Life is a journey with hills and winding roads for me to travel as I bestow. There are paths that cross and dead-end streets. There are plenty of detours and obstacles to meet. One day I found myself on a lone highway when I became aware I had lost my way. I looked around to my concern and wondered when I had made a wrong turn. I looked for a sign to tell me my location and found myself reflecting upon my initial destination.
          My passage through life has lost its intention. I wander across trails of no ambition. Wearily I struggle to fight dejection... as I span the horizon contemplating my direction. East, South, West, or North, I must decide in order to go forth. Feeling overwhelmed I fall to my knees and ask Goddess Diana to help me please.
          I hear a voice inside me say, ”My dear child, you know your way. Follow your heart it will always lead to paths of splendor and the way to succeed. Remember the words of our Wiccan Rede, and the three fold law must you heed. Be of true heart and goodwill, and ye harm none do what ye will.”
          I rise to my feet and look to the west remembering now my journeys quest. I watch an eagle fly towards the sea and knew all was well, So Mote It Be!

Do you ever think about me
Does the thought of me ever cross your mind
Have you ever held me close in a fantasy
Or envisioned our bodies fervidly intertwined
Have you ever wished I was near...
When you just needed someone to hear...
Your thoughts and feelings about...
What ever needed to come out.
Have you ever thought about me
When I think about you, my breath catches in my throat
My chest feels empty from the feelings it invokes
Just the sound of your voice...
Leaves me no choice...
I begin to reminisce...
Of your simple and gentle kiss
When I think about you...
And often I do

Obscure, with feelings shrouded by loss and pain,
Unwilling or unable to open the door for love again.
A soul filled with devotion and loyalty,
A heart that is empty from what use to be.
Behind eyes of a distance and detached vision,
Are echoes of a passion locked within a prison.

When it is the darkness we are seeing
Then we are seeing nothing at all
When we listen to emptiness
Then there is nothing for us to hear
When at the darkest dawn we seek beyond the blackness
Then enlightenment is revealed
When we heed the absence of void
Then we can hear over the silence

I love you enough that
what is important to me
is not if we are together or apart
but what makes you happy

I’ll miss the time we’d spend
just you and I
and every now and then
tears will come to my eyes

I can’t help that I’ll miss
the time I spent with you
or silently wish
for one more night with you

When I see her kiss you
it’s hard for me to remember
that it’s out of love
my ego must surrender

So I will swallow the hurt
and watch you through loves eyes
and know that I love you enough
to wish you the best in life

I never really knew
Just how much I needed you

You were my strength when I was unsure
You were my anchor, you taught me how to endure

You where my logic when I was confused
You gave me direction, you were my muse

Now you are gone and there are times I feel so alone
Nothing is the same, even this house doesn’t feel like home

I tell myself that you are still here with me
That if I close my eyes then I will see

That you are in my heart and you are in my soul
You will always be apart of me that I never have to let go

I love and miss you more than words can say
And the memory of you helps me make it through each day

I love you Mom!


© COPYRIGHT L. A, Anglin 2013

You sneak up behind me like the coward that you are.
Taking control of my life, leaving me disbarred
You turn my world upside down
Lost in the shadows I hit the ground

Save me! Somebody please..., Save me!
I’m drowning in this rampant sea.
Save me! Somebody please..., Save me!
Can’t anyone hear my frightful plea?

I feel you close in on me, suffocating my life
Taking over everything and turning it into strife
I’m unable to rationalize now that you’ve taken control
I struggle now just to hold on to my soul

© Copyright 2008 L. A. Anglin

How can I explain so you can understand
I’m not to blame for it getting out of hand
You call me a user but there’s something you should know
I’m being held prisoner in a cage that doesn’t show

You say I hold the key to the prison that I am in
Yield to ‘The Powers That Be’ to find your God within
Have faith in yourself look to a ‘Higher Power’
Let everything you’ve felt no longer make you cower

Listen to what I say and keep an open mind
Sobriety brings dismay and depression combined
I’ve tried living sober, ‘One Day At A Time’
If I could do it over I’d still do the crime

© Copyright 2008 L. A. Anglin

I look into the mirror and I am surprised to see
That I don't recognize the woman who looks back at me

There are no red highlights in her long blond hair
In it's place gray has taken root there

Skin that was once flushed with juvenility
Now is wrinkled and shows signs of antiquity

Eyes that were once bright and keen
Now look faded from the years they've seen

This can't be my reflection that I see
This old woman who's looking back at me

I can't have aged this many years
I'm not as old as this woman appears

Then I start thinking of the days gone by
And feel the tears pick my eyes

Growing up with in a family who loves me still
Going to school filling the bill

Dating and meeting the man I'd wed
Remembering the vows that we said

Being blessed with a new life to raise
Oh how young I was in those days

The years flew by as I reminisced
Remembering each milestone, the turns and twists

I looked at my reflection again and seen
A wise and mature woman looking back at me

A sad smile forms on my lips
As I slowly come to grips

That the years have caught up with me
And the price I pay is my vanity

Still, I wouldn't trade the wrinkles or one gray hair
For I've enjoyed the life that has gotten me here

Now I look forward instead of looking at the past
No waisting time, it goes by too fast

Blessed with a daughter and two grandsons who love me
I'm proud to be called Mom and "Grammy"

Yes, time has taken it's toll
But I still know how to rock and roll

So with each new day I'll dance and sing
To life's music and the gift's it brings

I give my thanks to the Lord and Lady above
For the years I've seen and all the love

L. A. Anglin
Copyright © 2014

I’m not telling you this to complain
Cause I only have myself to blame
But there’s something I need to say
Then I’ll go about my own way

I knew right from the start
You wanted everything but my heart
I thought I could play that game
Now things will never be the same

I never meant to feel this way for you
God knows I tried my damnedest not to
But every time our bodies entwined
I’d loose myself a little more each time

Dreaming of you holding me tight
As I lay alone in my bed at night
Yearning for the feeling of your strong embrace
Holding me close or just seeing your face

Knowing that the only thing that we shared
Was passion with feelings spared
Still I spend my days thinking about you
Wishing that you were thinking about me too

© Copyright 2008 L. A. Anglin

When the nights are so still and the moon shines so bright
Those are the hours I think of you holding me tight
When passion runs fervent through out my soul
It's only to you whom I wish to relinquish control
If never I had felt such overwhelming satisfaction
I wouldn't be able to have this reaction
The ecstasy and bliss have been amazing it's true
But sometimes I wish I had never met you

© Copyright 2018 L. A. Anglin

In those moments that pass so slow
When you're down and feeling low

Still your heart and still your mind
And in that stillness you will find

That my thoughts and spirit are still with you
Along with the eternal love I have for you

© Copyright 2018 L. A. Anglin