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LETITFXRING Apr 2014
About You
I can't believe your really gone
My heart is torn
It hurts way too much

I can't help but cry
I can't help but think about the times we had together
I can't help but write this down

**I'm going to miss you so much < 3
R. I. P
Amoy Blake
Apr 2014 · 1.7k
Winnie Mandela
LETITFXRING Apr 2014
The harder they try to silence me
The louder I become

Winnie Mandela
My favorite line she once said
It's just so Breath taking to me
Apr 2014 · 186
Little Details
LETITFXRING Apr 2014
I
Capture
The
Smallest
Things
In
Life
Easy to miss
Apr 2014 · 732
Want | Need
LETITFXRING Apr 2014
The things that
She asked for
She never got

But the things that
God gave her
Was all she ever needed
April 13, 2014
Apr 2014 · 187
Some People
LETITFXRING Apr 2014
Say your too beautiful to cry
So I reply beauty is only inside
So when you see these tears rolling down my eyes
It comes from a feeling I can't deny

Part of me I wish I could say goodbye
Joey M (a friend of mine) & I wrote this
April 12, 2014
Apr 2014 · 186
My Garden
LETITFXRING Apr 2014
Has yet to  Bloom
*& I'm waiting for the day
I can run through so much
Flowers in the middle of
May
Or
June
Wrote this a while ago and I found it today
Apr 2014 · 427
Lists
LETITFXRING Apr 2014
I
Make
Lists
Of
Things
&
I
Lose
Myself
Within
10 w
I have a hard time remembering things
So I write them down so I won’t forget
Mar 2014 · 287
Ice Pick Headaches*
LETITFXRING Mar 2014
They come & go
Just Like People
*Sharp, and/or jabbing pain that occurs either once or several times a day at irregular intervals
Mar 2014 · 711
Absence | Silence
LETITFXRING Mar 2014
The
Absence
Hurts

The
Silence
Roars

Of
Everyday
Without
**You
10w
Mar 2014 · 338
Who Ever Knew
LETITFXRING Mar 2014
I was going to be the girl
Who likes to paint her nails,
Wear eyeliner & wear lipstick
Mar 2014 · 202
New Beginnings
LETITFXRING Mar 2014
I'd compare myself
To a flower
I just want to
Bloom
Close the book of years 2010-2013 & begin with a whole new book.
I feel this year would be different
Mar 2014 · 750
Blinds
LETITFXRING Mar 2014
How come that
When your living life
You miss all the things
That are right in front
Of you?

You are blinded by it
So blinded that no matter
How hard you try
The blinds won't come off
And you start living your life
Built off with lies

& as time goes by
You start to see it
& the blind starts
To fade
& wondered how
Come you didn't
See it earlier
Wishing the blinds
Came off earlier
Mar 2014 · 1.4k
Daffodils
LETITFXRING Mar 2014
Today is the first day of spring
I can’t wait to see my favorite flowers
**Bloom
I'm so happy that the snow is almost gone, I love flowers
Mar 2014 · 366
Wanting To Feel*
LETITFXRING Mar 2014
Feeling things just got worse
Ready to explode;
Everything that she kept bottled up inside
Eventually came out
Free* | Acrostic Poem
Mar 2014 · 459
Letting Go 10W
LETITFXRING Mar 2014
You will never be free
If you don’t let go
I know it's hard
& I know I should have let go
But now
It hurts more
Than it should have
Take out the negative
You deserve a lot better
Mar 2014 · 409
Pain
LETITFXRING Mar 2014
I drink coffee to take
Away my headaches


                                     What do I need for
                                     This pain
                                     I can no longer
                                     Take?
Drinking or Smoking is not the answer;
What happens when you start to feel
The pain again
Once your back to yourself
(somewhat yourself)
Your back where you started
&
I never want to be where I started
I want to be pass that

I tell myself to give it time
But how much time?
I have to be more
Patient and not think about it
Too much.
Mar 2014 · 218
What Kind Of Love?
LETITFXRING Mar 2014
What Kind Of Love?
He wrote "heart you"
On my paper &
I asked him
What kind of love?
He told me to not
Worry about it

And I was shocked
Because that's when I knew

It was serious
And everything was transparent
Felt like he wanted me to know
In the most smallest ways

Holding it all in


Knowing most of me
Even my darkest secrets.
YDM
Jan 2014 · 344
Hidden In the Dark
LETITFXRING Jan 2014
They say the things
You do in the dark
Will eventually
Come to the light

But what happens
To the things
That doesn’t come to
The light?

Does it eat you
Inside knowing you have
Something hidden;
Maybe a dark secret
Or
Maybe something
Out of this world?
Do you think about it?
Do you wish you could
Just let it all out?

*Some things are better off hidden
Jan 2014 · 375
I Feel Lost
LETITFXRING Jan 2014
I feel lost
But this time
Its different

I don't where I am
I don't know how I got here
I forgot what's this place is called
It looks familiar. . .
I know the name
Its on the top of my tongue
Let me think. . . .

I gather all my thoughts
& yet I can't put it
Together

I ask someone
"How do I get home?"
He only looked at me
And he vanished
by the second

I begin talking to myself
And suddenly
I start to hear my voice
Inside of my head

I'm I going insane?

I no longer can hear my voice
Only inside of my head
As
If I were muted

I began to scream

And I fell down to the ground
Because
My head hurt so bad
Then I realized that my scream
Makes me weak

After I got up
I heard something tell me that
When it starts to get dark
You'll start to feel
Something inside of you
Eat you alive

Right then the sun
Starting going down &
I started running

I began to feel it
Eating me alive
I began to scream.
And I fell down
I was weak

As I was on the ground
I heard somebody
laugh
I never heard such an
Evil laugh

I got up
And I kept running
And running

I felt something push me
On the ground
And I couldn't get up

I started to cry

I heard the evil
laugh again

Only seconds until
it gets FULLY DARK

And I picked myself up
As I started to run again

Something tripped me

And I start to feel weak
Again
Because I was screaming
My tears started to blind me

And

I began to feel someone
Touch me on my arm
But I couldn't see who it
was. . . .

That's when I


Woke up
LETITFXRING Dec 2013
Even when bad things occur
We always forget about
The good things we still have.
15w
Dec 2013 · 829
Stuck On You
LETITFXRING Dec 2013
I still haven't accepted it
Yet
I'm stuck
& suddenly life goes on
Without me
And I'm still here
Waiting
For things to be alright
Again. . . .
Like old times
You know?
Dec 2013 · 286
Coffee & You
LETITFXRING Dec 2013
Coffee doesn't keep me awake
But you do;
Why is that?
11w
Dec 2013 · 5.1k
Let’s run away together
LETITFXRING Dec 2013
Let’s run away together
Just you and me.
Leave everything behind
We’ll start something new.
Don’t be scared,
Just trust me
And I’ll show you the world.

I've never stop loving you
Every day that goes by
All I do is think about
Your imperfections
Because that’s the thing
I love most about you.

Take my hand
& Come with me and you’ll see
The change in you and me

Close your eyes and imagine
A place where you
Wish to be
And I’ll take you there
. . .
Let’s run away together
And travel the world
. .
Its okay to feel
Scared

&
Its okay if you say no
My feelings for you won’t
Change

So lets just take it slow

At the end
It’s all up to you
Dec 2013 · 338
Beauty
LETITFXRING Dec 2013
Look at the beauty
In everything
And open your mind
10w
Dec 2013 · 250
Searching For. . .
LETITFXRING Dec 2013
Sometimes when I'm looking for something
I don't know what I'm really looking for
But when I'm done looking
I end up with something
That either brings a tear or a smile.
Dec 2013 · 334
My Mind Is Creative
LETITFXRING Dec 2013
My art is like a story that never ends;
My art is living, my mind is creative.
Dec 2013 · 391
Life Is Beautiful
LETITFXRING Dec 2013
Life has four different seasons
And my favorite is Autumn
Because I love the leaves turn different colors.
I love when the leaves run across the street
while the wind screams.
Life has a meaning some don't understand
And people try to find its meaning.
Life is a beautiful thing and I see that when
Autumn comes along.
The cool breeze,
Gets to the little hairs on your arm
While you wearing a sweater
And your teeth start to clap
As you exhale you see your fog in front of your eyes.
You see. . .
Life is beautiful and I found beauty
That it brings to the world
And as Spring comes along
I smile because daffodils & roses
Start to grow with all the other flowers
And I smile because there are so beautiful
You see. . .
Life is Beautiful.
Just look at the positive things
And you'll see.
I wrote this August 25,2013 | (10:13pm-10:20pm)
Freestyle within seven minutes, I loved it (:
Dec 2013 · 1.4k
I Want To Be Happy
LETITFXRING Dec 2013
I played her some songs I like;
She asked "why I like sad songs?"
I told her "because I like the lyrics"
Then she asked me if I'm sad
And I said "yes a little bit".
She said "why"
And that question made me
Even feel sadder.
I just told her "I don't know"
But in my head I knew
I just didn't want to tell her
I felt she was too young to know
Too young to know that
I got my heart broken
Into Pieces by this
Guy I thought really loved me
I still feel sad because
It hurts me a lot
And I live in this state where
He didn't do any of it.

That it's all a dream
And soon I'll wake up
And realize it isn't real
And in another world
I still feel that were together

I'm still stuck on Him
And I don't know what to do
I want to cry but no matter
How hard I try
Tears won't come out.
As if I ran out of tears
Or as if there's a wall holding it
All back.
I'm scarred

If I listen to happy songs will I be happy?
If, so please let my ears listen and
Fill my heart with happiness and good
With positive thoughts
And hoping to live another day without
Thinking about my broken heart
My thoughts scream and shout
Inside of my head
And I'm walking around
With a broken heart.
I was shocked
Yes. Because it hit me
With Irony
So I laughed a little bit
And cried some

I always had my doubts
I was just too ****
Stupid not to put it all together
Soon enough.
I seen and heard things
That made me think
Negative.
I assumed he was seeing or doing something else
With another girl
My gut was right
Something I Ignored
And I went along with my life
I should have trusted my gut
It was right all that time

He showed me all the right signs
And I was blinded
Because I wanted to be wrong
October 9 of this year
I wrote my true feeling down
I wrote how I really felt
And I couldn't tell him about it
Because I told him I'll never bring it
Up ever again

So I kept my word.
It was bottled up inside of me
I couldn't tell anyone
I didn't want them to judge me
I didn't want to hear negative
Things towards my feelings
I thought no one would ever understand me
I felt alone
I would cry and carry on
And cry some more
Until I just
Read it in his presence
And afterwards I
Spilled out everything.
All the things I had bottled up inside
Of me.
I spoke my mind that day.
And I felt closure.
Then Again I don't
Think closure is the right word

I was hurt
And tears were rolling down
My face and my tears
Were blinding me
And I took a napkin
And wiped them away

He never knew how I truly felt
Most of the time
But my words that day
I spilled out everything
That I had in my mind
He felt the same as I did
And
When I would cry in secret sometimes
I didn't want anyone else
To know I'm crying
Because I had so much bottled up
My heart would cry with me
When I'm sad.
And all those times I felt sad
He finally felt what I've felt

I just want to scream.
Let it all out. . .
Out what, you'll ask
& I'll say
This pain I carry on me
This burden
This thing I feel that lives
Inside of me.
It’s attacking me from the inside
Wanting to get out
Wanting to be free into
The Atmosphere
Where it would be free
Nothing less and nothing more
Just free

I felt times where I wanted to be free
From this sadness
Called depression
That he brought upon me

And now

I close my eyes, thinking
To myself
This is real and I have to except it
But I don't want to
And this is when I want to scream
Because I don't want to except it

I just don't
It's just so hard for me
I never thought this would happen to me
My heartaches. . .

So. . . . .

Play me some songs of happiness
Because I want to be happy.
Mar 2013 · 648
Tears
LETITFXRING Mar 2013
The tears that run down my face are salty.
Barely could see.
My eyes get full of tears so fast.
& my teardrops get heavier by the second.
My heart feels tight,
& I hardly can breathe.
I feel the need to scream until I could be heard.
I feel the need to go…
*ELSEWHERE!
Mar 2013 · 656
Have you ever?
LETITFXRING Mar 2013
Have you ever wonder where all the
balloons go once you set them free?
Have you ever just wonder, because it
seemed like the world stood still?
Have you ever wondered that, when
you wonder for so long that
your body is still & your soul dances?
Have you ever wonder?
Have you ever heard Silence
roar & be the loudest of them all?
Have you ever cried because there is
nothing else you could do?
Have you ever watch the leaves run
across the street as the wind screams?
Have you ever smile after knowing
you did something great?
Have you ever count sheep?
Have you ever pictured better?
Have you ever thought to yourself
"what if"?
Have you ever gave up because you knew
it was a lot?
Have you ever felt so depressed; it started
to ruin you?
I have wondered.
My body is still and my mind
wonders into this other place where
things are better & people are winsome
but when I let my mind wonder for so long I begin to cry
& every drop slithers down my face
onto my pillow.
Mar 2013 · 456
I
LETITFXRING Mar 2013
I
I go where
the wind takes me.
I skip rocks at the river
near my house.
I take long walks
whenever I think too much.
I let the little things get to me.


I made it where I needed to go.
I moved away & I took
part of the river with me.
I write to clear my head.
& now I've learned to
let the little things go.

— The End —