When I'm gloriously mad
And ready to ****,
Buying books calm me down,
Better than any pill.

***** clothing therapy,
Books are a better investment.
An escape from bitter reality,
Every cent well spent.

Here's to another sleepless night,
Of spending hard earned money,
And breathing out from a bellicose night.

someday i'll meet a guy,
who not too confident,
and not too shy,
he'll treat me like his little princess,
my crown is his heart...

he'll kiss me on the forehead
make me smile when i'm sad,
he'll always respect me,
and treat me like a baby...

he'll accept my imperfections,
and love me without question,.

we'll both make mistakes,
but will know that love is give and take
he'll make me laugh all day,
no more loneliness,
no more skies of gray..

he'll sit beside me till i fall asleep on his shoulder,
and he'll pamper me forever,
and promise me,
a happy ever after... :)

It was a grueling
and tiresome day
I was about to cry,
I was full of dismay
so disappointed,
tired and lonely,
I try to smile
only making it phony
cause I know you're gonna ask
"how was your day?"
but I'll only nod, and
walk past your way

so I creep into the room,
thinking you were asleep,
what I didn't know was
you were taking a peep
I got dressed and ready for bed
you were still awake
and saw the tear I shed
you hugged me all of the sudden
and saw how badly I was shaken

you held me tight
never letting go
it was like you were staring
right into my soul
you said "i missed you"
and that was it
enough to make me smile
to make me admit
that's you'll be the only one
who can tickle my heart
even though we're miles apart

i still dream of
him at night
hiding my tears from
plain sight
it hurts remembering
the smile on his face
and how our love
has gone to waste

i still yearn for the sweet
sound of his voice
and how it was painfully
my choice
i'll never forget everything
we shared
and all of the tears
i have shed

i'm so stupid to think i could
take it all back
to fill in the things i lacked
i blame myself for all this crap
causing all this pain,
creating a gap

but i'll never regret
the smiles he painted on my face
all of which might be erased
if he finds someone to take
my place


i'm sorry.. :(

Sometimes I write,
So someone will listen.
Sometimes I write,
So something will happen.

Most of the time I write
because I have to.
Most of the time I write
to get something out.

Why I started writing,
is a wonder.
Why I continue writing,
is a mystery.

But I am honestly writing this,
because I am bored.

It was just a touch
A slight flicker of hand
But what I felt at that moment,
No one would ever understand.

My whole body erupted,
jolted with electricity.
My walls came breaking down,
her simple touch felt like an army.

My breathing got laboured,
my stomach filled with bulls running amok.
Yet everything felt perfect.
We didn't have to talk.

As I laced my fingers through hers,
the world seems right again,
if only for this moment.

I've always dreamed of someone
who'll make his love show
That when I'm sad and full of dismay,
he'll always know what to say
That everytime I throw a fit and when i'm mad
he'll calm me down and hold my hand

that when i'm tired and unwell,
he'll always be there for me,in a ring of a bell
he'll say sweet things that will tickle my heart
and will promise me that we will never part
he'll call me in the middle of the night,
wishing he can hold me tight

he'll make me laugh to a point of tears,
washing away all my fears
he'll take me to walks by the moon,
making cute faces like a funny cartoon

he'll gladly hold my hand in front of his friends,
telling them it was "us" till the end
he'll run after me through the rain,
holding me on through the pain

he'll dance with me though there's no music
and he'll steal a kiss real quick
he'll sing sweet melodies into my ears,
with a song that only both our hearts can hear...

The slow lull of her touch seem to send me into a trance,
a trance I never wished to leave.
Her caress unworldly,
sending multiple vibrations throughout my body.

Her eyes sparkle with mischief and deceit,
but only she could make my life complete.
The world dares me to leave and flee,
But they'll never take her,
They'll never take her from me.

The world is selfish, cruel and full of misfits,
Creatures grasping for their share of light.
But with her by my side I shall yearn no more,
May I be drowned in darkness,
as long as I have her as my shore.

Her voice sends tingles into my very soul,
the nightmares of my past barely ghouls of nonsense.
Her tongue lavishes my inner being,
Her lips, her luscious lips,
bringing me to the brink of my sanity.

You'd never find her with another,
cause you'll always find her with me.
Gasping for air from her embrace,
My sea, my everlasting,
my light and my all.

She is no fish, nor animal, nor even human.
She is mine and mine to hold,
The world be ****** to its end.

With love
my mother kept me alive,
And taught me how to count
from one to five

With love
I cried in an empty room,
Vowing to never let a man
decide my doom

With love
I was speechless,
When he knelt on one knee,
as the sun set on the glistening sea

With love
I beared the pain of giving birth
To a child more beautiful
than anything of this earth

With love
he cried over my body
as my spirit slowly left me

Love after all
makes life worth it.
With love,
Everything is just bittersweet