lizie

lizie 20h

you knew me
before i had the words for myself,
before i learned how to hide

you knew me
in the quiet hours, in the in-between,
in the spaces i thought no one saw

you knew me
the real me, not the one i pretend to be,
not the one they think they love

you knew me
and now,
you don’t

you knew me.
and now i am a stranger,
even to myself

you knew me.
and i don’t know if anyone ever will again

1d

Vincent

just make it stop

im so tired
it haunts me from the moment i wake to when i go to bed
i just want it all to go away
i feel so ******* lonely

lizie 1d

okay.

“if you’re having a bad day, tell me.”
“i have a hard time doing that.”
“well, we could talk about it.”
“i don’t want to talk about it.”
“then just tell me, so i know.”
“but i’m always having a bad day.”
“then tell me.”
“okay.”

guess which one is me

lizie 2d

dull ache

grief was sharp when i lost her,
a knife that cut clean.
it hurt, but at least i knew why.
now the sadness has no name,
just a weight i can’t put down,
a dull ache that never leaves,
a quiet kind of drowning.
i don’t know what’s worse,
the pain that made me cry
or the emptiness that won’t let me feel.

lizie 2d

absence

i used to need you like air,
sneaking away just to see your name light up my screen.
now i sit in the same room, same noise, same routine,
but without you, there’s nothing to run to.
instead, the cuts burn beneath my sweats,
a different kind of craving,
a different kind of absence.
i don’t reach for my phone anymore,
just press my hands to my legs and wait for it to pass.

im so sad

lizie 3d

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my heart hurts
i can feel it in my chest