You'll be strong
You will be

After all you will go thru
You will be

You will look back
And you will believe

And I will pray
I will pray for you
In the midst of it

You can treat me
to books
Literature to fiction
Any types of stories, interest

You can treat me
to pens
0.1 to BM tips
Various colours would be nice too

You can treat me
To drinks
Macha green tea to bubble tea
Teas and coffee are some of which I drink

You can treat me
To a day out
You and me
With silence in-betweens

These are the pleasures things
You can treat me

so i came across
a brand called oriental

in a bag of green crunchy peas
one of my favorite snack

i could have a rack
align in rows of lovely packs

simple ingredients of
green peas, vegetable oil
sugar and salt

flavor enchacer
kept me to munch on it
even when i was little, as a girl

not to forget
super ring cheese snack
under the same brand
oriental

i have tried many other
green peas snacks
but no other have i taste
as flavorsome as this

so i snack and snack
and i snack on it
and i wish that
it will stay as long as i will live

oriental green peas snack

I feel
I feel for sadness
I feel the lost
I feel for whatever senses that comes across

I feel that i might be feeling too much
I feel intensity
I feel wrath
I feel for most unspeakable mind

I feel that you might miss
the chance of feeling what you should feel

A lack of cultivation
a spell bound by surrounded cultured

where is the hunger for values
values they follow you after death on earth
keeping our body righteous

not society talks
not how worldly cycle go round
not taking any of this gibberish

it can still be helped
a longing for Lord surpassing holiness

rest your body and keep it
within your soul
nurture it and practice wholesome

surround your mind with
what you cannot see now
in what they cannot give here

keep your eyes close
because faith can give it to you

you can be my fiction
be the character in my head

be with me
inside my head

i won't go out
outside my head

there's a few plots
inside my head,

we can be together
where no one else can be
we can be together as long i live

You see,
i can always find them out there
like wild flowers near the green field
outside my house,

down the road

In a town
random corners, random streets
cracked concrets

you can see them there

i am a fictional character as realistic
from where you are living

as real as you can see
as close as you can think of me here

close enough to have feelings like you do
close enough to know you have feelings for me too

i live a fictional live
a similar to yours
a fiction in fiction

we are not much in difference
would you say, you like to come over again?

time to sleep,
says O sleeper of the night

but its beautiful and quiet
in the night,
says O dreamer in the day

I don't want to go to bed
when i can meet nightly silence
this doesn't happen in the day

I have fallen in love with night
and i want to stay with it
every possible time,
says O dreamer in the day

go to bed,
says O sleeper of the night

(it's too late to take back my confession)
how can i live in the day any longer...
*says O dreamer in the day

life has no word
life has no God

life is far away
life doesn't seems like one

what is life

life is not how it looks right now

life is deeper
life is shallow

life is where he breathe his breath at you

you've found me
i've found you

you're slipping away
away from how i used to grow up

you're still here, further away
away from now i am used to

it's been hard, i don't see you
not in everywhere
where i used to

i want you, more than i can't see you
i want to find you, here and there
everywhere from where i am now

so where are you now?
*i know dearly you're still around

are we suppose to be strangers now,
are we suppose to pretend
we don't know, when we see each other on the streets?

are we suppose to be strangers now,
because we're not even friends thru social media

are we suppose to keep this distance, away forever
keep our smiles to the other people

are we suppose to keep away these thoughts
that we were once so close together
but we've grown so old and cold apart

are we suppose to be strangers now
because it seems to me, you want to leave your past behind

you're the one who came into my life
now you want to leave me out of your life
*how could you be so nice to me?

In a world like this
I wish you leave me

People who buys excessively
People who eats expensively
People who spend too much just going out to have a certain fun
People who spend too much time working, just to live a money spending life,
living to the expectation of what they want to get in live

Leave me to the wild
Leave me to live in the woods
Leave me to hunt for food
Leave me to the life of nature and wealth
Leave me to seek for inner soul needs

Eternal and longing
Where non can be found in a world of this
Where everything fades

Don't put your life in it
There is no eternal contentment to it

leave me to find the treasure to our inner soul
may live

tell me that it is lovely
tell me i don't need to see
tell me that it is enough
tell me you’ll protect me

and give me the courage to believe in this

sadness are so close to me
like water on earth surrounding me

they comes and goes away
it troubles me and makes me drown
many times before i could SHOUT for help

there was no way i could escape
heavy high tide crashes me

treading water
gasping for air
gobbling water
and looking for lands

washes me further
                                   f u r t h e r


a w a y

from my sadness
into my madness  

falling deeper
couldn't rise up
eyes are already close
couldn't see
pressures and darkness pulling in

wishing to see another sun ray of light
shining down benethe here
if only i would open my eyes
to look up and know i might be fine
breathing underneath water

we are all roadside flowers
blooming and changing in seasons

we are all together
all in these together

all growing together
all nurturing together

We are all soft touchy flowers
feeling for one another
loving and tendering

with the same thoughts
and common soil
we came from the same ground

let's be together
in the light of our sunshine

(im moving out, traveling out)
heading somewhere else
(somewhere not from where i am now)

somewhere
else where other beauty lies

somewhere
where new love can be found

somewhere
healthy like nature and air

somewhere
you can go and no one
can stop you from heading to

its a flee
its for a moment
its making memories
its passing by

its moving on
its looking back
its experience
its a way of living it

b e h i n d

you know i wouldn’t search for a love like this
fading and longing
tiring and intensive

where could this love brings me to?

a love of sly
a love like flower die
you know i wouldn’t search for a love like this

the old is not done
and the new is here
it never ends

time will come again
when the old is new
it never ends

Only when you start
to feel the strangeness

then you are starting
to feel yourself

Galaxy and Universe won't lie to me

My heart and my mind knows
what I can see are real

**You are real

First you introduce as pop
Then you let him know you are indie

Afterwards tell him how much you love him thru jazz and how you shiver in electro

Sometimes you can be insane you drop to hard-style bass and you scream in nu-metal
Then you turn to rock cause you're feeling better
Once you've calmed yourself chill-waves settled in your ambient

You do your last ballad dance and you end with a folk bow

*Slowly fading back into synthesia dream pop

I gave love a try
And now he's forever mine
Now I dare you to try

a story of the bed sheet
we shared
laid down on
as the wind flew passed us where the window
sits still beside the bed

what we had
only lasted on the bed sheet shared
it was washed and it never happen again

Because when the night comes
The light in my eyes get lidded up

The silence of dark blue
Gets louder than the day

And nobody from the day
could haunt me

As I head outside
with lights in my eyes

All I see
Is a beautiful field of glowing flowers

There seems to be no end as I walk along these little paths