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497 · Apr 2012
Strong Enough
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
I can't stop the rain
I can't stop fate from calling
I can hide the pain
I can start crawling

It's hard to hold on
It's hard to stay strong
It's easy to move on
It's easy to say so long

I find myself in question
I find myself in confusion
I lose myself in an illusion
I lose myself in depression

I will forget my peers
I will forget the time
I will remember the years
I will remember the crime

I am a reject
I am tough
I am not perfect
I am not strong enough
Written on April 17, 2012
497 · Apr 2012
Thank You
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
I want to say thank you,
Thank you for being you,
Thank you for being here,
And thank you for the cheer.

You heard all of my cries.
You chased away my fears.
You gave me no lies,
When you wiped away my tears.

You're always by my side,
Showing me some light.
You don't let me hide.
You make everything alright.

You make me feel love struck.
You make me feel on top.
You bring me such good luck.
Let's never let it stop.
Written on December 13, 2009 to February 4, 2010
492 · Dec 2012
Religious Thoughts
Lily Mayfield Dec 2012
In bed we lay
We don’t speak
I don’t pray
Please don’t freak

I won’t beg on my knees
I won’t justify my sins
I won’t say please
And I won’t sing hymns

I don’t understand this hell
But I don’t need god
I can excel
Without that fraud

I’m sweet as can be
But stand for my rights
I want to be free
Not bound by unseen sights

Not everyone will concur
And I don’t really care
But if you must infer
Of no god am I aware
Written in October 2012
489 · Apr 2012
Which Way
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
You're just as messed up
I don't know which way to turn
I can't find my way
Which bridge do I burn

I search for the light
I only find the dark
I hide deep in the night
I hide from the suns first spark

I pray for a solution
My head is spinning
I'm stuck in a delusion
My life I'm sinning

I seek out the truth
Now you see my pain
Depression devoured my youth
My happiness jumped on a train

I know where I belong
I know what I want
Which way do I turn
Your memories I'll haunt
Written on April 20, 2012
485 · Dec 2012
Love in A Thought
Lily Mayfield Dec 2012
I am so elated
No more sorrow
My scars have faded
I have a tomorrow

I was trapped
I was petrified
My life was undiscoverable
My life, you electrified

One smile
One look
More more dial
My breath you took

Forever and more
I’m no longer distraught
I have something to adore
In more than a thought
Written in October 2012
482 · Jul 2012
Why Me?
Lily Mayfield Jul 2012
When I couldn't be found
You found me
When I frowned
You were the only one who could see

You broke down my walls
You burned my past
You heard my desperate calls
And for my hand you asked

What is your fascination
I'm no vacation
I'll cause chaos
And a little self-deprivation

What's inside of me
Let's run this town
Why in my do you believe
I'm destined to drown

You'll see my flaws
You'll want to leave
Don't put this love on pause
But why did you choose me?
Written on June 2012 - July 2012
480 · May 2012
RX
Lily Mayfield May 2012
RX
Give me too much
And I will abuse
My stomach I'll clutch
I'll end up on the news

Keep them away
Lock the cabinet
I'll end my day
My action is passionate

Those you'd better hide
But I will find
All I've done is cried
Do you mind

I want them
I won't stop
I need them
I need another to pop

Leave them out
And I will gobble
Don't you doubt
Where's that bottle
Written on May 6, 2012
478 · Apr 2012
Just Once More
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
I can't help it
I am addicted
I'm brave to admit
This action can't be restricted

Find me in the dark
Leave behind the light
Watch how I mark

Watch the way I move
I don't need you to approve

Listen for that sound
Watch the blood flow
I'm lying on the ground

I'm not holding a gun
This isn't a war but
This action must be done
Just once more
Written on March 26, 2012
474 · Dec 2012
Her Wings
Lily Mayfield Dec 2012
They’re broken
She can no longer fly
She spoke the unspoken
Everyone asked why

She held up her head
When her world was crashing down

She was brave
She stood tall
We watched her cave
We watched her fall

She bled and bled
Without a frown

We don’t understand
She had such grace
She ruled this land
She left this place

What a catastrophe
Such a surprise

She carried beauty
Why did she leave
This wasn’t her duty
Now we grieve

She lived with agony
We didn't see it in her eyes

Everybody sings
We wish she had woken
Her wings
They’re now broken
Written in October 2012
466 · Sep 2012
Faded Hopes & A Lost Soul
Lily Mayfield Sep 2012
Blood pouring out
No need to stare
Do you have any doubt
They didn't care

You can say it'll be alright
You can say things will change
But I don't see a light
And everything looks strange

I'm too far gone
There's no turning back
There will be no dawn
My screen is already black

My heart turned cold
My emotions I tossed
My soul I sold
With my fingers crossed
Written in July 2012
465 · Apr 2012
Behind the Stars
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
Your savior in disguise
A place that is safe
Your fortress in the sky
Just for a little waif

When you need to hide
When your walls cave in
Just look to the sky
And let it sink it

N one will find you
Not a soul tonight
They will try their best
But you will be alright
Just hide in the deepest blue

It's your sacred fort
A place just for you
Your dreams are your port
To a place that is true

Not too far away
But far enough
Escape from the day
When it gets tough
Written on March 14-16, 2012
463 · Apr 2012
Confused Love
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
You said you wanted me
Now you say you want her
Now why couldn't I see
That you'll always be with her

My heart sits here and bleeds
From all the pain it's fed
Hatred blooms from seeds
And depression sits in bed

To you no one compares
I will always love you
A heart filled with despair
To you I will always be true

You say you have love for me
You say you have love for her
For me you say you care
For her your life you share

Do I dare move on
You told me not to wait
I'm afraid you'll be gone
'Cause I thought we were fate
Written on May 12, 2007
462 · Apr 2012
If My Pens Could Speak
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
They would tell you the tales
Of how they worked all day
Spitting out the details
With no time to play

They've felt so much anger
And way too much pain
the nights is not stranger
The night has felt much vain

They've worked with vitality
They've worked without pay
This is their normality
To work all through the day

They see the morning light
But work isn't quite done
They put up a fight
But still have fun

They may have a complaint
Of how I don't follow labor laws
They don't think I'm a saint
But if only they could speak
Written on March 28, 2012
457 · Apr 2012
Empty Room
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
No air of my own to breath.
Stuffed like a Christmas turkey,
I find an escape beneath,
Beneath the floors of the murky room.

I fall to the floor
No one is around
My body they do ignore

I open my eyes,
Not a soul in sight.
Was it a dream in the night?

It was just a dream
This is just an empty room
My tears start a stream

When I am left alone,
I am left to think.
No one to hear me groan,
They wouldn't even blink.
Written on March 17, 2012
457 · Apr 2012
Damn Words
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
They get in the way
Actions speak louder
I don't care what you have to say

You mumble
You can't speak your thoughts
These words you jumble
You tie your tongue in knots

In your mind you get lost
You cause a disaster
These words you exhaust
Don't speak faster

Find something different
Use your mind
Don't be ignorant
Are you blind

Don't use them in herds
What the hell
**** words
Written on April 4, 2012
457 · Apr 2012
Insanity
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
When I wake up in the morning light
I just want to shut it out
The words that I want to say
Put up a fight, not wanting to come out

I lie awake for hours in the night
Not a word from me, not a sound
I'll awake one day with dismay
But for now I don't want to be found

I turn our all of the lights
I cover my mouth with cloth
I can't stand all the fights

Why does it have to be this way
I need a reason to survive
I need to stop fighting the day
I need to lead the day with strive

I watch the cars pass outside
I start to lose my sanity
The blood has all dried
I can't hide from the voice inside of me
Written on November 27, 2011 to March 9, 2012
452 · Apr 2012
Break A Heart
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
Steal it from another,
Hold it tight in your hands.
Hide it from your mother,
See how long it stands.

She was waiting all day.

She'll do anything you want,
No matter how crazy the deed.
Only for you she'll flaunt.
Take a stand, take the lead.

He wanted just one call.

All he wanted was to talk.
You smile, he blushes.
Go on and take a walk,
Flirt with him, nothing less.

All they want is love.

Rip it from their chest.
Say you need to be apart,
Don't worry if they're stressed,
Go on and break a heart.
Written on March 12, 2012
Lily Mayfield Sep 2012
You talk
I don't listen
You wanna walk
You have my permission

You don't own me
You don't make my rules
I am free
Not one of your fools

I don't hear the words
Coming out of your mouth
You speak in herds
And you're heading south

When you speak
My ears go numb
I don't hear a squeak
Not even an um

I wish you would disappear
Just leave today
Because in the end
The less I hear
The less you say
Written in July 2012
Lily Mayfield May 2012
I can show my pain
I can shed my tears
Watch it go down the drain
While exploiting my fears

My eyes so red
My throat so tight
Wishing I was dead
The urge I fight

I emerge from my tomb
Into a dim cold room
The hot steam chased away
The depression of the day

No one will ever know
What exactly I face
While standing under the flow
Of God's given grace

I can fight the tide
I'll fail when I fly
And I still have to ride
But I can still cry
Written on May 5, 2012
451 · Apr 2012
Open Invitation
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
You treat me like a *****
But no more
I'm actually quite a bore
What do you want me for

You look into my eyes
You ignore all my cries
You give me all these lies
And you wear a disguise

Not today
Just look away
I don't want to play
I'm not a buffet

You drive me mad
You treat me like a fad
You don't care if I'm sad
I'm sure there's more I could add

I'm not a sensation
This isn't a negotiation
Find a new temptation
I'm not an open invitation
Written on April 29, 2012
Lily Mayfield Sep 2012
A force so hard
And colder than cold
No matter how you guard
It'll make a building fold

You can try to run
You can try to hide
There'll be no sun
You'll go down with the tide

The eye is suppose to be calm
But this one is full of rain
You can try to recite a psalm
But you'll only feel pain

No one can save you now
It's time to feel the hurt
Take your last bow
And fall to the dirt

The anger you couldn't contain
Has caused you endless rain
This isn't a normal hurricane
It's filled with pain
Written on August 3, 2012
437 · May 2012
Mind Your P's and Q's
Lily Mayfield May 2012
Get on your knees
Bite your tongue
Remember to say please
Because I'm holding a gun

You should know by now
I make the rules
Don't question how
Arguing is for fools

Watch me move
Just sit back down
I've nothing to prove
I run this town

You can try to fight
But I've locked you up
You won't see the light
When you act like a pup

Mind your p's and q's
Don't make a sound
You won't end up on the news
Your body won't be found
Written on April 30, 2012
435 · Apr 2012
Little Girl
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
Little girl all you do is lie
So conceited and fake
You make up stories for people to buy

Little girl who do you think you are
This breath is not the one you make
You know I'm still gonna go far

Little girl you just keep lookin' straight
You try to make things better now
Well guess what, too little too late

Little girl I don't see why you're cryin'
Just listen up for one whole minute
What you got to do is stop this lyin'

Little girl it was stupid what you did before
In my life now you don't belong
Guess what? You can't control me anymore
Written on March 16, 2009
434 · Apr 2012
After All
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
Everything I went through
Everything I did for you
Your feelings weren't true
You just wanted a toy to *****

If you think I'm crawling back
There's something wrong with your head
Our screen has faded to black
Leave it with the unsaid

I was under your spell
But no more of this because
I hit my head when I fell

I am walking away from you
I have to do what's best after all

You won't see my face anymore
Not even a note in the mail
I don't remember what I loved you for

Go find another heart to play
Go find a girl who will play your game
Make sure she doesn't stray
Before you even know her name

I hope you wake one day
And just feels so small
All of this I tried to say
But there's nothing left after all
Written on March 19, 2012
434 · May 2012
Hate Me Now
Lily Mayfield May 2012
Hate me now
Before it's too late
Don't take that vow
I'm just unwanted weight

You'll soon learn
All I do is damage
Have some concern
I'll take advantage

Of course these aren't my lines
Only what I've been told
But look at all the signs
I'm no better than mold

Just stay away
It's for your own good
I'll only betray
With the devil I stood

I'm a waste of space
I don't know why, just because
Forget my face
Everyone else does
Written on May 6, 2012
427 · May 2012
I Just Can't Win
Lily Mayfield May 2012
Will I ever get it right
You shove it all in my face
All day and all night
My mistakes I can't erase

Up is down
Black is white
I'm not allowed to frown
I'm not allowed to fight

I slip
I fall
I trip
I crawl

I try so hard
Only to fall flat
My body is scarred
From when the blood spat

We've had this chat
I have to begin again
I feel like a rat
I just can't win
Written on May 7, 2012
427 · Apr 2012
Easier to Give Up
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
In my darkest hour
Time just stops
I don't have any power
My heart just drops

Don't watch my back
I don't need your help
I like living in black

Don't find me a cure
I'm giving up
It's easier I assure

I want to be alone
I'll be okay
My pain I've shown

Happiness I've forsaken
I still like awake
Even with the pills I've taken

Things won't get better
I've seen it close up
So I write this letter
Saying it's easier to give up
Written on April 3, 2012
427 · Apr 2012
Dance In The Dark
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
Take all your stress away,
Dance in the dark.
Dance the night away.
Don't you dare fall apart.

If you miss that beat,
You better take your seat.
Play your favorite track.
Don't you think about lookin' back.

Together we will dance,
Dance the stress right off of you.
Don't say goodbye to this chance.
Get on that dance floor.

Dance in the dark.
You know it's right.
You won't fall apart.
This is your night.
Written on January 1, 2009
421 · Apr 2012
One Touch
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
Just one touch and I melt
With the softness of your hands
Such a touch I've never felt
Just tell me your demands

I am yours tonight
I'll do whatever you want
Turn off the light

Find me in the dark
And leave your mark

I'm giving you all of me
I'm the best you'll ever have
Just you wait and see

You know I am beautiful
Come show me what you want
This behavior isn't unusual
Don't you dare taunt
Written on March 13-17, 2012
418 · Apr 2012
One Day
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
The tide comes in and
It starts to thunder
The water sprays and spins
As I quickly go under

I reach out for a hand
Not a soul there to save me
An escape I should've planned
Heaven I start to see

Forgetting how to breathe
My heart stops it's beating
Loneliness I did achieve
Happiness I've been defeating

In front of me the gates appear
I turn to runaway
They say I've nothing to fear
This is all because of one day
Written on September 2-7, 2010
417 · Apr 2012
Close My Eyes
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
I don't want to lie awake
I just want to go to sleep
Never wake up
And never breathe again

I want to close my eyes
It's time to close my eyes
I'm not too young
I'm just all done

You won't find me now
You won't get me on the telephone
I don't want one more try
I just want to say good-bye

Let me close my eyes
It's time to close my eyes
I'm on the floor
I'm done fighting this war

Just sing me a lullaby
I'm ready to leave
I'll take these pills
And I'll go to sleep

I want to close my eyes
It's time to close my eyes
Written on November 27, 2011
417 · Apr 2012
Run From the Night
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
Fill yourself with energy
Get ready to fight
Don't put yourself in jeopardy
Run from the night

Listen for the moment
You have the power
Find your opponent
Wait for the hour

You can do this
You have the tools
Close your eyes
Show those fools
Seal it with a kiss

Feel the rush
You can't get enough
Don't fall at first blush
Stay tough

It will pull you in
You don't need a knight
You can win
Run from the night
Written on April 12, 2012
413 · Apr 2012
Why So Far?
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
Why is it this way
You are so far away
Way more than just a day

You said you would come home
Why aren't you here
I'm hitting the dark to roam

You said those words to me
You made me a promise
But you're across the sea
You're not home with us

You never really call
I wish you were home
I just want one call

I'm sorry that I cry
I just miss you so much
Please come home, please try
Written on March 18, 2012
410 · Apr 2012
The Fear He Gave Me
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
One sentence is all it took
No more words could I utter
Out my window I was scared to look
My stomach was all a flutter

I stayed up all through the night
Thinking to myself
"If he were really to come,
Could I put up a fight?"

My eyes started to close, but
I mustn't go to sleep, because
Where I live is what he knows
Why is it he is such a creep?

The morning finally came
I was now able to breathe right
Last night he did not come,
So for now, I am safe
Written on September 15, 2010
409 · Apr 2012
Fate of Scars
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
He worries about her all day
His fears he cannot erase
Needs her to say "I'll be okay."
Tears are falling down his face

Why does she live like this?
She covers up the scars
She, he does not want to miss
So he wishes upon the stars

He loves her so
This has gone too far
Doesn't want her to let go
He needs another star

Looking in the sky
He prays for an answer
He needs a plan to try
He cannot lose his dancer

She sat all alone
Gasping for air
We all heard her moan
Her fate wasn't fair
Written on February 17, 2009
409 · Apr 2012
Heaven Bound
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
This is my last day at home
I'm going so faraway
To a place that may not exist
But I promise I'll be okay

Don't let the tears fall down

I'll find a way to the place
Where I won't feel any pain
I know you want to me to stay
But I have to leave this rain

Please smile for me now

They'll open the gates for me soon
This is now where I belong
Wipe those tears from your face
And please you got to be strong

I promise I'll always look down
Written on November 13, 2010
407 · May 2012
Leave It Open
Lily Mayfield May 2012
Leave the door open
When you walk through it
We are broken
Earlier we should've quit

You really should've listened
I told you my thoughts
My heart I stiffened
Because you took cheap shots

Leave it open wide
I want to watch you leave
I've cried and cried
But this time I won't grieve

I want to make sure you're gone
I've nothing left to say to you
Hurry it's almost dawn
Leave before the sky turns blue

Leave it open please
This is wasting time, although
I don't want to feel the breeze
But I have to watch you go
Written on May 10, 2012
404 · Apr 2012
Good-bye
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
It's what is best,
Best for you and me.
Let's give it a rest,
This is something we need to see.

You're on your own way,
Our paths don't cross.
Let's forget that day,
You're truly a terrible loss.

My feelings you knew,
They were bold and true.

I wish there was another way.

I don't want to do this,
I'll leave you with a kiss.

I'm giving you my word,
I can't do this anymore.
My vision is all blurred,
And this hurts to my core.

Please, not another sound,
Those tears you must dry.
We are no longer bound,
It's time to say good-bye.
Written on March 12, 2012
402 · Apr 2012
Not Yet
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
The moon rests for the day
The sun rises up above
My heart starts to sway
But for now this isn't love

I forget how to breathe
My mind is all jumbled
This I can't believe
And it's all because of him

Bright red is the way I feel
When he is standing by or just around
I can't make it a bug deal
Are my feet still on the ground

I'm falling quite fast and
I'm falling pretty hard
Will this feeling last or
Do I need a guard

I can't wait to see the outcome
But I need to slow down
God I feel so dumb
These feelings will never drown
Written on September 9, 2010
402 · Apr 2012
Help Needed
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
She's falling pretty fast
Why doesn't anyone see?
Her success may not last
Please help set her free

She's starting to hide things
Where's she's been
What she's been doing
You all see it in her face
So why is it you do nothing?

She needs your help
Lend her your hand and heart
Take her by the hand
Don't let her depart

Find something for her
For her to smile at
Just look at her
Find her a cure
Written on September 23, 2010 to October 21, 2010
399 · Dec 2012
Turns to Death
Lily Mayfield Dec 2012
Don’t get too close
You’ll crumble
It’s not the life she chose
But she doesn’t grumble

You’ll turn pale
You’ll become ash
This isn’t a tale
You’ll be gone in a flash

If you get near
You have a last request
Steer clear
Or death will infest

She’ll choose your fate
If you take another stride
She’ll find the right bait
And a grave she’ll provide

I warned you
I wasted my breath
Everything she touches
Turns to death
Written in October 2012
398 · Apr 2012
Trying Not To
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
It's harder than it looks
I'm trying not to see
I hide myself in books
My mind I try to flee

I can remember the place
This tragedy I knew
I can still see your face
But I'm trying not to

That night was perfect
I'm trying not to
Trying not to love you

I know if I fall
It will only **** me
My heart you enthrall
You hold the key

I need to clear my mind
All I see is you
With you, love I find
But I'm trying not to
Written on March 22, 2012
398 · Apr 2012
Hear Me Now
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
My heart is on the table
And I'm crawling on the floor
No one seems to hear me
Not knowing what I feel

All around me I see them
Haunting every step
Sending me a message
In return I disappear

Following in the foot steps
Of some people from the past
Do I please them?
Do I tease them?
God shall never know

Temptations calling me away
Do I stay here?
Do I give in?
Sending me a message again

Crying in the corner
Loving every minute
Crawling, searching out to no one
Falling, crying "Can you hear me?"
Written on May 26, 2010
397 · Jul 2012
This Pillow is You
Lily Mayfield Jul 2012
When you're not here
And it's too heard to bear
When I have something to fear
And you're not there

I hold on tight
I close my eyes

I wish on a star
I hear your voice
But you're too far

The rears I fight
The distance I despise

You're in my heart
Time apart is rough
I can't stand to be apart
This pillow isn't enough
Written on June 2012 - July 2012
386 · Apr 2012
Her Hidden Secrets
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
A nail in her head,
A spike from the ground,
"Leave me be" she had said,
A knife we had found.

She sits by herself,
Doesn't talk to anyone.
Sits there and writes,
Noticing everything.

Friends that surround her,
None that are very close.
She can cause quite a stir,
This she very well knows.

So why does she ignore,
A chance to be normal?
No one does she adore,
Love to her is too formal.

We try to see her heart, but
It's not worn upon her sleeve.
We all watch her cut,
Our eyes, we can't believe.
Written on August 23, 2010 to September 4, 2010
386 · Apr 2012
Confused Love (Part 2)
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
You told me not to wait
You said you were through
I only thought we were fate
And so my love grew

Your poems made me cry
Your poems made me happy
My tears you would dry
When I'm down and ******

A mom I can't wait to be
I want you as the dad
Why can't you just see
I'm not all that bad

You're going off with her
You told me to move on
But I'm not so sure
I'm scared forever you'll be gone
Written on May 13, 2007
385 · Apr 2012
She Waits
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
She holds her pillow tight,
She closes those blue eyes,
She shuts out all the light,
And inside, she dies.

Wishing upon a bright star,
Her knight never comes.
Maybe he's not far.
He might come, so she waits.

Didn't think it'd take so long,
Dust is collecting on her.
She feels that she doesn't belong,
So she waits for her sir.

She see's him coming along,
The bouncing lanterns gleam.
She waited so long.
She wakes, it was just a dream.
So now she waits.
Written on August 17, 2010
380 · Apr 2012
Shut It Out
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
I put it in
I turn in skyward
The world talks
But I haven't heard
I raise my chin

They all keep talking
I make a move
And they start gawking

I don't need a reason
But I have a good amount
They think I treason
Too many to count

Let's look ahead
Will they still wonder
What if I'm dead

I won't shout
You won't talk
I'm marked with silence
The world I block
I just shut it out
Written on April 7, 2012
379 · Apr 2012
Let It Be
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
Love's gotta be tough
It cannot be easy
Or it won't be enough

We will never understand
The power it has over us
It never goes as planned
And we make such a fuss

We try to change it
We try to fix it
Why don't we let it be?
If it is here
Then why do we fear?

Perfections we shouldn't seek
In one ear, out the other
Don't run when it's bleak
And when close, don't smother

We will never really see
That we cannot control it
So just let it be
Written on March 15, 2012
379 · Apr 2012
Turn It Up
Lily Mayfield Apr 2012
Turn it up
Drown it out
Say your prayers
Live in doubt

Find what's yours
Don't let it stray
Find what's missing
Chase away the grey

See the light
Catch the day
Take that flight
Find a way
Fight your fight

Face your fears
Find your way
Fight your tears
Turn the other cheek

Find true love
Seek the unknown
Stand above
Turn it up
Written on March 20, 2012
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