Why do you keep turning my periods to ellipses?

you've read about her in books
she's the kind of girl who likes saving the world, the kind of girl who has too little but gives too much


only,
*she's not the protagonist

"You have always wanted to save the world. But Darling, the world does not need your help. You have carried the weight of the world on your own when it does not need to be carried. It's okay. It is okay if you can't save the world. It's okay even if you can't save half of it. Heck, it's okay if you can only save one person...and it's okay if that person is yourself."

They will always be
what they already are

He is her constant
She is his always

Yet no matter how lovely
these words sound,
always means a lifetime
and constant means *nothing more

at 18, she fell in love. the kind of love that moved mountains and swam seas. he made her write about relationships, mutual ones like the flowers and the bees

*at 21, she started writing tragedies.

there are four stages of healing wounds
1. your red blood cells will form a blood clot to stop the bleeding; then your wound would be swollen
2. white blood cells capture and fight rogue bacteria
3. fibroblast cells would enter, drop collagen and form connective tissues again
4. your skin will connect and contract and be out much stronger than before

but among all wounds, a broken heart is the hardest to heal
1. your heart will not be swollen, it would be numb, and there will be days when you don't even know if you still have it. it would be a black hole for quite some time, it will **** anything and everything you used to love and leave you with nothing
2. you won't have the capability to fight rogue bacteria if anything you may actually succumb yourself with it; sometimes you may even let it control you until you forget that you own yourself
3. and then when it hits you, you will feel everything again all at once - the pain of lost love, melancholy, longing. you will realize how much you have loved and how much you have lost. now what you do is you bounce back, but how?
4. at this stage you must already be stronger than what you used to be, but for broken hearts, this may take a while, or it may take bottles and a lot more bottles of alcohol, or it may need a quiet moment for you to think straight, some just let time heal it. but the good thing is, healing a broken heart is actually a choice.
yet unlike all other wounds, it can be fixed in two ways
1. you seek for someone who can hold your hand while you fix yourself
2. you fix yourself alone

*you chose the first one, I'm choosing number two

why am i
so afraid
to see you

when i
have already
rehearsed
this day
a million times

maybe i
just can't believe
how quickly
we drifted apart

this time
last week
we were
so full
of life

from that day
forward
we never really
saw
it coming
(or did we)

but we did
we did
we did

*we died

I am the woman molded from your rib
I'm meant to be by your side

I am the spider crawling underneath your clothes
but you're not afraid of me

I am the moon who keeps a part of herself hidden
But I'm always the full moon for you

I am the shadow that stalks you through the day
and crawls under your sheets at night

I am the wind that whispers to your ears
and breezes through your body

I am flawed, and *******, and aimless
but I love you
from the deepest and dustiest corners of my heart

I miss you
and it hurts
to be able to see you
but can't touch you
nor hug you
nor kiss you
believe me
I want to
(really really bad)
I want to breathe
the air you breathe
I want to hold you tight
too tight it makes me weak
I want to
but I can't

and it hurts so asjkdgksadjfgadskfga bad