In your eyes there is so much I see
They don't just look they seek
When I look at them
They tell me
So much more than if you speak
When your sad the colour changes
To a jaded shade of green
Normally their brown
Or the're somewhere in between
Your eyes they tell a story
So much more than you reveal
I know each time I read them
They tell me how you feel
The times when you just look at me
Making my Heart skip a beat
I then recoil In shyness
As I look down at my feet
Your eyes they are so beautiful
Gentle as the dove
The first day we  ever met
It took one look

I fell in love

No rhyme
No reason
No reall intention
To be seen or be heard
Nothing to mention
No purpose no gain
No inspiration
Shut down
Closed
No concept of time
No purpose in life

No reason
No rhyme

Your eyes they tell a story
They say much more
Than spoken words

So much more
Than any love song
That I have ever heard

Your gaze it's hypnotic
It speaks directly to my soul
Just one look
Then majically
My inner core
Feels whole

Your eyes
They have such impact
So much more than words or sound

Each time you smile and look at me

Confirms the love we've found

Whenever I am troubled
By uncertainty and care
I read my holy bible
The answers always there
The covers old it's frayed and worn
Discoloured now with age
But the knowledge and the truths within
On every single page
The parable of the sower a favourite that I read
As Jesus speaks unto the crowd explains about the seed
So many proverbs to be found
To show us every day
Lots of wisdom left to help
guide along the way
If ever you are lost not found
Thinking no ones there to care
Just read your holy bible
As the answers always there ....

As flowers grow embracing spring
And wild birds gather to happily sing
Amongst the new branch upon the tree
How wonderful

If we have the eyes to see

As the sun begins to shine once more
As its done so many times before
And daffodils carpet natures floor
So beautiful

If we have the eyes to see

New life inspiring hope instilled
Into the hearts of the unfulfilled
Blue sky's whispering
Look at me

If only we have the eyes to see

I thought I saw an angel
It was late into the night
Above her head was glowing
I saw a halo shining bright

Her hands were reaching for me
A smile was etched upon her face
I leaned toward her presence
And felt her warm embrace

I asked her why she came into
My room next to my bed
Her voice answered oh so tenderly

"This is what she said"


So many hearts are broken
So many are deceived
So many think there is no god
So many don't believe
So many think this life is hell
They live it every day
So many people are so lost
Please tell them they should pray

If they should seek then they will find
The answers to their plight
No longer plunged in darkness
Rather they will discover light
Please tell them they are not alone
There is somebody there
He will always guide them
Whenever there's despair

His love it has no boundaries
Lift your heads look up above
For he is their creator
Who looks down on them with love

He left his word to guide them
As they go on their way
Tell them they should read It
Every single day

So many believe the evil ones
Have the upper hand
But that's not true
As just like you
Outside heavenly gates
They'll stand

Their life will flash before them
Judgement will prevail
God sees the heart
Though some may repent
Those  corrupt hearts will fail

I promised I would pass on
This message that I write
As i believe it came from god

(Through his angel )


(Late that night)

No words that I shall ever speak
Will ever let you know

How much it's meant
To have you in this life
I've come to know

No action I could ever take
Could show you
Or repay

The things you've done
So selflessly
Each and every day

No other person that I've met
touched my heart
The way you do

I could travel this whole world over
Never to find someone like you

Your mind is filled with the kindest thoughts
Your words speak though very few

Impact on all who hear them
Reflecting the heart of you

You give so much abundantly
Ask for nothing in return

If only we could have more time
Together
I would learn

Material gain is worthless
It aims to make us blind

To all the things that matter
After all it's left behind

You've taught me
Oh so many things
Especially how to love

No limits nor restrictions
Freely given from above

If I try to be like you
Then who will be like me?

Can we compare a flower
To the beauty of a tree?

If I try to be like you
Then who will be like me?

Will you perceive this world the same
The way my eyes can see?

If I try to be like you
Then who will I become?

A follower~A fallacy

True To thyself

I must succumb ...........

When you speak my name
In silenced tones
I surrender
"You play me "!
There's no resistance
Each touch striking a note
Some higher pitched than others
Our melody rings out in harmonic sound
******* crescendos reached
Always
When you speak my name .......

Be as patient - as a new bud flowering into bloom
Be as Inspiring -as the rose sweet as its perfume
Be as kind -leaving no room for resentment to be found
Be not envious nor arrogant-  spreading encouragement
All around
Be not one to hold a grudge
No records of wrong keep
Be compassionate
Embrace
All you come across  who weep
Be the one that people turn to
Harbour not a selfish glare
Be the one who gives their time
To all that need your care
Be reliable just listen
Show the gentleness of a dove

Follow these instructions
Sew the beautiful seed. of      Love ........

She looked so smart
Oh how she's grown
How these years have quickly flown
As we arrived at the gates
I looked at those eyes
Full of wonder apprehension surprise
You'll be ok
I heard myself say
You'll see your friends
You'll have a good day
Reassured I kissed her cheek
Hiding from her
My urge to weep
Another chapter now unfolds
More memories to treasure
To have to hold
There locked in my heart
Forever to stay
Looking forward
Tomorrows another day
I hope she's ok
I'm sure she'll be fine
I tell myself over and over in my mind
I'd like to wrap her in cotton wool
But I can't
She has to go to school.

Just sealed a letter babe
Been standing here waiting

For you

I'm wearing your favourite perfume
Did my hair just as you like it
I'm looking at  a pic of us
So happy -in love
I drop it
Daren't turn it over!
As I do
The shattered glass reflects my heart- my very soul
Broken I leave it there
I feel in unison with this sight so in that  split second "something makes sense"
I have written you a poem
The one occasion I did not want to write!!!
Don't know if I can read it aloud. For you I will try , I will
I've always loved writing , talking  ,     but not today
You used to joke " I always had  to have the last word"?
I see you arrive

Your in our lounge

I smile through my tears , "as in your once loving hand"
I place the letter I've written.  
You were  right  again!
As we drive to the church
I dread the ghostly silence
Reaching your last destination
I rise from my seat "I too feel I'm somewhere else"
As I speak
(I hope some how you can hear the truth) -the love -the passion -the beauty we shared
Our loves reflected in my poem I've written
And still today
As I post this
I know you'll be looking down
Smiling
She always has to have the last word
Here they are

I love you.

Age 4 starting school set the scene for the show
The audience captive
Unusual behaviours unraveling
Raised voices trying to instill discipline and order
Into an already chaotic confused , petrified mind
Rulers on knuckles used
Only to further exacerbate damage done
Reward systems put in place
To no avail
Special needs teachers silenced !stunned !

All avenues exhausted still they are baffled
The show goes on without interval
I watch from the front row
Wondering how they earned there caps n gowns
They are all so blinkered
Never looking beyond the school walls

I am part of the show too  just more suppressed  "no one notices me"!
I draw a picture in my news book it's of children playing in the sun
Next to their  fathers grave the children are smiling holding hands happy
I write my SOS message, it said" last night our dad died in a crash now we are very happy

It gives us an interval
Mum gets called in questioned
Denies all knowledge or understanding
"She fails us"! ?
I collect my brother at the gate
We walk home back to dress rehearsals

Where anger, hatred, fear,discord,pain , condemnation, ridicule,  chilling screams,hurt and a large buckled belt awaits
No reason is given
The show goes on
It's the parents to blame

I heard your key in the door
Smelt your fragrance waft up the stairs
I felt your embrace
Held you close never wanting to let go
A smile spread across my lips
My heart raced
I switched on the bed lamp
And saw your note realising you'd gone
My blood ran cold
Realisation set in
Tears fell
Encompassed by loneliness
Imaginary tricks now enveloping the mind
How did it come to this
Your now insignificant
A figment of my imagination ..........

Take the time to look at the rainbow
After the storm  has blown

Take the time to smell the flowers
After your gardens grown

Take the time to smile at strangers
Who's path you"ll one day cross

Take the time to care- to listen
To those suffering or lost

Take the time to hear the birds
Singing early dawn

Take time to appreciate beauty
Of morning dew drops on the lawn

Take the time to be silent
Find a quiet place

Take time to spend on relationships
And with a heart of love embrace

This life is but a journey
Of which lessons must be learned
Before our cup is empty
Our final glory
To be earned
Opportunities set before us
To allow us all to shine
No restrictions on our choices
We have a designated time

It doesn't really matter
If you are rich or poor
But how we treat our fellow man
Reflects the consequence
We endure

So smile at the stranger
You pass on a busy street
Welcome all who ask of comfort
Be kind to all you meet
Do not judge with hatred
Or turn your back on those in need
Show a heart of warmth~compassion

Shine
***
Like a light

Through word and deed .............

Allow me to write you poetry
That will touch your spirit within
That will wake your heart
Your mind
Your soul
Cause those lips to grin

Allow me to express my feelings
For you in such a way
That captivates and motivates
You
To say what you want to say

Allow me to sing you a love song
While i unlock those chains
That bind
Please let me in I'll quietly share
In the silence of your mind

Allow me to paint a picture
That will haunt your Morose gaze

Allow me to know and love you

Let me find one hundred ways.

I've shut down no more speak
Heart punctured
Voice week
Thoughts frozen stuck in time
Energy reserved to lick these wounds of mine
People I've loved given too
Don't realise what they say and do
Has an impact on the heart the soul
I feel robbed  their words
Taken their toll
I'm so confused by what they say
I try so hard this game to play
But somehow I have lost my way
Shut down
Tomorrow's another day

One glance
~~~~~~~
One touch
~~~~~~~
My heart sings
Protecting
With love
Like Angels

;( WINGS );

Angels come in many forms
There when times are tough
There when we feel sorrow
When we feel we've had enough
They may not present with feathered wings
Nor have the power to fly
But don't despair
They are still there
They'll never pass you by
They may reach you
Through a stranger
Who suddenly appears
Or through a friend
Who unexpectedly calls
You've not seen for years
They may appear in your garden
As a robin day to day
When you need them
They are with you
They are never far away

I was feeling lonely
Really rather down
Burdened by life problems
Wearing a heavy frown
So I went out walking
Got some fresh air for a while
Hoping to feel better
Turn that frown into a smile

Then I listened to some music
It held magic
I cant explain
Lifting up my spirit
Helped me get back up again

As I  quietly listened
I Thought ~there is a chance
My heart will be unburdened
As my feet began to dance
Then all of a sudden
I began to sing
As the magic of the music
Helped me
Forget ~everything

My mood became ecstatic
In a long time I felt free
I wondered why
Oh how could I
Let life's troubles
Get to me

But now I've found an answer
When Theres
uncertainty and care
Revival in the magic
Of the music  ~ always there ~

If I call you will you hear me
Or will silence stare me out

If I reach out my hand to hold  you
Perhaps you'll here me if I shout

Is there any way to reach you
Distance seems to be your  friend

When I'm with you, do you see me ?
I am still here, on that depend
I have watched you in my bedroom you kissed my photo by the bed
I saw you remove your dressing gown
But then  you put mine on instead

I see you in the evenings staring out at the full moon
Then I note a smile  plays on your lips as you breath in  my perfume
We never saw this coming now we're separate and alone
What a price to pay for driving while answering your mobile  phone. ....

People speak through colours
But they don't realise
Sometimes they hide behind them
Their a reflection of the eyes

Colours are a language
That each of us convey
A way we all communicate
In a subtle kind of way

When we choose  the colour yellow
Our child within seeks fun
The heart feels warm and gentle
Radiant like the sun

White displays purity
A need to start a new
A calmness found
Security sought
When we choose the colour blue

Red speaks of a confidence
Of one who likes to dance
One who dares
One who dreams
Of beauty and romance

Green it tells a story
Of one who's brave and bold
Not afraid to speak their mind
But doesn't like being told

Orange speaks of someone
Full of energy and zest
One who likes to sing out loud
And always does their best

Purple wearers like the peace
Of quiet natures sound
They are not ones to meddle
Their feet firmly on the ground

Pink reflects a gentleness
A reluctance to fight
Preferring nothing heavy
Keeping all things light

Black ~beige and grey
All neutral
Speak of those in the background
they'd rather be spectators
Of others all around

My aim when writing this poem
Was Simply to amuse
But has it got you thinking
About the colours
That you choose?

If the hill you must now climb gets steep
And the summits out of sight
Remember I am here my friend
Always day or night

:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Don't fret about tomorrow
Please live for today
Knowing you are not alone
I'm never far away
::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

My ears are here to listen
My hands are here to hold
A heart of love is here for you
Always to unfold
:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Together we will walk this path
I will carry half the load
I will cry with you
Laugh with you
As we walk this rocky road
:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
No matter how
No matter when
This road we walk must end
You'll never be alone again

::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Remember (Me your friend)

How much do you mean to me?
I feel I should explain
In the only way
That I know how
So I'm writing once again

Without you I'm in darkness
This means - (you are my light)

Your some one I can talk to
This means - (there's no need to fight)

Your loyal, so understanding
This means-( no  need to doubt)

Your affectionate, you listen
This means- (no need to shout)

Your there through good
There through bad
Even in between
(Your my love )(my inspiration)

Hope now ?

You know.         how much you mean.

I wish , i wish that I could fly
Up in a rainbow coloured sky

Where no problem or contempt I'd find
Only relaxation peace of mind

Where everything
Felt like heavenly bliss
I wish there was a place like this

There's many ways to show I love you
So many ways to show I care

Please believe me when I say this
I always will be there

If ever you should need me
Any time of day
Don't hesitate just call me
And I'll be on my way

Sometimes this path of life
Seems like a mountain
We must climb

That is when I'll be there with you
To place your trembling hand in mine

When life deals a card of sadness
Or if your heart is filled with fear

I will wipe those tears away
Your not alone
I will be here

There's so many ways to show I love you
On me you can depend
We can weather all the storms of life

Together~~~~~


I am your friend ~~~~~~

My father lives not far away
Our memories leave non but dismay
He never wiped away my tears
His presence caused unfounded fears

No love recalled
No bonds that tie
No truth no trust
His masks a lie

His inner core
So fraught unstable
To love his child
Rendered unable

With much regret
These words I write
As another day
Turns into night

He does not know this child he bore
As other things to him meant more
No bitterness felt
Nor malice from me

Only sadness he shunned
His responsibility

Whenever I decide to write
The words within
They all take flight

Eventually landing
On the page
For all who wish to read
Engage

Each one like branches on a tree
Reveals the very heart of me

So as you read them
I hope you find

They touch your soul
Your heart
Your mind ...

Hope is like the lantern
That shines on darkened nights
When times in life are testing
And sorrow is our plight
Hope still shows a future
We must find the strength to see
Regardless of the weight we bear
In our misery
Hope is still a chance
When the hearts filled with despair
Hope is what we cling to
When we find nobody's there
Hope is there to guide us
To a path that leads the way
Leaving all our fears behind
To tomorrow's brighter day

When I hear the wind howling an enchanted melody
Like a magnetic force It commands my spirit
Draws me in intensively

There's something rather spiritual
Echoing from its sound
My thoughts they're governed led to think
Of those lost
Never found
As I hear the high pitched wailing
An eerie silence echos low
I feel the the hair stand on my neck
Spine tingling chills run slow
Captivated then entranced stunned rooted to the ground
Theres something Rather haunting
Echoing those lost

"It's in the sound"!

Our relationship Now a memory
Our love a distant stranger
We held hands
Touched hearts
Entwined souls
For a while
But now
It's time
To move on
It was not in vain
We have enriched each others lives
Sewn beautiful memories
Into the tapestry of our lives
Like a caged dove I must allow you to fly
Be happy my love
You were never really mine
I wish only the best for you
Always..........

She shared her love
He left her crying
She told him truths
He began lying
She praised him
With each word spoken
He repaid her
With a heart left broken
No harmony
No mutual love was felt
The day to her this card dealt
She's moved on now
Met someone nice
Never to make
The same mistake twice ...

Heart gifts are our treasures
That money cannot buy
They touch the heart
In many ways
This we can't deny
...........................
A smile
A hug
A caring touch
These things are simple
Yet mean so much
................................
A friendly wave
A warm embrace
Can put a smile
On the saddest face
..................................
An outstretched hand
A listening ear
Can reassure
And banish fear
......................................
Nothing to compare ~

Nothing to measure ~

(As gifts of the heart) ~

(Are lifes real treasure) ~

When I walk amongst my garden
Outstretched so far n wide
Each day I see it's nurtured paths
Filled with flowers
Either side

I gaze upon its beauty
As I go on my way
The flowers speak a language
No human voice could say

The colours of the roses
When there in full bloom
The fragrance overwhelms me
With their beautiful perfume

The apple blossom gently falls
Like confetti to the ground
Bird whistles echo
Through the trees
Such beauty all around

A poets channels must remain free
No room to accommodate adversary

A poets mind must remain clear
No room to accommodate slander~ fear

A poets heart must remain sincere
No room to accommodate those who leer

A poets spirit is like a fire that burns with passion
As the flame grows higher

No room to accommodate jealousy or doubt
Nor those who wish to put that flame out

A poets thoughts like artistic vapour
Reflect the soul as they land on paper
Poets are chosen to illustrate
Words others need to delegate

Poets are sensitive an extraordinary breed
Adversary provokes the heart to bleed
When angers felt or a mocking tone

So think before you cast that stone ...........

Eerily quiet there it stood still
That old rugged cross
Upon the hill
A shadow strewn across the face
Of the one who died
For the human race
Such pain suffered
Such a loss
As they hung him high
Upon that cross
With bloodied crown
And anchored feet
His demise reluctantly
He must now meet
For all of us
Our sins to bear
Sacrificed
truth is
Do we care
If your heart is closed
filled with doubt
Please read his words
Then you'll find out

My mind made a movie
Of the two of us last night
When everything was beautiful
And all the wrongs were right
The wind blew the storm clouds
The rain washed away the pain
The love we had returned
And the sun came back again

Your hands they care -with such gentleness
Your willing heart gives -with such tenderness

Your eyes they speak to my soul direct
With that familiar glance
Your aim to protect

Such warmth such calm
Your love brings

(Surrounding me like angels wings)

You may not be quite perfect
There may be things
You do not like
Things you say
Or things you do
Perhaps don't turn out right
With all your flaws
You may have found
It's not so bad
Don't wear that frown
As each new day dawns anew
Realise you are special
As there's only one you

From a darkened state
I will arise
No longer will I hear these cries
Of wounded thoughts
Of heart felt pain

Once more I will arise again

Towards the light I seek to find
That heals the heart
The troubled mind
Peace within
my aim
My goal
A flicker
Of hope
To heal
My soul
At his feet I kneel
In humble prayer
To tell him of my pain , despair
I feel the warmth
Upon my face
As tangled memories now erase

His light
His truth
His love

Remain


Once more I shall arise again .......

To laugh at oneself
Is surely the key
By not taking
this life
Too seriously........

Compassionate
Heart of love
Risen again
Immortal
Saviour
The truth

When you feel uncertain and troubled thoughts remain
I will be the one to shelter you from the rain

When your heart is heavy and feeling non but sorrow
I will paint a rainbow to brighten your tomorrow

When your path is rocky and the road aheads not clear
I will guide your way to a path that's without fear

When all your plans have changed and your mind is filled with doubt
And no longer can you see a way to work things out

Remember who you are and all you have achieved
Someone who's succeeded much more than they believed

Remember how much your loved with admiration and respect
Remember the positive impact you've had on all you've met

Remember the wonderful mother~ daughter sister and friend you are
Someone I know and love who shines like the brightest star
One person in this world On who I know I can depend
Remember you changed my life
The day ~you became my friend .............

Like every passing snow flake that gently falls on winter ground
He sees you
Like each leaf that clings to barren trees in deep despair
He feels you
As the wind that howls into turbulent storms enraged in darkness
He hears you
As sure as darkness will turn to light
He loves you
When hope is gone and fears your plight
He's near you
When your heart is heavy weighed down with sin
He forgives you
If life's path is non but rocky ground
He'll carry you

Just pray.........

I thought of you today
I always will
Only time has separated us
I've recorded all our memories
They're etched vividly in my heart and mind
I press play often
I watch your chest rise n fall
Remembering the first time
You grasped my finger
That's when I knew what~ gentleness was
I lifted you upon my chest
Next to my beating heart
Right there and then I learned ~the true meaning of love
I stroked your cheek
Tenderness overwhelmed me
The smell of you was like the sweetest rose
Your sigh brought a smile to my lips
I looked at the ticking clock
Heard it echo loudly like a clanging symbol each second more precious than the first
That's when I learned the value of time

"You taught me so much"

  My angel child

I held you close
You breathed deeply
For the last time

Oh how I miss you ......... Love mummy x

When shadows fall and night sets in
I am unable to succumb to the darkness
My mind be comes an active gymsasium
Turmoil from memories past begin to play
Like a tsunami they evoke me

Theres no escape or respite
My subconscious becomes a hungary lion
Devouring my rest
Until dawn
Only then does my body yield
To the necessity to sleep
For too little time
Then the new day unfolds
Wearily I attempt to earn my crust
Anticipating the same plight
Once again
When shadows fall.......

She stands alone in a darkened place
Familiar thoughts of shame disgrace

Consumed with guilt
Self loathing surrounds

The love of self
No where to be found

Self esteem dispersed
Asunder
No hope no dreams
No eyes of wonder

Encompassed by these chains that bind
Her thoughts beliefs controlled by the mind
Her actions governed from deep within
Trauma fear dissociation

A monotonous cycle hard to break
Yet possible
If sound advice you take
Your destruct button must stay on hold
Look deep within your very soul

Your thoughts about yourself must change
To allow harmful  actions rearrange
Take care
A new relationship begin
Persevere don't give in

Reverse your thoughts
Of self
Be kind
Leave
All the hurt and pain behind


Do not stay down
Instead stand tall

(Learning to love yourself)        

Is

The

Greatest

Love

Of

All. X

I saw you today
Dressed in the dreaded colour black!
You were hiding behind those sun shades
Your 2 kids clinging to you
My heart was heavy
I wanted to scoop you all up on a cloud
Somewhere safe from him!
I felt helpless
Knowing the inner turmoil of your mind had turned  inside out
It was there reflected in the colour black
I love you all
I am your friend
I with the power of love
Will inject the colour white  -reflecting freedom
Tranquility harmony n peace
Into your life
I will not be far away
He shadows you with his dark devious ways
Hates me.?     I know
Because I eclipse him with my light   My laugh 'my love of life'

Hold on
Your not alone in this
I have lit your pathway.    Follow me.  Your friend.

Tomorrow is soon to be
Yesterday
And yesterday a memory .......