When I woke up this morning I felt,

differently.

Like somehow overnight
the world,

fell back into place.

I was me before I met you
and it felt,

good,
and empty.

Like I had never fallen asleep in your arms
Like my lips had never known your,

sweet kisses
or tender touch.

Today was the first time I realized
that you,

are never coming back.

But you were never really there at all.

I wanna to kiss you where it hurts
until the trembling stops
and the pain
has gone away

I wanna bathe you in sweet light
cut you loose from sin
and give you a seat
upon my back

I wanna **** the nectar from your skin
drink it down,
until the last
d
                r
                                       o
                                                       p
         has settled
on my lips

I dreamed a dream
Just a silly little thing

I was there,
sitting cold
In front of the mirror
Donned in white and lace

Champagne was poured
And I sipped it slow
As my hands shook the glass

Friends rushing and running
Falling and laughing
All around me
Adoring me
But they couldn’t see,
my fear

I opened my mouth
But my chilling cries fell flat
So I stood up and ran

And my dress went from white
to black.

Once you were,
the most exciting part of day
An effervescent light,
that screamed past me on the train
that followed me through the streets
Couldn’t focus
Couldn’t wait,
to here that beautiful voice
that made me weak,
made me tremble
And started the storm between my thighs

Once you were,
the only one
who could make me feel the rain
Make me feel free
and powerful
and all of those beautiful things
a girl,
should be made to feel

Once you were,
the sole love on my line
An earth shattering sound
The clearest face in my dreams
and the only song I could ever remember

But now you are,
gone
and I feel like my legs gave out
My hearing stopped cold
my voice went soft
Because my heart stopped beating
the day we said goodbye

And the silence is maddening.