I love the way you smile
Full and bright with squinty eyes

The way you toss,
your crimson hair girl
Makes me proud to be a woman

You rattle and shake me
We laugh together on your porch
Bright sun and green grass
Like your eyes, but not as bright

Your car goes fast girl
Red, chili pepper red
Hot like your bite
Like your pride
Loud and spicy like your laugh

You're free girl
Big smiles as you spin in fast circles,
in your front yard on this heavy summer's day
Sometimes your eyes are blue,
like big sky flying
But I like them green.

My lips are stained red from wine
My head is buzzing
A sweet kind of headache
The dizziness of being drunk

I lay still,
tapping my finger nails on the glass
Waiting, I'm always waiting
The darkened room, aglow
Small illumination from a muted television
Flashing colors, changed my surroundings

I am alive, aware
Balloons hang from the ceiling,
but there's no party in sight
Not here, not ever.

She dances and screams
With wild colors adorning her
Blood reds,
and royal purples

Her long hair falls across her back
and swings freely,
with every move she makes

Her big heart is open to all
It's like a neon sign that reads,
"Open for business"
It's humming is alluring,
and contagious
It always beckons them forward

She let's them climb in,
one after another
They feast on her love,
and stay beneath her breast,
sheltered from the storm

Some will nustle up into her,
and clean up before they go
Others may lay waste and tear her apart

But there she will stay
Still standing
Still loving
Still strong
She remains unafraid
Nothing can harden her heart.

I like your smile
You know, the one
The smile you let loose
When you're feeling mischievous
When you're truly happy

Your eyes shine and glisten
So beautiful
So elegant

I wish you knew
I wish you could see it
Instead of standing in front of your mirror
Slouching and empty
Hating what he stole

I love it when you laugh,
scream and dance around
Like something wild and alive
Girl it's divine how fast you drink it down
Yell with out apologies

You say, do, feel
whatever you want to
Dancing stupidly and love,
with full heart
Don't lose it girl
All that greatness that you are
Will always be needed in a world like this

They're just words
Written in pen on clean paper
Whispered gently, and
thrown around
Unraveled, untangled
Untranslated thoughts

Symbols placed together
Neatly, thoughtfully
Clustered and chaotic

But these "words" set me free
They take away the pain
**** the poison from the bite
And make me sane
Keep me healed
And soothe my head
That buzzes and churns

Words clear the clouds from my sun
They make me who I am

When I'm lost in the dark city
Lips pressed to the bottle
Short skirt and,
cigarette smoke
Words guide me back
Writing makes me remember
The little girl I hide away

Let's take a drive girl
Just you and me
Get in the car, let's go!

Let's live life today
Live the way we want to
Let's follow dusty roads
Passed trees and fields and farms

Let's see something real
Tangible, something we can feel
Let's breathe in country air
Smoke cigarettes and sing loudly

I'll drive, be my co-pilot
We'll go somewhere and that's nowhere
A place we've never been
Let's live life today

I want to feel alive
I want to feel things
Real things
The blood rushing through my veins
I need to feel human again

Let's drive fast and get away
Drive far like we have somewhere to go
Laugh like big clouds
Smile like sky
Red car rumbling like my heart.

Are you okay?
Yes, yes I'm fine, just fine.
Are your doors locked?
Windows closed?
Are you safe?
Yes, yes I'm fine
Everything's alright

You sound different,
are you stressed?
Cold or tired?
Depressed?
Good God!
Sick?

Are you coming down with fever?
The flu is running rampant!
It's dangerous, you know
No, no, I'm fine!
I promise I'm fine!

How's the area?
Poor? Rich?
White? Black?
Is it safe?
Is your phone on?
911 on speed dial?
No, no, I'm safe I'm fine!

It's one week
I'll call you tomorrow
Call before
Or if anything happens
I want to be the first to know.