Where to begin?
I'm full of things to say
But not sure if I'll let you in

I'll scream and cry if I want
I'll do anything to succeed
I'm not the type of girl to flaunt
All of these you should believe

I have many friends and
I know all of my haters, but
Do I trust you? That depends

I can stand here all day
You can stare all you want
I don't care what you say
So go ahead and taunt

If you want to know me
But sit there and talk behind my back
Then just leave em be because
Courage is what you lack

A nail in her head,
A spike from the ground,
"Leave me be" she had said,
A knife we had found.

She sits by herself,
Doesn't talk to anyone.
Sits there and writes,
Noticing everything.

Friends that surround her,
None that are very close.
She can cause quite a stir,
This she very well knows.

So why does she ignore,
A chance to be normal?
No one does she adore,
Love to her is too formal.

We try to see her heart, but
It's not worn upon her sleeve.
We all watch her cut,
Our eyes, we can't believe.

She holds her pillow tight,
She closes those blue eyes,
She shuts out all the light,
And inside, she dies.

Wishing upon a bright star,
Her knight never comes.
Maybe he's not far.
He might come, so she waits.

Didn't think it'd take so long,
Dust is collecting on her.
She feels that she doesn't belong,
So she waits for her sir.

She see's him coming along,
The bouncing lanterns gleam.
She waited so long.
She wakes, it was just a dream.
So now she waits.

God puts her to the test
Every hour of every day
Doesn't give her a second to rest
Even tests her in the bed she lays

She looks around, no one's there
She looks so close and looks so far
Everyone's gone, it's just not fair

She fights for attention
She longs to be free
She has an infection
That is the depression, you see

Send her an angel
She's all by herself

I lose myself in that blue
Every time it takes my breath away
I'll never lose any interest
I can look at them all day
They are my special place
They bring you lots of charm
Talking for you when you're silent
With those you cannot harm
Instead you steal peoples attention
I wish I had that power
I wish that I knew
My attention you devour
With just one look at me
You send my heart into a race
Whenever I need a thrill
I just look at your face
It's so hard to look away
It's so easy to look in
I can't help but stare
This should be a sin
I can't tear my eyes away
Through them I see so much light
You have so much soul
This is an amazing sight

Let's pretend we're the only ones
Tell me your secrets and fears
I'll be the one to catch you
If you just trust that I am here

I'll show you a way out
I'll protect you from harm
When you need to scream and shout
I'll be your lucky charm

Please don't think you're invincible
I'm here to lend a hand
Please don't play invisible
It's time to take your stand

I'm standing on the ledge
It's what I must do
I never took the pledge
I'm sorry to all of you

Ready to face my fears
Ready to seal the deal
Ready to stop my tears
So I eat my last meal

Facing my worst nightmare
I do this in front of you
Carrying out this last dare
Forever closing my eyes of blue

I need to set myself free
I'm falling down so fast
Please don't try to catch me
This breath is my last

My heart is on the table
And I'm crawling on the floor
No one seems to hear me
Not knowing what I feel

All around me I see them
Haunting every step
Sending me a message
In return I disappear

Following in the foot steps
Of some people from the past
Do I please them?
Do I tease them?
God shall never know

Temptations calling me away
Do I stay here?
Do I give in?
Sending me a message again

Crying in the corner
Loving every minute
Crawling, searching out to no one
Falling, crying "Can you hear me?"

He wakes me up,
With a kiss so cold,
It makes me jump,
His mind is bold.

We play these games,
No fun they are.
Me he blames,
It's gone too far.

The world spins,
We're gonna die.
He who grins,
Will not fly.

The heavens above,
Won't let us in.
We see a dove,
And fake a sin.

The world we leave,
We leave behind,
Nothing to grieve,
New life to find.

I wish you would leave,
Just walk out that door.
You poison the air we breathe.
You make us weep on the floor.

Do you really care like he does?

You push and shove us,
'Till we fall to the floor.
You cause such a fuss,
Just walk out that door.

Can you fend for yourself?

Don't you look to that floor.
Was this the time of your life?
Just walk out that door,
And I'll lend you my knife.

We all hide it inside,
Letting it burn into the morning light.
Let it out? Yeah we've tried,
But it's a constant fight.

Lying in your lovers arms,
It's your only true and safe place.
You can't hear any alarms,
And you only see their face.

We have all cried and cried,
All throughout the night.
Kids are attempting suicide,
Because they feel nothing is right.

So why do they sit and observe?
They sit and watch us bleed,
And they pick out graves to reserve.
Pills? No, love is what we need.

No one really knows me,
with all the stuff I hide.
I hide my pain constantly,
So I don't lose my pride.

Only thing they see are lies.
They'll never know what's inside.
They've never heard all my cries,
Even with how hard they've tried.

Do they even try?
Are they really that blind?
Let's see them cry.
A happy ending they won't find.

They try to wear my shoes,
But they will quickly go down.
Shortly they will lose,
Soon they will drown.

Thought I was goin' no where,
But then you stood by me.
Showed me your love and care.
You crashed into me.

I'm never letting you go.
This is where I want to.
I'm just goin' with the flow,
So please stand by me.

You're what I want,
And you're what I need.
You've got everything,
For me to succeed.

Look me in these eyes of blue,
Tell me what you see.
I'm not wearin' a disguise,
So please stand by me.

I want to say thank you,
Thank you for being you,
Thank you for being here,
And thank you for the cheer.

You heard all of my cries.
You chased away my fears.
You gave me no lies,
When you wiped away my tears.

You're always by my side,
Showing me some light.
You don't let me hide.
You make everything alright.

You make me feel love struck.
You make me feel on top.
You bring me such good luck.
Let's never let it stop.

I can only sit and watch you
I watch the blood poor
I don't know what to do
My feet are glued to the floor

What can I say?
What can I do?
There you lay,
How do I save you?

Take my hand
Open your eyes
This isn't the end
Take off your disguise

Hear me out please
Love is what I give
This moment you must seize
Your life you must live

How do I start this off?
We make promises all the time
Sometimes it's a little hard off
That's why I make all these rhymes

We look each other in the eyes
We make our promises
And then we cry

How do we make so many
But keep so few
All that I have
Is the thought of you

Don't raise that flag of white
We're making all these promises
So now we mustn't fight

So keep me from the rain
I don't wanna hear that thunder
Save me from the pain
Let's make another

Take all your stress away,
Dance in the dark.
Dance the night away.
Don't you dare fall apart.

If you miss that beat,
You better take your seat.
Play your favorite track.
Don't you think about lookin' back.

Together we will dance,
Dance the stress right off of you.
Don't say goodbye to this chance.
Get on that dance floor.

Dance in the dark.
You know it's right.
You won't fall apart.
This is your night.

It's not something to laugh at,
Why do you joke about it?

People out there sit and cry.
You just sit and stare.
You make them want to die.
Do you know this isn't rare?

You push them towards the ledge,
Do you want to see them jump?

Think twice before you talk.
Listen to them when they cry.
Watch them when they walk.
And try not to let them die.

They're always in a constant fight,
And it may never end.

Maybe you can save their life.
They need somebody to be there.
Take away their knife.
Show them you care.

I hear the voices inside my mind
They say I've done nothing right

I must shut them out
I cannot live in doubt
Why does it bother me?
What can I not see?

I hide the scars
And I live in fear

God please save me now
Wake me up inside
Don't make me take my bow
Please God just decide

I now sit here and wait
Wondering what will be my fate

You are not my master.
This you should now see.
I will not be a disaster.
i will set myself free.

You will be shut out.
You don't have any power.
This you cannot doubt,
My life, you can't devour.

15 thousand tears I've cried,
But no longer will they fall down.
My happiness you've denied,
But now you will drown.

I've wasted my time on you.
I've watched my life pass by.
You know what I have to do.
Tonight, you will die.

If you want to you can save me.
You can take me away from here.
Show me what I can't see.
Take away what I fear.

If you want to, you can.
Climb over this wall.
I hope you have a plan,
Because I'm about to fall.

I'm hiding in a dark place,
I want you to take me away.
I need a familiar face,
Because all I see is grey.

I'm sure you know how to,
Probably the only one who does honey.
All of this you already knew,
So please make my skies sunny.

My stomach cannot take it.
Take me away from the pain.
No more can I handle.
I'm stuck in the endless rain.

I don't understand you anymore.
Everything felt so right.
It's never been like this before.
Why are you hiding in the night?

Are you giving up on our love?
Are you shying away from the light?
Do you need help from above?
Do you feel nothing is right?

My dear love take my hand.
We'll make it through the dark days.
Baby don't feel ******,
This is probably just a phase.

Remember that I love you.
Remember that I care.
Remember I'm always here for you.
Remember with you my life I share.

I don't think you still care.
You always make me cry.
Leave you? I don't dare,
But I do want to die.

Why is it so hard for you,
To just sit and talk me?
Tears fall from my eyes of blue,
Because your love I can't see.

You need to step it up,
Show me your love.
Just take it up a notch.
Do you need a shove?

I spend my nights wishing,
Wishing you would show me,
Show me that you still care,
And that you don't want to lose me.

I stay up all through the night.
I am now worried all the time.
Why is it I say nothing right?
Now I will never be fine.

Anything and everything is what we said,
Though I don't believe it anymore.
I fear that I'll find you dead,
Just lying there on the floor.

I hope you know I love you.
I hope you know I care.
Forever show those eyes of blue,
Because with you my life I share.

Now I will hide all the pain.
I can't let you see me cry.
I wish you could stop the rain.
I just can't watch you die.

Every night I think of you.
Sit there holding my pillow tight.
Wishing I was with you,
All the way through the night.

You're always in my mind.
Don't think you've ever left it.
You know love isn't so blind.
I can see right through it.

My mind is all a mess.
My thoughts are all of you,
This and that I must confess,
I'm so in love with you.

Sometimes at night I cry out for you,
But you're never there.
I always want to be with you,
It's just not fair.

I love you always and forever.
My love will always grow.
I shall leave you never,
That you need to know.

She is your one true love
At least that's what you said
Is this love now dead?
What lies was she fed?

Look straight into her eyes
Do you see how she cries?
**** herself? Yeah she tries
How so you feel about that?

Did you wast your time on her?
She thought your love was real
He love, was that a nice steal
Hos you think you make her feel?

She see's you and has a smile
She does that every once in a while
When she doesn't we put it on file
Please don't let your love me a lie

I'm sorry for the pain.
I'm sorry for the tears.
Sorry for putting you in the rain,
And giving you those fears.

I see now the hurt I gave you.
I just can't live with myself.
Tears fell from those eyes of blue.
How did you not **** yourself?

I just may go insane.
Now I must feel the pain,
Deep under this shirt.

To the world do I say bye,
Or with you can I stay?
Do I let out a big sigh,
And pick the place I will lay?

We've been together for a while,
5 months to be exact.
It's really hard not to smile,
And that's a happy fact.

We've had out bumps in the road,
But we always make it through.
We both carry a big load,
But our love is always true.

I know deep down we will make it.
When I'm with you I can fly.
Since our love has been lit,
It will never ever die.

When I close my eyes,
You're everywhere to me.
There will never be anymore lies,
That is what I wish you could see.

I love you with all my heart.
I love you with every breath.
If you I should ever part,
I shall take my very last breath.

You're in love with me,
I'm in love with you,
But your love I can't see,
It's hiding in those eyes of blue.

Let your love come out.
There's no reason to hide.
Walk away from the doubt,
And come take a ride.

You told me you love me,
How come it's not showing?
This love, I can't see.
Shouldn't it be growing.

Your love is put away.
Take it out to stay.
Please my love don't delay.
Or here is where I'll lay.

Our love needs to show.
I'm sorry for my mistake.
Baby you should know,
This love, I can't fake.

They ask people what's wrong with me
And they always stare
I just want to be free
Doesn't anybody care?

Everyday I lay here
Wishing away the pain
They don't know what I fear
I'm sure they think I'm insane

So many times I must say
"Leave me alone"
The price they'll have to pay
For attempting to turn me into a clone

I try to dodge their stares
When they say I don't belong
Here in this world of theirs
So now I say so long

The reason I'm cry.
The reason I'm happy.
The reason I cannot die,
And why this poem is sappy.

All my thoughts are of you.
Holding onto my pillow tight,
Wishing to see those eyes of blue.
Everything just feels so right.

I love playing with your hair,
While I'm laying in your arms.
Our love has so much flair,
Because of all your charms.

I love to see you smile.
I hate to hear you cry.
We've been together for a while.
Our love will never die.

You told me not to wait
You said you were through
I only thought we were fate
And so my love grew

Your poems made me cry
Your poems made me happy
My tears you would dry
When I'm down and ******

A mom I can't wait to be
I want you as the dad
Why can't you just see
I'm not all that bad

You're going off with her
You told me to move on
But I'm not so sure
I'm scared forever you'll be gone

You said you wanted me
Now you say you want her
Now why couldn't I see
That you'll always be with her

My heart sits here and bleeds
From all the pain it's fed
Hatred blooms from seeds
And depression sits in bed

To you no one compares
I will always love you
A heart filled with despair
To you I will always be true

You say you have love for me
You say you have love for her
For me you say you care
For her your life you share

Do I dare move on
You told me not to wait
I'm afraid you'll be gone
'Cause I thought we were fate

He worries about her all day
His fears he cannot erase
Needs her to say "I'll be okay."
Tears are falling down his face

Why does she live like this?
She covers up the scars
She, he does not want to miss
So he wishes upon the stars

He loves her so
This has gone too far
Doesn't want her to let go
He needs another star

Looking in the sky
He prays for an answer
He needs a plan to try
He cannot lose his dancer

She sat all alone
Gasping for air
We all heard her moan
Her fate wasn't fair

It lays in bed all day,
Wallowing in the pain.
I try to clear my head,
But then I go insane.

Try to convince myself it's over,
But I can't let go of the past.
Always he was there,
But then he left so fast.

Everywhere I see him,
I can't take the silence.
Just want to be with him.
I am growing way to tense.

He is stuck in my mind,
Haunting all my dreams,
Invading all my thoughts,
And planning all these schemes.

All these schemes to torture me,
He does it everyday.
All these tears he cannot see,
Falling from a sky so grey.

Day and night I put up a fight,
To stop the tears falling down my face.
I have to stop what is not right,
Or I will end up a disgrace.

11:11 make a wish this night
Dream of something sweet and nice
You know everything will be alright

Say the words, say them now
Make this wish, don't you cry
Look to God, believe him now

You always tell me that time
"Close your eyes, make a wish"
Say the words, say that time

You wear it all the time
Hold it when you make that wish
11:11 that's our time

I see him everywhere
He's sitting in the desk in front of me
Standing outside the door in the hall
Watching my every move
No he's not

He sits on my bed watching me sleep
Looking into my eyes when I wake up
He follows me everywhere I go
Watching my every move
No he's not

When he looks into my eyes
He see's my life, my secrets, and my soul
Sitting there thinking is what he does
Watching my every move
No he's not

Dancing all day
Dancing all night
All the grey goes away
And everything turns so bright

Dancing , I must say
It is, my get away

When I dance I feel so pure
Sweat streaming down my face
The music is my lire
I will not leave a trace

Dancing, I must say
It is, my get away

The reason your wrists bleed
The reason your tears fall
The worries you don't need
When I'm the one you call

Can't stand to hear your cry
I'm the reason for your pain
The reason you want to die
You cut just to feel sane

Tell me how to make this right
I cause you pain, don't deny
You cry all through the night
"Please, why can't I die?"

Sometimes I love it
Sometimes I hate
I'm pretty use to it
What do you think of it?

You know something?
We yell, we scream
We say nasty ol' things
To where we can't even dream

Hurts so bad when we fight
I'm sure it feels like hell
So I sit here and write
Locked up on my little cell

When we fight we runaway
So I sit here and cry
Cut our wrists, don't delay
Just sit and watch us die

We watch ourselves bleed
But yet we still fight
To stop is what we need
We need to make it right

He now let's not cry
You just gotta be strong
Why do you wanna die?
Does this all feel wrong?

Look at the people who care
They're right in front of you
Love is what they share
Don't you have a clue?

You hide all of this pain
I want to take it away
I want to stop the rain
What do you say?

Baby please stop your tears
Hope you know I love you
I wanna take away your fears
Let's make a happier you

For you I'll always be here
Please just take my hand
Stop your crying my dear
Please don't feel like you're ******

Steal it from another,
Hold it tight in your hands.
Hide it from your mother,
See how long it stands.

She was waiting all day.

She'll do anything you want,
No matter how crazy the deed.
Only for you she'll flaunt.
Take a stand, take the lead.

He wanted just one call.

All he wanted was to talk.
You smile, he blushes.
Go on and take a walk,
Flirt with him, nothing less.

All they want is love.

Rip it from their chest.
Say you need to be apart,
Don't worry if they're stressed,
Go on and break a heart.

You're just like a tattoo
But all this time you liked her
Deep down I always knew
But I was never really sure

She makes you so happy
But with you I belong
Now I feel really ******
'Cause I knew all along

It doesn't feel the same
She's still in your heart
Take away this pain
From her you must part

Please just look at me
And know we can't part
But if that you can't see
Then just know you're in my heart

It's what is best,
Best for you and me.
Let's give it a rest,
This is something we need to see.

You're on your own way,
Our paths don't cross.
Let's forget that day,
You're truly a terrible loss.

My feelings you knew,
They were bold and true.

I wish there was another way.

I don't want to do this,
I'll leave you with a kiss.

I'm giving you my word,
I can't do this anymore.
My vision is all blurred,
And this hurts to my core.

Please, not another sound,
Those tears you must dry.
We are no longer bound,
It's time to say good-bye.

Little boy why you callin' me baby?
You act as though I'm already your girl
I believe I said it was a maybe

Little boy there's things you should know
You're movin' a little fast for my taste
All I ask of you is to take it slow

Little boy I don't want the lies
If I hear them it will be hell
I'm not the type of girl you can hypnotize

Little boy just tell it to me straight
All you got to do is be a man
And we'll see if you're in my fate

It all will go away.
The pain and the memories,
The faces and the places,
And the shadows of the day.

The leave like no tomorrow,
They don't even say good-bye..
They just leave me here,
And I'm left with sorrow.

I'm left all alone,
Without anymore words.
Everything goes away,
This I've always known.

I'm done with trying,
I won't make them stay.
It no longer hurts,
I'm done crying.

No tears from my eyes of blue,
I've grown quite use to this,
Because it all just leaves,
Even you.

Little girl all you do is lie
So conceited and fake
You make up stories for people to buy

Little girl who do you think you are
This breath is not the one you make
You know I'm still gonna go far

Little girl you just keep lookin' straight
You try to make things better now
Well guess what, too little too late

Little girl I don't see why you're cryin'
Just listen up for one whole minute
What you got to do is stop this lyin'

Little girl it was stupid what you did before
In my life now you don't belong
Guess what? You can't control me anymore

It's my choice,
Not someones demand.
I do it for me,
I don't do it for you.

It's a way for me to come out,
Come out from behind this wall.
You like to fill me with doubt,
And you try to make me fall.

I am here for me,
I am not here for you.
I can set myself free,
I'm just someone you thought you knew.

You can walk away now,
You don't have to stay her.
Go on and say ciao,
You own life you should endear.

I do this for me,
I don't do this for you.
This is something you just can't see,
But you're gonna have to.

When I hear it I can't deny
How much I love it so
I release a relaxing sigh
And move my body to the flow

It's a part of me, everyone can see
This so called "noise" relieves my pain
It let's me be so free
It's the only thing that keeps me sane

I love to hear the beat
I move my body to the sound
While everyone else takes a seat
I move my hips round and round

All day it calls my name
Waiting for me to get up and dance
It tries to play a game
It gets me to take a chance

This is just me
Oh how I love this so
It makes me feel free
Try moving to the flow

Do you ever think about it?
I dream about it.
How will I leave this place?
Will they remember my face?

I believe it's normal to think,
To think about a way.
How will I leave this world?
When will be the day?

Many people can't handle the thoughts,
They can't bear to hear the noise.
They can't think of how the body rots,
The bug, and the corpses it destroys.

Getting placed into the cold and dark,
I dream of how it will be.
On top my grave may turn into a park,
Children stumbling round up above.

I dream about it all the time,
What will happen when I pass?
Are theses thoughts a crime?
How am I gonna die?