They get in the way
Actions speak louder
I don't care what you have to say

You mumble
You can't speak your thoughts
These words you jumble
You tie your tongue in knots

In your mind you get lost
You cause a disaster
These words you exhaust
Don't speak faster

Find something different
Use your mind
Don't be ignorant
Are you blind

Don't use them in herds
What the hell
**** words

In my darkest hour
Time just stops
I don't have any power
My heart just drops

Don't watch my back
I don't need your help
I like living in black

Don't find me a cure
I'm giving up
It's easier I assure

I want to be alone
I'll be okay
My pain I've shown

Happiness I've forsaken
I still like awake
Even with the pills I've taken

Things won't get better
I've seen it close up
So I write this letter
Saying it's easier to give up

I paint it on everyday
Nobody could ever tell
I will never say
Of my personal hell

I'm a little insecure
But you can't break me down
This smile isn't pure
But I won't wear a frown

I'm the Queen of fake smiles
But I'm also my own jester
It stretches out for miles
And it's made of polyester

I want this nightmare to end
I'm running out of paint
It's not a cool trend
Everyday I have to repaint

Looking at the mess I made
I don't make a sound
I lay down my blade
I have to stand my ground

Take me home tonight
Don't let me out of your arms
Not even when we see the morning light

I want to hear you breathe
With a force of a hurricane
My heart you did sheathe
Now I smile in the rain

Hold me down
Let's skip this town

Let's live our life
Let's start today
No need for strife
I won't let you get away

Our own rules we will make
But we just can't break

Don't miss this chance
These feelings you can't cage
It's the perfect romance
Taken to a new stage

We'll fight the light
We don't need tomorrow
Take me home tonight

She knows what's gonna happen
Gonna get a little rough
In between these sheets of satin

No clothes, take 'em off
Let's touch real hard
This behavior people will scoff
A movie, you and I starred

Forget the world
I know how you like it
Get on that bed
Show the world
All the candles are lit

I can feel her bare skin
And her lips on mine
If this is a sin
It sure feels fine

Make me moan
Give it to me that way
When we are alone

I need you today
You said you would call
I have something to say
I was stupid to fall

I gave you my heart
My feelings just grew
I don't know what made me start
But I fell in love with you

You weren't ready
But still I fell

I wasn't thinking clear
I hung by a thread
Now I shed a tear
Wishing back what I said

I told you I love you
While you looked the other way
I wish that I knew
But it's time to walk away

I don't want to be misunderstood
But there's some things on my mind
I don't know if it's bad or good
But it's the love feeling kind

Let me finish what I need to say
I hope to God you won't stray
You can choose to stay or walk away
But remember that one day

You have touched the depths of my heart
A place to one has traveled before
Wait, before you start
I have a little more

You took away all of my pain
I smiled at yet another day
You helped keep me sane
You showed me the lit up way

You found love in me
But if you want to dart
I hope that you can see
This comes from the depths of my heart

The late night phone calls
The random sweet texts
Watch who falls
Into loves great depths

We smile like it's nothing
We speak as one
Together we have something
Who's going to run

Together we can walk
But all we do is talk

I know we feel the same way
If we keep this bottled up
One will surely stray

We can't ever let it end
But I can't keep you as just a friend

I can feel you near
I can see into your heart
Listen up my dear
We don't want to part

A story more beautiful than a dove
This story can't have an ending
This is love
So why are we pretending

They would tell you the tales
Of how they worked all day
Spitting out the details
With no time to play

They've felt so much anger
And way too much pain
the nights is not stranger
The night has felt much vain

They've worked with vitality
They've worked without pay
This is their normality
To work all through the day

They see the morning light
But work isn't quite done
They put up a fight
But still have fun

They may have a complaint
Of how I don't follow labor laws
They don't think I'm a saint
But if only they could speak

Every attempt has failed
I've bled so much
So many toxins I've inhaled
Still my heart it doesn't touch

My body is quite strong
What am I doing wrong

I need a quick fix
An easy way out
No more tricks

My time left isn't long
I'm singing my last song

This is a nightmare
Without a doubt
I can't stand this air

I'm living in fear
The devil lives near

I count to three
No matter what I can't die
These drugs won't **** me
But I still try

I can't help it
I am addicted
I'm brave to admit
This action can't be restricted

Find me in the dark
Leave behind the light
Watch how I mark

Watch the way I move
I don't need you to approve

Listen for that sound
Watch the blood flow
I'm lying on the ground

I'm not holding a gun
This isn't a war but
This action must be done
Just once more

I try oh so hard
All of us do
We have up a guard
We try to change your view

We aren't good enough

Do you even see us
Do you even care
What if we put up a fuss
Do you care what we wear

We are only human

You sit there and judge
Ten points off
For one single smudge
This life is tough

I just wanna be called pretty

I need to know
Is it still true
Do I still make you glow
Or are you through

You said I'm a dream girl
That no one could compare
You said I was a pearl
You said I was rare

Where have you gone
Why aren't you here
It's almost dawn

We made a promise
I didn't take it lightly
You were my Adonis
I was your Aphrodite

My heartbeat is starting to slow
I'm starting to not see
I just want to know
Are you thinking of me?

I need you now
More than I've needed anyone
I'm ready to take that vow
I promise I won't run

If you don't love me
Tell me now
If you want to flee
Then just say ciao

If you want a little more
Say it with your eyes
I don't care if I go poor
I'll sleep with the flies

I give it all to you
Every last bit
We'll always pull through
Every last fit

I'm ready to start our life
We're stuck like glue
I can be your wife
I need you

We've got something
Something really special
I'm not asking for a ring
And I won't bedevil

We both agree
We have something
We can both see
This isn't a fling

We can take things slow
There is no need to rush
We can let our love grow

This isn't just a crush
But slow is good
And you don't want to rush
But I would

My heart soars
This feels fine but
I'm not yours
You're not mine

Big or small
They tell a story
On someone short or tall
It's something about glory
Or how they had to crawl

Some people look away
Some people look in disbelief
Some forget that day
Others live in grief

Wounds to heal
Days to forget
Times to kneel
No time to sweat

They may never share
Of that tragic day
Or they may not even care
About what you have to say

We give them space
We look to the stars
We don't look at their face
We just leave them with their scars

It's harder than it looks
I'm trying not to see
I hide myself in books
My mind I try to flee

I can remember the place
This tragedy I knew
I can still see your face
But I'm trying not to

That night was perfect
I'm trying not to
Trying not to love you

I know if I fall
It will only **** me
My heart you enthrall
You hold the key

I need to clear my mind
All I see is you
With you, love I find
But I'm trying not to

It was like yesterday
Driving in my car
No need to pray
I don't need a wishing star

That night was ours
We held it in our hands
Lying under the stars
Lying in the sands

I can still feel your arm
Wrapped around me
You're loaded with charm
You make me feel free

I found light in your eyes
Safety in your arms
You told me no lies
Just protected me from nights harms

There were no secrets
You kept me from the cold
While I lay on your chest
That night I hold

Turn it up
Drown it out
Say your prayers
Live in doubt

Find what's yours
Don't let it stray
Find what's missing
Chase away the grey

See the light
Catch the day
Take that flight
Find a way
Fight your fight

Face your fears
Find your way
Fight your tears
Turn the other cheek

Find true love
Seek the unknown
Stand above
Turn it up

Just get in the car
Let's drive away
To somewhere really far
Where night meets day

When we run out of gas
That's where we'll stay

I can't stand this place
Nor can you
We'll leave without a trace

We can start new lives
Like people in the movies do

Please just take my hand
Together we'll flee
Together we will stand
Runaway with me

I'm right in front of you
Are you blind to the truth
I wish you just knew
We're slowly losing our youth

I can't stay much longer
Why can't you just see
Together we can be stronger
Please let it be

If you don't want this
Please tell me now
But I'm right here in front of you
I'd understand if you want to dismiss
But I couldn't see how

I am here for you
But I won't always be here
Our days are few
Our lives we should endear

I won't be here long
I'm turning away my eyes of blue
I'll sing my last song
And say good-bye to you

Everything I went through
Everything I did for you
Your feelings weren't true
You just wanted a toy to *****

If you think I'm crawling back
There's something wrong with your head
Our screen has faded to black
Leave it with the unsaid

I was under your spell
But no more of this because
I hit my head when I fell

I am walking away from you
I have to do what's best after all

You won't see my face anymore
Not even a note in the mail
I don't remember what I loved you for

Go find another heart to play
Go find a girl who will play your game
Make sure she doesn't stray
Before you even know her name

I hope you wake one day
And just feels so small
All of this I tried to say
But there's nothing left after all

I'm not sure of the feeling
Whether it be good or bad
But it is my heart you're stealing

I like the effect you give
It makes me feel alive
It gives me a reason to live

When I am around you
There are no other faces
I don't know what to do
My heart just races

No more can I sleep
I just lie there awake
These feelings run deep

Where do I stand
Where do we go
These answers I demand

Your run through my veins
I can't get you out of my head
I will be bound in chains
When this poison does spread

Why is it this way
You are so far away
Way more than just a day

You said you would come home
Why aren't you here
I'm hitting the dark to roam

You said those words to me
You made me a promise
But you're across the sea
You're not home with us

You never really call
I wish you were home
I just want one call

I'm sorry that I cry
I just miss you so much
Please come home, please try

No air of my own to breath.
Stuffed like a Christmas turkey,
I find an escape beneath,
Beneath the floors of the murky room.

I fall to the floor
No one is around
My body they do ignore

I open my eyes,
Not a soul in sight.
Was it a dream in the night?

It was just a dream
This is just an empty room
My tears start a stream

When I am left alone,
I am left to think.
No one to hear me groan,
They wouldn't even blink.

Love's gotta be tough
It cannot be easy
Or it won't be enough

We will never understand
The power it has over us
It never goes as planned
And we make such a fuss

We try to change it
We try to fix it
Why don't we let it be?
If it is here
Then why do we fear?

Perfections we shouldn't seek
In one ear, out the other
Don't run when it's bleak
And when close, don't smother

We will never really see
That we cannot control it
So just let it be

Long narrow path of dirt and gravel
When I need to clear my head
You are my way to travel

That warm summer air
That sweet smell of cedar
There is no better place, I swear

Miles and miles of road
Enough road to clear my mind
My secrets I have showed
When I drive that road to unwind

I have one hand on the wheel
And the other out the window
This road is all I wanna feel

Sadly I reach the end
Same time tomorrow
Spent with my only true friend

Your savior in disguise
A place that is safe
Your fortress in the sky
Just for a little waif

When you need to hide
When your walls cave in
Just look to the sky
And let it sink it

N one will find you
Not a soul tonight
They will try their best
But you will be alright
Just hide in the deepest blue

It's your sacred fort
A place just for you
Your dreams are your port
To a place that is true

Not too far away
But far enough
Escape from the day
When it gets tough

Just one touch and I melt
With the softness of your hands
Such a touch I've never felt
Just tell me your demands

I am yours tonight
I'll do whatever you want
Turn off the light

Find me in the dark
And leave your mark

I'm giving you all of me
I'm the best you'll ever have
Just you wait and see

You know I am beautiful
Come show me what you want
This behavior isn't unusual
Don't you dare taunt

Take it out on me,
Scream it to my face.
Show me what I can't see,
Whatever it is, I will embrace.

Don't you worry your pretty little head.

People want you to fall,
Turn your back instead.
You can only stand tall,
Don't believe the lies you're fed.

Don't let it be too much.

Come sit over her,
Go ahead and punch it out.
There is nothing you should fear,
Don't let them fill you with doubt.

Why not take it out on me?

Trust me I am strong.
I can handle your rants,
No matter how many or how long,
I will keep my stance.

So take it out on me.

Never yes,
Nor no.
They never confess,
What I want to know.

They leave me hanging,
By the thread of my chair.
They hear my heart banging,
But they don't even care.

They come into my life,
And stir up the butterflies.
It always ends up in a strife,
And someone always cries.

I'm never enough,
They're always too much.
Their love is just a bluff,
But love, I almost touch.

I'm never a no.
I'm no longer a baby.
I'm never a yes.
I'm just a maybe.

The smell floods my veins
I ache and cringe
My body flails and strains
Depression seeks its revenge

These pills can't hold it any tighter
If I try I just might explode
So much builds up like a fighter
My weaknesses my body has showed

It will use this against me
I tried to shut it out
It wasn't enough, I was too weak
All I have left is to plea
But I have to voice to shout

I tried my best to fight
It just wasn't enough
Now I hide in the night
This game is getting too rough

I tried to feed it pills
My body now lies in a trench
I just wanted some thrills
Now depression seeks its revenge

It still haunts me
The real thing laughs and
The reflection slowly drowns

When you see me
You won't believe me
My stories won't make any sense
I know it seems make believe
But I always have up a fence

The walls that guard me
Will come crumbling down
With just one touch
When I am found

Everyone will look at me with such dismay
They'll think all were lies
It won't matter what I say
They won't look into my eyes

I will face this alone
I won't ask anyone for help
They won't call me on the phone
I will face this alone

You told me to hold on
So I sat there and waited
But you never came along
My scars have bled and faded

Lost in a world of my own
I fight the day to see the sun
No people around me but still not alone
Just look at me and watch me run

I'll find a new life to live
I'll find a new way to thrive

You said you would be here
You said you would come
You filled me with so much fear
You never did want to come

Lessons were learned from this
Hatred was buried
Don't give me another kiss
Don't say we should get married

I'll find a new life to live
I'll find a new way to thrive

Look at me now
Look at me and see
See what you really wanna know, feel, and be
But you could never be me, no
Matter how hard you try, no
Matter how sick you get, no
Matter how many risks you take,
Or when you get pinched

Throw your hands in the air
Throw your money out the window

No one really cares, no one ever really does
They'll throw their hands in the air and your love out the window
They'll look you in the eyes and
You'll fall hard and see what I've been saying all along

If you don't believe me
Go out there and live and
See what type of s* can happen

Embarrassed faces don't give,
Sinking into a ****** death,
Show real love next time and
Start feeling the open passion.
Stop the natural fear and,
Sacrifice the stress.

I don't want to lie awake
I just want to go to sleep
Never wake up
And never breathe again

I want to close my eyes
It's time to close my eyes
I'm not too young
I'm just all done

You won't find me now
You won't get me on the telephone
I don't want one more try
I just want to say good-bye

Let me close my eyes
It's time to close my eyes
I'm on the floor
I'm done fighting this war

Just sing me a lullaby
I'm ready to leave
I'll take these pills
And I'll go to sleep

I want to close my eyes
It's time to close my eyes

Take a look at her,
I'll tell you some things,
Some things you'll never figure out,
Because she likes to hide them inside.

Nobody knows why,
She sits around and cries at home.
She likes to sit in the dark,
And she doesn't answer her phone.

Would you ask her what is wrong?
Would you fight her fight,
Tell her good-bye and so long?
Or would you make everything right?

Can you pick up her pieces,
Put the puzzle back together?
She looks to you for comfort,
Please don't let her down.

The key to her heart,
Is now in your hands.
Hold it tight and smart and
Don't drop it out of your hands.

Find a warm place to keep it,
Maybe right next to yours.
It's a little broken from all the s*,
But she is giving you what's left of it.

Take a look at me
Step back and look away
Now tell me what you see
I'll tell you they're not lies

Find an open door
Tell the stories you were told
Don't fall to the floor
Show them that you are weak

Make the bed in which you lay
Walk away from all you've hurt
Find a new place to destroy
I'll meet you on the other side

Now that you have a friend
Will you do less damage?
Wait one more thing
This was just a test

This is my last day at home
I'm going so faraway
To a place that may not exist
But I promise I'll be okay

Don't let the tears fall down

I'll find a way to the place
Where I won't feel any pain
I know you want to me to stay
But I have to leave this rain

Please smile for me now

They'll open the gates for me soon
This is now where I belong
Wipe those tears from your face
And please you got to be strong

I promise I'll always look down

I miss you all too much
Look down from up above
I'm waitin' by the door
Won't you come home my love?

I sit up in our bed
I listen for your car
I don't let my eyes close tight
Why'd you go so far?

I can't forget your face
You are all I see tonight
Do you hear my plea?
"Please come and be with me."

Let's hold hands one last time
If you can't come to me
Then I'll just come to you

It's never a pretty sight,
My eyeliner is all a smudge,
These tears I tried to fight,
When you were too quick to judge.

Darkest times never come at night.
With your love I fly so high.
Now I cry for nothing seems right.
I don't want to say good-bye.

You swept me away with your charm,
You blew me away with your love.
Why was it you I had to harm?
God please help me from above.

I wanna be with you through it all.
How can I prove that I'm the one?
On my knees I will crawl,
Just to be your only one.

The moon rests for the day
The sun rises up above
My heart starts to sway
But for now this isn't love

I forget how to breathe
My mind is all jumbled
This I can't believe
And it's all because of him

Bright red is the way I feel
When he is standing by or just around
I can't make it a bug deal
Are my feet still on the ground

I'm falling quite fast and
I'm falling pretty hard
Will this feeling last or
Do I need a guard

I can't wait to see the outcome
But I need to slow down
God I feel so dumb
These feelings will never drown

Will we look back and laugh?
Look at me, tell me what you see.
Is what we're doing right?

We sit here and ignore,
What we feel inside.
What do you adore?
What will you decide?

I feel like failure has overcome,
Overcome all of my intentions,
My intentions to be with you,
To be with you has failed.

One of us will surely fall,
You will never see me crash and burn.
I stand so very tall,
So just stop and take you time.

Losing my breath won't happen today.
One day we will look back and laugh,
When you find out this isn't right.

They told me to pray
But I'm not sure it's enough
How am I suppose to just pause my day
And wish gone the hard stuff

They said that you would be here
All I had to do is bow my head
But you're still up there
And I am close to dead

I was told I just need to believe
What am I suppose to believe in?
It's almost time for me to leave
I'm sorry but I'm about to sin

They said you would be with me
But now the truth I certainly can see

She's falling pretty fast
Why doesn't anyone see?
Her success may not last
Please help set her free

She's starting to hide things
Where's she's been
What she's been doing
You all see it in her face
So why is it you do nothing?

She needs your help
Lend her your hand and heart
Take her by the hand
Don't let her depart

Find something for her
For her to smile at
Just look at her
Find her a cure

One sentence is all it took
No more words could I utter
Out my window I was scared to look
My stomach was all a flutter

I stayed up all through the night
Thinking to myself
"If he were really to come,
Could I put up a fight?"

My eyes started to close, but
I mustn't go to sleep, because
Where I live is what he knows
Why is it he is such a creep?

The morning finally came
I was now able to breathe right
Last night he did not come,
So for now, I am safe

Dear Misery
Leave me alone
God lead me home
Don't forget about me
Don't let me suffer slowly

You've taken so much out of me
Don't leave me by a rushing stream
Don't take me where I can't breathe

My bones are starting to break
And my veins are starting to burst
This pain I just can't fake
My life you have cursed

I have nothing left to give you
Just let go of my hand
My body is going home

Your face is starting to fade
I can now go back to sleep
Step back and take a look
I can't see you
Dear Misery

Sugar coated
Polk-a-dotted
Love is all I need

From my head to my toes
All I need is some love

Wrapped in paper or
Different flavors
Love is all I need

Give it to me in a poem
Send it off to me at home

Find it under your bed
Get it though your head!
Love is all I need

The tide comes in and
It starts to thunder
The water sprays and spins
As I quickly go under

I reach out for a hand
Not a soul there to save me
An escape I should've planned
Heaven I start to see

Forgetting how to breathe
My heart stops it's beating
Loneliness I did achieve
Happiness I've been defeating

In front of me the gates appear
I turn to runaway
They say I've nothing to fear
This is all because of one day