i told her,
“it’s not an eating disorder,
it’s just how i feel.”
but how do i explain
the emptiness that fills me
when i skip a meal,
or the way my stomach twists
like it knows i haven’t earned the right
to be full?
i told her,
“it’s just how i feel,”
but deep down,
i wonder if feelings
can ruin you too.
i told my friend that i feel like i’m only allowed to eat dinner when i go to swim practice and work hard. she said that it’s an eating disorder. i said no, “it’s just how i feel”