Where are we going
I ask is it time?
Should you go your way
I go mine
We've reached a cross roads
We're standing still
Now climbing mountains
But somehow
Lost the thrill
No direction
Tired  worn
Forgotten our promises
Our future sworn
Just going through the motions
Have one life
It's mine
So I will now ask the question
Shall we quit
Is it time ??

Stop the world it's spinning too fast
Feels like im Losing my mind
Stop the world there's too much hurt
Destruction  ! against mankind

Stop the world
We  must evaluate our principles for living
Show more kindess , caring , sharing , give more thanks
Than we are giving


Stop the world
Look around us
If we see a need we should try to meet it
"This is our world "lets eradicate
Pain and suffering
Try to defeat it

Stop the world
Each one of us is capable of changing
We need to act no time to waste
Take part in rearranging
The environment
society
There's only us to blame
Stop being blind
To the deception of
Riches lust and fame

Stop the world
Just give a smile to a stranger on the street
A few kind words
A gentle touch
To each person that you meet
No money required
No credit card
No debt incurred while giving

What an  impact this will truly have

"Simply Priceless "


As our world
Keeps right on spinning !

A darkened sky displays twinkling lights
In the form of stars
On this memorable night
As I look above
I stop n stare
Wonder if  ?your somewhere up there

Way up high looking down below
I miss you a lot
Do you know?

I think of you often
As I look above
Call out loud
Where are you my love?!!

I bought a star
It has your name
Now your memories not in vain
You've now gone from me
It's not the same
This life
It's hard
Just feel pain

Each day slowly passes by
I wipe away
The tears I cry

I remember our life- together
Our love
Then wonder
Can you see me ?
Hear me ?

My love..............

Rustling branches, falling leaves ,silently they fall
Carpeting the winter grounds
Large oak trees standing tall

Whispering winds echoing clear
The highest pitch
I feel you near
I think I hear you
I turn around
I search but nowhere
To be found

I walk to the park our favourite place
Every step we took -I trace
I find our tree ,our names enscribed
Behind it you often used to hide
I miss your smile
Your warm embrace
Your loving touch
Beautiful face
Such joyfull memories

"Still "!  each winter brings
I feel your spirit

When the robin sings.

I watch you from my window
Admiring the veiw
I'm careful you don't see me youd be angry if you knew
I found this town you live in
I really like it here
Could not separate us
I moved here to be near


I watch your wife and children
They look happy as they play
You thought that you could leave me
Moved 400 miles away
This affairs not over
The battle not been won
You have ties with me -always

(Forever)
"I have your son"!

Why are kisses shaped like this X
Who invented it and why
It's  such  a meaningful  symbol
Can bring a tear to the eye

Or if we lose touch
For a little while
Send a card with a x
It can raise a smile

It can mean more- than the words we write
Especially texting last thing at night

This symbols amazing
No other can compete
The way in which it moves us
Can make a heart skip a beat

I'm sent it often but ,sometimes it's not there
I then think some things wrong
Wonder "does he not care"?
Then all of a sudden I get loads like thisxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Nothing compares to the sight of the kiss

You never say
Just how you are
Never stop
To chat
Always busy
Running round
Doing this or that
Your body tense
Your face Is fixed
Uncompromising stare
You've lost control
Of who you are
To one who doesn't care
If they say jump
You say how high
Your programmed
Under a spell
But I can see
You now believe
There's no one you can tell
I've had enough now watching this
It's time for you to know
I can't sit back another day
I know where I must go
Confrontation
Now awaits
An argument I see
But this is right
It's the only way
To allow you to be free.!

Many have walked along it's sand
Sharing glances
Holding hands
Listening to its thunderous sounds
Children looking
Seashells found
Dogs delight enjoying the fun
Owners follow as they run
Seagulls chatter overhead
Hoping they will soon be fed
One visit evokes
A return for more
As you paddle along
The outstretched shore
Admiring sunsets gold and peach
There's tranquility found
Down on the beach ...

The words I write
Are so much more than letters making sense
They are the release
My solid rock
That secures me when I'm tense

They are the branches
Of my core
The essence of my being
The words I write they do express
Emotions  that I'm feeling

Just like the wind blowing free
When I write that's how it feels for me
To express  - with ease no restriction
No sign of - doubtful contradiction

No time limit
Day or night
There's so much more to the words I write .....

Another day over
Time for bed
As I plan for the next day
That lies ahead
But I can't yet sleep
Too much on my mind
Peacefull sleep
I Cannot find
Till I've written
My poetry
That I must write
It's almost as if
I can't say goodnight
Til the last word is written
Emptied out of my head


Only then
Can I think

Sleep
It's now time for bed.

I wish , i wish that I could fly
Up in a rainbow coloured sky

Where no problem or contempt I'd find
Only relaxation peace of mind

Where everything
Felt like heavenly bliss
I wish there was a place like this

Soft white feathers
Ribbons n bows
Icing on cakes
Baby fingers n toes
Beautiful sunsets
Hot summer days
White turtle doves
An innocent child's gaze
Star studied skies
The light from the moon
Sweet melodies
From a beautiful tune
Christmas tree lights
That twinkle and shine
All these pretty things
Are favourites
Of mine

Isn't it amazing  
When you see a human face
The seeds of life are sewn on there
That time can not erase

The face is like a canvas
And as life's events unfold
Each event leaves its mark
As we're growing old

Laughter lines when happy
Frowns when we're uptight
Deep crevices around the mouth
Dark circles from up all night

Even  if dependant
On alcohol it shows
The tell tale signs
You cannot hide
You'll display a discoloured  nose

So the face is like a canvas
The tapestry's being sewn
By emotion from our planned events
"Some circumstance unknown"

As you look into your mirror
Each day as you grow
You may not recognise yourself
As the one you used to know

Eventually in time
When you look  yes "you will see"
Someone different staring back
(Thinking )?.


Who's that"  ?! "That  can't be me!!!!!!"

Mobile phone
Apple I pad
Are these great inventions
Or are they bad?
Face book
Twitter
Take all our time
I refuse to succumb
There not taking mine

Then there's face time
Available to see
Whoever you like
But they won't see me
People like sheep go on line
Not realising
Just how much time

That they have wasted
Nothing gained
Many have been bullied
Many brought to shame
There's a lack of privacy
Lack of respect
Being projected
We therefore must protect
Our self preservation
Dignity pride
Or you may just find
Your washed up
With the tide


Sure I'm not alone in
thinking

Life was a slower Pace
Before  Internet intervention
And mobile phone took their place  .....

I saw a man the other day
His face was sad and worn
His breath it wreaked of alcohol
His clothes disheveled torn

He stumbled around in a drunken daze
His eyes looked through my bewildered gaze
My heart was heavy he did not see
His long lost child
"Didn't recognise me"!

People laughed
People stared
No one helped him
No one cared
It left me wounded
Feeling sad
They did not know
He was my dad ..........

I've just read the story of Adam and Eve
It's what I've been told
We should all believe

But I'm not very sure
If its actually true
What do you think?
I so wish I knew

I've been told to have faith
To get down and pray
Be gratefull. To god
For each passing day

But im finding it difficult
Because of things that I see
Cruelty  ,suffering  , great poverty!
"If god is so caring"
Loving and kind

Then why?
Is it happiness is so hard to find?
Why so many religions?
Differing veiws
Are they there for what reason?
They only confuse
Causing so much
Conflict , Bitterness  ,unrest ,

Requesting even the most loving
Be put to the test
I've come to the conclusion
Even if it's not true

That there's really no god
It's just me n you
I've nothing to lose
But continue to pray

For all that read this poem
Each passing day
As there may be a chance
That the devils deceived ?

"All of mankind"
So have faith
Just believe .......

Another chapter
Another day
As I keep record
Of what I want to say

There's poems
I've written
Photographs too
Of each memory I've treasured
Of me and you

There's loving advice
On every page
From the start of your life
Through to each new stage

I've looked well ahead
It's all in hand
Took great measures
In all that I planned

Can't leave it to chance
As I really don't know
If I will still be around
To watch you grow

So I made a promise
And started to write
And my heavy load
All at once
Became light

It's my loving duty
The least I can do
To remind you of us
Our love
Me and you

I'm hoping you'll
Treasure each page that you see
As much as I've valued
Your time spent
With me

The book i have written
Is carefully tied
With a pink satin ribbon
Damp from tears that I've cried

I hope you won't need it
That I will still be here
To lovingly guide you
And banish all fear
If fate intervenes

And shows we must part
"Remember "
"Each memories left"
Footprints in my heart. ! ..........

Is it safe to call round yet?

"Just text"  -"I'll wait here"!

(It's been over an hour now)
My hearts gripped with fear

"Perhaps we've been caught"
I hope that's not true?!

But??? -How will She feel
"If other people knew"?

"That shes just as bad "
Plus shes never been there!
"I have evidence that shows"

She's also having an affair !!!!?

It's late in the evening
I'm
Alone
once again
So I pick up my old friends
My note book n my pen

I scrawl my thoughts on paper
It doesn't always rhyme
It helps to keep me centred
Relieve tension from the mind

There are many  varied subjects
That inspire me to write
I'm not sure why
But words just flow
With ease when late at night

Some poems tell a story
Of the future
Or times past
Others speak of love affairs
Never meant to last
So many relevant subjects
The reader can digest

But once I write
No stopping me
I never think of rest
So I gather all my thoughts
Before I start to write
With my note book and my pen
Late into the night.................

Where were you when the world stood still ?
When all were forever changed

When terror struck from explosive skies
Tears falling from disbelieving eyes
Haunting memories
Scarring the mind
Leaving remnants of the most barbaric kind

As buildings fell
Hit the ground
Utter chaos
All around
Assassination was deviously planned
Can you believe
By our fellow man

What have they done! There's been nothing gained?
Only fear distruction heartache pain
Jihad the battle their belief to fight
"Two wrongs"
"Never make a right"!

This day forever will always
Remain
Tarnished by the devils stain
Can't comprehend it
Never will !
Forget all those killed
The day the world stood still. ........

Tomorrow is soon to be
Yesterday
And yesterday a memory .......

I remember the first time
I saw your face
Looking into your eyes
Made my heart race

I remember
We talked late into the night
My head on your chest
Holding you tight

I remember thinking
Nobody could
Ever love you
The way that I would

I remember hoping
You would not want to be
Anywhere else
Other than with me

Do you you remember saying?
you'd never forget
How lucky you were
That we had both met
How happy I made you
That I was your life
Our plans for the future
To make me your wife
Without me you were nothing
I made you whole
I was more than a lover
I touched your soul

Whatever happened
I believed  it was true
I  really don't know
I wish I knew


I remember.......

Our relationship Now a memory
Our love a distant stranger
We held hands
Touched hearts
Entwined souls
For a while
But now
It's time
To move on
It was not in vain
We have enriched each others lives
Sewn beautiful memories
Into the tapestry of our lives
Like a caged dove I must allow you to fly
Be happy my love
You were never really mine
I wish only the best for you
Always..........

No guarantees in this world that we live
Some of us take some of us give
We can't trust
Governments
Can't trust the banks
When we help others
Can't trust they'll give thanks
If we become sick in need of care
In hospitals you may not find it there
If we lock up our valuables
Secure our home
There's no guarantee
Thieves will leave it alone
Even when you marry
You may find
Your closest friend
May have
Adultery in mind
We strive to survive
Obeying the laws
There's loop holes in that
It too full of flaws
Then there's insurance
Supposed to bring peace of mind
But read the small print
Even then you will find
They've a get out clause
It's too late! You paid n signed
Each day that  unfolds
Another lie
Only one guarantee
We are born to die

Hot balmy night
Walking hand in hand
Drawing  their names in the sand
The smell of the sea filling the air
What time is it ? What do they care
Another world somehow descends
Both feeling like there is no end
Urgent kisses, passion desire
Electric touch ignites a burning fire
Abandoned clothing
Naked free
Their love blind
They cannot see
They exchange numbers
Promise to write
"But they never do it was just one night. " ........

Painted my nails
Painted my toes
Put on my lipstick
Powdered my nose
Plucked my eyebrows
Curled my hair
Can't decide
What to where?!
Should I wear jeans?
Or perhaps a dress
I'm very nervous
I must confess
Butterflies in my stomach
Another drink
Drunk too much
Now I can't think
Will he like me
Will he not
My front door key
Oh no I forgot !
What time is it?
My god I'm late!
Don't you just hate
Going on a first date ?

I waited for your call tonight
You said that you would ring
I have come to the conclusion
Your words don't mean a thing

I read through all your letters
With disappointment and contempt
It was then that I decided
To go to where they'd been sent

I knocked the door n waited
In the hope that you'd be there
Instead there stood a woman
With long blonde curly hair

I asked her who she was
She said she was your wife!
I felt  my whole world shatter
It pierced through me like a knife

100 miles of hell
As I made the journey home
I now know  that your a cheater
So leave me the hell
Alone !

December 28th 2001 Istarted a new job
The specified criteria immense
The role involved challenging
The hours 24/7
For life
Payment far richer than gold or silver
Responsibilities include
Teacher , adviser ,playmate,nurse
Protector,counsellor,supporter,
Listener,Provider­
My rewards unfold before me each passing day
You are .... The very essence of my exsistence
The fruits of all my labour and sacrifice
Your inner beauty reflects my heart
Your intelligence will be an asset to the next generation
Your laugh is infectious
Your thoughtfull ways touch my soul
You are loved and remembered by all you meet
As beautiful as a new day that dawns
My daughter
My inspiration........

I saw you today
Dressed in the dreaded colour black!
You were hiding behind those sun shades
Your 2 kids clinging to you
My heart was heavy
I wanted to scoop you all up on a cloud
Somewhere safe from him!
I felt helpless
Knowing the inner turmoil of your mind had turned  inside out
It was there reflected in the colour black
I love you all
I am your friend
I with the power of love
Will inject the colour white  -reflecting freedom
Tranquility harmony n peace
Into your life
I will not be far away
He shadows you with his dark devious ways
Hates me.?     I know
Because I eclipse him with my light   My laugh 'my love of life'

Hold on
Your not alone in this
I have lit your pathway.    Follow me.  Your friend.

Many things have been invented
By geniuses in times past
There's been television
Radio
Electricity and gas
The invention of the light bulb
Let's not forget the wheel
And of course the ship
Titanic
Made from 24,000 tons of steel
Communication lines were open
By the invention of the phone
But there's one simple invention
That stands out on its own
We use it to communicate
Every single day
Without it I would struggle
To say the words I need to say
The name of the inventor
Who I'm sure was very proud
Was an absolute genius
John J loud
He possibly never realised
In 1880
Way back then
How important was the invention " To all of us"
The simple  ..... Pen

Think before you use them
You cannot put them back
Remember what you said
You'll get caught
If you lose track
Be careful how you say them
Your tone will set the mood
Don't use them to be spiteful
Harmful or be rude
When said with love and kindness
There's nothing to compare
To let others know just how we feel
How much you 'love n care'........

I gave you a key
Don't lose it
It's to my heart
Don't abuse it
I'm giving you my time
Appreciate it
I'm giving you my mind
Please read it
I'm giving you my soul
Please touch it
I'm giving you  my body
Please cherish it
I'm giving you my love
Please treasure it
Now here are my words
I love you ...........

Pink balloons
Glitter nails
Glossy lips
Fairy tales
Frilly dresses
Pigtails with bows
"I have a secret"
No one knows!
Flowery handbags
Sweet perfume
"Can't keep  it in "
Need to tell you soon!
Sparkly jewellery
Ballet shoes
"I know what you're about to lose"
"Tell me the secret I here you shout"?
Ok
''Closets open."       I'm coming out!!!  .....

Alcohol on his breath
Friday night
Matter of time
Before the fight
Kick punch slap
Fears
Screaming loud
No one hears
He beckons sorry from my lips
He then strokes me with his finger tips
It's okay
I hear him say
" You made me do it"!
Just had a bad day ......

"I painted a picture today"
I'm hoping it inspires people in a similar way that my poetry does
No ! I hope it does more than that
I've scrutinised and criticised it from all angles
Til my energy drained
It's of a sunset
The colours are vivid n just right "or are they"?
My local gallery's displaying it at a fair price or is it?
I'm not sure if it's hanging in the best place?
Does that matter?
It's taken a long time to complete
I'm surprised they thought it was good enough ?
I am my harshest  critic
A perfectionist ......

I used to believe you loved me
Didnt ever ask you why
I used to believe you'd never
give me a reason to cry
I thought we'd built a foundation
Nothing could ever break
But now I've found your mobile
My thoughts are a mistake
I heard your phone vibrating
Joe was what I read
I should have gone to bed that night
Negative thoughts entered my head
I thought about the time we've shared
Since our wedding day
Our first kiss
Last dance
Our song we loved to play
You promised you'd be faithfull til the end of time
I wanted to believe you
Ignore the warning signs
Wedding ring in your pocket
Aftershave on every day
Longer hours at the office
Hotel bills
When you worked away
Didn't want to dial the number
It's what I had to do
She answered n said " hey ****"
White lace n promises..?
We're through  !

When you speak my name
In silenced tones
I surrender
"You play me "!
There's no resistance
Each touch striking a note
Some higher pitched than others
Our melody rings out in harmonic sound
******* crescendos reached
Always
When you speak my name .......

You have just crossed into my world of thoughts
Your able to read what's in my mind
Right now
This very second as I write
Spooky isn't it?
All done in the click of a button
One second ago you never new of my very existence
Now you know my name
Our time paths crossing
Even if you don't comment or connect with me again
I'll remember you gratefully
For sharing your valuable time and reading my words
We are of like minds
Understanding the power of the spoken word
We are connected in more ways than one
Hello ..........

Life it's just a boardgame
But it comes without instruction
There's happiness joy
Devastation corruption
Good days sad days
Cruel ways crime that pays
Gotta learn the rules fast
Play the game
Make it last
If you wana be a winner
Got more chance as a sinner
The games hard can't be slow
You'll Learn more as you go
There's pleasure treasure
Love we can't measure
Politics religion
Prostitutes and virgins
Special occasions
No order in the nations
Good intentions
Wrong interpretations
Wrangles scandals
******* n vandals
Temptation resistance
Council tax insistence
Birthdays holidays
Cruel ways crime that pays
Gotta learn the rules fast
Play the game make it last !

"I no longer want to be good"
"I'd rather be bad "
It's easier
I may even be better thought of ?
There's less pressure  ! im picking myself up from the floor
It's been lonely down there
My qualities of kindness have been wrongly interpreted as weak
My giving has  now turned to taking
I swallow the bitter pill of selfishness
Hoping it works

I'm going against the grain now
Is there another option?
I think not
I will wear a cloak of hostility

"You will all regret this"
The tide has turned .......

Allow me to hear you play those symphonic words
Touching me in  a way the physical can't comprehend
Take me on a path I'd dare not tread
Where I'm shackle free
Teach me your language
Quench my thirst
In a moment of time I've succumb
"To your orchestra"
"You are the master"!
I immerse myself in your sonnet
My soul dancing like an elusive summer breeze
Our symmetry mirrors copulating
Entranced by the melody of your written words
I am now nurtured  fulfilled  transformed forever !..........

I like L words
They are simple
Yet significant
They are my template
For life
I act upon them each day
Live  Laugh  Love  ......

I took time to admire the rainbow
After the storm had blown
I took time to smell the flowers
After the garden had grown
I took time to smile at strangers
Who's path I once crossed
I took time to help the people
Who were suffering from loss
I took time to listen
To birds singing
Early dawn
Time to appreciate beauty
Of the dew drops on the lawn
Took time to be still and find a quiet place
Told all I knew I loved them and shared a warm embrace
Took time to be creative paint my pictures
Pen words that rhyme
I will stare death in the face !
"I've no regrets"
"I took the time".      ............

Silence the mind
Switch off the phone
Disconnect the computer
Steal time alone
Listen intently
What's your find
Is it peace, tranquility
Have you silenced the mind?
Take a deep breath
Now be aware
Of your own essence
The life source of air
Dwell on your presence
Relish in it til
You've silenced the mind
And the art
To be still

I thought of you today
I always will
Only time has separated us
I've recorded all our memories
They're etched vividly in my heart and mind
I press play often
I watch your chest rise n fall
Remembering the first time
You grasped my finger
That's when I knew what~ gentleness was
I lifted you upon my chest
Next to my beating heart
Right there and then I learned ~the true meaning of love
I stroked your cheek
Tenderness overwhelmed me
The smell of you was like the sweetest rose
Your sigh brought a smile to my lips
I looked at the ticking clock
Heard it echo loudly like a clanging symbol each second more precious than the first
That's when I learned the value of time

"You taught me so much"

  My angel child

I held you close
You breathed deeply
For the last time

Oh how I miss you ......... Love mummy x

Age 4 starting school set the scene for the show
The audience captive
Unusual behaviours unraveling
Raised voices trying to instill discipline and order
Into an already chaotic confused , petrified mind
Rulers on knuckles used
Only to further exacerbate damage done
Reward systems put in place
To no avail
Special needs teachers silenced !stunned !

All avenues exhausted still they are baffled
The show goes on without interval
I watch from the front row
Wondering how they earned there caps n gowns
They are all so blinkered
Never looking beyond the school walls

I am part of the show too  just more suppressed  "no one notices me"!
I draw a picture in my news book it's of children playing in the sun
Next to their  fathers grave the children are smiling holding hands happy
I write my SOS message, it said" last night our dad died in a crash now we are very happy

It gives us an interval
Mum gets called in questioned
Denies all knowledge or understanding
"She fails us"! ?
I collect my brother at the gate
We walk home back to dress rehearsals

Where anger, hatred, fear,discord,pain , condemnation, ridicule,  chilling screams,hurt and a large buckled belt awaits
No reason is given
The show goes on
It's the parents to blame

When shadows fall and night sets in
I am unable to succumb to the darkness
My mind be comes an active gymsasium
Turmoil from memories past begin to play
Like a tsunami they evoke me

Theres no escape or respite
My subconscious becomes a hungary lion
Devouring my rest
Until dawn
Only then does my body yield
To the necessity to sleep
For too little time
Then the new day unfolds
Wearily I attempt to earn my crust
Anticipating the same plight
Once again
When shadows fall.......

Im near the edge
Don't push me
I'm struggling
Don't provoke me
My shell is thin not invincible
I too have limits
I'm being poked prodded used
I don't like it
I'm detatching
Myself
Only then will you appreciate who I am

I smile and hope it doesn't slip
Laugh wondering if you detect
My act
I'm a master
You ask how I am
I lie n say I'm doing great
I feel uncomfortable
Squirming inside
Desperate to be in solitude
Once again
Trusting only me
With my reall thoughts safely tucked away
In the corners of my mind
Only then can I be at one with myself
I don't owe you anything
Let me be....

As I stand here by the waters edge
I hear not even a whispered word
The beauty overwhelms me
The display of flowers
The soaring birds
The colours of the changing leaves gracefully fall upon the lake
These sights make me aware
Of every living breath I take
Oh how fortunate am I
That I have the chance to be living
On mother natures sacred earth
That she has freely given.......