You move
inside of me slowly
as not to wake up my love
the sweet and sorry temptress
that lies low beneath my ribs
hidden by my lungs
kept warm and wet with blood

Don't wake up my love
without the intention of putting her back down
don't make her restless
get her beating and pumping
make her dance within my chest
unless you're going to dance with her

Don't leave her alone with me
I'm not safe, I'm not to be trusted
I keep her quiet,
I make her sleep, she's too much for me

Don't leave me with my wakend love
she'll drive me crazy
and never let me sleep
whispering in my ears
gentle happy endings
and all of her greatest fears

No, put her down and leave her be
because if she's too much for you to take,
she can only be trouble for me

I stand, where the rain can't reach me
where the pain doesn't push and pulsate
beneath the umbrella
made of wasted words and broken bones

She hangs down on me
and over me
she catches the dirt from the road
and the flies from the sky
I stay safe and dry
beneath her skin
made of brown, yellow, and red

She keeps me clean,
against her best intentions
but it is I who control
when she's up and when she's down
the pale, salty skin of my hands
pushes her down, holds her up and over
my head, soft hair, light brown tresses

She, is the bright life in the sky
and the dark mother of the moon
but I will never know
and they will never see
because she lives in my possesion
her only use is for me.

I don't
have to play your silly games;
roll the dice, skip two ahead
Go to jail without passing go
like a bad girl,
sent to bed without dinner
No, I make my own rules now

I don't
have to do what you say
or, follow your word
because our minds are not two in the same
and you've never walked in my shoes

Maybe,
you can carry me,
on your back this time
rather than stepping on my face

Maybe,
you can listen when I speak
hear my words, feel my needs
rather than waiting for your turn to talk

It'll come soon, hit fast
you won't even see it coming
when I get my power back
it'll all be my way
and I'm sharing none of it with you

At night I scream
tossing and turning
I run away from memories of you
the ones that hound me
break my skin open
until I am nothing
but the blood left behind,
soaked up in the bed

In the daylight I slay you,
with my words, with my anger
all of my hatred
fused together
into one steely blade

I fight you,
and fight you
and fight you
until you're gone
I've killed every last breath
word, punch
you've ever thrown my way

But in the night,
you linger
awaiting my departure into sleep
alone into a shadowy abyss
and that's when you'll remerge
that's when I'm no longer safe

You are so weak, in my waking mind
alert, agile, unafraid
but in my state of dreaming you are, alive and well
and in my nightmares is where you wait