Let's pretend we're the only ones
Tell me your secrets and fears
I'll be the one to catch you
If you just trust that I am here

I'll show you a way out
I'll protect you from harm
When you need to scream and shout
I'll be your lucky charm

Please don't think you're invincible
I'm here to lend a hand
Please don't play invisible
It's time to take your stand

A nail in her head,
A spike from the ground,
"Leave me be" she had said,
A knife we had found.

She sits by herself,
Doesn't talk to anyone.
Sits there and writes,
Noticing everything.

Friends that surround her,
None that are very close.
She can cause quite a stir,
This she very well knows.

So why does she ignore,
A chance to be normal?
No one does she adore,
Love to her is too formal.

We try to see her heart, but
It's not worn upon her sleeve.
We all watch her cut,
Our eyes, we can't believe.

We found her note
This was unexpected
It had just one quote

She thought life was worthwhile
Or so it seemed
With a smile
She always beamed

Never we thought her
We just couldn't believe
The clues we didn't infer
We should've lifted her sleeve

It's hard to say good-bye
Why didn't she just talk
We could've held her high
But instead she chose to walk

We found her note
"This isn't worth it."
That's all she wrote

They’re broken
She can no longer fly
She spoke the unspoken
Everyone asked why

She held up her head
When her world was crashing down

She was brave
She stood tall
We watched her cave
We watched her fall

She bled and bled
Without a frown

We don’t understand
She had such grace
She ruled this land
She left this place

What a catastrophe
Such a surprise

She carried beauty
Why did she leave
This wasn’t her duty
Now we grieve

She lived with agony
We didn't see it in her eyes

Everybody sings
We wish she had woken
Her wings
They’re now broken

He wakes me up,
With a kiss so cold,
It makes me jump,
His mind is bold.

We play these games,
No fun they are.
Me he blames,
It's gone too far.

The world spins,
We're gonna die.
He who grins,
Will not fly.

The heavens above,
Won't let us in.
We see a dove,
And fake a sin.

The world we leave,
We leave behind,
Nothing to grieve,
New life to find.

You're in love with me,
I'm in love with you,
But your love I can't see,
It's hiding in those eyes of blue.

Let your love come out.
There's no reason to hide.
Walk away from the doubt,
And come take a ride.

You told me you love me,
How come it's not showing?
This love, I can't see.
Shouldn't it be growing.

Your love is put away.
Take it out to stay.
Please my love don't delay.
Or here is where I'll lay.

Our love needs to show.
I'm sorry for my mistake.
Baby you should know,
This love, I can't fake.

Four walls
A roof
And those days waiting for your calls

500 days
And you're still not here
You said always
But it's been over a year

First it was Thanksgiving
Then it was Christmas
I feel guilty
For being unforgiving
But you chose to miss this

I'm not the only one
We all shed tears
We hide it in the sun
And we'll hide it for years

You left us here
You went alone
You chose to disappear
Now we're all grown

Please come back home

*Written May 15, 2013

Is anybody out there
Are you stuck in the cold
Are you reaching for air
Don't you dare fold

Do you need somebody for you
Can you breathe
I am here for you
Come find me

If you're scared
Just please, hold on
If no one has cared
It is I you can count on

I'll be your protector
I'll be your friend
I won't be your objector
I won't leave when it's the end

I'm only a stranger
Trust me if you dare
I won't put you in danger
I promise, I care

I want to show my body off
Oh so naked and free
Watch those boys *******
Showing skin high above the knee

I want to feel their touch
Feel love in those minutes
Get to kissing and such
Here there are no limits

I want to be an icon
I want that spotlight
Be played like a pawn
Even if it's not right

I want to see their eyes
When they slip inside
They'll treat me like a prize
I'll never become a bride

This is my fantasy
I won't be a bore
I'll learn their anatomy
I want to be a *****

Hearts break way too fast
I need some medication
If I can't have you

They would tell you the tales
Of how they worked all day
Spitting out the details
With no time to play

They've felt so much anger
And way too much pain
the nights is not stranger
The night has felt much vain

They've worked with vitality
They've worked without pay
This is their normality
To work all through the day

They see the morning light
But work isn't quite done
They put up a fight
But still have fun

They may have a complaint
Of how I don't follow labor laws
They don't think I'm a saint
But if only they could speak

Will I ever get it right
You shove it all in my face
All day and all night
My mistakes I can't erase

Up is down
Black is white
I'm not allowed to frown
I'm not allowed to fight

I slip
I fall
I trip
I crawl

I try so hard
Only to fall flat
My body is scarred
From when the blood spat

We've had this chat
I have to begin again
I feel like a rat
I just can't win

We've got something
Something really special
I'm not asking for a ring
And I won't bedevil

We both agree
We have something
We can both see
This isn't a fling

We can take things slow
There is no need to rush
We can let our love grow

This isn't just a crush
But slow is good
And you don't want to rush
But I would

My heart soars
This feels fine but
I'm not yours
You're not mine

I'm sorry for the pain.
I'm sorry for the tears.
Sorry for putting you in the rain,
And giving you those fears.

I see now the hurt I gave you.
I just can't live with myself.
Tears fell from those eyes of blue.
How did you not **** yourself?

I just may go insane.
Now I must feel the pain,
Deep under this shirt.

To the world do I say bye,
Or with you can I stay?
Do I let out a big sigh,
And pick the place I will lay?

I need you now
More than I've needed anyone
I'm ready to take that vow
I promise I won't run

If you don't love me
Tell me now
If you want to flee
Then just say ciao

If you want a little more
Say it with your eyes
I don't care if I go poor
I'll sleep with the flies

I give it all to you
Every last bit
We'll always pull through
Every last fit

I'm ready to start our life
We're stuck like glue
I can be your wife
I need you

When I wake up in the morning light
I just want to shut it out
The words that I want to say
Put up a fight, not wanting to come out

I lie awake for hours in the night
Not a word from me, not a sound
I'll awake one day with dismay
But for now I don't want to be found

I turn our all of the lights
I cover my mouth with cloth
I can't stand all the fights

Why does it have to be this way
I need a reason to survive
I need to stop fighting the day
I need to lead the day with strive

I watch the cars pass outside
I start to lose my sanity
The blood has all dried
I can't hide from the voice inside of me

I found your clothes
And your little pink lunchbox
Why was it you they chose
Of you, nobody talks

How old were you
What was your name
I wish I knew
Who was to blame

I hope there wasn't pain
I hope it didn't last long
Maybe your name was Jane
Did you see them come along

Why do they do this
They take peoples lives
Take a girl from bliss
Using their knives

I hope it's better up there
Away from those woods
What happened wasn't fair
I wish it was me, instead, in the woods

Every attempt has failed
I've bled so much
So many toxins I've inhaled
Still my heart it doesn't touch

My body is quite strong
What am I doing wrong

I need a quick fix
An easy way out
No more tricks

My time left isn't long
I'm singing my last song

This is a nightmare
Without a doubt
I can't stand this air

I'm living in fear
The devil lives near

I count to three
No matter what I can't die
These drugs won't **** me
But I still try

The reason your wrists bleed
The reason your tears fall
The worries you don't need
When I'm the one you call

Can't stand to hear your cry
I'm the reason for your pain
The reason you want to die
You cut just to feel sane

Tell me how to make this right
I cause you pain, don't deny
You cry all through the night
"Please, why can't I die?"

I can show my pain
I can shed my tears
Watch it go down the drain
While exploiting my fears

My eyes so red
My throat so tight
Wishing I was dead
The urge I fight

I emerge from my tomb
Into a dim cold room
The hot steam chased away
The depression of the day

No one will ever know
What exactly I face
While standing under the flow
Of God's given grace

I can fight the tide
I'll fail when I fly
And I still have to ride
But I can still cry

The reason I'm cry.
The reason I'm happy.
The reason I cannot die,
And why this poem is sappy.

All my thoughts are of you.
Holding onto my pillow tight,
Wishing to see those eyes of blue.
Everything just feels so right.

I love playing with your hair,
While I'm laying in your arms.
Our love has so much flair,
Because of all your charms.

I love to see you smile.
I hate to hear you cry.
We've been together for a while.
Our love will never die.

I can't help it
I am addicted
I'm brave to admit
This action can't be restricted

Find me in the dark
Leave behind the light
Watch how I mark

Watch the way I move
I don't need you to approve

Listen for that sound
Watch the blood flow
I'm lying on the ground

I'm not holding a gun
This isn't a war but
This action must be done
Just once more

Leave the door open
When you walk through it
We are broken
Earlier we should've quit

You really should've listened
I told you my thoughts
My heart I stiffened
Because you took cheap shots

Leave it open wide
I want to watch you leave
I've cried and cried
But this time I won't grieve

I want to make sure you're gone
I've nothing left to say to you
Hurry it's almost dawn
Leave before the sky turns blue

Leave it open please
This is wasting time, although
I don't want to feel the breeze
But I have to watch you go

I'm saturated with the thoughts
I'm soaked to the core
My brain the pain clots
Just treat me like a chore

Leave me in the sun
I'll dry out this disease
Don't let me have any fun
I've been living on my knees

Don't lend me any help
Let me fend for myself
If you hear me yelp
Get the gun off the shelf

Find a spot in the front
For all the world to see
I won't pull a stunt
I won't try to flee

I have not learned my mistake
I still try to die
Push me till I break
Just leave me to dry

Love's gotta be tough
It cannot be easy
Or it won't be enough

We will never understand
The power it has over us
It never goes as planned
And we make such a fuss

We try to change it
We try to fix it
Why don't we let it be?
If it is here
Then why do we fear?

Perfections we shouldn't seek
In one ear, out the other
Don't run when it's bleak
And when close, don't smother

We will never really see
That we cannot control it
So just let it be

With a kiss so cold, tears so hot.
Heart pounding fast, it just may pop.

Fear and regret, forgive and forget.
So much to handle, I'm in a fret.

Living a lie, or not seeing the truth?
Living in fear, or not forgiving you?

Love you, or live forever?
My heart you will keep, to hold and to treasure.

Dream of you? I want to.
I want to, to be with you.

Dying fast, I want you here with me.
Hold your breath, remember the past.

Keep on dreaming, dreaming of a better place.
Let go of my hand, just forget my face.

I'm not sure of the feeling
Whether it be good or bad
But it is my heart you're stealing

I like the effect you give
It makes me feel alive
It gives me a reason to live

When I am around you
There are no other faces
I don't know what to do
My heart just races

No more can I sleep
I just lie there awake
These feelings run deep

Where do I stand
Where do we go
These answers I demand

Your run through my veins
I can't get you out of my head
I will be bound in chains
When this poison does spread

Little boy why you callin' me baby?
You act as though I'm already your girl
I believe I said it was a maybe

Little boy there's things you should know
You're movin' a little fast for my taste
All I ask of you is to take it slow

Little boy I don't want the lies
If I hear them it will be hell
I'm not the type of girl you can hypnotize

Little boy just tell it to me straight
All you got to do is be a man
And we'll see if you're in my fate

Little girl all you do is lie
So conceited and fake
You make up stories for people to buy

Little girl who do you think you are
This breath is not the one you make
You know I'm still gonna go far

Little girl you just keep lookin' straight
You try to make things better now
Well guess what, too little too late

Little girl I don't see why you're cryin'
Just listen up for one whole minute
What you got to do is stop this lyin'

Little girl it was stupid what you did before
In my life now you don't belong
Guess what? You can't control me anymore

You told me to hold on
So I sat there and waited
But you never came along
My scars have bled and faded

Lost in a world of my own
I fight the day to see the sun
No people around me but still not alone
Just look at me and watch me run

I'll find a new life to live
I'll find a new way to thrive

You said you would be here
You said you would come
You filled me with so much fear
You never did want to come

Lessons were learned from this
Hatred was buried
Don't give me another kiss
Don't say we should get married

I'll find a new life to live
I'll find a new way to thrive

I am so elated
No more sorrow
My scars have faded
I have a tomorrow

I was trapped
I was petrified
My life was undiscoverable
My life, you electrified

One smile
One look
More more dial
My breath you took

Forever and more
I’m no longer distraught
I have something to adore
In more than a thought

Sugar coated
Polk-a-dotted
Love is all I need

From my head to my toes
All I need is some love

Wrapped in paper or
Different flavors
Love is all I need

Give it to me in a poem
Send it off to me at home

Find it under your bed
Get it though your head!
Love is all I need

Stand atop their graves
You're king now
Turn their souls to slaves
Make them bow

Show them their darkest days

Find a reason
Just make believe
They committed treason
Make them grieve

Don't let them see the suns rays

Tears to mist
Where they lay
They'll raise a fist
But make them pay

Never yes,
Nor no.
They never confess,
What I want to know.

They leave me hanging,
By the thread of my chair.
They hear my heart banging,
But they don't even care.

They come into my life,
And stir up the butterflies.
It always ends up in a strife,
And someone always cries.

I'm never enough,
They're always too much.
Their love is just a bluff,
But love, I almost touch.

I'm never a no.
I'm no longer a baby.
I'm never a yes.
I'm just a maybe.

You're just like a tattoo
But all this time you liked her
Deep down I always knew
But I was never really sure

She makes you so happy
But with you I belong
Now I feel really ******
'Cause I knew all along

It doesn't feel the same
She's still in your heart
Take away this pain
From her you must part

Please just look at me
And know we can't part
But if that you can't see
Then just know you're in my heart

Get on your knees
Bite your tongue
Remember to say please
Because I'm holding a gun

You should know by now
I make the rules
Don't question how
Arguing is for fools

Watch me move
Just sit back down
I've nothing to prove
I run this town

You can try to fight
But I've locked you up
You won't see the light
When you act like a pup

Mind your p's and q's
Don't make a sound
You won't end up on the news
Your body won't be found

When I hear it I can't deny
How much I love it so
I release a relaxing sigh
And move my body to the flow

It's a part of me, everyone can see
This so called "noise" relieves my pain
It let's me be so free
It's the only thing that keeps me sane

I love to hear the beat
I move my body to the sound
While everyone else takes a seat
I move my hips round and round

All day it calls my name
Waiting for me to get up and dance
It tries to play a game
It gets me to take a chance

This is just me
Oh how I love this so
It makes me feel free
Try moving to the flow

From the very first day
I had to have you
You looked my way
And I just knew

Your smile caught my attention
Your words drew me in
You left me in suspension
Now I’m happier than I’ve ever been

I’ll never leave your side
I’ll never hide away
Even if you died
I would never betray

I’m here for good
I’ll never leave
Like a good wife should
I won’t decieve

Take this as a dedication
Of my love to you
I have no hesitation
When I promise my love to you

Take a look at her,
I'll tell you some things,
Some things you'll never figure out,
Because she likes to hide them inside.

Nobody knows why,
She sits around and cries at home.
She likes to sit in the dark,
And she doesn't answer her phone.

Would you ask her what is wrong?
Would you fight her fight,
Tell her good-bye and so long?
Or would you make everything right?

Can you pick up her pieces,
Put the puzzle back together?
She looks to you for comfort,
Please don't let her down.

The key to her heart,
Is now in your hands.
Hold it tight and smart and
Don't drop it out of your hands.

Find a warm place to keep it,
Maybe right next to yours.
It's a little broken from all the s*,
But she is giving you what's left of it.

I see him everywhere
He's sitting in the desk in front of me
Standing outside the door in the hall
Watching my every move
No he's not

He sits on my bed watching me sleep
Looking into my eyes when I wake up
He follows me everywhere I go
Watching my every move
No he's not

When he looks into my eyes
He see's my life, my secrets, and my soul
Sitting there thinking is what he does
Watching my every move
No he's not

I can't let go
I'm in too deep
I'm just a doe
But I took a leap

I called for you
You came running

You grabbed me close
I opened up
My feelings you did expose

My smile won't fade
This love won't end

We are a team
Feel the rush
We'll reign supreme
This isn't a crush

I'm so far away
I'm not coming home
Not today

I found a better place
Somewhere I can smile
I just need my space
For a long long while

Here I am content
Here I hear no lies
Here I see the light
Here I can vent
Here I need no disguise

We don't need to speak
Here I belong
Forever in a week
You were wrong

No need to roam
You won't find me
And I'm not coming home

Will we look back and laugh?
Look at me, tell me what you see.
Is what we're doing right?

We sit here and ignore,
What we feel inside.
What do you adore?
What will you decide?

I feel like failure has overcome,
Overcome all of my intentions,
My intentions to be with you,
To be with you has failed.

One of us will surely fall,
You will never see me crash and burn.
I stand so very tall,
So just stop and take you time.

Losing my breath won't happen today.
One day we will look back and laugh,
When you find out this isn't right.

The moon rests for the day
The sun rises up above
My heart starts to sway
But for now this isn't love

I forget how to breathe
My mind is all jumbled
This I can't believe
And it's all because of him

Bright red is the way I feel
When he is standing by or just around
I can't make it a bug deal
Are my feet still on the ground

I'm falling quite fast and
I'm falling pretty hard
Will this feeling last or
Do I need a guard

I can't wait to see the outcome
But I need to slow down
God I feel so dumb
These feelings will never drown

The tide comes in and
It starts to thunder
The water sprays and spins
As I quickly go under

I reach out for a hand
Not a soul there to save me
An escape I should've planned
Heaven I start to see

Forgetting how to breathe
My heart stops it's beating
Loneliness I did achieve
Happiness I've been defeating

In front of me the gates appear
I turn to runaway
They say I've nothing to fear
This is all because of one day

All of my attempts have failed
Everyone can see
My plans were so detailed
But I still have my afternoon tea

Could I give it one more go
Would anybody even care

I know I am a mess
I've tried to be better
I'll just pick my favorite dress

I'll try to leave tomorrow
I hope it works this time

Would it matter at all
I'm on my knees
I know how to crawl

No need to remind me
I'll give it one more try
I'll become one with the sea
Maybe then I'll fly

Just one touch and I melt
With the softness of your hands
Such a touch I've never felt
Just tell me your demands

I am yours tonight
I'll do whatever you want
Turn off the light

Find me in the dark
And leave your mark

I'm giving you all of me
I'm the best you'll ever have
Just you wait and see

You know I am beautiful
Come show me what you want
This behavior isn't unusual
Don't you dare taunt

You treat me like a *****
But no more
I'm actually quite a bore
What do you want me for

You look into my eyes
You ignore all my cries
You give me all these lies
And you wear a disguise

Not today
Just look away
I don't want to play
I'm not a buffet

You drive me mad
You treat me like a fad
You don't care if I'm sad
I'm sure there's more I could add

I'm not a sensation
This isn't a negotiation
Find a new temptation
I'm not an open invitation

I wish you would leave,
Just walk out that door.
You poison the air we breathe.
You make us weep on the floor.

Do you really care like he does?

You push and shove us,
'Till we fall to the floor.
You cause such a fuss,
Just walk out that door.

Can you fend for yourself?

Don't you look to that floor.
Was this the time of your life?
Just walk out that door,
And I'll lend you my knife.

Take it out on me,
Scream it to my face.
Show me what I can't see,
Whatever it is, I will embrace.

Don't you worry your pretty little head.

People want you to fall,
Turn your back instead.
You can only stand tall,
Don't believe the lies you're fed.

Don't let it be too much.

Come sit over her,
Go ahead and punch it out.
There is nothing you should fear,
Don't let them fill you with doubt.

Why not take it out on me?

Trust me I am strong.
I can handle your rants,
No matter how many or how long,
I will keep my stance.

So take it out on me.