I saw you today
Dressed in the dreaded colour black!
You were hiding behind those sun shades
Your 2 kids clinging to you
My heart was heavy
I wanted to scoop you all up on a cloud
Somewhere safe from him!
I felt helpless
Knowing the inner turmoil of your mind had turned  inside out
It was there reflected in the colour black
I love you all
I am your friend
I with the power of love
Will inject the colour white  -reflecting freedom
Tranquility harmony n peace
Into your life
I will not be far away
He shadows you with his dark devious ways
Hates me.?     I know
Because I eclipse him with my light   My laugh 'my love of life'

Hold on
Your not alone in this
I have lit your pathway.    Follow me.  Your friend.

Rustling branches, falling leaves ,silently they fall
Carpeting the winter grounds
Large oak trees standing tall

Whispering winds echoing clear
The highest pitch
I feel you near
I think I hear you
I turn around
I search but nowhere
To be found

I walk to the park our favourite place
Every step we took -I trace
I find our tree ,our names enscribed
Behind it you often used to hide
I miss your smile
Your warm embrace
Your loving touch
Beautiful face
Such joyfull memories

"Still "!  each winter brings
I feel your spirit

When the robin sings.

Compassionate
Heart of love
Risen again
Immortal
Saviour
The truth

To all you fellow poets
Who inspire me to write
I read your work for hours
Well into the night
Just knowing there are others
That take the time to share
Makes me feel I’m not alone
you people really care
So many may not realise
What positivity they sew
Just by writing comments
To a poet they don’t know
Each time you contribute
A golden thread is sewn
Into the very heart
Of the poet yet unknown
This leads to a tapestry
Woven over time
Knitting us together
By the spirit
Heart and mind
Priceless is this tapestry
No naked eye can see
I’m grateful to everyone
On hello poetry ........

I thought of you today
I always will
Only time has separated us
I've recorded all our memories
They're etched vividly in my heart and mind
I press play often
I watch your chest rise n fall
Remembering the first time
You grasped my finger
That's when I knew what~ gentleness was
I lifted you upon my chest
Next to my beating heart
Right there and then I learned ~the true meaning of love
I stroked your cheek
Tenderness overwhelmed me
The smell of you was like the sweetest rose
Your sigh brought a smile to my lips
I looked at the ticking clock
Heard it echo loudly like a clanging symbol each second more precious than the first
That's when I learned the value of time

"You taught me so much"

  My angel child

I held you close
You breathed deeply
For the last time

Oh how I miss you ......... Love mummy x

When shadows fall and night sets in
I am unable to succumb to the darkness
My mind be comes an active gymsasium
Turmoil from memories past begin to play
Like a tsunami they evoke me

Theres no escape or respite
My subconscious becomes a hungary lion
Devouring my rest
Until dawn
Only then does my body yield
To the necessity to sleep
For too little time
Then the new day unfolds
Wearily I attempt to earn my crust
Anticipating the same plight
Once again
When shadows fall.......

She stands alone in a darkened place
Familiar thoughts of shame disgrace

Consumed with guilt
Self loathing surrounds

The love of self
No where to be found

Self esteem dispersed
Asunder
No hope no dreams
No eyes of wonder

Encompassed by these chains that bind
Her thoughts beliefs controlled by the mind
Her actions governed from deep within
Trauma fear dissociation

A monotonous cycle hard to break
Yet possible
If sound advice you take
Your destruct button must stay on hold
Look deep within your very soul

Your thoughts about yourself must change
To allow harmful  actions rearrange
Take care
A new relationship begin
Persevere don't give in

Reverse your thoughts
Of self
Be kind
Leave
All the hurt and pain behind


Do not stay down
Instead stand tall

(Learning to love yourself)        

Is

The

Greatest

Love

Of

All. X

Dear god I pray for everyone
Who reads these words I write
Help them all to seek you
When things just don't seem right
I ask that you may comfort them
With compassion and your love
That they shall kneel
And lift their heads
To you who's up above
Send to them an angel
To guard them and protect
In the hope that they will come to know
Your heart with much respect
Heal them Lord
And guide them through this journey
We call life
Help them when their troubled
When their path is filled with strife
Shine your light Upon them
When life seems dark and grey
Reveal to them your truths
Your word
please show to them the way.

Every little detail that's etched within the mind
Every passing comment negative or unkind
Every act against us be it large or small
Every single experience
We can't forget them all
Every critical thought
Filled with judgement
Every stare
Is enough to cause great harm
Devastation and despair
Every ones responsible for the choices that they make
Everyone's accountable for making their mistakes
Each and every one of us
Can choose to change our ways
By speaking words of kindness
Encouragement and praise
Little acts of thoughtfulness
Letting someone know your there
A hand to hold
A smile
A hug
Just showing that you care
Why choose to stand in judgement
Causing harm with all your might
Embrace each other's differences
As you do not have that right

Another day
Another night
Another poem
I must write
Like an addict
It's my fix
Never writing
Contradicts
My greatest pleasure
When I write
This is my Privelage
This is my plight
This is  my air
I need to breath
This is my ground
That stands beneath
This is my love
My passion found
This is my sight
My taste
My sound
This is everything
I can be
No chains
That bind
Completely  Free.............

The time of your passing etched in my mind
Like a branding iron
It Sears through my heart
As the pain of your loss
Encompasses my soul in limbic state
I search for parts of you to keep
That death may not steal
In a box I place your ring with a lock of your hair
A receipt from the last place we went
Where we exchanged smiles
sharing the closest bond of love

Then ~~your touch was warm
As comforting as the sun
Your energy ~was always gentle and light
As a distant breeze
Oh how I hanker after your essence
Each passing day
The gap widens between us
As I grapple to find ways to not let you go
I stand alone in deep solitude
Finding comfort only in the refuge of the bed
Where you last lay

Breathing your last breath
As I comforted you
Watching the clock
knowing
No other could ever love me
As you did so beautifully
Thanking you gratefully

My inspirational mother

Hot balmy night
Walking hand in hand
Drawing  their names in the sand
The smell of the sea filling the air
What time is it ? What do they care
Another world somehow descends
Both feeling like there is no end
Urgent kisses, passion desire
Electric touch ignites a burning fire
Abandoned clothing
Naked free
Their love blind
They cannot see
They exchange numbers
Promise to write
"But they never do it was just one night. " ........

A shadows cast upon me
Escape  cannot be found
Haunting memories of love
Echoes loud in silent sound

I close my eyes to sleep
But your smile
haunts my mind
No peace within
No rest awaits
Escape I cannot find

A shadows cast upon me
How do I separate you
From me
My heart is bound
Not free but locked
It's you
Who holds the key

Your presence saturates my life
Seeps through each and every sense
Overpowering my identity
Still feel you
It's intense
Burdened by activity
Of recordings of the mind
A shadows cast upon me
Escape I cannot find

I smile as I watch you laughing
I wonder where's the time

I push your hair back from your face
tilt your head to look at mine

I tell you that I love you
You say ~
I love you too

Tears well in my eyes
Emotions rise
You look at me with great surprise

I smile and say
You'll never know
Just how much I love you so

How much meaning
The joy you bring
To our home
When I hear you sing

Each day I feel your warm embrace
I thank god for your love

Olivia grace

I smile and hope it doesn't slip
Laugh wondering if you detect
My act
I'm a master
You ask how I am
I lie n say I'm doing great
I feel uncomfortable
Squirming inside
Desperate to be in solitude
Once again
Trusting only me
With my reall thoughts safely tucked away
In the corners of my mind
Only then can I be at one with myself
I don't owe you anything
Let me be....

Never will I leave you
When you are in despair
Never will you be alone
For I am always there
Never will I look at you
With repulse or disdain
Always I will hope
You kneel to pray
And call my name
Never will you realise
My love for all mankind
My hope is that material things
Don't seek to make you blind

When tomorrow comes
And the new day dawns
Please try to take some time
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
To think of those less fortunate
With troubled heart and minds
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

When tomorrow comes then disappears
After a very busy day
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Please try to take some time

Be kind

Or simply kneel and pray

A prayer of hope
sent from a stranger
Is like a lantern
On the darkest night
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The time you took
The caring words
Thinking of anothers plight
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Means so much more
Than we realise
Upon us
Blessings we will find
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
We can all make such a difference

If ~only ~we'd


Please take the time........

Another chapter
Another day
As I keep record
Of what I want to say

There's poems
I've written
Photographs too
Of each memory I've treasured
Of me and you

There's loving advice
On every page
From the start of your life
Through to each new stage

I've looked well ahead
It's all in hand
Took great measures
In all that I planned

Can't leave it to chance
As I really don't know
If I will still be around
To watch you grow

So I made a promise
And started to write
And my heavy load
All at once
Became light

It's my loving duty
The least I can do
To remind you of us
Our love
Me and you

I'm hoping you'll
Treasure each page that you see
As much as I've valued
Your time spent
With me

The book i have written
Is carefully tied
With a pink satin ribbon
Damp from tears that I've cried

I hope you won't need it
That I will still be here
To lovingly guide you
And banish all fear
If fate intervenes

And shows we must part
"Remember "
"Each memories left"
Footprints in my heart. ! ..........

Stop the world it's spinning too fast
Feels like im Losing my mind
Stop the world there's too much hurt
Destruction  ! against mankind

Stop the world
We  must evaluate our principles for living
Show more kindess , caring , sharing , give more thanks
Than we are giving


Stop the world
Look around us
If we see a need we should try to meet it
"This is our world "lets eradicate
Pain and suffering
Try to defeat it

Stop the world
Each one of us is capable of changing
We need to act no time to waste
Take part in rearranging
The environment
society
There's only us to blame
Stop being blind
To the deception of
Riches lust and fame

Stop the world
Just give a smile to a stranger on the street
A few kind words
A gentle touch
To each person that you meet
No money required
No credit card
No debt incurred while giving

What an  impact this will truly have

"Simply Priceless "


As our world
Keeps right on spinning !

My daughter asked the other day
"Mum why can't I go out to play?"
Cause it's too dangerous ;was my reply
(She stared intently into my eyes)
What can happen ?
She simply said
As she frowned and tilted her little head

Oh there's too many cars it's a busy street
And some naughty people
I don't want you to meet
Oh ? she said with a sigh!
(And looked intently into my eyes)

"Well ! god will protect me "
I've said a prayer
But in case he's gone out
And he's not there
Does he have a post box?
"Cause I'd like to write  -him a nice letter"
I'll post it tonight
What will you write ? "I hear myself say"

"I will ask him to take"
The naughty people away!
"Oh I don't think he can do that"

"She said but why?"?

(As she looked intently into my eyes)
I'm not too sure I tried to explain
Looking puzzled.   She let out a sigh again!

"Well I'm writing it anyway"
"I'm going to say"!
Dear god ,
I just want to go out and play........

I saw a man the other day
His face was sad and worn
His breath it wreaked of alcohol
His clothes disheveled torn

He stumbled around in a drunken daze
His eyes looked through my bewildered gaze
My heart was heavy he did not see
His long lost child
"Didn't recognise me"!

People laughed
People stared
No one helped him
No one cared
It left me wounded
Feeling sad
They did not know
He was my dad ..........

I took time to admire the rainbow
After the storm had blown
I took time to smell the flowers
After the garden had grown
I took time to smile at strangers
Who's path I once crossed
I took time to help the people
Who were suffering from loss
I took time to listen
To birds singing
Early dawn
Time to appreciate beauty
Of the dew drops on the lawn
Took time to be still and find a quiet place
Told all I knew I loved them and shared a warm embrace
Took time to be creative paint my pictures
Pen words that rhyme
I will stare death in the face !
"I've no regrets"
"I took the time".      ............

Have you ever sighed and wondered
Why some people just don't see
That we all are part of the universe
Significant as every plant and tree
Have you ever hoped that somehow
A power or force Unknown
Would stop them in their weary tracks
As though a storm had blown
Have you ever thought how different
The lives they live could be
If only they would seek to find spirituality
Have you ever known the love the peace
His eternal grace
That nothing here on earth can bring
Regardless of what we face
Have you ever wanted everyone
To feel that love today
This is my hope for all mankind
As I bow my knee to pray

A star is so much more than
A light that's shining bright
It's a symbol ~it's a guide
That led 3 men one night
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
It glistened as they followed it
By its presence it would show
The pathway to a king
That this world
Would come to know
* * * * * * * * * * * * * *
They found him in a manger
Above that star
Was shining bright
He too just like the star
            
Will guide your way
                          
.          .           .  *
{He is the light}

His silence slowly whispers a calm into my soul
As I kneel before him
I tell him of life's toll
I ask him to forgive
All hatred pain and strife
That's woven in amongst us
He says
I came that you may have life
Abundance was my virtue
Faith hope and love
My aim
Please stay upon this path my child
In you I shall remain
Feed upon the words I left
This is your daily bread
Many will come in my name
Don't let them turn your head
So many are false prophets
Their false doctrine
They will sew
Not by their words
But by their deeds
Their fruits will surely show
If they are ones to follow
Their hearts are filled with love
The way the truth the light of god
Shines through from up above

Whats wanted isn't always needed
What's needed isn't always wanted

Your on my mind
Day n night
Your in my thoughts as I switch off the light
Your in my heart
Embedded deep
Your in my dreams as I sleep
Your in the picture on the wall
It's hanging in the entrance hall
Your infectious laugh echoes here
Amidst the memories that hold you near
I hold you next to my heart that beats
Seeking comfort knowing
One day we will meet
When that day arrives
You'll be waiting there
Again we"ll embrace the love once shared
Sadness and broken hearts no more
As we walk together through  
Heavens door

It's here the season of good cheer
As Christmas time again draws near
For some it's filled with dread and fear
As they miss the ones they once held dear

It's here the season of good will
A time for us to give fulfill
To meet the needs of others and give
To those struggling just to live

A time to reach out to those alone
No one to visit
No telephone
A time to share a time to care
Light a candle and pray
For those in despair

It's also a time to celebrate
The birth of one above
Rejoice God sent a saviour
Now let's reflect his love.

A smile can touch the spirit
In the loneliest of hearts

A simple notecard~ sent with love
Can build a bridge ~for those apart

A little thoughtful gesture
Can mean ~so very much

A forgiving heart
A comforting hug
The warmth of human touch

So little time
To share these things
As we live from day to day

These are life's  simple treasures
We all possess
To give
Away..............

Be still and listen to your breath
Be aware of your  own being
Be at peace within your very soul
Aware of your own meaning
Don't utter even a whispered word
Empty your cluttered mind
Relish your very essence
Then a calm you"ll surely find

Let's not be remembered
By possessions
We shared

But rather by love
Which showed
That we cared
~~~~~~~~~~~

The light of the moon it beckons me
To gaze upon its face
The midnight sky it's backdrop
As the stars fall into place
Such a sight of wonder
And amazement
Is this sight
There always there
But visible
By darkened skies at night

"I no longer want to be good"
"I'd rather be bad "
It's easier
I may even be better thought of ?
There's less pressure  ! im picking myself up from the floor
It's been lonely down there
My qualities of kindness have been wrongly interpreted as weak
My giving has  now turned to taking
I swallow the bitter pill of selfishness
Hoping it works

I'm going against the grain now
Is there another option?
I think not
I will wear a cloak of hostility

"You will all regret this"
The tide has turned .......

There was a man behind the voice
Who spoke these words I write

God why have you forsaken me!
The sin of man
His plight

The pain endured immeasurable
The suffering the loss

For all of us
He hung up high
To die upon that cross

He performed so many miracles
While he lived for all to see

For these he'll be remembered
For all eternity

But that wasnt his intention
Why he gave his life that day

But rather that we follow him
The truth the light the way

He asked that we renew our thoughts
Unto him -be of like mind

Only then his light -his love -his truth

Can guide us all so blind

Is it not the life in our years
That truly matter
Other than
The years in our life .......

Just another crisis
Just another day
Just another problem
That won't go away
Just another story
We read and forget
Just some people
We never met
Just more images
That make us sad
Nothing to do with us
For that I'm glad
Just the media
Playing with our head
Showing us photos
Of a child that lay dead
Just some people
Who are now in despair
Carry on
We're ok
Why should we care
Look within
ask the question
To yourself be true
Just how would you feel
If that someone was you ?

I chase not gold nor silver as this is our folly
Rather I choose not to be a lamb lead to the slaughter
In this material world
Instead I have been given the insight and privelage to see what matters most
Thoughtfullness , compassion, understanding, gentleness,patience,forgiveness,kindness,
For these are the things that can be given freely to all whom I come into contact
It is these things by which I wish to be remembered they are gifts that are free to all who wish to embrace them
It is my hope that others may share in  the beauty of them
Sewing them like seeds into the next generation
Making this world a better place
Wealth has no comparison
Always be aware of the shadow of time
As time waits for no one , regardless of status

We must all learn
To forgive
As this path
Shall be
Walked on
By all of us
At the end
Of life's busy road

There's something about a rainbow
That makes us stop n stare
Making even non believers
Wonder if gods really there ?
The colors shine so brightly
Arranged perfectly in line
Each colours blend harmonious
Allowing it then to shine
The very sight spiritually
Reaches all who feast their eyes
on the beauty of the rainbow
Displayed across the heavenly skies

Last night as I was dreaming
I saw in my minds eye
Many happy faces
Of people passing by
I saw the people caring
With smiles across their face
The whole world was united
Humanity embraced
No hunger lead to starvation
No pain was dealt or felt
I heard the sound of music
Every human heart
Did melt
No critical words were spoken
No predudice in sight
No lonely hearts were beating
They felt loved and held on tight
No injured Ill or suffering
Their pain was felt no more
All memories that were haunting
Erased from minds before
I didn't want to wake up from this place
That I'd just been
Only then to realise
It's not real
t'was just a dream......

Look forward to tomorrow
As another day unfolds
Another page turned over
Our story book of life it holds
So many lifetime memories
Begining from the past
As we travel through life's journey
Each day goes by so fast
Just as we lead the horse to water
Hoping it will drink
Don't take your life for granted
Rather -we all should stop n think
About our friends and family
Do we treat them kind
Or have we been neglectful
Had too much on our mind
So often we don't realise
Other things get in the way
We simply need reminding
To say the things we ought to say
An apology costs nothing
If before you did offend
The simple words I'm sorry
A broken heart these words
Can mend
I know this can be difficult
But please try- swallow all your pride
It will clear your conscience
And heal the hurt inside
Have you perhaps got someone
You've not seen n now lost touch
Why not ring or send a letter
I'm sure they'll thank you very much
Don't let misunderstandings
Or pride step in the way
Of saying I am sorry

As it could be our final day

My mobile rang late in the night
Your number flashed across my phone
For a second I was in a daze
I hoped you felt alone
I wanted you to need me
I was hoping you would say

That you'd been -Thinking of me
And the thoughts would'nt go away
But you rang me for a reason
You wanted some advice
You didn't ring
Me once that night
In fact you rang me twice
But the reason you dialled my number
Was because you were in pain
So I told you what you had to do
Then you rang me back again?!

Never rang- because you missed me
Didn't ring me -just to say
Well anything about me or you ?
Instead you left me in dismay!

So now I finally realise
The feelings that I've got

(May mean everything to me ?)


(But to you)   certainly not!!!

Isn't it amazing  
When you see a human face
The seeds of life are sewn on there
That time can not erase

The face is like a canvas
And as life's events unfold
Each event leaves its mark
As we're growing old

Laughter lines when happy
Frowns when we're uptight
Deep crevices around the mouth
Dark circles from up all night

Even  if dependant
On alcohol it shows
The tell tale signs
You cannot hide
You'll display a discoloured  nose

So the face is like a canvas
The tapestry's being sewn
By emotion from our planned events
"Some circumstance unknown"

As you look into your mirror
Each day as you grow
You may not recognise yourself
As the one you used to know

Eventually in time
When you look  yes "you will see"
Someone different staring back
(Thinking )?.


Who's that"  ?! "That  can't be me!!!!!!"

As Christmas time approaches
And we're eager to prepare
We should take the opportunity
To show we really care
It's not about the presents
Or the cards that people send
But about the heart of love we show
Upon which others can depend
There's many of your neighbours
Friends and family
That will feel sad or isolated
Without company
So why not think of others
In the spirit of good cheer
Spread the care and love of Christ
As his special time draws near

The rose is the most significant flower
Representing many things
When sent or hand delivered
Much heartfelt joy it brings
There are many different colours
Not everybody knows
Just what each one represents
In the receiving of the rose

There's white representing purity
Orange for desire
Red for love and romance
Pink to spark that fire
Yellow reflecting friendship
Gold forevermore
Then of course on valentines day
It's more significant than before

Of all the flowers
In the garden
This one stands out the most

No need for words

It says it all !

By the language of ... The Rose

Standing tall rooted to the ground
We watch the world go by
witnessing many happy sights
And some that make us cry

So many secrets do we hold
Locked in silence never told
We can be bought
We can be sold
And just like you We too get old


At times we change when seasons end
On rain and sun.
We must depend
Till We're felled by those
Who're not a friend

They cut us down with chain and saw
Believing  we do not feel
But that's not true
We hurt like you
as scientists
Have revealed

Our roots connect to others
We warn of harm or threat
We have the greatest of respect
For those we've never met

We're here to  serve a purpose
Not just for paper
Or for wood
So please help to preserve us
Our intentions are all good

Next time when you pass us by
Don't think it's just a tree ?
As without us theres no life force
We provide the air
You breathe ................

Now is the time to rearrange
The thoughts of things
We cannot change

To just accept
Then leave behind
Those troubled times
That haunt the mind

Now is the time
To just embrace
Those future years
With a smile
On your face

To plan ahead
With goals in sight
Positive things
That bring delight

Now is the time
For you to shine
Enjoying

Each precious moment .....
Of time..........

I had a little angel I held her in my arms that night
I didn't want to say goodbye I held on to her tight
I stroked her face I kissed her hair
I looked at her just lying there
And as a mother I felt defeat as my tears trickled  down upon her cheek
There was nothing I could do
Nothing I could say
To stop fates hand from taking her away
As she took her last breath and let out a sigh
A part of me began to die
I felt my heart shatter the pain was slow
As I grieved for the child I'd never know
Her pram was empty the nursery bare
I was left just with a vacant stare
I had no emotion didn't know how to feel
Didn't want to sleep In case the nightmare was reall
My body carried on but I wasn't there
Left just with a vacant stare
Heard her cries but awoke to find
An empty cot just a trick of the mind .........

"Honey "! come n meet Tom
This was the day it all changed
Me ,the way I loved, my security my happiness
Just that sentence. It echoes in my head feeling like a sledge hammer
Erasing my happiness my whole childhood wiped out
I was happy then
I liked me
I loved the insects in my garden  ,I even named them"built them a den"
I loved to listen to the sound ,of the rain pelting down on my plastic sheet I'd thrown over a tree I thought it was great.  I  thought i
was the only one who invented such a thing and I was safe
But I was wrong
Tom introduced me to the adult world
I didn't belong there!!!

He introduced fear
It kept me paralysed
I scrubbed my skin till it bled
I even prayed to the fairies and god
When it was my birthday mum got her camera
Smile get nice and close to Tom
Oh that's a lovely picture she said
Inside I screamed mum it's not the real one ,!
But she never heard
I'm in a different place now
I look different too
At least my birthday wish came true
I am invisible
My next of kin is street life the homeless charity
People judge me some with pity others with disgust
I am still paralysed
It all changed that day and it's still there the sentence "honey come n meet Tom"!
Who Cares..??

I'd like to ask you a question ?
When you veiw this photograph of me

Who are you really looking at
Who is it that you see?

Do you recognise anything
Trigger memories from the past?

Perhaps my smile
The way I've posed
Or are those memories
Trashed

My first steps gone
First day at school
Very first Christmas day

My dance competitions
Parents nights
My role in the school play

I married my first love
It was nothing like yours
My home held no trouble or strife

For a few years I found happiness
Saw such beauty in life
The bubble burst eventually
It's now all in the past

Never married again
But now I've found a love
That will always last

A beautiful child I've been given
But unlike you I realise
That parentings a huge commitment
You have to compromise

Time has come between us
Hours and minutes fade away
Light becomes the darkness
Tomorrows another day

Yet there is no way of changing
Events long gone
Good or bad
As time it waits for no one
No we can't change anything dad

I really must be honest
I wonder how different life would be
If you and mum had never met
But then I realise

I wouldn't be me.