In your eyes there is so much I see
They don't just look they seek
When I look at them
They tell me
So much more than if you speak
When your sad the colour changes
To a jaded shade of green
Normally their brown
Or the're somewhere in between
Your eyes they tell a story
So much more than you reveal
I know each time I read them
They tell me how you feel
The times when you just look at me
Making my Heart skip a beat
I then recoil In shyness
As I look down at my feet
Your eyes they are so beautiful
Gentle as the dove
The first day we  ever met
It took one look

I fell in love

No other man who ever walked so humbly on this earth
Has ever loved or sacrificed his life
And all it's worth
No other man has ever cared enough that he should die
To reassure each one of us eternal life won't pass us by
No other man has ever shown the world he was so brave
By hanging on a cross so that all mankind he'd save
No other man can we compare to him until this day
No other man should we follow
He is the truth -the life -the way ...........

J ust being in your presence
E very passing day
S hould  we but fall to sin your word helps guide us all the way
U nconditional your offer to us your heart of love
S uch sacrifice and suffering for all from up above

Your on my mind
Day n night
Your in my thoughts as I switch off the light
Your in my heart
Embedded deep
Your in my dreams as I sleep
Your in the picture on the wall
It's hanging in the entrance hall
Your infectious laugh echoes here
Amidst the memories that hold you near
I hold you next to my heart that beats
Seeking comfort knowing
One day we will meet
When that day arrives
You'll be waiting there
Again we"ll embrace the love once shared
Sadness and broken hearts no more
As we walk together through  
Heavens door

Too bold
Too loud
Too pushy
Too proud
Too disruptive
Too rude
Too obnoxious
Far too crude
It changes behaviour
Stop n think
Before you take
Too much too drink!!

Look forward to tomorrow
As another day unfolds
Another page turned over
Our story book of life it holds
So many lifetime memories
Begining from the past
As we travel through life's journey
Each day goes by so fast
Just as we lead the horse to water
Hoping it will drink
Don't take your life for granted
Rather -we all should stop n think
About our friends and family
Do we treat them kind
Or have we been neglectful
Had too much on our mind
So often we don't realise
Other things get in the way
We simply need reminding
To say the things we ought to say
An apology costs nothing
If before you did offend
The simple words I'm sorry
A broken heart these words
Can mend
I know this can be difficult
But please try- swallow all your pride
It will clear your conscience
And heal the hurt inside
Have you perhaps got someone
You've not seen n now lost touch
Why not ring or send a letter
I'm sure they'll thank you very much
Don't let misunderstandings
Or pride step in the way
Of saying I am sorry

As it could be our final day

Last night as I was dreaming
I saw in my minds eye
Many happy faces
Of people passing by
I saw the people caring
With smiles across their face
The whole world was united
Humanity embraced
No hunger lead to starvation
No pain was dealt or felt
I heard the sound of music
Every human heart
Did melt
No critical words were spoken
No predudice in sight
No lonely hearts were beating
They felt loved and held on tight
No injured Ill or suffering
Their pain was felt no more
All memories that were haunting
Erased from minds before
I didn't want to wake up from this place
That I'd just been
Only then to realise
It's not real
t'was just a dream......

We are only here a little while
Revenge or hurt
It's not my style
I choose the words
I'd like to say
Hoping to make
Somebody's day
There's so much sadness in this world here
I aim to be kind
Be of good cheer
I'll share gods love
Spread laughter too
These things I feel it's right to do
When I meet a stranger
I give them a smile
And remember
We're only here a little while .....

There's something about a rainbow
That makes us stop n stare
Making even non believers
Wonder if gods really there ?
The colors shine so brightly
Arranged perfectly in line
Each colours blend harmonious
Allowing it then to shine
The very sight spiritually
Reaches all who feast their eyes
on the beauty of the rainbow
Displayed across the heavenly skies

Let me find a quiet place
Where I can revel in your grace
Away from all those memories stored
A world of discord ,wanting more!
Quietly I your spirit seek
When silence echos
I hear you speak
It's not a voice that I can hear
Rather a connection of drawing near
To a presence felt
Like a warm embrace
Like the warmth of the sun
Shine upon my face
My soul so hungry
For you layed  bare
In the hope you'll leave your essence there
May your gentleness speak upon my lips
My heart touched by your fingertips
My flesh my bones
nurtured
Deep within
Cleansed
Renewed

So Free from sin

When our hands are clasped in prayer
I find comfort knowing this
Our heavenly fathers listening
Un clasped hands
He opens his
Intently he will listen
To our simple prayer
His arms outstretched
He offers
Hope
Boundless love and care
Your faith may not move mountains
Sometimes it may sway
Especially when in troubled times
But that's when you should pray
None of us are perfect
God knows that is true
For this reason he gave his begotten son
Crucified was he for you
"Father do not forsake me"!
We're the words that Jesus gave
He took upon him -all our sin
For all the world to save
So whenever you are troubled
Hearts filled with dismay
Just clasp those hands together
And let him hear us pray

As I travel down life's dusty road
Across its rocky path
My hope is that I've shown gods love
Only positive aftermath
To lead by his example
Is my object of desire
I hope his light that dwells within
Shines like a glowing fire
Such peace I hold within my heart
knowing when death comes my way
That he has given eternal life
So I fear not
My dying day
No greater gift could I receive
For this reason
I am bold
I will embrace the gateway to heaven
The treasured path that's lined with gold

My mother is an angel
Who walked here on this earth
She touched every person
Oblivious  of her worth
Her tongue it spoke no malice
Her heart was lined with gold
Her inner beauty shone so bright
Even more as she grew old
She's helped so many people
With her tender loving care
She's sacrificed so many hours
Of love with time to share
Not just to her family
But to all
Who stepped her way
Not just sometimes
When it suited her
But every single day
My mother she's an angel
To know her
It's a pleasure
The respect I have the love I feel
For her
Is beyond measure
Im forever humbled by her ways
In her heart you'll find no doubt
I've never seen her cause discord
Or ever heard her shout
Her voice she spoke so quietly
She knew no selfish glare
She's my mother
My inspiration
Living proof
Gods really there.

My children as I watch today
I see you struggle to find your way
So many vices have gripped you tight
Some lead you into the dead of night
Like the restless sea or impending tide
I see your hearts- your troubled minds
You're stumbling blindly
Bound not free
Going through life so aimlessly

No real direction nor purpose found
Too much ! iniquity all around
Many speak my name in vain
Praying only! when they're  in pain

I see not truth
But many lying
Compassion absent
Too many dying
Relentless desires
Ruling within
Leading you to the wages of sin

Faith  -Hope  -Love.  (Peace  of Mind)

"If you should only seek "        (you will find)

A friend is someone special
When you find one you will know
That through the years that pass us by
Your friendship it will grow
Together you will nurture it
Like a garden it will bloom
The essence of the time you share
Like the beautiful perfume
No measureing of this friendship
By the gifts that you receive
But rather by the trust that's built
In them you will believe
They'll be with you through the good times
They'll care when times are bad
Always there to wipe those tears
When your down or feeling sad
There is no price
That you could pay
No real way we can measure
The importance of a life long friend
More valuable than treasure

If you've had a father
Who didn't really care
Then just look up above
As your heavenly fathers there
He really cares for you
So much
His life he freely gave
Hoping you would turn to him
To allow you to be saved
He made it very simple
All he asks of us to do
Is repent of all our worldly ways
follow him our whole lives through
His love it is
so gentle
Everlasting always there
He does not want us suffering
Hurt pain nor despair
He's even left directions
In his holy book
That we should get to know him
All he asks is take a look
Not forcefull nor demanding
is this father take your time
Like myself you may resist him
But now he's placed his hand in mine
Each day now I walk with him
I've found a love I never knew
Could be so overwhelming
Unconditional
and true
So if your feeling sad and worn
Humanity your plight
No need to suffer anymore
Walk from that dark
Into the light.

A kind deed
A pleasant smile
Precious time shared
For a little while
A warm embrace
A gentle touch
These things cost nothing
But mean so much
A helping hand offered
To those in need
A compliment given
A good hearted deed
A friendly chat
With a stranger spent
These things are really
Heaven sent
They come from a heart
So filled with love
From knowing the good lord up above
If his loves filled your heart
Like it has in mine
Bear his fruit
Be his witness
And let him shine

Dont wait till the storm's past?
Dance in the rain !!

Love is a small word
Spoken often I know
But it's also
Important to let it show
If there's someone you love
Why not show them today
For love isn't love
Till you give it away

The road is narrow
But forever long
Most days I walk
Or stumble along
Often it's bumpy
Rarely smooth
Sometimes I question
Choices I choose
Never clear of direction
We do not know
Just what is ahead
As we go
some times are good
Some leave us sad
Take the rough with smooth
Good with the bad
Remember this !your not alone
Can't write him a letter
Nor pick up the phone
But no matter  how bad things seem today
He's waiting and listening
For you to pray
His name is Jesus
Our guiding light
There in the morning
Till last thing at night
His hand is outstretched
Reaching down from above
Offering All
( Unconditional  Love.  )

Careless whispers cause despair
Idle gossip everywhere
Tongue of venom
Do you not know !?
Hurtfull words cause pain and woe
Like a stone cast into a silent lake
Disturbing peace doth silence  make
Cleanse thy heart
Purify thy mind
Words then to follow
Speak of healing  kind
Mans last hour to him unknown
So think before you cast that stone

Like a whispered word
It flutters by with elegance and ease
Amongst the golden daffodils the ascending summer breeze
The captivating beauty
So delicate
Demure
Such freedom
It encompasses the spectator with much allure
Fleetingly it travels kissing natures path and sky
So astounding is the beauty of the butterfly

When someone shows us kindness
It always seems to be
That the good lord up above
Is watching over me
He speaks to us so often
In many different ways

He left his word to teach us
About the kind of love
That pays
When We see a sunset
You can feel him
Standing near
Or when you hear a melody
That banishes
Our fear


I see him in a garden
When it's in full bloom
His essence in the aroma
Of the beautiful perfume

I hear him in the sound
Of a new born babies cry
I see him through
The beauty of a gentle butterfly

I feel his gentle spirit
in a summer breeze
His strength I see strong standing tall
Through the vision of the trees
He touches our hearts in many ways
I've no doubt that he's there
We only have to look around
To see he's everywhere

Whenever I am troubled
By uncertainty and care
I read my holy bible
The answers always there
The covers old it's frayed and worn
Discoloured now with age
But the knowledge and the truths within
On every single page
The parable of the sower a favourite that I read
As Jesus speaks unto the crowd explains about the seed
So many proverbs to be found
To show us every day
Lots of wisdom left to help
guide along the way
If ever you are lost not found
Thinking no ones there to care
Just read your holy bible
As the answers always there ....

If your home is not a mansion

In fact it's really rather small

There's no storage cupboards

Stuff littered in the hall

Carpets looking rather worn

Chairs ripped at the seems

Floor boards loudly creaking

Gaps showing in between

Don't forget it's just a building

Still standing when you go

People won't remember this

Instead they'll surely know

It was how you made them feel
As they were greeted at the door

If you welcomed them with love
Like no other has before

For this you'll be remembered
Doesn't cost much to be kind
A pleasant smile
A gentle hug
Has most impact
On the mind

Be as patient - as a new bud flowering into bloom
Be as Inspiring -as the rose sweet as its perfume
Be as kind -leaving no room for resentment to be found
Be not envious nor arrogant-  spreading encouragement
All around
Be not one to hold a grudge
No records of wrong keep
Be compassionate
Embrace
All you come across  who weep
Be the one that people turn to
Harbour not a selfish glare
Be the one who gives their time
To all that need your care
Be reliable just listen
Show the gentleness of a dove

Follow these instructions
Sew the beautiful seed. of      Love ........

The question is not
Do you still love me ?

Rather

Did you ever?!!!

My mobile rang late in the night
Your number flashed across my phone
For a second I was in a daze
I hoped you felt alone
I wanted you to need me
I was hoping you would say

That you'd been -Thinking of me
And the thoughts would'nt go away
But you rang me for a reason
You wanted some advice
You didn't ring
Me once that night
In fact you rang me twice
But the reason you dialled my number
Was because you were in pain
So I told you what you had to do
Then you rang me back again?!

Never rang- because you missed me
Didn't ring me -just to say
Well anything about me or you ?
Instead you left me in dismay!

So now I finally realise
The feelings that I've got

(May mean everything to me ?)


(But to you)   certainly not!!!

You may have loved- now feel sad
You may not see good- now feel bad
You may feel burdened lost and weak
You may look weary
Unable to speak
You may believe your out of control
Your heart is lost somewhere with your soul
This time will pass
I tell you true
As I once felt
Just as you do
The roads been long
I've had to fight
Lost my ability to paint to write
But once again
You can clearly see
I'm writing again

Yes

I'm finding me.

Live to love
Then
Love to live
Don't
Give to take
But
Take to give

Take the time to look at the rainbow
After the storm  has blown

Take the time to smell the flowers
After your gardens grown

Take the time to smile at strangers
Who's path you"ll one day cross

Take the time to care- to listen
To those suffering or lost

Take the time to hear the birds
Singing early dawn

Take time to appreciate beauty
Of morning dew drops on the lawn

Take the time to be silent
Find a quiet place

Take time to spend on relationships
And with a heart of love embrace

Be still and listen to your breath
Be aware of your  own being
Be at peace within your very soul
Aware of your own meaning
Don't utter even a whispered word
Empty your cluttered mind
Relish your very essence
Then a calm you"ll surely find

She looked so smart
Oh how she's grown
How these years have quickly flown
As we arrived at the gates
I looked at those eyes
Full of wonder apprehension surprise
You'll be ok
I heard myself say
You'll see your friends
You'll have a good day
Reassured I kissed her cheek
Hiding from her
My urge to weep
Another chapter now unfolds
More memories to treasure
To have to hold
There locked in my heart
Forever to stay
Looking forward
Tomorrows another day
I hope she's ok
I'm sure she'll be fine
I tell myself over and over in my mind
I'd like to wrap her in cotton wool
But I can't
She has to go to school.

How much do you mean to me?
I feel I should explain
In the only way
That I know how
So I'm writing once again

Without you I'm in darkness
This means - (you are my light)

Your some one I can talk to
This means - (there's no need to fight)

Your loyal, so understanding
This means-( no  need to doubt)

Your affectionate, you listen
This means- (no need to shout)

Your there through good
There through bad
Even in between
(Your my love )(my inspiration)

Hope now ?

You know.         how much you mean.

I love you as the dew drop
Encases the rose

I love you- not just words
I sincerely hope it shows

I love you from the earth I tread
To the heights of heaven above

I feel this
I know this in my heart
Yes
This is love .........

The baby looks just like you
Lots of people say it
I tell you often
He has your eyes
Your lips
Your
Ears n nose
As he's getting older the resemblance is more obvious
He needs fresh air
Going for a walk
I collect your cigarette ****
Lots of thoughts eating away at me
We've been friends for years  "me n her"
Hope I'm wrong
But we always seem to be babysitting
You never refuse ?
The old sayings -" I never took notice of before"
Didn't really understand just what they meant
Haunt me !
Playing over in my restless mind

"Familiarity  breads contempt"!
Two's company 3's a crowd !

I head straight to the doctors office
I hand your cigarette end to him
He collects the baby's DNA
I wait

I wonder just what   DNA stands for
My name gets called out
The results are in, !
Tension rises in every part of my being
Sweat drips down my spine
I feel I've stopped breathing
As my racing heart beats in a loud deafening tone
It's confirmed

My life's just crumbled
In a moment of time
My identity ripped to shreds
I'm no longer
A best friend
A god mother
Your wife
I wonder have I done the right thing ?

"Curiosity killed the cat"!
Another old saying

Just realised what DNA means.  

DO  NOT  ASK!

Another day
Another night
Another poem
I must write
Like an addict
It's my fix
Never writing
Contradicts
My greatest pleasure
When I write
This is my Privelage
This is my plight
This is  my air
I need to breath
This is my ground
That stands beneath
This is my love
My passion found
This is my sight
My taste
My sound
This is everything
I can be
No chains
That bind
Completely  Free.............

If I am lost
Will you look for me
If  I should stumble
Will you break my fall
If  Im weak will you be strong
If I ask you to stay
Will you say how long
If I am sad
Will you make me smile
At least comfort me
For a little while
If I feel lonely when no ones there
Will you then show
How much you care
If life gets tough
And I'm in pain
Will you still be there
Love me just the same?

The rose is the most significant flower
Representing many things
When sent or hand delivered
Much heartfelt joy it brings
There are many different colours
Not everybody knows
Just what each one represents
In the receiving of the rose

There's white representing purity
Orange for desire
Red for love and romance
Pink to spark that fire
Yellow reflecting friendship
Gold forevermore
Then of course on valentines day
It's more significant than before

Of all the flowers
In the garden
This one stands out the most

No need for words

It says it all !

By the language of ... The Rose

What is it about a waterfall
That makes us stand and stare ?
The sight it brings an inner peace
Such tranquility standing there
The sound of the trickling waters
Flowing gently
Down the stream
The intricate rock formations
Arranged so perfectly in between
Such overwhelming beauty
Displayed for all of us to see
Mother nature whispers silently
Best things in life
Are free .................

Twenty years ago I stood upon a stage
I learned there was a man
Who gave his life to save
Each and every one of us
No predudice in sight
This man his name was Jesus
To this world
He is the light.     ( john 8 : 12)
He asked that we should follow him
By their fruits you will know.    (mathew  7 : 20)
He hoped we'd read his words
With his guidance we would grow
To become more like the master
Be imitators of him
No longer chase our own desires. ( Galatians 2: 20 )
For he now dwells within
I walked this path for many years
Wasn't easy
I gave in
To all the things I shouldn't have
My life so full of sin
I've tried to run
Tried to hide
From the good lord up above
But he is the vine.  (John : 5 : 15 )
I am the branch
He's still there -I feel his love
I now know and I realise
His hands upon me every day
I will now ask his forgiveness
Get down on my knees
And.  Pray.

Just sealed a letter babe
Been standing here waiting

For you

I'm wearing your favourite perfume
Did my hair just as you like it
I'm looking at  a pic of us
So happy -in love
I drop it
Daren't turn it over!
As I do
The shattered glass reflects my heart- my very soul
Broken I leave it there
I feel in unison with this sight so in that  split second "something makes sense"
I have written you a poem
The one occasion I did not want to write!!!
Don't know if I can read it aloud. For you I will try , I will
I've always loved writing , talking  ,     but not today
You used to joke " I always had  to have the last word"?
I see you arrive

Your in our lounge

I smile through my tears , "as in your once loving hand"
I place the letter I've written.  
You were  right  again!
As we drive to the church
I dread the ghostly silence
Reaching your last destination
I rise from my seat "I too feel I'm somewhere else"
As I speak
(I hope some how you can hear the truth) -the love -the passion -the beauty we shared
Our loves reflected in my poem I've written
And still today
As I post this
I know you'll be looking down
Smiling
She always has to have the last word
Here they are

I love you.

When a duke box plays selected tunes
Filling each corner of the room
Reaching hearts
Activating the mind

Its Just like the poet
Composing rhymes
Selected words
Though absent sound
Touches  the heart
Some lost some found
Just like the song minds can't erase
So it is with a poem
A line
A phrase
That reaches to our depths  our core
Playing over
100 times or more
Poetry and music
Set the spirit free
They're the tools
Used in dark times
They allow us to see

When I hear the wind howling an enchanted melody
Like a magnetic force It commands my spirit
Draws me in intensively

There's something rather spiritual
Echoing from its sound
My thoughts they're governed led to think
Of those lost
Never found
As I hear the high pitched wailing
An eerie silence echos low
I feel the the hair stand on my neck
Spine tingling chills run slow
Captivated then entranced stunned rooted to the ground
Theres something Rather haunting
Echoing those lost

"It's in the sound"!

I'd like to ask you a question ?
When you veiw this photograph of me

Who are you really looking at
Who is it that you see?

Do you recognise anything
Trigger memories from the past?

Perhaps my smile
The way I've posed
Or are those memories
Trashed

My first steps gone
First day at school
Very first Christmas day

My dance competitions
Parents nights
My role in the school play

I married my first love
It was nothing like yours
My home held no trouble or strife

For a few years I found happiness
Saw such beauty in life
The bubble burst eventually
It's now all in the past

Never married again
But now I've found a love
That will always last

A beautiful child I've been given
But unlike you I realise
That parentings a huge commitment
You have to compromise

Time has come between us
Hours and minutes fade away
Light becomes the darkness
Tomorrows another day

Yet there is no way of changing
Events long gone
Good or bad
As time it waits for no one
No we can't change anything dad

I really must be honest
I wonder how different life would be
If you and mum had never met
But then I realise

I wouldn't be me.

Need to scream
Need to shout
Vent my anger
Let it out
Need to walk
Need to pace
Bury my head
Hide my face
Take a breath
Take control
Too much
Stress
Taking its toll
Need to sleep
To get away
Remember
Tomorrows another day

Don't tell me that you love me
Just can't bear it anymore

Don't tell me that you love me
Heard it many times before

Don't tell me that you love me
They're just words
Please just go

It's your actions
That I'm after
Only they will really show

That your genuine
That you need me
That your really here to stay
So please show me don't just say it

Change
Or please do just walk away

No rhyme
No reason
No reall intention
To be seen or be heard
Nothing to mention
No purpose no gain
No inspiration
Shut down
Closed
No concept of time
No purpose in life

No reason
No rhyme

Is that the time ? Oh no I'm late
There's the postman at the gate
Wash the dishes/ mop the floor
Feed the cat
Lock the door
Too much to do
I must run
No time for rest!
No time for fun!
Where's my keys?
My mobile phone?
Just can't wait til I get home!
Put my feet up
At the end of the day
Have a glass of wine
Chase the blues away
Need to relax
Just can't beat
Coming home
After work
And put up your feet

My daughter asked the other day
"Mum why can't I go out to play?"
Cause it's too dangerous ;was my reply
(She stared intently into my eyes)
What can happen ?
She simply said
As she frowned and tilted her little head

Oh there's too many cars it's a busy street
And some naughty people
I don't want you to meet
Oh ? she said with a sigh!
(And looked intently into my eyes)

"Well ! god will protect me "
I've said a prayer
But in case he's gone out
And he's not there
Does he have a post box?
"Cause I'd like to write  -him a nice letter"
I'll post it tonight
What will you write ? "I hear myself say"

"I will ask him to take"
The naughty people away!
"Oh I don't think he can do that"

"She said but why?"?

(As she looked intently into my eyes)
I'm not too sure I tried to explain
Looking puzzled.   She let out a sigh again!

"Well I'm writing it anyway"
"I'm going to say"!
Dear god ,
I just want to go out and play........