11:11 make a wish this night
Dream of something sweet and nice
You know everything will be alright

Say the words, say them now
Make this wish, don't you cry
Look to God, believe him now

You always tell me that time
"Close your eyes, make a wish"
Say the words, say that time

You wear it all the time
Hold it when you make that wish
11:11 that's our time

We've been together for a while,
5 months to be exact.
It's really hard not to smile,
And that's a happy fact.

We've had out bumps in the road,
But we always make it through.
We both carry a big load,
But our love is always true.

I know deep down we will make it.
When I'm with you I can fly.
Since our love has been lit,
It will never ever die.

When I close my eyes,
You're everywhere to me.
There will never be anymore lies,
That is what I wish you could see.

I love you with all my heart.
I love you with every breath.
If you I should ever part,
I shall take my very last breath.

Where to begin?
I'm full of things to say
But not sure if I'll let you in

I'll scream and cry if I want
I'll do anything to succeed
I'm not the type of girl to flaunt
All of these you should believe

I have many friends and
I know all of my haters, but
Do I trust you? That depends

I can stand here all day
You can stare all you want
I don't care what you say
So go ahead and taunt

If you want to know me
But sit there and talk behind my back
Then just leave em be because
Courage is what you lack

Everything I went through
Everything I did for you
Your feelings weren't true
You just wanted a toy to *****

If you think I'm crawling back
There's something wrong with your head
Our screen has faded to black
Leave it with the unsaid

I was under your spell
But no more of this because
I hit my head when I fell

I am walking away from you
I have to do what's best after all

You won't see my face anymore
Not even a note in the mail
I don't remember what I loved you for

Go find another heart to play
Go find a girl who will play your game
Make sure she doesn't stray
Before you even know her name

I hope you wake one day
And just feels so small
All of this I tried to say
But there's nothing left after all

A force so hard
And colder than cold
No matter how you guard
It'll make a building fold

You can try to run
You can try to hide
There'll be no sun
You'll go down with the tide

The eye is suppose to be calm
But this one is full of rain
You can try to recite a psalm
But you'll only feel pain

No one can save you now
It's time to feel the hurt
Take your last bow
And fall to the dirt

The anger you couldn't contain
Has caused you endless rain
This isn't a normal hurricane
It's filled with pain

God puts her to the test
Every hour of every day
Doesn't give her a second to rest
Even tests her in the bed she lays

She looks around, no one's there
She looks so close and looks so far
Everyone's gone, it's just not fair

She fights for attention
She longs to be free
She has an infection
That is the depression, you see

Send her an angel
She's all by herself

We all hide it inside,
Letting it burn into the morning light.
Let it out? Yeah we've tried,
But it's a constant fight.

Lying in your lovers arms,
It's your only true and safe place.
You can't hear any alarms,
And you only see their face.

We have all cried and cried,
All throughout the night.
Kids are attempting suicide,
Because they feel nothing is right.

So why do they sit and observe?
They sit and watch us bleed,
And they pick out graves to reserve.
Pills? No, love is what we need.

It still haunts me
The real thing laughs and
The reflection slowly drowns

When you see me
You won't believe me
My stories won't make any sense
I know it seems make believe
But I always have up a fence

The walls that guard me
Will come crumbling down
With just one touch
When I am found

Everyone will look at me with such dismay
They'll think all were lies
It won't matter what I say
They won't look into my eyes

I will face this alone
I won't ask anyone for help
They won't call me on the phone
I will face this alone

Take a look at me
Step back and look away
Now tell me what you see
I'll tell you they're not lies

Find an open door
Tell the stories you were told
Don't fall to the floor
Show them that you are weak

Make the bed in which you lay
Walk away from all you've hurt
Find a new place to destroy
I'll meet you on the other side

Now that you have a friend
Will you do less damage?
Wait one more thing
This was just a test

Your savior in disguise
A place that is safe
Your fortress in the sky
Just for a little waif

When you need to hide
When your walls cave in
Just look to the sky
And let it sink it

N one will find you
Not a soul tonight
They will try their best
But you will be alright
Just hide in the deepest blue

It's your sacred fort
A place just for you
Your dreams are your port
To a place that is true

Not too far away
But far enough
Escape from the day
When it gets tough

It's never a pretty sight,
My eyeliner is all a smudge,
These tears I tried to fight,
When you were too quick to judge.

Darkest times never come at night.
With your love I fly so high.
Now I cry for nothing seems right.
I don't want to say good-bye.

You swept me away with your charm,
You blew me away with your love.
Why was it you I had to harm?
God please help me from above.

I wanna be with you through it all.
How can I prove that I'm the one?
On my knees I will crawl,
Just to be your only one.

Steal it from another,
Hold it tight in your hands.
Hide it from your mother,
See how long it stands.

She was waiting all day.

She'll do anything you want,
No matter how crazy the deed.
Only for you she'll flaunt.
Take a stand, take the lead.

He wanted just one call.

All he wanted was to talk.
You smile, he blushes.
Go on and take a walk,
Flirt with him, nothing less.

All they want is love.

Rip it from their chest.
Say you need to be apart,
Don't worry if they're stressed,
Go on and break a heart.

Try to find me
My lifeless body
Bury me under the tree
Look through eyes so foggy

Bury me fast
Bury me deep
My body won't last
Our memories you'll keep

Remember how I laugh
Remember my smile
Speak on my behalf
Bury me under a mile

Everything will be okay
I'm right here with you
It's just another day
You'll pull through

I am ready to say bye
You must agree
I won't cry
Bury me

In my mind if I
Take one more step towards you
You say bye to me

He never just goes with the flow
Why is it all he does is work?
He says he loves it so
So why is it not a perk?

He doesn't love the way he use to
Nobody knows him anymore
Do you see how he looks at you?
He probably thinks it's a chore

All he wants is just to die
He cuts his wrist and watches it bleed
All he does is make people cry
His pain is no longer a little seed

Now it is his heart
That sits and wallows in the pain
Changing that way wasn't very smart
He lays there now, feeling his shame

I don't want to lie awake
I just want to go to sleep
Never wake up
And never breathe again

I want to close my eyes
It's time to close my eyes
I'm not too young
I'm just all done

You won't find me now
You won't get me on the telephone
I don't want one more try
I just want to say good-bye

Let me close my eyes
It's time to close my eyes
I'm on the floor
I'm done fighting this war

Just sing me a lullaby
I'm ready to leave
I'll take these pills
And I'll go to sleep

I want to close my eyes
It's time to close my eyes

I paint it on everyday
Nobody could ever tell
I will never say
Of my personal hell

I'm a little insecure
But you can't break me down
This smile isn't pure
But I won't wear a frown

I'm the Queen of fake smiles
But I'm also my own jester
It stretches out for miles
And it's made of polyester

I want this nightmare to end
I'm running out of paint
It's not a cool trend
Everyday I have to repaint

Looking at the mess I made
I don't make a sound
I lay down my blade
I have to stand my ground

I miss you all too much
Look down from up above
I'm waitin' by the door
Won't you come home my love?

I sit up in our bed
I listen for your car
I don't let my eyes close tight
Why'd you go so far?

I can't forget your face
You are all I see tonight
Do you hear my plea?
"Please come and be with me."

Let's hold hands one last time
If you can't come to me
Then I'll just come to you

You said you wanted me
Now you say you want her
Now why couldn't I see
That you'll always be with her

My heart sits here and bleeds
From all the pain it's fed
Hatred blooms from seeds
And depression sits in bed

To you no one compares
I will always love you
A heart filled with despair
To you I will always be true

You say you have love for me
You say you have love for her
For me you say you care
For her your life you share

Do I dare move on
You told me not to wait
I'm afraid you'll be gone
'Cause I thought we were fate

You told me not to wait
You said you were through
I only thought we were fate
And so my love grew

Your poems made me cry
Your poems made me happy
My tears you would dry
When I'm down and ******

A mom I can't wait to be
I want you as the dad
Why can't you just see
I'm not all that bad

You're going off with her
You told me to move on
But I'm not so sure
I'm scared forever you'll be gone

Long narrow path of dirt and gravel
When I need to clear my head
You are my way to travel

That warm summer air
That sweet smell of cedar
There is no better place, I swear

Miles and miles of road
Enough road to clear my mind
My secrets I have showed
When I drive that road to unwind

I have one hand on the wheel
And the other out the window
This road is all I wanna feel

Sadly I reach the end
Same time tomorrow
Spent with my only true friend

Go cry in the rain
Go live out that cliche
Show the world your pain
Take a minute to pray

Bloodshot your eyes

Nobody hears your cries
Believe those lies

You cry so unattractively
You're breathing so hard
Change your mood drastically

Confuse the dead
Smile instead

Look for the good times ahead

Turn it around
Show the world your pain
Get off the ground
Cry in the rain

They get in the way
Actions speak louder
I don't care what you have to say

You mumble
You can't speak your thoughts
These words you jumble
You tie your tongue in knots

In your mind you get lost
You cause a disaster
These words you exhaust
Don't speak faster

Find something different
Use your mind
Don't be ignorant
Are you blind

Don't use them in herds
What the hell
**** words

Take all your stress away,
Dance in the dark.
Dance the night away.
Don't you dare fall apart.

If you miss that beat,
You better take your seat.
Play your favorite track.
Don't you think about lookin' back.

Together we will dance,
Dance the stress right off of you.
Don't say goodbye to this chance.
Get on that dance floor.

Dance in the dark.
You know it's right.
You won't fall apart.
This is your night.

Dancing all day
Dancing all night
All the grey goes away
And everything turns so bright

Dancing , I must say
It is, my get away

When I dance I feel so pure
Sweat streaming down my face
The music is my lire
I will not leave a trace

Dancing, I must say
It is, my get away

They threatened to **** me
I wish you were there
They wanted to **** me
Why weren't you there

I needed protection
I tried to ignore
I needed your affection
They pushed me to the floor

I cut so deep
So many pills I took
I still weep
At my wrist don't look

All of this I hide
Where are you now
The blood hasn't dried
I cut just now

I need you
Where is my father
Days left I have few
This is your daughter

Dear Misery
Leave me alone
God lead me home
Don't forget about me
Don't let me suffer slowly

You've taken so much out of me
Don't leave me by a rushing stream
Don't take me where I can't breathe

My bones are starting to break
And my veins are starting to burst
This pain I just can't fake
My life you have cursed

I have nothing left to give you
Just let go of my hand
My body is going home

Your face is starting to fade
I can now go back to sleep
Step back and take a look
I can't see you
Dear Misery

I don't want to be misunderstood
But there's some things on my mind
I don't know if it's bad or good
But it's the love feeling kind

Let me finish what I need to say
I hope to God you won't stray
You can choose to stay or walk away
But remember that one day

You have touched the depths of my heart
A place to one has traveled before
Wait, before you start
I have a little more

You took away all of my pain
I smiled at yet another day
You helped keep me sane
You showed me the lit up way

You found love in me
But if you want to dart
I hope that you can see
This comes from the depths of my heart

I'm lying on the floor
I can't stop crying
I've locked the door
I feel like dying

My tears are still hot
I want to see my wrist bleed
I don't want it to clot
Just poor at a slow speed

Can you see my pain
You can try to phone
I found the perfect vein
I won't stop 'till I see bone

The blade, if I can reach
I'll give in
Won't practice what I preach
I have to sin

I can't move
I can see the bone
The blade, can you remove
You left me alone

My dreams are better than reality
Don't wake me
Turn away from your morality
Leave my body be

For me there was no hope
Don't wake me
I just couldn't cope
The light I finally see

Maybe I'm with a god
Maybe I'm in a hell
Maybe I was a fraud
I'll never tell

Dry those tears
Don't wake me
I've had me years
Say good-bye to the lifeless me

I don't know where I'm going
Don't wake me
My blood has stopped flowing
Bury me under an oak tree

Would you hear me,
If I screamed in your ear?

Come inside my mind tonight,
Will you love me in the morning?

I''m falling into an abyss.
Catch me if you can, and
Give me one last kiss.

I've already said good-bye,
Did you hear me?
I feel like I can fly.
I feel so free.

If you wait around forever,
I'll surely bring you down.
A promise of forever,
When you start to drown.

I've started descending.
Too far deep,
There's no defending.

I'll be your angel,
I'll watch over you dear.

I started drowning,
Without a warning.

*Written on May 15, 2013

In my darkest hour
Time just stops
I don't have any power
My heart just drops

Don't watch my back
I don't need your help
I like living in black

Don't find me a cure
I'm giving up
It's easier I assure

I want to be alone
I'll be okay
My pain I've shown

Happiness I've forsaken
I still like awake
Even with the pills I've taken

Things won't get better
I've seen it close up
So I write this letter
Saying it's easier to give up

No air of my own to breath.
Stuffed like a Christmas turkey,
I find an escape beneath,
Beneath the floors of the murky room.

I fall to the floor
No one is around
My body they do ignore

I open my eyes,
Not a soul in sight.
Was it a dream in the night?

It was just a dream
This is just an empty room
My tears start a stream

When I am left alone,
I am left to think.
No one to hear me groan,
They wouldn't even blink.

Do you ever think about it?
I dream about it.
How will I leave this place?
Will they remember my face?

I believe it's normal to think,
To think about a way.
How will I leave this world?
When will be the day?

Many people can't handle the thoughts,
They can't bear to hear the noise.
They can't think of how the body rots,
The bug, and the corpses it destroys.

Getting placed into the cold and dark,
I dream of how it will be.
On top my grave may turn into a park,
Children stumbling round up above.

I dream about it all the time,
What will happen when I pass?
Are theses thoughts a crime?
How am I gonna die?

Blood pouring out
No need to stare
Do you have any doubt
They didn't care

You can say it'll be alright
You can say things will change
But I don't see a light
And everything looks strange

I'm too far gone
There's no turning back
There will be no dawn
My screen is already black

My heart turned cold
My emotions I tossed
My soul I sold
With my fingers crossed

Oh, my dear,
Come to me.
Hear my screams,
Set me free.

I'm trapped,
Inside my mind.
I haven't snapped,
But I've gone blind.

Help me see,
I've lost my way.
You won't believe,
What I'm about to say.

I'm stuck inside,
Once more.
I can't be your bride,
You'll find me on the floor.

I lost my voice,
When I needed care.
I had a choice,
It wasn't a dare.

I've no more air,
I took my last breath,
But to you I swear,
I'll see you after death.

He worries about her all day
His fears he cannot erase
Needs her to say "I'll be okay."
Tears are falling down his face

Why does she live like this?
She covers up the scars
She, he does not want to miss
So he wishes upon the stars

He loves her so
This has gone too far
Doesn't want her to let go
He needs another star

Looking in the sky
He prays for an answer
He needs a plan to try
He cannot lose his dancer

She sat all alone
Gasping for air
We all heard her moan
Her fate wasn't fair

Sometimes I love it
Sometimes I hate
I'm pretty use to it
What do you think of it?

You know something?
We yell, we scream
We say nasty ol' things
To where we can't even dream

Hurts so bad when we fight
I'm sure it feels like hell
So I sit here and write
Locked up on my little cell

When we fight we runaway
So I sit here and cry
Cut our wrists, don't delay
Just sit and watch us die

We watch ourselves bleed
But yet we still fight
To stop is what we need
We need to make it right

It's my choice,
Not someones demand.
I do it for me,
I don't do it for you.

It's a way for me to come out,
Come out from behind this wall.
You like to fill me with doubt,
And you try to make me fall.

I am here for me,
I am not here for you.
I can set myself free,
I'm just someone you thought you knew.

You can walk away now,
You don't have to stay her.
Go on and say ciao,
You own life you should endear.

I do this for me,
I don't do this for you.
This is something you just can't see,
But you're gonna have to.

Beaten and abused
***** and confused
With the promise of forever
The promise of love

I carry this load
I carry it to you
My wounds you sewed
My skies you made blue

They still haunt me
I'm still in pain
Please, set me free
I'm living in vain

I fought for the good
I died from the bad
If only you understood
If only a tad

I'm beyond repair
Please don't stare
Be my savior
Be my everything

Tell me you love me
You don't know what tomorrow brings
The sun isn't free
So treasure the little things

Find the light
At the end of the tunnel
Don't take flight
Your happiness, don't pummel

You can't dwell on the past
Keep your eyes straight
Moments will pass you fast
Just believe in fate

The hourglass is glued down
That's a fact
Don't frown
Keep that smile in tact

Time is permanent
If you're alive
You're fortunate
But you need to thrive

I hear the voices inside my mind
They say I've done nothing right

I must shut them out
I cannot live in doubt
Why does it bother me?
What can I not see?

I hide the scars
And I live in fear

God please save me now
Wake me up inside
Don't make me take my bow
Please God just decide

I now sit here and wait
Wondering what will be my fate

It all will go away.
The pain and the memories,
The faces and the places,
And the shadows of the day.

The leave like no tomorrow,
They don't even say good-bye..
They just leave me here,
And I'm left with sorrow.

I'm left all alone,
Without anymore words.
Everything goes away,
This I've always known.

I'm done with trying,
I won't make them stay.
It no longer hurts,
I'm done crying.

No tears from my eyes of blue,
I've grown quite use to this,
Because it all just leaves,
Even you.

You saw them everyday
Had conversations with them
They were your best friend
But now they're gone

Holding you tight in their arms
Keeping all of your secrets
Saw for you when you were blind
But now they're gone

They are in your heart forever
They will always be your love
They will always love you
But now they're gone

Watching them from a far
Do you dare go back?
They waited for you
But now they're gone

It's what is best,
Best for you and me.
Let's give it a rest,
This is something we need to see.

You're on your own way,
Our paths don't cross.
Let's forget that day,
You're truly a terrible loss.

My feelings you knew,
They were bold and true.

I wish there was another way.

I don't want to do this,
I'll leave you with a kiss.

I'm giving you my word,
I can't do this anymore.
My vision is all blurred,
And this hurts to my core.

Please, not another sound,
Those tears you must dry.
We are no longer bound,
It's time to say good-bye.

Hate me now
Before it's too late
Don't take that vow
I'm just unwanted weight

You'll soon learn
All I do is damage
Have some concern
I'll take advantage

Of course these aren't my lines
Only what I've been told
But look at all the signs
I'm no better than mold

Just stay away
It's for your own good
I'll only betray
With the devil I stood

I'm a waste of space
I don't know why, just because
Forget my face
Everyone else does

My heart is on the table
And I'm crawling on the floor
No one seems to hear me
Not knowing what I feel

All around me I see them
Haunting every step
Sending me a message
In return I disappear

Following in the foot steps
Of some people from the past
Do I please them?
Do I tease them?
God shall never know

Temptations calling me away
Do I stay here?
Do I give in?
Sending me a message again

Crying in the corner
Loving every minute
Crawling, searching out to no one
Falling, crying "Can you hear me?"

This is my last day at home
I'm going so faraway
To a place that may not exist
But I promise I'll be okay

Don't let the tears fall down

I'll find a way to the place
Where I won't feel any pain
I know you want to me to stay
But I have to leave this rain

Please smile for me now

They'll open the gates for me soon
This is now where I belong
Wipe those tears from your face
And please you got to be strong

I promise I'll always look down

I can only sit and watch you
I watch the blood poor
I don't know what to do
My feet are glued to the floor

What can I say?
What can I do?
There you lay,
How do I save you?

Take my hand
Open your eyes
This isn't the end
Take off your disguise

Hear me out please
Love is what I give
This moment you must seize
Your life you must live

She's falling pretty fast
Why doesn't anyone see?
Her success may not last
Please help set her free

She's starting to hide things
Where's she's been
What she's been doing
You all see it in her face
So why is it you do nothing?

She needs your help
Lend her your hand and heart
Take her by the hand
Don't let her depart

Find something for her
For her to smile at
Just look at her
Find her a cure