Woke up to the twilight morn
With an aching head and an aching heart
Hands touch the sheet of my bed
To shield myself away from both the cold and the loss warmth

The alarm clock started to ring, to my funny luck
Given with the choice to leave it on or turn it off
It was always the same thing that ****** me
Left with the choices that I never want to hear, do, or see

But clearly I am always the loser at this game called love
As every turn every choice is wrong when push comes to shove
It always leads back to why I did this and why not do that
Forever making decisions that will never be enough

And so go back to the culprit that started this montage
Still ringing still ticking haunting me every second
Likening itself to my every love that went gone
To stop is to accept that I have succumbed to my fate
To let it ring is to endure for an eternity.
All I can think of now,
"Why did I buy that stupid clock."

There was a Bird
Flying high, free and alive
And there was the Hunter
Traps set, cage ready

With no fail the bird gets captured
Caged and brought home
Left unsure, scared not knowing what's to happen
The bird longs for the sky
The Hunter longs for the Bird
He feeds the Bird, takes care of the Bird
And yet the Bird still longs

Time passes, the Hunter lets free of the Bird
Knowing that the Bird will never be truly happy caged
The Bird happy and free, flies
Not caged anymore it flies
And yet it doesn't leave the Hunter
The Bird that long for freedom has been forever caged with the hunter
Always caring, always loving
Caged in the warmth of the Hunter

*Are you the Bird or the Hunter

Hate yourself....
Pity yourself......
Hurt yourself....
But always remember that there are other people who will also get hurt seeing you breaking

Please be my Disney
My happy ending to my ever after
My Cinderella to my Kingdom
Your voice reminds me of a certain little mermaid
Your hair golden but not so tangled
Your kiss breaks me from the curse of the witch
Your love reminds that I'm more human than beast
I'd go bananaswhenever I hear your name
I swore that I will never lie lest my nose gets longer
I have found my Ohana
You have stolen my being
I feel like flying with happy thoughts when I am with you
I'd give up my three wishes  to be with you
I'd travel through space and time just to meet you
And even as we grow older, when we have wrinkles and white hair
I'd still love you inside this big balloon house happily forever ever after.

You are so bright
Showering me with your joy and happiness
You give color to my world painting it on a blank canvas of stars and blue
With a swift boom you make my heart resound as it echoes
And yet you left me with chaos then emptiness
You came and left quickly, leaving only trails of ash
Bits and pieces continue to fall hurting my being
And then silence, ear shattering silence

******* fireworks..

Patheticness is a choice not a label**
You choose to be pathetic and that is what drives every ****** person to rethink their life choices
It is a mindset of cowardice and acceptance of your truly pathetic life
And yet one becomes strong being pathetic
As only the strong can overcome and the weak gets drowned
So rise you pathetic people
As the others have done as the only one they never took pity on is themselves.

The smiles the laughter it is all fake
Deep down I still feel awake
Awake from the reality that I am still longing
Of the day that an angel would stand right beside me

This harsh reality is where I currently stood
Gazing at the sky wishing as hard as I could
Of the dream that one day I will be able to see
A future with you as my half to be

But alas a dream is but a dream no more no less
It is an illusion of hoping for the best
If only I am not content with just living the dream
Then the laughs and the smiles will be real and not dim

Merry Christmas!!!

*What else can I say

Time check two hours til midnight
He called, you left
Earphones plugged, distraction for the unnerving silence

Waiting, hoping, for you to come back
A minute passed, an hour passed
In the end, I have finally realized it
Tomorrow has come, and you are not here

Laid down, lights on
It was bright, the light
Reminds me of you
As radiant as the sun light
As beautiful as the moon light
And yet it hurts
My eyes, now teary, searing with pain
I turned off the lights
And yet I still see you
Your brilliance your sillhoutte still etched in my mind
Waiting for the pain to die down
Slowly

A broken chair holds no more support for one to sit on
A broken piano sings an offtune note that no one would understand
A broken body means you have reached the physical end of one's life
And yet a broken spirit will haunt you for all eternity.
What is one's body when there is spirit no more
A broken doll with no emotion rotting til the end of its days
One may say that it can be fixed to return order yet that is merely a lie
One can never go back to the way things before because time moves forward
It can never be before, a happenstance at best

We are alike
We like the same hobbies, same movies, same food, same everything
And yet we will never be
Because like magnets, we will never meet
We are two north poles
We will never see each other
We are too alike
Avoiding, evading, not even glancing
Barred by a force not even knowing how

Until when can I keep this charade
This mask full of deceit and lies
For the greater good I have suffered
For you I have kept silent
But now, others have noticed
Let the chains be broken, let the hounds howl
For when the chaos reigns and destruction resounds
I will be the center of it all

"There are other fishes in the sea, better luck next time
I have always hated this phrase, too hypocritic
Isn't love suppose to come only once?"
Said the Hopeless Romantic