The toils of yesterday fade once more
Like the crests of the waves
Leave the anchor of its shore
I make the decision to accept
Then reflect
---------------------
Like the Phoenix
I rise from the ashes

My path I carve
With hands of skill
Determined focused
with an iron will
Until the day
My heart is still
-----------------------
Like the Phoenix
I rise from the ashes

The challenge of darkness
May eclipse
My thoughts
Stealing positive words
From my lips
Paralysing me to my fingertips

But again I will arise once more

Like I've done so many times before

As the crests of the wave
Leaves its anchor of the shore
----------------------------------------
Like the Phoenix
I rise from the ashes

He does not think before he speaks
Wounding all with words he meets
A trail of destruction left behind
Oblivious of his dysfunctional mind

Never wrong he's always right
Insecurity is his plight
An enemy to himself within
Everything always about him

No middle ground
No compromise
He'll twist the truth
With articulate lies

His ego grandiose
As he stands tall
His aim to watch you
Retreat and fall
Emotionally void
From the human race
Defiance etched upon his face

Your life now fraught with  pain and worry
As he does never intend to say
I'm sorry

Mobile phone
Apple I pad
Are these great inventions
Or are they bad?
Face book
Twitter
Take all our time
I refuse to succumb
There not taking mine

Then there's face time
Available to see
Whoever you like
But they won't see me
People like sheep go on line
Not realising
Just how much time

That they have wasted
Nothing gained
Many have been bullied
Many brought to shame
There's a lack of privacy
Lack of respect
Being projected
We therefore must protect
Our self preservation
Dignity pride
Or you may just find
Your washed up
With the tide


Sure I'm not alone in
thinking

Life was a slower Pace
Before  Internet intervention
And mobile phone took their place  .....

Pink balloons
Glitter nails
Glossy lips
Fairy tales
Frilly dresses
Pigtails with bows
"I have a secret"
No one knows!
Flowery handbags
Sweet perfume
"Can't keep  it in "
Need to tell you soon!
Sparkly jewellery
Ballet shoes
"I know what you're about to lose"
"Tell me the secret I here you shout"?
Ok
''Closets open."       I'm coming out!!!  .....

Affliction her addiction
Her thoughts held no restriction

She stumbled through her life blind
Leaving all who loved
Behind

No more harm
No more pain
Will never hear her voice again

The blade she sought as her best freind

Took her life in the end ........

As unique as the snowflake
That falls from heavenly skies

Is how our god has made us
Til we all reach our demise

We til then should learn to love
All our differences embrace
Regardless of religion  -colour
Class or race

So many people fighting
Oblivious to reasons why
So many hearts then broken
Not yet lived before they die

The bloodshed and the hatred
The lack of trust the fears

Was not in gods almighty plan
When blood flows
So does his tears

He left for us instructions
In the hope we'd somehow see
That all the evils in this world
Lead to pain and misery

If we could only realise
Which way we should go
If we looked up to our creator
Instead of this world down below

His love it holds no boundaries
He can reach you near or far
No matter what you've done
No matter where you are

Just ask him for forgiveness
Know remorse and he will show
The love the light so pure so white

Unique

As

Flakes

Of

Snow

Life it's just a boardgame
But it comes without instruction
There's happiness joy
Devastation corruption
Good days sad days
Cruel ways crime that pays
Gotta learn the rules fast
Play the game
Make it last
If you wana be a winner
Got more chance as a sinner
The games hard can't be slow
You'll Learn more as you go
There's pleasure treasure
Love we can't measure
Politics religion
Prostitutes and virgins
Special occasions
No order in the nations
Good intentions
Wrong interpretations
Wrangles scandals
******* n vandals
Temptation resistance
Council tax insistence
Birthdays holidays
Cruel ways crime that pays
Gotta learn the rules fast
Play the game make it last !

"I painted a picture today"
I'm hoping it inspires people in a similar way that my poetry does
No ! I hope it does more than that
I've scrutinised and criticised it from all angles
Til my energy drained
It's of a sunset
The colours are vivid n just right "or are they"?
My local gallery's displaying it at a fair price or is it?
I'm not sure if it's hanging in the best place?
Does that matter?
It's taken a long time to complete
I'm surprised they thought it was good enough ?
I am my harshest  critic
A perfectionist ......

Is it safe to call round yet?

"Just text"  -"I'll wait here"!

(It's been over an hour now)
My hearts gripped with fear

"Perhaps we've been caught"
I hope that's not true?!

But??? -How will She feel
"If other people knew"?

"That shes just as bad "
Plus shes never been there!
"I have evidence that shows"

She's also having an affair !!!!?

A happy heart
Is an honest heart
It dances with the sun

No hatred found
No battles fought
No wars to be won

A happy heart is giving
Loving to the core
Forgiving all  Discrepancies
That happened long before

It radiates the joy of life
Turns darkness into light

{A happy hearts contented}

Like a star *

It shines so bright ~

My thoughts uplifting
Riding high
As positive as a moonlit sky
My expression
None but fair of face
My presence
Reflects a warm embrace
My heart it dances with the sun
My aim to live
To love
Have fun
To care for others
Help  them find

(The power of thought)

(In the positive mind )

I waited for your call tonight
You said that you would ring
I have come to the conclusion
Your words don't mean a thing

I read through all your letters
With disappointment and contempt
It was then that I decided
To go to where they'd been sent

I knocked the door n waited
In the hope that you'd be there
Instead there stood a woman
With long blonde curly hair

I asked her who she was
She said she was your wife!
I felt  my whole world shatter
It pierced through me like a knife

100 miles of hell
As I made the journey home
I now know  that your a cheater
So leave me the hell
Alone !

Your hair stripped of the colour that once was dark as night
Now reflects the years gone by as it's slowly turned to white

Those loving hands that held me and taught me right from wrong
No longer look the same they bend as each new day goes on

Your eyes which did once sparkle like emaralds of green
Look so tired and almost vacant a look I've never seen

Your posture is no longer ,upright standing tall
You move so slow ,I stand behind to catch you if you fall

Your voice a silent whisper
Your memory long but gone
But your heart of love it's never changed
Like a light it's always shon

So many years have passed us by
Now i can clearly see
How the roles have now reversed


You once looked after me

I'm here to show you patience
Tender loving care
Reflecting all that you have shown by always being there
I'm here to tell you thank you
Speaking from a grateful heart
I will be with you until the end
As you've been with me right from the start

A kind deed
A pleasant smile
Precious time shared
For a little while
A warm embrace
A gentle touch
These things cost nothing
But mean so much
A helping hand offered
To those in need
A compliment given
A good hearted deed
A friendly chat
With a stranger spent
These things are really
Heaven sent
They come from a heart
So filled with love
From knowing the good lord up above
If his loves filled your heart
Like it has in mine
Bear his fruit
Be his witness
And let him shine

Painted my nails
Painted my toes
Put on my lipstick
Powdered my nose
Plucked my eyebrows
Curled my hair
Can't decide
What to where?!
Should I wear jeans?
Or perhaps a dress
I'm very nervous
I must confess
Butterflies in my stomach
Another drink
Drunk too much
Now I can't think
Will he like me
Will he not
My front door key
Oh no I forgot !
What time is it?
My god I'm late!
Don't you just hate
Going on a first date ?

I wasn't looking
Nor interested
Was enjoying just getting to know myself
Then it happened
'I saw you" the kindness in your eyes, unlocked my barriers
The tenderness of your smile reached  for me I could not run
The gentleness of your touch woke me from a deep slumber
The beauty of your heart shone through like a guiding light
Flooding the depths of my being
Awakening my soul
Taking me to another place
I'm now captivated engrossed  mesmerised , so fortunate to have found you.   My love

All that glitters is not gold
All you hear is not the truth
All you want is not required
All the waste it shows the proof
All the time that you've been given
All the things you should have said
All the times you could  have loved
All the times you fought instead
All the opportunities you missed
All the days you chose to waste
All the decisions not thought through
All the times you'd act in haste
All the things that really mattered
Allthe times you never cared
All the times you didn't listen
All those times you never shared
All because you chased the rainbow
The material gains you'd rather hold
All the time to loves been lost
All that glitters is not gold .................

The baby looks just like you
Lots of people say it
I tell you often
He has your eyes
Your lips
Your
Ears n nose
As he's getting older the resemblance is more obvious
He needs fresh air
Going for a walk
I collect your cigarette ****
Lots of thoughts eating away at me
We've been friends for years  "me n her"
Hope I'm wrong
But we always seem to be babysitting
You never refuse ?
The old sayings -" I never took notice of before"
Didn't really understand just what they meant
Haunt me !
Playing over in my restless mind

"Familiarity  breads contempt"!
Two's company 3's a crowd !

I head straight to the doctors office
I hand your cigarette end to him
He collects the baby's DNA
I wait

I wonder just what   DNA stands for
My name gets called out
The results are in, !
Tension rises in every part of my being
Sweat drips down my spine
I feel I've stopped breathing
As my racing heart beats in a loud deafening tone
It's confirmed

My life's just crumbled
In a moment of time
My identity ripped to shreds
I'm no longer
A best friend
A god mother
Your wife
I wonder have I done the right thing ?

"Curiosity killed the cat"!
Another old saying

Just realised what DNA means.  

DO  NOT  ASK!

The question is not
Do you still love me ?

Rather

Did you ever?!!!

He asked me to marry him
But he hated himself

I walk alone
I cannot see
There's no one here
Only me
My mind is filled
With thoughts of doubt
I'm trapped
I'm scared
There's no way out
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Then daylight dawns
Another day
I suddenly feel
The urge to pray
If there's a god
And it's true
Let's see what
He plans to do
~~~~~~~~~~~~
I only ask
He'll show a sign
Of this mighty one
So divine
I challenge him but here no sound
Silence echos all around
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Where are you lord
Do you care
I'm filled with loneliness
Despair
Please fill me now with your grace
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(He replies my child)

All you need is
*****
F
A
I
T
H

I prayed hoped and wished
To meet you
Hoping to emerge together as one
(Then I contradict myself)
(Keeping part of me in reserve)
(As Compulsory preservation)

We both admit our deepest
Most intimate feelings for one another
Our needs met
Our desires set
Our life path carved
Hand in hand
We walk
Together
The depth of our language is unseen
The rock upon which we stand indestructible
The emotion between us like a tsunami
Years have now sealed our bond
Overwhelmed by our love
Devotion
Integrity
Trust
We are so blessed
My love

Accepting you is like embracing my own reflection
Now we are entwined in harmonious bliss
We have what most people  seek
But my
reserve
I hope I never have to tap into
If you first depart
Neither do I want you to suffer losing me
Better to have loved n lost
Than never to have loved at all?
One of us is destined to find out
Love~
A double sided coin

When our hands are clasped in prayer
I find comfort knowing this
Our heavenly fathers listening
Un clasped hands
He opens his
Intently he will listen
To our simple prayer
His arms outstretched
He offers
Hope
Boundless love and care
Your faith may not move mountains
Sometimes it may sway
Especially when in troubled times
But that's when you should pray
None of us are perfect
God knows that is true
For this reason he gave his begotten son
Crucified was he for you
"Father do not forsake me"!
We're the words that Jesus gave
He took upon him -all our sin
For all the world to save
So whenever you are troubled
Hearts filled with dismay
Just clasp those hands together
And let him hear us pray

Many have walked along it's sand
Sharing glances
Holding hands
Listening to its thunderous sounds
Children looking
Seashells found
Dogs delight enjoying the fun
Owners follow as they run
Seagulls chatter overhead
Hoping they will soon be fed
One visit evokes
A return for more
As you paddle along
The outstretched shore
Admiring sunsets gold and peach
There's tranquility found
Down on the beach ...

I smile as I watch you sleeping
I sigh as I watch you grow
I listen for your return
I love you more than you know
I give you all that I have
I care that your ok
I dread that you won't be here
You will want to leave one day
I laugh when you tell me stories
I cry when your in pain
I wish I could hold you forever
Like a new born baby again
I see that your now a young lady
I know you now want to fly
From my nest I created for you
Oh how time just passes us by
I want you so much to be happy
I m here when you feel low
I will always be here for you
I love you more than you know

My aim is to love
As gently as a snowflake  that falls
* * * * * * * *
To be as graceful
To be as pure in mind
And in thought
As inspiring
As elegant
* * * * * * * *
My aim is
To remember
That I have been created
As all of us have
Unique * *
As the snow flake that falls
* * * * * * * * * * * * *

The color green inspires
Thoughts
of all that's still to grow

The color yellow
like the sun
Warms natures earth below

Purple covers acres of woodland
In the spring

In the form of pretty blue bells
Amongst the birds that sing

Pink apple blossom trees
Sway gently in the air
As their petals leave a trail
Of divine beauty everywhere

Orange red and lilac
Not forgetting those
Each and every colour
Is found within the rose

A kaleidoscope of colors
Ignites this world
On which we stand

(There for us to marvel)

Touched by gods

Almighty hand

Today I will make a difference
A clean slate
A new start

I'll clear those cobwebs
From my mind
Dust those scars
Around my heart

I'll switch on my new thoughts
Wear my smile
Shining bright

Try my best
To help others
In the hope
I do things right

Taking this opportunity
Putting all the past behind
My~mind ~my heart ~

With he )

Who said )

("All who seek shall find")

He prowls around like a hungary lion
Looking for his bait
Be alert of sober mind
Don't let him be your fate

He is the prince of darkness
This is his world of rule
The leader of temptation
Deceit his favourite tool

He's arrogant he's boastful
Satan is his name
His followers the Antichrist
Destruction is his game

The master of disaster
The distributor of fear
Be on your guard
He'd like us all
To believe that he's not here

I used to walk in darkness
His path I walked along
I told fortunes by reading tarrot cards
Then realised this was wrong

Through ouija board I met him
And spoke with his spirits too
He spits deceit to all he meets
Including me and you

His aim is of destruction
Many ways he'll surely find
To annihilate abolish
The  (love ) of all mankind

To all who don't believe in him
Just Look around you'll see
So many in his image

( There's only Christ can set us free ~)

L ies have no part in this

Openness does

Visible to all

Entrenched in its comfort ~ freedom ~security

Soft white feathers
Ribbons n bows
Icing on cakes
Baby fingers n toes
Beautiful sunsets
Hot summer days
White turtle doves
An innocent child's gaze
Star studied skies
The light from the moon
Sweet melodies
From a beautiful tune
Christmas tree lights
That twinkle and shine
All these pretty things
Are favourites
Of mine

Satan rules he is the master
He leaves behind
A trail of disaster
His aim never to enjoy
Destruction is his game
His ploy
His spoken words
They spit like fire
No truth
Evident
From this liar
His gift to all
His twain shall meet
Corruption >pain>lies> deceit

Too bold
Too loud
Too pushy
Too proud
Too disruptive
Too rude
Too obnoxious
Far too crude
It changes behaviour
Stop n think
Before you take
Too much too drink!!

Another day over
Time for bed
As I plan for the next day
That lies ahead
But I can't yet sleep
Too much on my mind
Peacefull sleep
I Cannot find
Till I've written
My poetry
That I must write
It's almost as if
I can't say goodnight
Til the last word is written
Emptied out of my head


Only then
Can I think

Sleep
It's now time for bed.

My mother is an angel
Who walked here on this earth
She touched every person
Oblivious  of her worth
Her tongue it spoke no malice
Her heart was lined with gold
Her inner beauty shone so bright
Even more as she grew old
She's helped so many people
With her tender loving care
She's sacrificed so many hours
Of love with time to share
Not just to her family
But to all
Who stepped her way
Not just sometimes
When it suited her
But every single day
My mother she's an angel
To know her
It's a pleasure
The respect I have the love I feel
For her
Is beyond measure
Im forever humbled by her ways
In her heart you'll find no doubt
I've never seen her cause discord
Or ever heard her shout
Her voice she spoke so quietly
She knew no selfish glare
She's my mother
My inspiration
Living proof
Gods really there.

The poet is the artist
Who illustrates what others feel
He paints  his words
On canvas
For the audience
To reveal

My eyes have captured so many visions of you
The way you smile
How beautifully you dance
I see your heart
It's so gentle and white in the purest form

Your strength is relentless
Your determination always prevalent

My eyes have captured so many visions of you
I've had the honour
The time
To watch you grow
My aim was to guide you
To teach you
Yet you have taught me so much more
Your energy
Humour
Fun
Intelligence
Shines like the brightest star

My eyes have captured so many visions of you
From the first day I held you
And each night since
I have watched you sleep
Stroked your beautiful face
Wishing all the best for you
Hoping all your dreams will come true
Being your mother
Has been the greatest blessing
As I remember each moment
Treasured Memories
My eyes capturing so many visions of you
Painting daily........
A portrait of my love ~

The road is narrow
But forever long
Most days I walk
Or stumble along
Often it's bumpy
Rarely smooth
Sometimes I question
Choices I choose
Never clear of direction
We do not know
Just what is ahead
As we go
some times are good
Some leave us sad
Take the rough with smooth
Good with the bad
Remember this !your not alone
Can't write him a letter
Nor pick up the phone
But no matter  how bad things seem today
He's waiting and listening
For you to pray
His name is Jesus
Our guiding light
There in the morning
Till last thing at night
His hand is outstretched
Reaching down from above
Offering All
( Unconditional  Love.  )

A friend is someone special
When you find one you will know
That through the years that pass us by
Your friendship it will grow
Together you will nurture it
Like a garden it will bloom
The essence of the time you share
Like the beautiful perfume
No measureing of this friendship
By the gifts that you receive
But rather by the trust that's built
In them you will believe
They'll be with you through the good times
They'll care when times are bad
Always there to wipe those tears
When your down or feeling sad
There is no price
That you could pay
No real way we can measure
The importance of a life long friend
More valuable than treasure

Need to scream
Need to shout
Vent my anger
Let it out
Need to walk
Need to pace
Bury my head
Hide my face
Take a breath
Take control
Too much
Stress
Taking its toll
Need to sleep
To get away
Remember
Tomorrows another day

Is that the time ? Oh no I'm late
There's the postman at the gate
Wash the dishes/ mop the floor
Feed the cat
Lock the door
Too much to do
I must run
No time for rest!
No time for fun!
Where's my keys?
My mobile phone?
Just can't wait til I get home!
Put my feet up
At the end of the day
Have a glass of wine
Chase the blues away
Need to relax
Just can't beat
Coming home
After work
And put up your feet

In this big world
It's the little things
That matter to us all

(Understanding love and patience)
(A kind gesture)
(Large or small)

These little things
Seem so simple

Like the gentleness
Of a dove

They're really what's most important

They leave the impact

Of our love ...........

Many things have been invented
By geniuses in times past
There's been television
Radio
Electricity and gas
The invention of the light bulb
Let's not forget the wheel
And of course the ship
Titanic
Made from 24,000 tons of steel
Communication lines were open
By the invention of the phone
But there's one simple invention
That stands out on its own
We use it to communicate
Every single day
Without it I would struggle
To say the words I need to say
The name of the inventor
Who I'm sure was very proud
Was an absolute genius
John J loud
He possibly never realised
In 1880
Way back then
How important was the invention " To all of us"
The simple  ..... Pen

Be true to oneself
Not a follower of man
------------------
Be not a slave
To ones mind
---------------------
Believe that you can
----------------------
Be brave ~take risks
Only then will you see
-------------------------
Being true to oneself
Will then set you ~~free
-------------------

He sat alone looked blank and stared
Unaware that someone cared

I watched him look at people go by
Then a teardrop fell from his eye

I wondered then
What I should do
I was also a stranger he never knew

Didn't want to infringe upon his space
But he looked up and stared me in the face

I smiled at him
Kindness in my eyes
He then smiled back
To my surprise


I asked if he'd like to join me then
No longer a stranger
He's now my freind

An opportunity by chance
Arose just by a tender glance

A little gesture ?
It may appear
No spoken word
No sound you'll hear

It says much more
Than words endeavour

Captured by the mind forever

Can light the darkness
Chase away
The clouds of someone else's day

As significant as a warm embrace
When displayed upon our face

It means so much
Theres no denial

The impact of a heartfelt
Smile ~

Happiness is a state of mind
Unto yourself
Be compassionate
Be kind

No room for judgement
Anger
Wrath
To yourself be true
On your destined path

Allow the time every day
To live~ enjoy ~your life
This way

Realise your worth
Your  own value
As you are unique
There's only one you

Understand your desires
Your thoughts
You'll find

That happiness

Is a state of mind~

There's so many paths I've walked along
So many mountains  that I've climbed
So many times that I've stumbled
I've fallen so many times
But now I am ready to listen
As I seek a quiet place
To bow down in your presence
Humbled by your grace
My heart and mind is open
To the acceptance of your love
I ask that you will guide me
In your ways from above
The desires of my loving heart
To this world release
Please use me as your vessel
As an instrument of  thy peace

One of life's great gifts
Is the pleasure of giving
Adding so much joy
To this life
That we're living
.....................................
To give with a smile
And a Heart that's content
Can mean so much more
Than the gift that's been sent
.......................................
There's so many ways
We can bring someone pleasure
Giving time
Giving patience
Giving memories
They'll treasure
.................................
Some things we can give
Money just cannot buy
Like a hug
Or the love
To wipe a tear from the eye
...................................
Fulfilment acquired
Much more than before
When a loving heart gives
........................................
( We receive so much more. ~)

Dont wait till the storm's past?
Dance in the rain !!