somewhere safe from him!
I felt helpless
Knowing the inner turmoil of your mind had turned  inside out
It was there reflected in the colour black
I love you all
I am your friend
I with the power of love
Will inject the colour white  -reflecting freedom
Tranquility harmony n peace
Into your life
I will not be far away
He shadows you with his dark devious ways
Hates me.?     I know
Because I eclipse him with my light   My laugh 'my love of life'

Hold on
Your not alone in this
I have lit your pathway.    Follow me.  Your friend.

Don't tell me that you love me
Just can't bear it anymore

Don't tell me that you love me
Heard it many times before

Don't tell me that you love me
They're just words
Please just go

It's your actions
That I'm after
Only they will really show

That your genuine
That you need me
That your really here to stay
So please show me don't just say it

Change
Or please do just walk away

The question is not
Do you still love me ?

Rather

Did you ever?!!!

I've just read the story of Adam and Eve
It's what I've been told
We should all believe

But I'm not very sure
If its actually true
What do you think?
I so wish I knew

I've been told to have faith
To get down and pray
Be gratefull. To god
For each passing day

But im finding it difficult
Because of things that I see
Cruelty  ,suffering  , great poverty!
"If god is so caring"
Loving and kind

Then why?
Is it happiness is so hard to find?
Why so many religions?
Differing veiws
Are they there for what reason?
They only confuse
Causing so much
Conflict , Bitterness  ,unrest ,

Requesting even the most loving
Be put to the test
I've come to the conclusion
Even if it's not true

That there's really no god
It's just me n you
I've nothing to lose
But continue to pray

For all that read this poem
Each passing day
As there may be a chance
That the devils deceived ?

"All of mankind"
So have faith
Just believe .......

To embrace life
We must participate
Rather than be the audience
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
To embrace life
We must read each chapter
Rather than be the author
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
To embrace life
We must join the dance
Rather than stand and stare
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
To embrace life
We must love one another
As time waits for no one
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I watch you from my window
Admiring the veiw
I'm careful you don't see me youd be angry if you knew
I found this town you live in
I really like it here
Could not separate us
I moved here to be near


I watch your wife and children
They look happy as they play
You thought that you could leave me
Moved 400 miles away
This affairs not over
The battle not been won
You have ties with me -always

(Forever)
"I have your son"!

I heard your key in the door
Smelt your fragrance waft up the stairs
I felt your embrace
Held you close never wanting to let go
A smile spread across my lips
My heart raced
I switched on the bed lamp
And saw your note realising you'd gone
My blood ran cold
Realisation set in
Tears fell
Encompassed by loneliness
Imaginary tricks now enveloping the mind
How did it come to this
Your now insignificant
A figment of my imagination ..........

Painted my nails
Painted my toes
Put on my lipstick
Powdered my nose
Plucked my eyebrows
Curled my hair
Can't decide
What to where?!
Should I wear jeans?
Or perhaps a dress
I'm very nervous
I must confess
Butterflies in my stomach
Another drink
Drunk too much
Now I can't think
Will he like me
Will he not
My front door key
Oh no I forgot !
What time is it?
My god I'm late!
Don't you just hate
Going on a first date ?

Another chapter
Another day
As I keep record
Of what I want to say

There's poems
I've written
Photographs too
Of each memory I've treasured
Of me and you

There's loving advice
On every page
From the start of your life
Through to each new stage

I've looked well ahead
It's all in hand
Took great measures
In all that I planned

Can't leave it to chance
As I really don't know
If I will still be around
To watch you grow

So I made a promise
And started to write
And my heavy load
All at once
Became light

It's my loving duty
The least I can do
To remind you of us
Our love
Me and you

I'm hoping you'll
Treasure each page that you see
As much as I've valued
Your time spent
With me

The book i have written
Is carefully tied
With a pink satin ribbon
Damp from tears that I've cried

I hope you won't need it
That I will still be here
To lovingly guide you
And banish all fear
If fate intervenes

And shows we must part
"Remember "
"Each memories left"
Footprints in my heart. ! ..........