Don't ignore yesterday's problems
For peace of mind today
Because tomorrow
Will be ten fold of
Two Days ago

We started off so clueless
Acting so foolish
You spoke a promise
Surprisingly unfulfilled two nights later
"I'll see you Friday, right?"
"Of course"
The mirror's so gullible
Three hours of refilled free bread
And dry cups of water later
I leave
Evidently I'm a second option
You should've taken the latter

Strike One

You knew it was a mistake
Sending DMs every few weeks
Desperate for them to be clicked
A year for every lonely hour I wasted
In that air conditioned restaurant passes
And I open your latest cry for attention  
Several vague apologies later
And I swallow my bitter grudge
Like a bowling ball
To agree to another date
This time you showed up
Twice
It felt good
Experiencing what could've been the last time
But the old saying goes
"You never know if you want it until you have it"
Apparently you didn't want me
You took me for granted the second you got me back
And your new crush looked quenching
And your tongue was like a forgotten house plant  
But you don't want my water
So you chose them
Leaving me with the silver medal
Again

Strike Two

This isn't baseball
You don't get a third
You're out

You're the Devil
On my Shoulder
And I'm trying my hardest
Not to listen to you

Mutually ignored
Am I destined
To avoid eye contact
And occasionally
Strike up hopeful small talk
Just for you to continue
Barely missing the chance
For connection between
Two unfitting strangers

Only known to me
Was your name
A few simple letters
Slapped together
Giving me an expectation
Of who you were supposed to be
I scratch through
Your surface level personality
Layer by layer
Asking questions you've never heard
Hearing answers that surprise me
We left the conversation
A little more than strangers

"Forgive me father,
For I have sinned"
I speak not of your god
But a being who believes he is
I must answer to he
Or I shall be punished
Forgiveness is not what I seek, per se
Freedom from his judgement
Is my craving

So it began
As a caterpillar
So neglectable    
Ignoring it
Seemed the best
But wiggling around in my stomach,
I could still feel it
Like an uninvited parasite
"Ignore it, it'll go away..."
I promised myself
And so it did
I didn't feel like throwing up for weeks
Then suddenly my insides fluttered  
Now known to me,
The worm-like sensation
That was supposedly dormant
Only subsided due to
A cocoon  
Now there's a butterfly in me
And I guess it's for you