We must all learn
To forgive
As this path
Shall be
Walked on
By all of us
At the end
Of life's busy road

Need to scream
Need to shout
Vent my anger
Let it out
Need to walk
Need to pace
Bury my head
Hide my face
Take a breath
Take control
Too much
Stress
Taking its toll
Need to sleep
To get away
Remember
Tomorrows another day

Another day over
Time for bed
As I plan for the next day
That lies ahead
But I can't yet sleep
Too much on my mind
Peacefull sleep
I Cannot find
Till I've written
My poetry
That I must write
It's almost as if
I can't say goodnight
Til the last word is written
Emptied out of my head


Only then
Can I think

Sleep
It's now time for bed.

The time of your passing etched in my mind
Like a branding iron
It Sears through my heart
As the pain of your loss
Encompasses my soul in limbic state
I search for parts of you to keep
That death may not steal
In a box I place your ring with a lock of your hair
A receipt from the last place we went
Where we exchanged smiles
sharing the closest bond of love

Then ~~your touch was warm
As comforting as the sun
Your energy ~was always gentle and light
As a distant breeze
Oh how I hanker after your essence
Each passing day
The gap widens between us
As I grapple to find ways to not let you go
I stand alone in deep solitude
Finding comfort only in the refuge of the bed
Where you last lay

Breathing your last breath
As I comforted you
Watching the clock
knowing
No other could ever love me
As you did so beautifully
Thanking you gratefully

My inspirational mother

Pink balloons
Glitter nails
Glossy lips
Fairy tales
Frilly dresses
Pigtails with bows
"I have a secret"
No one knows!
Flowery handbags
Sweet perfume
"Can't keep  it in "
Need to tell you soon!
Sparkly jewellery
Ballet shoes
"I know what you're about to lose"
"Tell me the secret I here you shout"?
Ok
''Closets open."       I'm coming out!!!  .....

When I hear the wind howling an enchanted melody
Like a magnetic force It commands my spirit
Draws me in intensively

There's something rather spiritual
Echoing from its sound
My thoughts they're governed led to think
Of those lost
Never found
As I hear the high pitched wailing
An eerie silence echos low
I feel the the hair stand on my neck
Spine tingling chills run slow
Captivated then entranced stunned rooted to the ground
Theres something Rather haunting
Echoing those lost

"It's in the sound"!

You have just crossed into my world of thoughts
Your able to read what's in my mind
Right now
This very second as I write
Spooky isn't it?
All done in the click of a button
One second ago you never new of my very existence
Now you know my name
Our time paths crossing
Even if you don't comment or connect with me again
I'll remember you gratefully
For sharing your valuable time and reading my words
We are of like minds
Understanding the power of the spoken word
We are connected in more ways than one
Hello ..........

J ust being in your presence
E very passing day
S hould  we but fall to sin your word helps guide us all the way
U nconditional your offer to us your heart of love
S uch sacrifice and suffering for all from up above

She looked so smart
Oh how she's grown
How these years have quickly flown
As we arrived at the gates
I looked at those eyes
Full of wonder apprehension surprise
You'll be ok
I heard myself say
You'll see your friends
You'll have a good day
Reassured I kissed her cheek
Hiding from her
My urge to weep
Another chapter now unfolds
More memories to treasure
To have to hold
There locked in my heart
Forever to stay
Looking forward
Tomorrows another day
I hope she's ok
I'm sure she'll be fine
I tell myself over and over in my mind
I'd like to wrap her in cotton wool
But I can't
She has to go to school.

Never will I leave you
When you are in despair
Never will you be alone
For I am always there
Never will I look at you
With repulse or disdain
Always I will hope
You kneel to pray
And call my name
Never will you realise
My love for all mankind
My hope is that material things
Don't seek to make you blind

His silence slowly whispers a calm into my soul
As I kneel before him
I tell him of life's toll
I ask him to forgive
All hatred pain and strife
That's woven in amongst us
He says
I came that you may have life
Abundance was my virtue
Faith hope and love
My aim
Please stay upon this path my child
In you I shall remain
Feed upon the words I left
This is your daily bread
Many will come in my name
Don't let them turn your head
So many are false prophets
Their false doctrine
They will sew
Not by their words
But by their deeds
Their fruits will surely show
If they are ones to follow
Their hearts are filled with love
The way the truth the light of god
Shines through from up above

Today I will make a difference
A clean slate
A new start

I'll clear those cobwebs
From my mind
Dust those scars
Around my heart

I'll switch on my new thoughts
Wear my smile
Shining bright

Try my best
To help others
In the hope
I do things right

Taking this opportunity
Putting all the past behind
My~mind ~my heart ~

With he )

Who said )

("All who seek shall find")

You may have loved- now feel sad
You may not see good- now feel bad
You may feel burdened lost and weak
You may look weary
Unable to speak
You may believe your out of control
Your heart is lost somewhere with your soul
This time will pass
I tell you true
As I once felt
Just as you do
The roads been long
I've had to fight
Lost my ability to paint to write
But once again
You can clearly see
I'm writing again

Yes

I'm finding me.

Hope is like the lantern
That shines on darkened nights
When times in life are testing
And sorrow is our plight
Hope still shows a future
We must find the strength to see
Regardless of the weight we bear
In our misery
Hope is still a chance
When the hearts filled with despair
Hope is what we cling to
When we find nobody's there
Hope is there to guide us
To a path that leads the way
Leaving all our fears behind
To tomorrow's brighter day

I see it in the new buds
Of crocuses in the ground
I see it in the faces of young children
All around
-----------------------------
It's there above the tree tops
As the birds prepare for spring
I know it's the foundation
To build upon
For everything
----------------------------
I hear it in the voices
Of many people I meet each day
It's the thing that motivates us
Inspiring  our child within to play
-----------------------------
I see it in a candle
When the flame is shining bright
I feel it as I pray
On my knees last thing at night
------------------------------
Even if there's just a glimmer
It encourages us to see
As long as its still there
----------------------------
Things may work out
Perfectly

How much do you mean to me?
I feel I should explain
In the only way
That I know how
So I'm writing once again

Without you I'm in darkness
This means - (you are my light)

Your some one I can talk to
This means - (there's no need to fight)

Your loyal, so understanding
This means-( no  need to doubt)

Your affectionate, you listen
This means- (no need to shout)

Your there through good
There through bad
Even in between
(Your my love )(my inspiration)

Hope now ?

You know.         how much you mean.

Each day I live To seek your face
As I bask upon your warm embrace
My soul then filled with. Heavenly scent
by a humbled bow I then repent
I rise refreshed renewed once more
To walk this path as I've done before
Each day you give as I'm living
My quest to be much more forgiving
To relish thoughts of the purest kind
Reflecting you with heart and mind
My aim to love more than before
Til I stand and knock on heavens door
Each day I live to seek your face
I ask you fill me with your grace
And light my pathway from above
Comforting with unconditional love

There's many ways to show I love you
So many ways to show I care

Please believe me when I say this
I always will be there

If ever you should need me
Any time of day
Don't hesitate just call me
And I'll be on my way

Sometimes this path of life
Seems like a mountain
We must climb

That is when I'll be there with you
To place your trembling hand in mine

When life deals a card of sadness
Or if your heart is filled with fear

I will wipe those tears away
Your not alone
I will be here

There's so many ways to show I love you
On me you can depend
We can weather all the storms of life

Together~~~~~


I am your friend ~~~~~~

I'd like to write you a love song
A sweet melody that says
How I feel about you
In so many tender ways
~~~~~~~~~
I'd like to write you a love song
With words that touch the soul
When you listen
You will feel my love
Though the depth
You'll never know
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'd like to write you a love song
That may cause you to shed a tear
But when I'm gone
If you ever play it
That song will bring us near
I could buy you gifts
Every single day
Send you cards
The list is long
But I don't believe
There's a better way
Than to say ( I love you )
In a song..............

Last night as I was dreaming
I saw in my minds eye
Many happy faces
Of people passing by
I saw the people caring
With smiles across their face
The whole world was united
Humanity embraced
No hunger lead to starvation
No pain was dealt or felt
I heard the sound of music
Every human heart
Did melt
No critical words were spoken
No predudice in sight
No lonely hearts were beating
They felt loved and held on tight
No injured Ill or suffering
Their pain was felt no more
All memories that were haunting
Erased from minds before
I didn't want to wake up from this place
That I'd just been
Only then to realise
It's not real
t'was just a dream......

My mind made a movie
Of the two of us last night
When everything was beautiful
And all the wrongs were right
The wind blew the storm clouds
The rain washed away the pain
The love we had returned
And the sun came back again

If I am lost
Will you look for me
If  I should stumble
Will you break my fall
If  Im weak will you be strong
If I ask you to stay
Will you say how long
If I am sad
Will you make me smile
At least comfort me
For a little while
If I feel lonely when no ones there
Will you then show
How much you care
If life gets tough
And I'm in pain
Will you still be there
Love me just the same?

If I should go
Before I've lived
For what reason
Have I been
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
If I should go
Before I see
All I should have seen
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
If love was never given
To all of those I met
What was the point
Of being here
~~~~~~~~~~~
To look back
With much regret .......
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Many wasted opportunities
To share and spend my time
With those who should have mattered
Who I now must leave behind
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
If I should go tomorrow
This night
Or today
Have I told you each and every one
The words I'd like to say
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~.
Like the flash of a captured photograph
Instantly
Makes us blind
Reflecting
Our fleeting existence
We have
Nothing....

Only


TIME .................

As flowers grow embracing spring
And wild birds gather to happily sing
Amongst the new branch upon the tree
How wonderful

If we have the eyes to see

As the sun begins to shine once more
As its done so many times before
And daffodils carpet natures floor
So beautiful

If we have the eyes to see

New life inspiring hope instilled
Into the hearts of the unfulfilled
Blue sky's whispering
Look at me

If only we have the eyes to see

I smile as I watch you sleeping
I sigh as I watch you grow
I listen for your return
I love you more than you know
I give you all that I have
I care that your ok
I dread that you won't be here
You will want to leave one day
I laugh when you tell me stories
I cry when your in pain
I wish I could hold you forever
Like a new born baby again
I see that your now a young lady
I know you now want to fly
From my nest I created for you
Oh how time just passes us by
I want you so much to be happy
I m here when you feel low
I will always be here for you
I love you more than you know

I thought of you today
I always will
Only time has separated us
I've recorded all our memories
They're etched vividly in my heart and mind
I press play often
I watch your chest rise n fall
Remembering the first time
You grasped my finger
That's when I knew what~ gentleness was
I lifted you upon my chest
Next to my beating heart
Right there and then I learned ~the true meaning of love
I stroked your cheek
Tenderness overwhelmed me
The smell of you was like the sweetest rose
Your sigh brought a smile to my lips
I looked at the ticking clock
Heard it echo loudly like a clanging symbol each second more precious than the first
That's when I learned the value of time

"You taught me so much"

  My angel child

I held you close
You breathed deeply
For the last time

Oh how I miss you ......... Love mummy x

You may not be quite perfect
There may be things
You do not like
Things you say
Or things you do
Perhaps don't turn out right
With all your flaws
You may have found
It's not so bad
Don't wear that frown
As each new day dawns anew
Realise you are special
As there's only one you

Value that which can't be paid for
Be grateful for what we have already
Use your time wisely
Live in the present moment
Don't worry about that which can't be changed
Tell those close you love them
Be true to yourself
Find your life purpose
Speak words of healing
Touch others lives with kindness
Know your own value
Don't be one to judge nor criticise
Let your presence be of peace
Always be hopeful
Give with no intention to recieve
Forgive
Embrace your uniqueness
Enjoy this gift called life

I remember the first time
I saw your face
Looking into your eyes
Made my heart race

I remember
We talked late into the night
My head on your chest
Holding you tight

I remember thinking
Nobody could
Ever love you
The way that I would

I remember hoping
You would not want to be
Anywhere else
Other than with me

Do you you remember saying?
you'd never forget
How lucky you were
That we had both met
How happy I made you
That I was your life
Our plans for the future
To make me your wife
Without me you were nothing
I made you whole
I was more than a lover
I touched your soul

Whatever happened
I believed  it was true
I  really don't know
I wish I knew


I remember.......

You never say
Just how you are
Never stop
To chat
Always busy
Running round
Doing this or that
Your body tense
Your face Is fixed
Uncompromising stare
You've lost control
Of who you are
To one who doesn't care
If they say jump
You say how high
Your programmed
Under a spell
But I can see
You now believe
There's no one you can tell
I've had enough now watching this
It's time for you to know
I can't sit back another day
I know where I must go
Confrontation
Now awaits
An argument I see
But this is right
It's the only way
To allow you to be free.!

Where are we going
I ask is it time?
Should you go your way
I go mine
We've reached a cross roads
We're standing still
Now climbing mountains
But somehow
Lost the thrill
No direction
Tired  worn
Forgotten our promises
Our future sworn
Just going through the motions
Have one life
It's mine
So I will now ask the question
Shall we quit
Is it time ??

Every little detail that's etched within the mind
Every passing comment negative or unkind
Every act against us be it large or small
Every single experience
We can't forget them all
Every critical thought
Filled with judgement
Every stare
Is enough to cause great harm
Devastation and despair
Every ones responsible for the choices that they make
Everyone's accountable for making their mistakes
Each and every one of us
Can choose to change our ways
By speaking words of kindness
Encouragement and praise
Little acts of thoughtfulness
Letting someone know your there
A hand to hold
A smile
A hug
Just showing that you care
Why choose to stand in judgement
Causing harm with all your might
Embrace each other's differences
As you do not have that right

All that man has ever thought
Or what he'll ever be
Transpires through
Documentation
Written
Throughout
History


~~~~~~~~~
Books  they are the legacies
Left to  all mankind
Past from generation
To the  next one left behind
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
They are the wisest of all counsellors
The quietest of friends
The most patient of teachers
On whom one can depend
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
No  comparison
To mans inventions
Regardless of the toil
it took
Even  our  creator
Left his words

Within a book.........

Alcohol on his breath
Friday night
Matter of time
Before the fight
Kick punch slap
Fears
Screaming loud
No one hears
He beckons sorry from my lips
He then strokes me with his finger tips
It's okay
I hear him say
" You made me do it"!
Just had a bad day ......

I wish , i wish that I could fly
Up in a rainbow coloured sky

Where no problem or contempt I'd find
Only relaxation peace of mind

Where everything
Felt like heavenly bliss
I wish there was a place like this

I wonder why the earth we tread is treated such as this
I wonder where the beauty once was harmony and bliss
I wonder how we have arrived at this now common place
Iwonder what now should be is nothing but disgrace
I wonder if we stopped to think for just a moment took the time
I wonder if we realise no longer are things fine
I wonder now what's happened to this world in which we live
I wonder where's our ability to love and to forgive
I wonder how we're destroying one another every day
I wonder if we will ever find peace and joy
Some Way .........

No other man who ever walked so humbly on this earth
Has ever loved or sacrificed his life
And all it's worth
No other man has ever cared enough that he should die
To reassure each one of us eternal life won't pass us by
No other man has ever shown the world he was so brave
By hanging on a cross so that all mankind he'd save
No other man can we compare to him until this day
No other man should we follow
He is the truth -the life -the way ...........

Just another crisis
Just another day
Just another problem
That won't go away
Just another story
We read and forget
Just some people
We never met
Just more images
That make us sad
Nothing to do with us
For that I'm glad
Just the media
Playing with our head
Showing us photos
Of a child that lay dead
Just some people
Who are now in despair
Carry on
We're ok
Why should we care
Look within
ask the question
To yourself be true
Just how would you feel
If that someone was you ?

Standing tall rooted to the ground
We watch the world go by
witnessing many happy sights
And some that make us cry

So many secrets do we hold
Locked in silence never told
We can be bought
We can be sold
And just like you We too get old


At times we change when seasons end
On rain and sun.
We must depend
Till We're felled by those
Who're not a friend

They cut us down with chain and saw
Believing  we do not feel
But that's not true
We hurt like you
as scientists
Have revealed

Our roots connect to others
We warn of harm or threat
We have the greatest of respect
For those we've never met

We're here to  serve a purpose
Not just for paper
Or for wood
So please help to preserve us
Our intentions are all good

Next time when you pass us by
Don't think it's just a tree ?
As without us theres no life force
We provide the air
You breathe ................

Is it safe to call round yet?

"Just text"  -"I'll wait here"!

(It's been over an hour now)
My hearts gripped with fear

"Perhaps we've been caught"
I hope that's not true?!

But??? -How will She feel
"If other people knew"?

"That shes just as bad "
Plus shes never been there!
"I have evidence that shows"

She's also having an affair !!!!?

Like every passing snow flake that gently falls on winter ground
He sees you
Like each leaf that clings to barren trees in deep despair
He feels you
As the wind that howls into turbulent storms enraged in darkness
He hears you
As sure as darkness will turn to light
He loves you
When hope is gone and fears your plight
He's near you
When your heart is heavy weighed down with sin
He forgives you
If life's path is non but rocky ground
He'll carry you

Just pray.........

Think before you use them
You cannot put them back
Remember what you said
You'll get caught
If you lose track
Be careful how you say them
Your tone will set the mood
Don't use them to be spiteful
Harmful or be rude
When said with love and kindness
There's nothing to compare
To let others know just how we feel
How much you 'love n care'........

The color green inspires
Thoughts
of all that's still to grow

The color yellow
like the sun
Warms natures earth below

Purple covers acres of woodland
In the spring

In the form of pretty blue bells
Amongst the birds that sing

Pink apple blossom trees
Sway gently in the air
As their petals leave a trail
Of divine beauty everywhere

Orange red and lilac
Not forgetting those
Each and every colour
Is found within the rose

A kaleidoscope of colors
Ignites this world
On which we stand

(There for us to marvel)

Touched by gods

Almighty hand

She shared her love
He left her crying
She told him truths
He began lying
She praised him
With each word spoken
He repaid her
With a heart left broken
No harmony
No mutual love was felt
The day to her this card dealt
She's moved on now
Met someone nice
Never to make
The same mistake twice ...

A kind deed
A pleasant smile
Precious time shared
For a little while
A warm embrace
A gentle touch
These things cost nothing
But mean so much
A helping hand offered
To those in need
A compliment given
A good hearted deed
A friendly chat
With a stranger spent
These things are really
Heaven sent
They come from a heart
So filled with love
From knowing the good lord up above
If his loves filled your heart
Like it has in mine
Bear his fruit
Be his witness
And let him shine

To laugh at oneself
Is surely the key
By not taking
this life
Too seriously........

One day as I was feeling low
As no one seemed to care
I decided to get on my knees
And say a simple prayer
I didn't hear an answer
As I looked up above
Instead I felt a presence
That surrounded  me with love
I wish I could explain it
To everyone I know
As now that feeling
Stays with me
Everywhere I go
So if your feeling like I did
On that dreaded day
The answer I would like to give
To you
Is kneel and pray

Life it's just a boardgame
But it comes without instruction
There's happiness joy
Devastation corruption
Good days sad days
Cruel ways crime that pays
Gotta learn the rules fast
Play the game
Make it last
If you wana be a winner
Got more chance as a sinner
The games hard can't be slow
You'll Learn more as you go
There's pleasure treasure
Love we can't measure
Politics religion
Prostitutes and virgins
Special occasions
No order in the nations
Good intentions
Wrong interpretations
Wrangles scandals
******* n vandals
Temptation resistance
Council tax insistence
Birthdays holidays
Cruel ways crime that pays
Gotta learn the rules fast
Play the game make it last !

Isn't it amazing  
When you see a human face
The seeds of life are sewn on there
That time can not erase

The face is like a canvas
And as life's events unfold
Each event leaves its mark
As we're growing old

Laughter lines when happy
Frowns when we're uptight
Deep crevices around the mouth
Dark circles from up all night

Even  if dependant
On alcohol it shows
The tell tale signs
You cannot hide
You'll display a discoloured  nose

So the face is like a canvas
The tapestry's being sewn
By emotion from our planned events
"Some circumstance unknown"

As you look into your mirror
Each day as you grow
You may not recognise yourself
As the one you used to know

Eventually in time
When you look  yes "you will see"
Someone different staring back
(Thinking )?.


Who's that"  ?! "That  can't be me!!!!!!"

How many times did I  not learn
From a lesson taught before

How many mistakes repeated
100 times or more

How many chances
Did I ignore  - to forgive ?
Then make amends

How many people
Have I  led to believe
To trust in me their friend ?

No value held in spoken words
Unless we act them out

Reassurance only found within
The heart that holds no doubt

A smile is just a gesture ?
A hug is just a squeeze.?

Manners don't mean nothing
Just words  - Thank you  and please ?

It's true these things are simple
But like a tender loving touch

Without them
Then we realise
They all meant.    ....... so very much........