I told you once.
I've told you a thousand times.
But I guess your ears are to full of **** to hear.
I've killed you once.
I've killed you a thousand times.
But I guess you are to obnoxious to die.
I've loved you once....
I've loved you a thousand times....
But I guess you were too busy with everybody else to love me back....
I've cursed you once.
I've cursed you a thousand times.
But I guess you are to invincible to get the effect.
I've begged you once...
I've begged you a thousand times.
But I guess you were too high and mighty to give me mercy...
I hate your guts now.
Then again you never did have any.
And neither do I.
Because if I did,
I would have killed you long ago.
When I had nothing to lose.
When it wouldn't affect me any.
You should thank my love for keeping you alive.
If it wasn't for her,
I would have killed you.
No remorse.
No regret.
Just blood on my clothes and a sneer on my face.

Lay forth.
May your run be fruitful.
I'm taking my imagination
And wrapping it around you.
You.
Me.
I can't fix thee.
Try to find a reason why
you cant open your eyes.
Ignorance is bliss.
But only to the ignorant.
Piece by piece, you break away.
Its sad though.
But you'll find a way.
You are no more than my head.
No more than my mind.
No more than my imagination.

She plays all day
Galloping across the sun
Enjoying its golden beams
And its warm embrace
And when the sun must rest
She leaps across the stars
And lays upon the moon
Gazing at the black abyss
Where stars look like glitter
Sprinkled across the sky
Shimmering and twinkling
What a beautiful sight
Then the moon's glow fades
And the stars disappear
She is taken back into reality
And real life takes its place
Where her dream once belonged

*riley papile

He who is loyal to a particular one
     is a slave to discrimination.
He who is loyal to both
     is ripped in two.
He who is loyal to neither
     is impartial and safe,
        a king of his own.

Hey little sister.  I know you're too young to understand what I've done. They probably told you I died in my sleep, protecting you from the whole story. They'll tell you when youre older. I know you miss me. You still think of me sometimes when my favorite song comes on the radio. But dont cry for me ojeda. I love you
Hi mom. You know what really happened. You knew I was in pain for a long time but you never thought it would go this far.  I know you still cry too late at night when no one can hear. I know you never stopped hurting. But dont cry for me mother I love you.
And daddy, I'll be home again soon. We'll be together. You can smile again dad. I love you.
To all those I loved, to those who loved me. There was no "Sydney" left to save. She died long before I did.
Dear nanny. You're broken hearted just like I was, I know. Your first grandaughter is gone. You're slowly fading. Your smile is gone. But dont cry for my grandmother, I love you.
Hey Pa. You can't believe I'd do this. I was such a happy child. Smiling, always playing. What happened? But dont cry for me grandfather, I love you
To all those I loved, to those who loved me. There was no "Sydney" left to save. She died long before I did.
And friends, stop your crying. You know I hate it when you're sad. I'm still here, you just cant see me. I still hug you, I still laugh at your jokes. Dont cry for me my friends, I love you. To all those I loved, to those who loved me. There was no "Sydney" left to save. She died long before I did. To all those I loved, to those who loved me. There was no "Sydney" left to save. She died long before I did.

I cut out my life and watch it drain away. Feeling peace and solitude dosent come without a price. The scars tell my story, they know what I've been through. Its been a lot of ****, so I wont let it happen to you. So hear my voice yelling over your screams. This is my lullaby to those who bleed. When you feel so alone, I am your angel to carry you home.